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"Beautiful Story of Ones Heart"
Tru beauty sometimes is lost
Within a beautiful story
That might looks ugly
After the core is unlocked
That beautiful story then becomes a reality.. - Mrs.Black
Where Children Play
You might ask me why did I choose this title. Cause jus like the stamp n title. I am fifty shades of messed up n life is kinda like the movie of my title.Except I had a perfect family to people on the outside. But people like me who saw the inside dealt with the struggle. My Lil sister and I have always been close nothing shall change that. My parents arguing, us going without cause of my father decision, my mother keeping us sane, me trying to grow up n be independent when I was only a teen trying to help my momma, me not understanding my anger n hurt toward my parents, and my Lil sister jus there watching everything crumble. I wish I can go back n redo everything in ...
My husband always know how to make me smile n say the right thing at the right time but this time he needed me. But what he said to think me also made my day. He said,
"Women can heal the most damage of men not even by touch but simply by words."
I love him n he loves me. We have a unbreakable bond. We God has for us it is for us. Love grow stronger for each other everyday even though I'm in the army across seas a billion miles away. 🙈💯😘😊😊💕❤👑👑#MyKing
I was his friend n he was mind
We are both stationed in Korea
I'm married he is single
I think of him like a big brother
But now his year is almost up
N he decided to open up
He tells me he is in love with me
My personality, my smile, n me
I only think of him as friend
I explained that
He never overstepped his boundaries n always respected that I was married
But he also told me I'm the most loyal female here
N he wish I wasn't married cause I wouldn't have been his
Now my friend isn't my friend
We had a bond like sister n brother
Now he avoids me or don't want to talk to me
Its bothering me cause he is jus like a brother from another mother. I'm broken cause I lost a f...
This new year has been treating me good. I am doing great in my military career. I got promoted from Pv2 to PFC. Might not mean much u but it means a lot to me. I have been stationed in Korea for a year away from my husband, friends and family. But I will be home to them on June 1, 2017. I thank God for time flying by n giving me the health n strength I needed each and everyday to keep a stable head n good piece of mine. 👊💯💓💟💓
Happy New Years Everyone. Love you and I am glad to b apart of the "Lettrs Family"..♡♡
Real Life Situations
Choose ur friends n people u associate with wisely. People who say they got u doesn't mean they are with u too help u. Being in the army n married u learn a lot n go through a lot. But at the end of the day. God opens ur eyes n show u truth n who to hang with. At the end of the day my circle is small. But I don't need a crowd to have fun n enjoy life. I got my peoples Bank k and they got mine..❤😄💓
I haven't been righting letters for a while. But now I'm back to talk n see what my letters family is up too. Plus I miss everyone n have a lot to talk about I don't even know where to start..😞😒💯
When will things be going right Lord. When is my blessings on the way.. 😐😑😢😢😒😞😍😘
My husband goes to work everyday n work hard so we have a place to stay, food to eat, cloths on our back, and take care of our needs. I love him and thank him for all he has done. I have been applying for jobs so he doesn't have to help take care of us by himself. I want to help pay the bills n take care of my husband like he help take care of me. My husband goes to work @8 a.m. then gets home 7 or 8 p.m. He takes a shower eat dinner n off to bed. Then wake up the next day n do the exact same thing. I can tell my husband is becoming very exhausted n that is what hurts me the most. I smile and motivate my husband n pray that things will get better n easier now for us. I pray that the Lord wa...
Now I'm laying down/chilling here with family while thinking. God has brought me and my husband a long way. We have been through a lot together n while we were apart. Now we together everyday all day going through a lot and still staying strong. We had to relocate because something came up that made is move cause er no longer could deal with things. Just in time God bless me to get back in contact with my cousin and we end up moving in with him and his wife until my husband and I get our own. Cause to be honest my husband and I thought we would have to be apart again. Until we got things stable enough to stay together. But God made a way out of No eau like he always do. I truly thank him for...
I went to get married in New Orleans and got here to late to get married n couldn't get married. Y isn't things going my way Lord. I'm irritated, upset, heart broken,emotionally, hurt, and in a lot of pain. My pain never seems to end. I have emotional n physical pain n hurt. My heart is broken, mind is heavy, and its that time of the month for me. This has not been the best day for me everything, I have been through. I still thank God for protecting
,cover and watching over me n my family through it all. I'm healed n bless by the grace of God.. 😄😘😘😍😓🙇😒😞😱😟😤😥😨😨😢😢😴😤😥😈😈😕😠😤
Moving To Texas
Since I have completely messed up. I'm just accept my consequences n move on. My husband is completely pissed with me. I deserve it. My parents have their Lil talk about me a usual. I deserve it. I did everything to myself so I'm not complaining, I'm jus dealing with it. I think its time for move out of my parents and find my own way. Lord knows I love my husband since we haven't talked, Idk if he still want me to be his wife. But I still love him n want him to be my husband but what happens just happens. All I can do is hope and pray for the best. I have decided to move to Houston, Texas with my Aunt Daniel... Moving with my aunt and start my new life there. I have alread...
Lord help me. Guide me teach me now. I'm up singing different songs some are other people songs and the rest are my own but most of them I'm singing my heart out. I miss my husband mostly and a little lost. Lord please help me find my way...
Instead of crying my heart out through tears its through my voice. Love 👑Mrs.Black now until death do us part. 👊💕💑💋❤😍😘😢😞👀💏👪👑
I love to sing, cook, and very athletic. I have always wanted to own my own bakery/restaurant and become known world wide. This has always been my second dream. But my first dream some where in my life I gave up on it. My #1 dream was to become s famous singer. I use to sing all the time at home, in the car, the store and every where I went. Sometimes my momma would tell me baby u have a beautiful voice but momma dnt feel like hearing u today. No matter what anyone said I was going to be a singer. Then I got older and realized some dreams dnt come true. But for some odd reason I have started back singing n singing n not noticing sometimes. Then in my head I keep hearing , "U enjoy singing, m...
I had a long peace giving serving God day. I enjoyed my grandmothers appreciation ceremony today. I had fun with my family and friends. We laughed, talked, sung a lot, talk about God and how blessed we are to be together for my grandmother appreciation ceremony. As we were singing, praying, n talking about God. I was at ease feel like I had no worries my burden was lifted. My mind begin to think and I felt so much love, joy, and peace. All because of God n his presence I need that peace to come in my Life tonight. I thank God for it n Lord bless peace to be in my life now and forever more. Show me that Greater Is Coming and Greater is already in my life and me. Thank you Jesus for my family a...
Tired Tired Tired and becoming irritated that I can't be with my husband now. I know I have to wait and be patient. But seems like sometimes I have to wait forever. It's starting to get to me. Slow eating away at my smile and happiness. While turning into sadness, tears, feeling incomplete, and empty. Feel like I will never be whole again until me and my husband are one again..😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😒😭😭😭😭😢😢😢All I do is cry and can't sleep at night..
I'm laying in bed missing my husband. Even though we are engaged and not yet married. I still miss him and would like to spend every moment of every second with him. But instead where in two different places which is just a hour away from each other. I wish I could be at home everyday he get off work, have dinner already prepared, relieve some of his soreness, go to bed with him so he can hold me n we fall asleep together. When I can't go to sleep I would love to set up and watch my husband sleep peacefully or wake him up n mess with him so he can put me his momma 🐻to sleep. Lord bless me and my husband to finally be together and spend our life together now n forevermore loving each other un...
Lord please bless me with a job . So I don't have to deal with my irritating father this this week. The man is off work its Monday n he already getting on my last nerve. Comes in my room saying get up. You and your lil sis ain't about to lay in bed. Y'all about to cook, clean, and get stuff down around the house. News Flash we cleaned the house already and stay cooking. Dats all we every do is stay at home and cook and clean like slaves. I'm getting sick and tired of living here and cleaning and cooking for my daddy. He can be the most low down person and know he wrong and never apologize. My momma talking about divorcing him cause my daddy is low down without a care. I am becoming sick and ...
Worried, Stressed, Sad,Mad,Happy,Overwhelmed, Bipolar are all me. I'm tired of feeling all those emotions at once. I jus want to be happy everyday all day. Spend time with my husband that I never get to spend with him. Lord Why? Can't we jus b together today, now, and forever more. Even though we are just engaged n both are legal just not old enough to get married without are parents permission. This all sucks to me. I wish me n my husband had our own place to call home. Then we could see n spend everyday of every second together with each other.
Lord Why?😢😢😱😢 😩😞😭😭😩😘😍😒😭😭😖😔
I'm up thinking about someone who is not yet made or here with me. I'm so anxious and ready to have my first baby girl. My husband and I have named her Cataleya D. Black. We think about her and talk about here like I'm pregnant or already here. I'm not pregnant and she isn't here but I'm know we aren't both stable enough for her yet. My husband n I know we have to wait but I surely wish Cataleya D. Black was in me or already here. But ik I have to wait and she will b here in due time...
Much Love Mrs. Almeter Black...
Frustrating, upset, mad,hurt 💔 that I want be able to spend time with my husband tomorrow. I swear I'm completely broken on the inside but on the outside still smiling and moving on. 😢😢😒😒💔💔💑💏😭😭😒😰😥😥
Out of Control Cravings
I'm start to lose control
Cravings grow stronger
Each and every other day
I must have the cure to my craving soon
No matter how occupied I am
My cravings seem to get stronger and stronger
Its time to feed my cravings there cure
I'm tired of waiting
I must have it become
Its become unbearable
and very sweet.
Out of Control Cravings 😒😞😘💕💕🙈🙊🙉
Laying here going through my old letters reading them made me realize. I Can't Give Up Now I have come to far in my life from where I started from. God also never put more on us than we can bare. So I know this is only a test I am going through it want last always. I just have to keep the faith , keep believing, keep praying and moving on with Life. No matter where it takes me and what I go through I am blessed and highly favored. After thinking back and writing this letter I feel blessed and change coming for now and forevermore in my life. Thank God for speaking and helping me and continue teaching me. I thank God for my husband (Tony Black) 💑 he is truly my blessing and guardian angel. I a...
I'm trying to avoid arguing and seems like it happening. Just going to keep my thoughts and comments to myself. I starting to c maybe my momma was right. I destroy everything and everyone that comes around me. Maybe I am better off alone then people are things won't have to put up with me. Starting to c its all me...
My feelings are completely shut down and confused. Sometimes I feel lost and fill if anger. I never get to spend quality time with my husband and sometimes feel like nothing is the same. I feel like we both sometimes just go with flow. It feels like we are growing apart instead o closer together at times. Lord help me teach me guide me. Cause lately I am giving up easily on things and ik Dats not me. Idk Wats up with me ik change is good but need to know and learn better. Feel like I'm falling short and everything is over for me.. 😰🙅😢😢