The pull of the wanting
The need of the body
Mystery he is
A little bit more each time to see..
Clouding all other thoughts,
Everything he is, feeds nearly all of me
A man more than most
Defend, protects, fights..
Beast inside only I get to see
All feed me...
We've reached something new..
I'll follow you
Like a bad penny
It's teeth need work and it's face! Well let's not go there..Manners it has none, respect, has no idea..
But the worst parts the inside..
It's black and rotten,and it does it's best to infect..Takes and takes draining all goodness..
Creeps and crawls
It will try to get its claws in...
Don't let it
Never ending cycle
Pity is all that's left
Six years and still amaze me
Every Friday is ours
And God do I love it
But it's a no strings thing..
Nobody can match him
Or me so he says .
I answer him with my cynical gaze..
But the meaning passed by him...
Purity I see in him...
The innocents surprises me. ...
So strong it hurts his power his worth
A true man for the first time I see
And I'm proud
I'm happy he brings it out of me. And gives him power to share his with me xxxxx
Resist the Devil he will flee
But what if I want him to stay with me..?
Stay, in the dark and talk til three
No more do I need to be...
He's not to be feared, not by me..
He speaks of sin and what has been,
But nothing that I have not seen..
He's strong and fierce and wants to stay
Invited in, wont run away..
We know the power of night vs day...
In the pitch and shadows where we play..
No want for light, sun or sound...
Layed out side by side on the cold hard ground.
Please don't flee,
I won't resist.
Are my suspicions true?
I expect so
The burning, over powering feelings all rushing at once...
That fine line people speak of was so beautifully illustrated in that moment.. inside of me..
The love so longed for...
Right in plain sight, from many directions..Thrown at undeserving feet...But still willingly, suspenseful wide eyed hope..
Still not satisfied, never....
"Addicts brain is never satisfied"
"That peak slips away each second, never quenched"
Even when that desired nectar dripping down fingers won't do it..
Teeth delved into tender, fatty, ripe parts...
Offerings... a whole being...
Given with not a seco...
The things we can't share are the most wondrous
The ones you can't describe
The moments you can't explain
They are the most wondrous..
The firsts you can't mention..
That moment it was just the two of you and what he said..what he did...
Nobody could understand just from the naked description...
It doesn't carry the moment,spark, feelings...
Time stops in the dark, the glint of sweat
The meet of eyes in the moonlight...
The electric that jumps. The secrets you share...
It's not been years for no.reson?
It's not been the magnistisising connection...
Hours of pure lust...
And the feelings for days.
Not moments like the rest...
After years that must mean something?
You think you've been in love
Untill you feel it...
First thought at dawn
Last at dark
All day every day....
He can make you smile in a few words
Open your eyes to see him already looking..
The pure excitement when he's on his way..
He lifts you when nobody else can..
lay on top of you, hands on you, face to face...Just staring, smiling...
You know its just you, the pure comfort of home finally..
Not quite understanding what his eyes see...
Everyone else disappears into irrelevant mist...
So many firsts we have to come he says..
Minds mixed perfectly, mutual respect, perfect honesty...
Friday's cant come soon enough..
1 day to 2 to a weekend..
Faultless, flawless partners..
The magnificent addiction
The build up the rage
The waiting and wanting
That burn within
He's waiting to release that beast I made him..
Eyes closed euphoria
The gasp at the peak
Feed all of me..
A whole new intimacy, never reached before...
Come to me
I beg him for more.
It grows like a vine
Burns like hell
Silk and stone
Music and silence
Laughter and joy
I'm all in
Next to you
And I am yours
He's in my veins
He's in my lungs
Two of a kind
All you left behind...
I love how my life grows..To him....
Feed me, I'll feed you too...
My perfect man, try as you can,keep away or he'll make you for good..
Just hope I'm not that desperate at 40
Your time is gone long ago
Desperate for my scraps
The sins of the father visited upon the children
That explains it...
Due to you
I should be ashamed
But I'm not
I should be disgusted but I'm not
30 & 22
I really should be
But I'm not,
Best night he's had
What a mess
Should be, but I'm not...
Across from t.hat...
On top of these...
And opposite theirs ......
But still no fucks are found!
Numbness a blessing
Like the ignorance that's bliss
What is thrown bounces back
Make sure there's strength for that..
Inside, under, above and beyond
All gone forever
What a wonderful bond...
Make your own magic
Please yourself first
Accept no less than desired
Excuses hold no strength
Stories bore you now
Only actions arouse the senses
Delve in blind
Nothing left behind
Never turn back
First chance is the last
Holds no wealth in me for a moment
Tread new paths, discover new treasures
They pace their familiar mile
First man after my husband
Years with him left me numb...
Then he came along..
Nervously agreed...This stranger put me at ease..gentle when needed, heavenly brutal..like he knew everything I longed...
I ached for days! Sheets soaked, left in a daze...
worshiped beyond my comprehension..
Unreal physical connection
Chills just thinking.
Days still tingling...
And years more intense each time!!!
Nightime visits..let's himself in..wait impatient, to get hold of him.. Everything he does makes me melt.. while her rolls I take hold..our routine he loves..
Electric, sparks, throbbing for days..
Animals clawing in our smokey haze...
He's the only one to awake it all...
Bring me to my knees..make ...
Even covered in fingerprints
When given the key
Try with all your might..
Stained with blood,ink
Poured out heart drippping through fingers
Washed away in moments
Stained sheets replaced with no thought..
Sin overlooked by illusions of heaven.
Frozen heart, frost bitten fingers
Thaw them quick to grab hold again with hope and wishes,promises and misses..
Amazed by patients know no bounds
Illsuion and dillusion
Insult and defemation
Dripping and gripping, nails and teeth
An experienced thief.
Some you wish would never pass, some you wish you had missed..Bodies and Lips you should never have kissed... Many great lessons learnt.
Its precious, waste it well..
Keep them close, you never can tell.
Give it with ease, thrown to the breeze, but never down on knees.
Waste it well, let them go to hell, don't be taken for the ride.
Nights are long in the darkest of times..Lone chorus thunders through,
Not long enough wrapped in arms...devoured by lustful charms.
Rest as you can as you never know when you wake there they go..
I'll keep pushing if there's reason to..
Refuse to accept the wrong that they do..
I'll carry on firm and true to me...
Strength with no limits...
She has no clue
Neither does he
But we know it's us that's meant to be
He finds me still
I wait untill
It explodes with that glorious bliss..
The smell he leaves
The tastes he steals
The hours that feel like days..
She has no clue
Neither does he
But you leave your scent in me
Impressed I know sugar
Wait for that call
Still there every day
Every day remember your way, the words never gone..
Who may come
Who may go
Who we steal comfort from
Tell them we don't care
Tell ourselves it's all good.. This is love for sure...
They can worship, beg and bow still not enough for us now..
Stolen words, lost promises...Disappointment, how they try.. tell us love, try to be with all they have..
never to replace that one...
The one that won it all...
That ran scared of what they found
Too perfect...Too true...too lost to be mine..
There you are
Mine untill it's time ❤ x x x
Mysterious, a little hidden...Unpredictable...
Can be extremely enticing to some.....
Being a shady, lying, fake c*nt not so enticing...
Sooooo my point being...
I don't want a weekend, and week, a lifetime in your presence ...
Not a minute could I take..
Nothing i could imagine would be more nauseating...
Beds been made...Get comfy...Alone
Too many lies to pass these thighs
Not worthy to lick heels
Insult precious time
Forgot how it feels
Carry on...sit and wait ..
Cuddle up warm
Sheltered from the storm
No cares about tomorrow..
Enjoy every day
Home can be away
Ending it together wrapped in those arms, drift away exhausted bliss..
Open minds, being kind, it shouldn't be a fight..
The only one you want to feel deep in the night..
He knows how to do it, he knows how you feel, your weakness, soft spot the chills...
Perfect for us....
Rollercoaster you could say..
Unexpected tumble then fly, very often high..Happy to be as we are..Nobody need come in..
Being loved for you, no matter the shit you do! Lucky he still feels so much...Loved constantly for me whatever it might be, good & bad he adores ..
Dirt of mind...can be kind..G...
My "little pickle"
Second born baby
Perfect little sister
A heart full of love from the start..
She will take on the world
Strong willed and certainly stubborn,
A gift from me I'm sure.
She entered the world in a rush
Couldn't wait to meet everyone..
My beautiful thoughtful girl..
She amazes me every day..
Firey & kind
Sharp little mind
And writes me such beautiful notes..
From her head to her toes
My perfect little girl.
My Miracle Boy
He melted my heart again today..
Just like his mum
Music soothes this little one..He has his own playlist he constructs himself he sits in the morning to wake for the day, listening sharing, singing away....
Pride in my hero
First born boy..
7 years old and amazes me with his smarts and charm..
Sarcasm rife just like his mum!
Tells me I'm great with my "fat bum! And squidgy arms" he loves his mum..
We had it rough and we made it through me and him just us two..
Watched him grow,built him high, now I get to see him thrive and fly...
At school he's bounding...
So yeah I'm proud of me and helping them be who they want to be..
Blessed beyond measure
Greateful every day
My two ...
Allowed to grow became wild...
Either your partner in crime is purely sublime...
Or you learn your lessons hard..
It takes a special one to keep me theirs..
Get to see what I have to hide..
Up to date only three could claim to tame ....
Not a easy task keep in mind...
Boredom hits fast, efforts must be made..
Insatiable daily needs..
Not a want or a whim...
All of him..
To breath it seems...
Demand the best, consider no less
Fight for each other with fire
No playing games..
If it keeps you awake while all others are at peace with their world...
There's a reason...
So perfect for me
Perfect for my mind eases doubt..
my body & soul soothed inside & out..
His presence is enough to ignite my spark.
The wanting the needing.. .Exhausting,ecstacy in the dark..
He leaves me no choice but to love what I see, every single inch of me..
(Most imperfect me) but not what he sees..Never failing, braught to my knees..
Like the first time every time
Beyond all belief ...
"He's the one for me "...
Night and Day
That's the time I want you
Night and Day
The time I think of you
Night and Day
Feeling you close..
The worst he sees and never looks away..
Unimaginable times night and day..
Lost in each other obsessed with the curves..Tied,tried,tingle nerves..
Thrown around put in place
Held in that moment stare with discrace...
Gently fingers on my cheeks, squeezing harder as he speaks...
Feet sepearate thick thighs, staring, glaring into glazed eyes,
don't dare break that gaze...
He'll tell you when you can..
Sounds release, make it take it break the peace.
Lifts everyone's spirits
Soak in the rays, beautiful days
Loving the hours away..
Sunshine, flowers, soothing hours, fresh air, soul food, laugh untill you cant...
All the good in life wash away the strife
Basc in the beautiful days
Hand in hand, toes in sand, deep breath of warm air..
Warm and sweet, beneath your feet, love is in the air...