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Curious - Critic, searching for the answers of life. Instagram :abh6007killer May 08- Taurian
August 11, 2018
 

Sometimes thinking practically doesn't work but well I don't know how I must react to such situations... Does that make one person inhuman? I don't know

Have you come across any situation like such where thinking practical makes things worst ?

If yes please share... Maybe I could learn one or two things from you ?

BE KIND
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February 17, 2018
 

Dear friends ,

In life , you will face problems and then there will also be times when you will feel like quitting . But don't give up ! You are not alone ! You can do it ! Keep pushing on ... Because in the end , it will all be worth it ...

Sending you some good vibes

GREY AND WHITE
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December 18, 2017
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Hello everyone sending you wishes for the beautiful week coming ahead

||Good Morning ||

|| All we really need is a hand to hold, an ear to listen, and a heart to understand ||

|| Understanding is a three-edged sword: Your side, My side, and the Truth ||

|| When you say 'I' and 'My' too much, you fail to understand the 'We' and 'Our' ||

|| We are so desperate to be understood, we forget to be understanding ||

|| Before you assume, learn; Before you say, think; Before you judge, understand ||

|| Life is too short to be malicious. Be understanding ||

|| I am only responsible for what I say, not for what you understand ||

|| Maturity is not when we start talking big things. It is when...

TIS THE SEASON
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December 18, 2016
 

While walking around
Came across a time where
There I saw a mother with her child
Said the mother
"Oh little child of mine...
How are you going to manage
When you know I'm already dying? "

Those words from the child made me cry from inside.
"Mother , you might die on earth...
But don't worry..
You won't alone lose your existence,
Because I'm nothing without you beside me"

And then I looked back.
I asked myself...
"Was I supposed to be wrong?
Or was it the time which made me wrong?"
I could not find the answer.

All I could say....
Respect those who are in your life
We all are made up of dust
And so we all find ourselves in dust
We all have lust
Thirst
Wish to conquest......

ROGUE ONE - STAR WARS
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December 17, 2016
 

Thank you Santa , for all the things
That mean so much to me--
For concern and understanding
You showered  abundantly on me

Thanks for sending someone to listen with their  heart;
For sending someone to cheer me when
I'm blue;
For sending people who would bring out the best in me;
And just for being there for me .

Thanks for sending angels of yours
who shared in-depth conversation
That stimulated my mind;
For silly times we laugh out loud;
For things I can't explain.

For sharing angels who would look past my flaws and faults;
For all the time you spent on me ;
For getting best people around me
For all the kind things that you do, you did, you keep doing;
Thank you Santa ; thank you for ...

ROGUE ONE - STAR WARS
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December 10, 2016
 

सुनो ससुरजी,

अब जिद छोड़ो...
दुलहन तो जाएगी दुलाराजा के साथ।
ना गाडी ना मोटर  मेरे पास....
बस समझलो इतना है कैश मेरे पास
की वर्ल्ड टूर करा दू आज

ना एटीएम की चिंता
ना क्रेडिट कार्ड की लाईन  मे बड़ी देर
सीदा जेब में डाला हाथ
और निकला नोटों का ढेर

अरे ससुरजी
अभी ना टाईम एटीएम के लिए
करेगा प्यार कोई कैसे?
जब पुरी उम्र एटीएम के लाइन मे।

सुनो ससुरजी,
मानो मैरी बात
सब्जी वाला नहीं लेता कोई कार्ड
अब तो हो जाओ स्मार्ट
और देदो आपके बेटी का हाथ
क्योकि दुल्हन तो जाएगी  हमारे साथ

आ रही है मोदी सरकर
ना हसेगा कोई अमीर,  ना बिमार, ना लाचार
बस पाओगे अपने आप में एटीएम का करते संचार
ओल तिंग इज द्एट
यार सबसे बडा है रुपया

तो ससुरजी मानलो मेरी बात
दुलहन तो जाएगी दुलाराजा के साथ।
मतलब ...

DARK DEPTHS
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November 28, 2016
 

People off the world
Let them blossom
Don't kill them in the very womb
they  have to still  see
the beauty of sun and moon .  
Females are the wealth and the pride of the nation
Girls are as good as boys in every situation
Do not kill them .

Then said one from behind
What will they do?
Only sit and whine ...
The world outside is not so good as it was at one kind
Think it over
Will the girl child get h er respect as your has ?
or she will be just a reason to fun or prey of harassing world of your and mine ?

You and I all so literate
But still are stupid and get irriate
Its not a small thing
But someone says respect girls ...
We all hesitate ....

Tell me all
...

ORIGINAL
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November 24, 2016
 

So what if it's blur , but at least you  got see the moonlight,
Even if it's for a few days,
this bud did blossom.
It's all cause of your kindness
Thank you life.

Imagine if there was a  ever a picture with a single colour
If there is no sadness, there is no value of happiness
When sunlight and shade both are there, the world is complete  
Who am I to complain, I don't have time for that

It's all cause of your kindness
Thank you life.

It's the story of our luck
sometimes it kills , sometimes it's kind
It's the kindness that the heart got found peace

and it felt love even for its killer
It's all cause of your kindness
Thank you life.

-lyrics from one of my favorite songs.
C...

HAPPY THANKSGIVING
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November 24, 2016
 

                           Thanks........
Today I decided to thank some important elements of my life. I hope they will accept my thanks.

When I came to life I dint even know, you were in the middle of traffic,
When I came to birth I dint know, there was a riot in the country.
When I grew up you gave me a reason to fear,
When I tried to speak up you showed me,  that my voice and my thoughts will never be taken in consideration.
When I found out that my voice had no power, I decided to turn to other side where I got care and love.
I noticed that what my voice was then was still the same then, but here it was peaceful here.
I dint know how to explain,  how to succeed, but I still kept ...

HAPPY THANKSGIVING
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November 23, 2016
 

I open my eyes and I find myself somewhere unknown. Feeling my head heavy. "agh my head", I said to myself. Looking for a clue where I might be I questioned myself "Geez, where am I?"

Everything so dark, so silent as if another world. I walk out of the room. All I can see is a garden - beautiful, dark garden.

I keep walking till I reach somewhere, where? I don't know. Walking further, I see a shadow from distance where there is a pond.

Hiding behind one of the bushes around I try to have a better view of her I slowly and quietly walk close to her. Reaching close to her I hear a giggle. I looked at the shadow. It felt like the shadow was giggling at me.

I get close to her, almost clos...

TRUSTING ONE ANOTHER
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November 22, 2016
 

                         Why?

Why does it always have to be that kindness have to always land in misunderstandingness of sexual aspects?

Why does it always have to be that when we care for someone he or she feels that we are just flattering them cause they think we want to get in bed with them?

Why does it always have to be that care and wish to see someone happy alway stand for pulling them down according to them?

I don't know why but these are some thoughts that bother me all the time. I wish somebody could help me..

BLIZZARD
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November 20, 2016
 

Hello all,

I'm back, after a long time... A hard time is coming to an end the year is almost about to end up. I am happy that I gave a try to this battle. I might not call myself as warrior but atleast now... I in this moment I can say I'm not a coward person.

Few months back when everything came on me all of a sudden, it felt like the whole roof is going to fall on my head. But today I see time might not repay me to what I deserve but I am happy to give up on myself.

1 year back, this time of the year, I was asked to resign as I wasn't compatible for the job I was asked. I was broken, hurt, family gave up on me, girlfriend left me everything. Had no place to live. I somehow managed to ...

BROWN SUIT
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March 25, 2016
 

Dear Dairy ,

Today after such a long time I decided to write you ... the emotions are strong and is confusion in my head all , I don't know how to cope up with it at all...

Yesterday was Holi...  the festival of colours ... it was afternoon all of a sudden my phone light up ...
Missed call - Unknown number

I decided to call it ...  I could hear the ring ... a man picks up the call I asked " May I know who is this ? I just got a missed call from this number "...

Suddenly the call was transferred to a lady ... that voice ... it hit me back with so many memories... and then I could hear her saying " Happy Holi Ajinkya "

I was froze for a minute. I kept her saying so many things ... but m...

JE SUIS BELGIUM
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March 17, 2016
 

Desire or Depression?

Reading across the lines , through every article I have could go through ... some filled with passion ... some with pain ... some reminding me how I was insane ...

Trying to hold on my heart and emotions and not let out my tears , I just keep sniffing my nose and repeating the same action with my eyes ...

People say I need to talk more ... but somehow I find myself low ... in each way to express my glow ... I just don't know I feel like I am walking on a road which is dark heavy and filled with snow ...

This chill and frost around my body ...
when I look around I find.nobody ...
every time I look around ...
I wait and ask ...
is it just me or everybody ?

All I can h...

ORIGINAL
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March 15, 2016
 

Hello all ,
Today I decided to tell you all a story ... don't ask me whose story is it or how he survived... but it's just a tribute for what he did for me ...  my story would be incomplete without him being played his part in my life ...

Nine years ago there was a boy I knew , who was humble and vibrant like a burning Sun . He knew not much than how to write his name or 1 to 10 ...who saved me from the lions den ...I can never thank him enough who gave up his life for the freedom of mine.

everyday I used to see him grazing the battles and when we used to play football he used to just sit in the corner of a tree in the far and kept gazing us...

he looked so much like me some how I decided...

ORIGINAL
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March 15, 2016
 

Questions I ask ...

why am I so dull that when I stand in front of Sun I see myself disappeared?

people say ... we all were made for some or other reasons ... if that is so ? what is my reason?

sometimes seeing the kids playing in street makes me nostalgic... I ask... why can't we all have at least this much in our life ?

walking across the streets see a couple ... my heart is again heavy ... asking me ... look at them ... they don't even have any common standards... still they are together ... why can't I ? do you like keeping your heart beating for nothing ?

you walk past your friends and colleagues... all of a sudden they laugh ... I say ... I wonder what the joke was ?

when between ...

ORIGINAL
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March 14, 2016
 

hello dairy ...
today is my second letter I share and pour all my thoughts in you ... you can judge me ... but I know you can hold these heavy emotions in you more better than I ever can ...
I rose up with the rising Sun ... felt the care from the sun and. knew I need to get myself in better position ...
Ya I dint sleep again today ... I guess it might be a week or more I tried not to sleep ... I still feel my body shivering with the pain of yesterday... but more than that I shiver of the nightmare tear me away everyday ...
my mom like everyday will never understand what I see ... feel or know is real ... I called up my psychologist and told him about my state... all I could explain that I ...

ORIGINAL
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March 14, 2016
 

Loneliness....

As per textual meaning : The feeling of despair and isolation suffered when you move to another location, have no friends, live alone far from any past family or friends. The feeling of constant pain and self personality criticism due to your situation and social inability to change your situation 

Loneliness is doing thinks which youve never done while not lonley and feel embarrassed doing eg. getting drunk and clubbing while lonely, eating in resturants alone AND lonely, binging .

But people never known the real loneliness ...
Loneliness is not just being alone or in pain ...
it is the state of mind when admist crowd doesn't find the smile that sore through their minds...

ORIGINAL
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March 14, 2016
 

I sat there gazing at the wall ... clueless of call ....
went my phone ringing ...
tring tring and tring all the way in the hall...

there she stood ...
with fog surrounded all
around her ...
that's all I can  recall ...
I blinked my eyes ...
checking if it was real or fall ...

suddenly whole room became cold ...
everything felt so misty and old ...
I don't know what was happening
but whatever happened was surely frightening ...

soon I don't know
where I was ...
there was a faint glow ...
the floor so soft ...
just like soothing loft ...
I could smell the vegetation
which made me ponder without any hesitation...

I saw a shadow ...
in admist of meadow...
I got up and started to walk ....

ORIGINAL
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March 14, 2016
 

Home of my dreams

People say that they want varied types of luxury and amenities... but that doesn't make place a home ....

According to me a home is where heart is ... it is where your heart always wishes to be ... it is nowhere but you wish to always get motivation to excel ... to be happy ...

To me home is where happiness is created by being together ... to be home is to have a family ... a family is to care for someone... to care for someone that makes your heart feel heaven and that makes you feel like you have accomplished the day ...

Having a home doesn't always mean having all the luxurious life and having the best of materials... having a home is where you wish to go after wo...

BLIZZARD
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March 14, 2016
 

I have always been told that I think too much I wait too much .. people say that I must do this ... I must do that and what all ...

so once I asked one of them "can you do something for me ?" I got a reply asking me "what would that be ?"  I just asked them to pay the bill for me as they insisted me so many things .. I questioned them ... "did it help me ?"

In return all I got was a deep dead silence ... I asked myself ... did I say anything wrong ? or was it that I was too rude ? I found nothing wrong with what I just had done ... but all of a sudden I don't know why I felt as if I was worthless?

In short I would say ... we all are given mouths ... we don't wish to hurt anybody but I th...

NEON WILDERNESS
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March 14, 2016
 

The cycle repeated
As explosions broke in the sky
All that I needed
Was the one thing I couldn't find
And you were there at the turn
Waiting to let me know

We're building it up
To break it back down
We're building it up
To burn it down
We can't wait
To burn it to the ground

The colors conflicted
As the flames, climbed into the clouds
I wanted to fix this
But couldn't stop from tearing it down
And you were there at the turn
Caught in the burning glow
And I was there at the turn
Waiting to let you know

We're building it up
To break it back down
We're building it up
To burn it down
We can't wait
To burn it to the ground

You told me yes
You held me high
And I b...

ORIGINAL
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March 14, 2016
 

The struggle we all are fighting ...

I don't know who to trust, no surprise
Everyone feels so far away from me
Heavy thoughts sift through dust and the lies

Trying not to break
But I'm so tired of this deceit
Every time I try to make myself
Get back up on my feet

All I ever think about is this
All the tiring time between
And how trying to put my trust in you
Just takes so much out of me

Take everything from the inside
And throw it all away
'Cause I swear for the last time
I won't trust myself with you

Tension is building inside, steadily
Everyone feels so far away from me
Heavy thoughts forcing their way out of me

Trying not to break
But I'm so tired of this d...

ORIGINAL
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March 14, 2016
 

my favorite song - can anybody guess it ?

(When this began)
I had nothing to say
And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(I was confused)
And I let it all out to find
That I’m not the only person with these things in mind
(Inside of me)
But all that they can see the words revealed
Is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel
(Nothing to lose)
Just stuck, hollow and alone
And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own

[Chorus]
I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real
I wanna let go of the pain I’ve felt so long
(Erase all the pain till it’s gone)
I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real
I wanna find something I’ve wanted a...

LIGHTSABERS
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March 13, 2016
 

hello my friends
Today after almost 1 year I have decided to use lettrs again . I remember when I used to write over here I used to pour out all my feelings , my thoughts and all my emotions where as when I spoke about it out side in the real world..... people would call it drama . As a normal person who has so many dark feelings I prefer to keep my identity secure and secret , what I have seen in past 2 years I  might not be able to explain it in few words because the deep emotions connected with it still linger in my heart .

I know reading to this many will judge me , curse me or even think I am an idiot pervert or basturd , but the fact is I don't care . As someone in my past said " sad...

BLIZZARD
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