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Aayush Upadhyay

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India
India
Let the scenes drip the fingertips.
April 7, 2020
 

Did I never, when
Breath slowed down, your
Touch against cold, wall
Where softest arm, rested
Haze covering the, sky
Above us closing, eyes
That were struck at, moon
Whom implored, I
Kept on asking for, your face
And hence complaing, the sky
That I never really looked at, him
But knows who would then, when
Your eyes see the sky, and I
I taste your presence, hence
Close my eyes away, from you
Did I never shout loudest, how much
I begged the moon to bring, your
Scent kept me going, well
So did the moon.

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SIMPLICITY DAY
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March 1, 2020
 

You amble
I heave
The aurora
When sky,
On a mole
Near where
Locks touch
The skin,
Marks another
Goodbye,
Of what felt
Like the eternity
I would die for,
Again,
And Again.

SIMPLICITY DAY
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February 9, 2020
 

There's still something
Something more of me
Something I could be
Something not with me

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SEE IT SHARP
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January 29, 2020
 

And when the sun really does come up,
For, when and how we want it,
We'll not look away,
For we are burnt already,
Gazing with what's left of our magic.

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INKTOBER: NEMOPHILIST
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January 17, 2020
 

And yet, when I gaze at
Completely unprecedented
Sparkles of joy
I think of, and more of,
Rejuvenating,
With you, all of them,
Again.

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A HAPPY NEW YEAR
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January 14, 2020
 

Illusions of living,
And trembles of silence
Pockets of wonder,
But the dread of reliance,
We move on with misery,
To explode...Brightly.

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A HAPPY NEW YEAR
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December 19, 2019
 

For the sky, always been my,
Dreaded subsidiary,
When i had less to look at,
Less to feel, less of her,
And life.

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MULTI COLORED ILLUSIONS
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December 12, 2019
 

Magic, in the eyes, I miss
And drowning, is more a lust
Than love maybe, and I don't mind it.
I don't mind overdosing you.

-Poppy_Missed

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November 29, 2019
 

It is sometimes
That the cold floor
Grieves more
Longing just the last touch
Of a better goodbye
While the clock ticks away.

Adieu.

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November 9, 2019
 

Chokes Reality
A breathless slumber
Morphed fatality
The solace under
Bigoted penality
Of the happy wonder
But conviction
The swindles flowing
And time
That keeps going.

-Aayush

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TO THE LIGHT
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September 29, 2019
 

The dazzle pondered, struggling
Over abstraction of dark, the end
Of parting, which no one else
Could comprehend , but they
And the ink dropped, suggesting
The final page, of what was
The genesis, of a larger tale
To meet again, stronger
And live again.

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TINY QUEEN
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August 29, 2019
 

Dear mother
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I feel no breaths when I look out
The window, it's lifeless in ways
Taunting me of miles, the one
I only wish were illusion, of staying together
Still in trepidation of moving away, I still
Tremble in my gut, but when
I see her eyes parting bittersweet,
Longing more of me, but even more of
What's mine, and what always should be
I grew up, and she had to, with me, for me
Because I wouldn't have waited, maybe
For her old hands to reach out, for what
Used to be hers, to caress, to raise, I miss
Mother when I look at myself in mirror, or in
Her eyes when I had to leave, when I had to
Express less, but speak more, about how much
Have I missed her, in every se...

CHIRAYU 4
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June 18, 2019
 

Nor would you
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There isn't a dark corner
A moonlit room or a dingy night
But you, crying to an old song
That would make sense to no one else
You, the darkest eclipse stopping light from the intense crave of souls
You, the magician who should put your tears under linen from Giza
Or you, the saviour, should quench deserts from those drops of acid
The ones that sabotage the happy land
Don't show your tears to the blooming flowers, they whither away with each drop you shed
You, you the one, the crack in someone's dreams of glass
Your songs won't make sense,
To them, to the world
Nor would your tears, nor would you.

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June 8, 2019
 

Through when my eyes were sky
Not of bright sunshines but dusty storms, the one that spill a lonely cup of coffee, on an incomplete story of a half torn diary page.
Through when my voice was a dream
Not of redemption but a lifeless screech, the one under a shower thumping louder than life
Looks like you survived, on broken toes and lifeless feet
You survived, but I'm glad you didn't exist, you would have had to kill me, yet again.

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DARK NIGHT
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May 11, 2019
 

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To the one who survived
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Eyes are swollen, far more than blood splattered on soils of my ailing days
Elbows tell of suffering far more than some living streams underneath  
And are breaths of defeat far more than a fire that could have been
Have had the wounds, deep inside a tender death,  one that just would be

My dust did sparkle different, has burnt my face in clashing ways
So did yours, the cuts would have been at a different place
I live the same, a lucid heart and the burdened head
Of grief the ogre, at time that wasn't mine, neither yours, or theirs
But it came, and I try to perpetuate
So should you; to die harder when we meet again, or an...

WATER IT
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April 19, 2019
 

The stale red proses aren't hard to reckon,
Poetry maybe pushes in a chaos more chaotic
And I breathe harder to reach out
For you, and I like it.

          

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April 9, 2019
 

Of mounds prevailed some morphed satire
Some blood touching vague cracks of fire
Of walls dripping dead skins ablaze
The light is stolen for the final chase
Some drops of wine that gasp injured
Of silence trembling and the knife is heard
Some traces craving the life astray
Of a darker being that fell a prey.

ORIGINAL
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March 18, 2019
 

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Ever seen chances slimmer,
Than oxymorons? Than breaths
In the slits of turmoils of death
Than serendipity walking bold
With a thunderous sky
Than the fine line of white
That turns the strongest dark
Into a grey of hope,
There, then, maybe
Lays a soul, praying to fall
With trust, on the wiser side.

WRITE YOUR OWN STORY
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March 16, 2019
 

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To the moon, succumbed...
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The pearls astray, drunk much in restitution
Flickered attempts to deny the delusion
Of definitions I tried of deliberate assumptions
And the fragrance of life in tranquil retentions
You stood, I stood and the world forbidden
I fumbled but gazed in adore but when
Earth will stay in cracks of my hand
Would fall back in wonder on the melting sand
And would wait, wait for more of you
The moon, I lay my knees.

DARK NIGHT
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February 20, 2019
 

The walls turn pale, the dagger near neck
A mirror that's grey, or the eyes maybe
Before the last grain of sand touched ground
The tick where lives death, or love maybe
I live. To heal thou a little more.
The dagger I didn't know, would kill my reflection, which was you. And I threw it.

WHITE CLOCK
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February 15, 2019
 

A fantasy that never crossed the mind
Arduous yet scintillating, like the one
You never found yourself worthy to fantasize about
Like shelter, and strength in a storm
Or serendipity, and lusture of the stars
The ones that were counted and the ones twinkling relentlessly to catch her glare
On a bridge, with pillars worth a thousand dreams
She, as hope, was finding some more good in me
The universe pushed me forward, by shining a little less maybe
Elsewise, I was here on the shabby shore of earth
Looking towards her, competing the stars that she was gazing at.
Beautiful, strikingly, undoubtedly, I won I said,
When her eyes crossed mine, like the gold of the sun, which I was never able to se...

LET'S FALL IN LOVE
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February 4, 2019
 

  Question me more, I feel healed
  Drill down your thoughts inmost
  The smallest pores that cross your vision
  Just don't abandon me
  Your words flowing in never hurt
  The blood flooding out of me does,
  Pathetically.

DARK NIGHT
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February 1, 2019
 

OCEANS

It all ends then maybe
With a decision of agreeing
To outer beliefs
The warnings and consolidations
Of being okay, of being right
Of being worthy to continue
It all ends then maybe
With a decision to let go
To be subtly harsh
Accustomed to oceans
Of denial, of hope
Of being able to push through
It all ends then maybe
With eyes facing front
To outrage once
Of disapproval , of despair
Of unsettling uncertainty
It all ends then maybe.

SEE IT SHARP
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January 28, 2019
 

Cater to darkness to summon an existence
Of abundance the droplets of trembles in silence
The wonders sustained of the breed of the rise
The cult of crevices in folds comprise
For reasons black, the stories untold
These distant mountains, a journey folds.

MARTIN LUTHER KING JR
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January 22, 2019
 

Should there be an afterlife, I would find you
Again and stronger, to rebel, to repent, to touch
Serene and slower, but would never let you quit.
I didn't; why would you. Would you?

     
      

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January 14, 2019
 

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CRESCENDO
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Would have lived with blood no charm
In the shackle's verdict prey
Would cuff my bones and glaze the flesh
In moments, but how could they
Feed on fear, on the afraid sheer
Suffering head and the molten soul
On smiles on scar and a skin that's tar
On a patient spear on the broken toe
Would have tried with all my might
To swim and walk in the freezing fire
Would love to drown in evil mound and
Sit on coal for the selfless night
Patience crude and an ego rude
The stars I see deep down the sand
Wounds so fresh the flesh so tight and
Crawling tired the no man's land
Would have taken swifts to borrow
Breaths that tremble in a trembling throat
Gulping ...

LIGHT LETTRS LOGO
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December 23, 2018
 

Three pages

Through the breaches the radiant gold
Of tales succumbed to an existence
Unjustified yet thunderous, this sheet
Prompts a story with a lot of flares
I would have words but this scroll
Words lie within, this plain sheet
Tells the life not so dear yet eternal
And momentous to live further
Page one reminds of what it is like
To exist in delusion, denial and dread.
Next being is fresh like wind, like life, like the one I wished to live; addictive like the crisp of a new thesaurus, or of heavy rain
It speaks of present, of the one, the only
Of what's real, or atleast what should have been; It pacifies clarity, and the just state of mind; speaks of hope of stars and beyond.
Two pag...

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June 6, 2018
 

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Isn't so predictable
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Isn't music; though I plug in buds and see her face
Isn't dancing; though she curves as my strings follow
Isn't lust; though she sips out the skins of life
Isn't love; though she leaves what remains then and throughout
Isn't  body; though I disappear behind my own self
Isn't touch ; though I breathe (on her) as if only she as air remains
Isn't gaze; though eyes bleed but deny a fancy away
Isn't death; she stabs me , I stab me through her again
Isn't reality; she smirks and dripples apart
Again in that untouched glass of wine

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KISS A PRINCE
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