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Amy Rodriguez

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United States
Loving is a great gift given to us. So please take care and love with all your heart. One will always remember those who loved them immensely.
June 8, 2019
Windsor, United States

I can sit here looking out at this great beautiful world and I can think of you.  
But what good is it?
I’ll love you for all of my life but what good does that really do me?
You will never be mine.

You will always be........
Borrowed :(

Borrowed.

RESPECT
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June 6, 2019
Franklin, United States

I wish I could marry you.  
I’ll never marry because it cannot be with you.  
Still, I wish I was married to you.  
We would have three children.  Ava and two of our own.   
You’d come home and I’d be waiting for you by the window.  Evert time life takes you places, but always home to me and our babies.  

MADE WITH LOVE
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June 4, 2019
 

You’re leaving again.  I hate goodbyes.
I’ll be thinking of you every moment of every day that you are away.   
You are missed tremendously.
There are no words to express this longing, this pure sadness of missing you

Please stay safe
Don’t ever think for one second of your life that you are not thought of, missed, or cared for.   
Til’ we meet again.  Kisses and hugs.  

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MADE WITH LOVE
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June 4, 2019
Windsor, United States

I love him so much I feel sick to my stomach.  I miss him so much it makes my heart break and my eyes fill with sadness.  
He will never understand just how much he means to me.  
I’m sad all the time without him.  And I am without him so frequently.
If I could tell him anything it would be this:
“I need you, my soul feels sad and lost without you by my side.  
I want to wake up everyday to you, with you.   My life would be nothing if I couldn’t kiss you.  
I love you so much.”
This is what I wish I could say to him.   

MADE WITH LOVE
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June 4, 2019
Windsor, United States

My dearest Nate,
You’re probably gone but it’s expected.  
You tell me not to worry about you but telling me not to worry about you would be the same as telling me not to breathe.
Remember, don’t think for one second of your existence you are not thought of, cared for, loved or missed so much.  

My heart aches when you are away.
So please return this way my heart can dance again not just beat.
Wrap your arms around me because in your arms my soul is at peace.   
Yours Always,
Amy

MADE WITH LOVE
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May 29, 2019
Windsor, United States

Nate,
I won’t really know if you’ve gone away or if your itinerary has changed.
If you are gone know I carry you in my heart and thoughts and will do so until you are in my arms once again.   
Life takes you away from me so often but that’s ok, it only proves how much I love and miss you.  It will make for your return to be even more thrilling, for when you are with me I will drown you in kiss after kiss and my hands will be full with happiness....you.  
The days without you don’t seem to matter really.  They come and go with no meaning.  
My heart is hurting but my mind sings a tune which soothes my pain with memories of you.   
Memories, ah who ever imagined could be a healer of loves gre...

SLAPPIN' THE BASE
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May 28, 2019
Courtland, United States

Dane,
He was here again.  The night felt frozen in time.   And in that time, Nate was mine.   My fingers on every part of his body.  It’s as if I’m connected to his flesh.  My hands never get enough of him.  
He’s leaving again for a long time and so I’ll die a little every day once again until I get to be with him.  If I get to see him again.   
I want to tell him that we should just forget the world and we should make a baby, get married and have every waking moment with us kissing and loving and kissing all over again.  Some songs are better left on repeat.   
Oh Dane, I never want to know what living is without him.   My soul does not know how to be without connecting to his.   
All I can...

RUN!
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November 12, 2018
 

My fingers are bare for they miss roaming in your soft beard like a hunter in the woods.  
My lips are dry, for your mouth is a reservoir that I seek to drink from.
My arms are empty, for you are the slow caress that heals my spirit.
My eyes are blind, for you dear Nate are the sight I seek and the light that beams my hope and my dreams.  
My body is hollow, without your entrance, without your swim I am an empty pool.  
Kiss my eyes and fill my heart with life, for the air you breathe into me makes me superhuman.
NS 🇮🇱💙

ENJOY THE LITTLE THINGS
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May 10, 2016
 

The memories of you flood my world.
The deep ocean of your eyes wash my soul clean or rather empty.  
The curve of your lips when you smile hold a mystery not known to me but so desired by my heart.
Your leaving so sudden was not seen as the forever goodbye it turned out to be.
Now I weep and rain storms collide for your absence kills my being.

ORIGINAL
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December 28, 2016
Courtland, United States

With this she learned nothing really changed. The older she became the sadder she grew.
Time shows on her face....worn and tired.
With these lines she cannot hide the sorrow for she wears it like a scarf through the winter days.
If her hands could tell a story of their own you'd hear and see madness and melancholy along with the scars of love.  

ANGEL OF AMOR
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May 26, 2019
Windsor, United States

I’ve decided my own fate.  
It will not be tomorrow or next week.  If I’m still here next year, it wont be time either.
I’m waiting, as I have all these years.  
But in some years to come, when I feel everyone will be alright.
That’s when I will go.  I will leave this place and the loneliness with it.  
Feeling nothing will truly be the peace I have looked for all these years.   Dying will be bliss.
I’ll finally be free of this constant pain.   
Remember me.   

WHITE CLOCK
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May 24, 2019
Windsor, United States

Nate,
I live for these moments.  
Although they are far and few in between, they unfold in my day to day thoughts.
Sometimes existing is only easy for I anticipate your return.
To me.  
I wonder, does God himself feel what it is I feel when you are near me?
If so, surely he will always bring us back together.
These feelings rare and exquisite should never be left for extinction.
Keeping you away never to return you to my arms would be poisonous.

WHITE CLOCK
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May 23, 2019
Courtland, United States

The peace, the tranquility of being with you is beyond explanation or definition.
To be in your presence is the purest of joy and happiness my heart could ever know.  
All I can say to you is
Thank you.
For laughter and splendor is brought to my heart and cleanses my wounded soul.
*Sigh*

WHITE CLOCK
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May 16, 2019
Windsor, United States

Why do you stay away for so long?
It’s no good for my heart.  
My lips miss the delivery of kisses onto your face.  
My body aches for your hands.  
It is your hands that heal my broken soul.
This is me missing you.  
😔

FOLLOW YOUR HEART
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May 10, 2019
Windsor, United States

My heart.  

If I could just remove you from my chest for a moment.  
I’d hug you and say I am terribly sorry.   
Sorry for your sadness.
Sorry for making you miss and love someone who is unattainable.   

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FOLLOW YOUR HEART
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April 18, 2019
Windsor, United States

Nights without ur body Beside me,
seems to never end.  
Long awaiting ur kiss, those hands so strong yet gentle.   the weight of your eyes as they pierce my soul releasing all desires of you.   
I want to wrap my legs around you, take you deeply, slowly,
My hands feeling every inch of this beautifully masculine man that you are.  
Tower over me. Let me surrender, weak and owned simply by your presence alone. I wait for you

MAKE IDEAS HAPPEN
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April 16, 2019
Courtland, United States

When I am no longer alive.
When I am deep in the ocean dissolved into the salty seas,
Remember me.  
I shall die content, for I had moments with you.  
Hold on to the way I loved you.
Close your eyes and with memories and mental photographs, see me, feel me, hear me.   
Let your heart and mind feel all the longing, the kissing, the passion which had once flowed gracefully through my fingertips and on your body.  
I never knew if you loved me at all. I’ll die never knowing because sometimes,
well sometimes life can be cruel or just mysterious.   
May you never forget the scent of my flesh, the curls of my hair or the brown of my eyes.  
May I have left you surly knowing what unconditional,...

HUG ME
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April 11, 2019
Courtland, United States

My dear,
The day is half gone.  
The sun will soon retire for this evening.   The breeze is gentle today.  The birds seem quite the happy species, for they sing and sing and sing as if there is no harm in the world.   
In my old ragged sweater of red, I sit on my deck in an old Adirondack chair.   The one beside me is empty.  
I can only wonder where it is you roam.  Are you on safe lands or are you in foreign, unfriendly territory.
My heart is with you wherever you should be.    My hands, these hands are empty, for only you can fill them.   
Dare I say, “oh my dear, please come back to me.   Be here with me and lay in the silence  of my love.”
Without you this body will become frozen in th...

LETTRS 2019 STAMP
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April 9, 2019
Windsor, United States

I took your picture out today so I can look into the most beautiful set of blue eyes the Universe has created.   
And do you know that with this picture of you the sun suddenly made its appearance from behind the curtain of clouds?
As I gaze at your smile, I cannot hide the joy that comes to my lips as they begin to stretch across my face.  
If anyone should see me they will see this mesmerizing twinkle, this glow like the Northern Lights coming straight from my soul.  
And it’s all because of a picture of you.  
Now, can you imagine what the “real” you does to me?
You in the flesh?
You couldn’t even imagine.

LETTRS 2019 STAMP
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April 4, 2019
Windsor, United States

I think of you today.  
Even tomorrow maybe.  
Definitely every day of every month.  
Winter
Spring
Summer
Fall
The image of your face so masculine,
your features so blinding.
Closing my eyes and feeling the warmth of the sun reminds me of your lips pressed against mine.  
You kiss me and you place them in a movement which replicates the rotation of our earth, slowly, magnetically.  
There is an extraordinary mesmerizing peace which is only felt in your presence.
And when you are to leave me, the wind and the sun will always remind me of you.  
The sun with its graceful warming.  The wind with its powerful strengths passing through my heart mimicking your soul touching mine.  
I think of ...

POETRY MONTH
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April 2, 2019
Franklin, United States

Dane,
March 31st, Matt and I broke it off.  We will not be seeing one another anymore.  It was short lived you see.   I, knowing there was nothing there, continued to hold on because being alone for so long has made me hopeless.  
Matt met someone else, she’s younger and very pretty and she’s also a gamer like him.   I can’t blame him, they have way more in common.  So I understand his decision.   
It worked out.  
Last evening I had a visitor, Nate came to see me.  It’s like he can always sense when I miss him.  I think I can sense when he’s missing me or thinking of me anyway.
When we come together, the world goes silent. Nothing exists but our bodies molded together by loving hands, warmi...

ORIGINAL
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March 21, 2019
Courtland, United States

And so the sadness continues.   I can only hide it for so long before it consumes me.
Four long gut wrenching years of wanting, wishing, looking, waiting, loving.......you.  
Still even now I may no longer wait for you but I miss you and my heart just doesn’t seem to I understand that you will never come back.  
This heart of mine, it hopes and it wonders and it searches for something, anything that may lead to you.  
Your name, your face, all of you

I miss you Nate.  That will never end.   

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INTROVERTS WEEK
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March 9, 2019
Courtland, United States

Your kisses are like fruit to me.
And oooh how I Love fruit.

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SUNGLASSES
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February 25, 2019
Windsor, United States

Dane,
Today is a chilly day.  
It’s 5:29 a.m. and I’m in the parking lot of my work.  
A song came on,
“The Sacrifice”, from the movie “The Piano”.  It reminds me of Nate.  It’s getting a little easier but every now and then I remember him and I wish he is well.   
The memories no longer drown me with sorrow.  They leave me with a hint of a grin and a soft sigh.  
Life is funny. It’s tragic, it’s confusing, it’s brilliant and all of that makes it worth living.  
I can say through it all I truly loved deeply and there are no regrets whatsoever.  I know I’ll never love another as I love Nate but that does not mean I will not love again.  It will be a different kind of love but all in all, I w...

WHITE CLOCK
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February 5, 2019
Courtland, United States

Nate,
Missing you
It takes me to a deep dark place where I can only seem to fit in.  
“I’d rather have some of you then none of you”
I have none of you now.....
Happiness has come to extinction
Sadness is my wear.
Emptiness my perfume.  
I bathe in my own tears
They wash me, try to heal me
But your smile, your voice, the kisses you left on my eyes....
Those are what heal me.
Shadows dance around me
Darkness consumes me now.  
Because I have “none of you”

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JULI
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February 5, 2019
Courtland, United States

Dane,
I did it.  I went out on a date. It’s the first in over a year.  
It’s was nice.  He was nice.
He is tall and handsome and his words were like chocolate.
His eyes are sky blue and his smile I must say is luring.  

He sat beside me and suddenly held my hand.
It was strange for at that moment, I looked up at him but sighed as I forced a smile because at that very moment all I could see was Nate’s face and it broke what’s left of my heart.  😔 🇮🇱 NPS 🥀

SLAPPIN' THE BASE
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December 4, 2015
Courtland, United States

She wore knee high boots with a black lace bra and thong, her boots were shiny but the soles were muddy.
She walks over to her slave who stands naked with a blind fold over his eyes and slowly lowers him to his knees and as doing so she gently bites his bottom lip.
On his knees she pushes is face in between her thighs and on her beautiful flower.
Pulling away and grabbing him by his hair she tells him, "get on the ground and do everything as I say you worthless bitch boy!"
On the floor he is subjected to feeling with his lips the leather of her boots. The soft black leather pressed on his mouth.
"Lick the sole of my boot and do it slowly and just the way I like it."
He replies, "yes maste...

ORIGINAL
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January 22, 2019
Franklin, United States

Dane,
You are my diary.  
It’s been 1month and 11 days.
This is the longest I have gone without seeing him in the past 9 months.  

I do not think we will be seeing each other again.
I feel it in my heart.  
He is gone.     

I wish it were as easy for me as it is for him.  To just not care.  He is capable of loving and caring.  I’ve seen it you know.  
When he talks about his mom or his best friend Cameron.  
The way he plays and touches Bella.  
But for some reason only God knows, he doesn’t care about me.  
I’m having a really hard time letting him go.  
Moving on.  
Days go by and I still wish
him well and happiness.  

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DON'T WORRY JUST WRITE
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