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Miss.LeConteπŸ‘©β€πŸ‘¦β€πŸ‘¦πŸ‘‘πŸ˜˜

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United States
United States
23 πŸ‘‘| Single Mother πŸ‘©β€πŸ‘¦β€πŸ‘¦ | My sons are my world 🌎 | Loving my Life πŸ€ͺ|
October 12, 2018
 

Today has been a rough day. Im not exactly sure what is going on with me but I've been very stressed lately, lots of ups and downs with my emotions.

I've been having severe headaches to the point where they paralyze me, and all I can do is close my eyes and pray that I feel better soon. No medicine has worked, not even a little bit. My family thinks I may have a brain aneurysm because they run on my dads side of the family in most of the women, which is why I've been scared to go to the doctor to get checked out and it adds to the stress that I already have.

I've distanced myself from most of my family especially my mom and brother in that last few months and im slowly beginnging to t...

ORIGINAL
October 8, 2018
 

Growing up I was always the girl that wanted the good grades, I would study for hours and hours, and I would strive for the highest GPA in the school.

I ranked 4th out of 350 in my graduating class.

All I ever wanted was to succeed and to make something of myself. I wanted to show people that I'm not who they think I am. I wanted to prove to myself and my family that I'm not ruined because of thier decisions in life.

I didn't want to be the girl who ran to her parents every time she needed something. I didn't want to be the girl who had to have her daddy buy her first car or co-sign for something she wanted. I knew that if I wanted nice things I would have to work hard to get them...

ORIGINAL
October 3, 2018
 

Today I made a big step towards my dream career- social worker.

I applied for a different position at work, which will give me more experience  within the field.

I get to spend more time with my client, take her to all of her appointments, learn more about her disablites, and hope to continue to grow within this amazing company that I work for.

I have learned so much about myself while being her support staff but I can't wait to jump in and be the program coordinator that I know I can be.

My client is such a sweet, loving, kind lady. She as taught me to much about myself especially about my inner child. She has helped me realize what my purpose is in life and has been there eve...

ORIGINAL
October 1, 2018
Janesville, United States

I need advice...

How do I tell someone that their boyfriend was out with another female?

Do I just say β€œhey, blah blah blah happened the other day!”

Or do I just keep it to myself like β€œmy name isn’t Bennett and I’m not in it..”

If I was the girl and someone knew that my boyfriend was out I’d want to know.

No matter the situation.

Just blurt it out to me.

If it’s something I don’t know about I’d like the chance to address it, if I do know about it id thank that person.

It’s heavy on my cheats tonight.. I just don’t know what to do..

HELLO AUTUMN
September 30, 2018
Janesville, United States

You'll be okay
You'll be okay
The sun will rise
To better days
And change will come
It's on it's way
Just close your eyes
And let it rain
'Cause you're never alone
And I will always be there
You just carry on
You will understand
You'll be okay
You'll be okay
Just look inside
You know the way
Let it go
Fly away
And say goodbye
To yesterday
'Cause you're never alone
And I will always be there
You just carry on
You will understand
And I will be strong
When love is gone
And I'll carry on...
You'll be okay
You'll be okay
The sun will rise
To better days
You'll be okay
You'll be okay
Just close your eyes
And let it rain
When you need it the most
And all you've got is a prayer
You must carry on
You ...

HELLO AUTUMN
September 27, 2018
Janesville, United States

I’ve been thinking a lot about who I want to be and what I want in life.

I want to have a big family.

I want to adopt children/teens.

I want to own my own house.

I want to become a social worker.

I want to make a difference.

I want to move to my hometown and grow closer to my great great grandparents.

I want to fall in love harder than ever before.

I want to get my masters in human services and my bachelors in business management.

I want to go to Sicily

I want to grow closer to God and build a strong relationship.

I want to be an amazing momma.

I want to be powerful and fierce.

I want to be humble and kind.

I want to have everything I promised myself and more.

I...

HELLO AUTUMN
September 26, 2018
Janesville, United States

Today has been such a great day!

I received my first phone call regarding my bachelors degree today.

I started my Christmas shopping.

My youngest son went all day in his big boy undies without any accidents!

And I enjoyed a great dinner out with my grandma and uncle cliff!

Today has been such a great relaxing day!

I have 172 days left of my associates degree and start my bachelors.

219 days until I graduate!

Things are finally looking up!

I’m so blessing and grateful!

HELLO AUTUMN
September 17, 2018
 

September 17, 2013 was the day I moved out of my parents house.

It was the day my dad said "You dont have to move sissy, I'm not ready for you to go, you don't have to. You will always have a place here, if you ever want to come home."

Even though I only moved 10 blocks down the road, I was making a big step.

I just graduated from High school a few months prior and I was ready to be and adult.

I became a different person when I moved the last boxes out of my childhood home. I have to admit that moving out on my own was hard, but I found ways to get by.

I only moved home twice since then..

The first was when I became pregnant with my oldest son and then when my family h...

ORIGINAL
September 16, 2018
 

"I'm feeling higher than the sunrise
Feeling lovelier than midnight
And I wouldn't change a thing
I'm standing taller now than ever
Everything from here looks better
No I wouldn't change a thing

You can try to bring me down
To shake my soul and take my crown
I'll shine brighter
I'll shine brighter, brighter, oh

I've learned I'm a shooting star
And no one can change who we are
And no one can take that away
I know that I'm good enough
And I know that I'm beautiful
And no one can take that away from me

I'm feeling prettier than velvet
Soaring higher than the heavens
And I wouldn't change a thing
Look up to the sky you'll see me
Almost feels like I am dreaming
Oh, I wou...

STARS CAN'T SHINE WITHOUT DARKNESS
September 16, 2018
 

Some days it's like im walking around with a plastic bag on my head. Begging for air just preparing to give up.

Other days I feel like my life is finally put perfectly together. I wake up, shower, get dressed, and even wear a bit of make-up.

Some days I look in the mirror and a river flows from my eyes uncontrollibly.

Others I look into the mirror and smile because I know that im beautiful, even if im the only one who sees it.

Its hard for other to understand.
Its hard me me to explain.

Today, was a bit in between...

I tell myself all the time there's no one to blame

but.. If im being honest..

I blame me.  


ORIGINAL
September 11, 2018
 

I literally feel so empty inside.

No pain,
No love,
No happiness,
No sadness.

Just pure darkness,
Just completely empty.

How can someone finally have everything they have every wanted, but still feel like they have nothing.

Still feel worthless
Still feel alone
Still feel out of place
Still feel ugly
Still feel empty

Why is it so cold?

ORIGINAL
September 9, 2018
 

All I wanted was to be left alone.

I wanted to go to school, do my work, and leave.

I wanted to move on from the past.

I thought all of this would be over..

But looking in the mirror tonight I realized that I have to face my demens.

I have to stand taller than my haters.

I have to pray for those who dont like me.

Because I want to be the bigger person.

In 236 days ill be walking acrossed that stage.

The demens and haters will have to watch me shine!

It will me MY day.

So for the next 236 days I'll have to walk into a class room, smile, say "Hello, how are you?" and act like nothing happened.

I will have to choke down the real words I want to say...

ORIGINAL
September 8, 2018
Janesville, United States

I have a to make a hard decision. It could honestly both make or break my little family.

I have been receiving child support regularly lately and ultimately it’s hurting me financially. Weird right?

Now that me and their dad are back together I think it’s pointless for me to collect it and would help him out financially also. Plus the money is coming in to our home no matter what!

I just honestly don’t know what to....

I hate making big decisions!

GREAT THINGS
September 6, 2018
Janesville, United States

People don’t understand the struggle I go through.

They don’t understand what goes on in my head.

They don’t know how I feel.

They don’t know the pain I go through.

They look at me from the outside in and see this girl who is making life look easy.. Taking care of her two kids on her own.

What they don’t see is the tears that fall, the screams I let loose inside my pillow, the thoughts that go through my mind, the things I think about myself.

They don’t understand how hard it is to get out of bed every morning (when I make that far).

They don’t understand how hard it is to say β€œHi!” to a friend.

They don’t understand how hard it is to just love me.

They don’t understand how ...

GREAT THINGS
September 4, 2018
 

I believe that "Everything God does is an act of love. But not everything that happens is an act of God".

Lately things have been going wrong, left and right. Little unimportant things, but things that boil my skin. Things I shouldn't worry about but they still bug me.

Growing up I had issues with nightmares.. I would go weeks at a time without a full 6-8 hours a night worth of sleep. I would toss and turn, even sleep on the floor in my grandparents room to try and feel safe.

In the last few months those nightmares have came back.. Today I had one of the worst ones yet, I know its crazy and I should try some home remedies or self care techniques but this one really got to me.

I...

POSITIVE LIFE
August 31, 2018
Janesville, United States

In 10 days will be 2 months in our home.

Today we made two giant leaps forward... we finally got a kitchen table and a washer and dryer.

Our home is finally coming together! FINALLY!

Wall decor is up!
Pictures of our family is hung!
The kids bedroom is decorated!

Now the next step is to decorate my room! Rustic leopard print is the design I’m going for!

I’m really into sunflowers and purple/blue roses bouquet lately! I’m thinking that may be our new centerpiece for the kitchen table.

Life is finally falling into place. I’m so happy, thankful, and appreciative!

MAKE IDEAS HAPPEN
August 23, 2018
 

When I was little, I wrote in my journal almost every day. Mostly about my day and all of the things I went through, rather it was good or bad. But since I found this website/app I have wrote on here. Today however, I found my old journal while I was searching for a lost book and I decided to make a new entry. Its funny the difference it is when my hands are writing actual words on a paper instead of typing them out on my computer. The words seemed to be more heartfelt. Im not sure if its because I loved writing when I was a child or if its because what goes into my journal I know will only been seen my me. Either way, Ive realized that writing with an actual pen and piece of paper is somethi...

ORIGINAL
July 31, 2018
Janesville, United States

Three days until we take off on our road trip!

Three days until I can hug my nonna and nonno.

Three days until we finally get a break from our every day routine.

My great grandparents turned 98 this week and I’m so excited for them to meet my boys!

My boys are blessed to have great great grandparents alive and well! Nonna has the boys tons of books and toys saved up for them and nonno keeps saying he wants to take the boys fishing so they can bring back nonna the finest dinner in town.

Our road trip doesn’t stop in my hometown of Sparta.. we are continuing on to Missouri/ Arkansas for a few days and then to Nashville!

I’m excited to see all of my family and meet some new addition...

SAY HELLO TO SUMMER