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MommaBeard👑💋

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United States
24 👑 | Mommy of ✌️baby boys | Gods baby girl😇 | Providing for MINE🤞
April 17, 2019
Janesville, United States

Today I called my first realtor!

I got the information I needed to start building my credit a bit higher, info for applying for grants, and info on savings programs to create a large down payment.

I found the town I want to move my little family to.

I looked up the crime rate and school districts.

And found the perfect gated community to become apart of.

Everything is falling into place for us!

Soon me and my kiddos will be moving into our home that we own, where we can paint the walls and make it cozy and ours.

We will be able to have puppies and even a porcupine!

I’ve done good with building my credit and saving in the last year. I’m nothing but proud of myself!

I plan on ...

ORIGINAL
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April 15, 2019
Janesville, United States

“Our people are dying slowly everyday
The enemy's trying attacking every way he can
We gotta fight
We gotta fight
We gotta fight
You see in this generation, materialistics
Swallow the minds of these innocent children, yeah
We gotta fight
We gotta fight
We gotta fight
Oh, you see the fame and the drugs
The money, the lust, the violence, the hatred
We must bleed the blood of Jesus
We gotta fight
We gotta fight
We gotta fight
Oh and I say Devil you can't have my mind
(Devil you can't have my mind)
Devil you can't have my soul
(Devil you can't have my soul)
I belong to God and I'm fighting you off
With the power of the Holy Ghost
I say Devil you can't have my mind, no!
Devil you can't have my sou...

MAKE IDEAS HAPPEN
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April 13, 2019
Janesville, United States

Why is it that when I talk to him, I get butterflies?

Why is it every “Good” memory comes rushing back?

Why is it that he makes me feel complete, even when he is miles away?

Why is it that he has always been the one who was never really mine, but has always been mine?

Why is it that this smile on my face won’t go away?

Why is it that he is all I can think about?

Why is it that I just wish we could go back and start all over? Because I would, I’d go back!

Why is it that he has to live miles away?

Why is it?

Why do I do this to myself?

Why is it I keep falling for the same guy over and over?

Is it cause he has always been the one who had my back?

The one I could talk to...

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April 12, 2019
 

Lately we have listened to a lot of different sermons in the car.

It’s like our new thing, my boys wanna listen to them every time we get into the car!

Tonight we were listening to a pastor preach about fighting temptation, and Ayden speaks up in the back seat and says “Amen, Satin is naughty!” as the pastor is reading from the book of John.

We aren’t the family who goes to church every Sunday, but I’ve tried my best to keep my boys close to God and seeing them want to hear his word makes me so happy! I think we are gonna start looking for a church home.

Watching my boys absorb the word and understand it brings so much joy to my heart!

ORIGINAL
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April 9, 2019
Janesville, United States

Today I was day 3 of having an hour of “me time” every other day.

Today I went to the gym and ran 4 miles. It felt amazing but also helped me realize how out of shape I am.

I came home and showered and had a few minutes left of just “me time” while my kids were with their dad.

I know it isn’t much but an hour a day to collect your thoughts and find your self is very important.

I’m becoming a better version of myself slowly.

Thursday I’m shooting for 5 miles and a hydromassage...

Can’t wait to show off myself off at my grad party, I’ve not only become more fit but I’ve also become more focused on me and found my happiness.

I’m shining brighter than ever now! 😊

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April 8, 2019
Janesville, United States

Why fight?
Why waste your time?
Why tear your self apart?

Is this really worth it?
Is your heart going to survive this?
Are you going to survive this?

Why allow yourself to feel that way?
Why allow someone to get to you like that?
Why do you do it?

Is it because you think he will change?
Is it because you believe his lies?
Is it because he fed you another sad story?

Don’t you realize what your doing?
Is this really “love”?

I’ve been down that road, girly.
I’ve been fed those lies.
I stayed.
I believed.
I trusted.

But I got crushed.
I got tore up inside.
I was my biggest enemy.
I hurt myself more than anyone could ever hurt me.

I still to this day let him get to m...

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April 8, 2019
Janesville, United States

“All this undercover pressure really got me feeling stuck
How you smiling up in my face but you really hate my guts?
She be piped up with her friends claiming my name was never discussed
Saying she gone pop me when she see me, but I'm still walking round UNTOUCHED! All this undercover pressure really got me feeling stuck
How you smiling up in my face but you really hate my guts?
She be piped up with her friends claiming my name was never discussed
Saying she gone pop me when she see me, but I'm still walking round UNTOUCHED!
I hit that hoe line quick
Just to see wassup
Then she started screen-shotting, I'm like bitch what the fuck?
Screenshot for what hoe?
Ion need no witness, cause I know wh...

POETRY MONTH
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April 4, 2019
Rockford, United States

I’m here
I’m doing me
I’m bettering myself
I’m finding myself.

So listen up,
Life is great!
This is me.
Here I am.

I’m standing tall
I’m shining bright

POETRY MONTH
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April 3, 2019
Janesville, United States

My block button and I have been best friends today.

Literally blocked have blocked so many people.

I’m done being disrespected and treated like crap.

I’m done being treated like I don’t amount to nothing and I’m dumb.

Because I’ll be the very first to show off my achievements!

I’ll be the first to show you how far I’ve come.

I’m not perfect but I refuse to allow anyone to make me feel any less of myself.

I’m no longer worrying about others, I’m no longer giving people second chances, I’m no longer forgetting and letting go of the past.

My block list will continue to grow.

I’ll continue blocking on all social media, contacts, and emails.

I’m not caring about the words people...

POETRY MONTH
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April 2, 2019
Janesville, United States

“Can we get a room
And we ain’t gotta tell nobody
It’s just me, and it’s just you
And what we do in here is private
Cut your phone off
Make sure the door is locked
It’s midnight gotta leave out by 4 o’clock
Sneaking and freaking it’s Friday the weekend
I’m just getting started I don’t wanna leave you
I tell you I love you, you know that I mean it
You beating it up and I’m bobbing and weaving
We fucking all night to the morning and evening
Gotta lay pipe until we get even
[Jacquees:]
I’m in and out loving your moans
Hands on your waist I do the most
Giving you time girl I done did that
You say my name when I’m hitting it
I never let the past come back
Bet you know you got that come back

[Dej ...

POETRY MONTH
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March 31, 2019
Janesville, United States

Everything is set!
Now just to start working on me!

Watching everything I do.
What I eat.
making sure I get enough exercise in.

Dreams are just dreams until you put in the work.

May 4 is coming up, and the day is gonna be perfect!

GOOD THINGS TAKE TIME
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March 28, 2019
Janesville, United States

I made it through the day. I was really doubtful.

Got a lot of advice on how to start feeling better. And even started to feel better as the day went on!

Today is also pay day! I love paydays cause when I look at my check I feel so proud of myself!

I know I’m not where I want to be, and this isn’t my dream job! But I love my job and I love pay day! Especially since my checks are around $1400 every two weeks!

This weekend I’m going bridesmaid/graduation dress shopping. I can’t wait to find two gorgeous dresses! I just hope I still can fit them when the time comes to wear them!

I have 37 days left until graduation and the wedding isn’t until October so my fingers are crossed!

ORIGINAL
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March 28, 2019
Janesville, United States

The cravings have been crazy lately, between mushrooms and grape crush soda.

Which isn’t a good mix!

And don’t get me started on how I feel! Lord, knows imma strong cookie but this is taking everything outta me.

I feel like I could just live in water and waking up in the morning is definitely the hardest.

I’m just waiting for my good days to come back!

GOOD THINGS TAKE TIME
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March 26, 2019
Janesville, United States

He may irritate me, drive me crazy, and piss me off. But he is always there for me. Literally always there for me with out question.

He has listened to me vent, gave me more money that just the normal child support.

And tonight he helped me do my hair and paints my toes!

He also gave my kiddos a bath and ready for bed.

Tonight was a pretty successful night!

BE YOURSELF
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March 22, 2019
Janesville, United States

Here we go again.
I let him in.

What the heck am I thinking?

His words just get to me!

But is he really telling the truth?

I have everything going so good for me and the kids right now!

This happens every time.

Will I ever be able to trust him like I should?

Will we ever be what we once were?

Ugh, I’m just so confused...

INTROVERTS WEEK
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March 19, 2019
Janesville, United States

I will never understand it..

One day you want her and your family to be right I gods eyes.

The next day your standing in my living room crying because you miss what you had.

I can’t do this anymore.

I’ve moved on, I’m talking to someone new.

I got my life in order and everything is going so well for me and my kids.

You have a wife who apparently is pregnant. Be happy with her. Officially start your life with her dude!

I can’t wait around forever for you. I can only take so much from you.

I refuse to be treated like that. I know my worth, I know what I deserve! You definitely aren’t enough for me.

You made your bed, now it’s time to man up and lay in it.

There isn’t anything ...

INTROVERTS WEEK
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March 14, 2019
Beloit, United States

My story started out as a single girl who just graduated high school.

My chapters take you through each step, life change, and achievement I’ve made.

My story isn’t over, but I’m about to end another chapter.

When I look back, all I can think is “Damn, this book is so good!”, and I’m only on chapter 24!

Chapter 24 is one that I’ll keep coming back too! The edge of the page is folded to show the importance. This chapter is along with chapters 21 and 22.

These next couple of paragraphs are what’s going to make the rest of my book.

My story isn’t even close to finished but the end product will be something people will be proud of!

WRITE YOUR OWN STORY
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March 12, 2019
Janesville, United States

“Can't raise a man
Hm
Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah ah
Yeah
Listen
He got older, but never grew
For his life he can't tell the truth
How to love he ain't got a clue
Playing games like he'll never lose, you
Try to talk to him, can't get through
Every day he's a different dude
These are the signs of a grown ass boy
Better run for the hills, I'm just trying to keep it real
You can't raise a man, he's already grown, what you gonna do?
You wonder why he acts like a boy
It's 'cause he wasn't raised right before you
Girl, you ain't never gonna change nobody
If he don't wanna, you can't make nobody
'Cause you can't raise a man, no, no
Coming home any time at night
Expecting you to let it ride
How many tears are ...

WRITE YOUR OWN STORY
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March 12, 2019
Janesville, United States

Sometimes I’m like “wow, if you took a second and stopped and think. If you took a step in my shoes... you would understand”

Other times I’m like “how can someone even understand? Will they even have an open mind set to try? Is it even worth it explaining to them?”

Then I realize, “wow, our past is quiet the same, our pain is very much alike, our goals and dreams are on the same level!”

But then I look at the big picture “some people just don’t think like you amber! Some people like to be cruel and assume you are the bad person! For some that’s easier! Listen to your heart!”

And for those moments that it’s about my kiddos I have to remind myself “They will never understand your mind,...

ORIGINAL
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March 11, 2019
Janesville, United States

This week everything is coming together!!

I get my new car on Friday!

My last day of school is Monday!

I have a date night planned for this weekend!

I’m finalizing my graduation party details!

And I get to go bridesmaid dress shopping!

Oh and we got a new addition to our little family! STRAWBERRY!!!

Alex and Ayden named him, he is a orange kitty!

My best friend is officially back in town! I don’t know how I got through those past few months without David by my side!

It’s going to be a great next couple of weeks! 🥰💋

ORIGINAL
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March 9, 2019
Janesville, United States

I have walls built so high sometimes I don’t even recognize the woman I am.

I’ve been broken in so many pieces, I’m not even entirely sure that I’m fully back together yet.

I’ve kept myself closed off from the outside world so long I’m not even sure if I would be excepted back anymore.

But I felt a spark yesterday, I felt loved. It was real!

I’m not sure what to do, or say, or how to act!

But he took my into his arms and said “Your mine, even with all of your flaws. Your mine and I will fight for you and those boys till my last day. Your special and there’s no one out there like you, I’d be a fool to let you walk away. I want you to be my future. Your mine, there mine!”.

He knows a...

HAPPY WOMEN'S DAY
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