I said I didn’t care if we ever even spoke again, but that was only partially true.
Are you the Ghost of transgressions past, here to Collect on the karmic debt I’ve amassed.
Will you be Showing Me where each path will lead, relaying some warning that I Must Heed.
Path one will Take Me...
Path two will Break Me...
A woman’s power is not defined by her beauty. Her power is not defined by the curvature of her booty;
That woman you’re looking at, she is magic gracing this earth. She is the temple from which kings and queens are birthed.
That woman’s power is sewn into her very aura and spirit. Her strength radiates from her skin, can’t you see it?
Life is created in her womb and nourished at her breast. She is the gift of life! Not just a body to be undressed.
Her power is unmistakable, she is it’s very personification! She is the backbone of her nation!
She is power;
She is the rarest flower.
We were meant to be one, meant to be in each other’s lives, the universe conspired to bring us together.
The stars aligned just right to make sure we’d cross paths, to ensure our lives would be tethered forever.
But she claims you and he claims me.
There’s so much doubt, what will this be.
Where will this lead...
Is this just greed..
Here we are now, in each other’s lives, constantly in each other’s mind.
But if we dig deep what will we find, that we’re being selfish and unkind.
Our meeting was by design, it was destined to happen, it was fate.
But did something go array, did we miss our meeting deadline, were we too late.
Or maybe we rushed past our indented stops, were too early and n...
What have you done to me...
You have an inexplicable hold on me..
How it is that every time I close my eyes, in my dreams it’s you I find.
Every time I hear this, or that song, it’s you that comes to mind.
How it is that I can always so vividly remember how your lips feel.
This hold you have on me is unreal.....
I bet I’d remember every detail even if it had been weeks, months, years!
I feel the electricity of desire rushing thru me as your body nears.
Desire to feel your touch.
Desire to see that smile I love so much.
Desire for your kiss, filled with passion.
Desire for more time, just us and the moon, no other distraction.
What have you done to me...
In my daydreams it’s you I see..
A smile graces my face just at the thought of you. Unannounced, genuine, belonging only to you.
A peaceful stillness washes over me in your presence. Subconsciously I know, although I continue second guessing.
Is this kind of happiness truly possible.
Consistent, everlasting, unconditional.
It’s as if my soul recognized something special upon our first meeting. I can admit I didn’t believe it, these sudden feelings, to me this was fleeting.
However as the time passes, these feelings only continue to grow. Everyday I gain more clarity, it’s no longer subconscious, I know!
I know with so much certainty, you’re not just another guy. Time passes and my desire to be in your presence only continu...
I see you in my nightmares.
Feel the malice in your stares.
I see you lurking in the shadows.
Feel the shift in the air, my heartbeat slows.
In my nightmares I remember every detail as I relive that moment.
My fear and despair were your enjoyment.
Your hands moving over my body, uninvited.
My cries only getting you more excited.
Your shallow breaths following the rhythm of your movement.
My pleas only seemed to further your amusement.
Your voice in my ear as you demand “Tell me that you want me baby.”
My resistance only serving to make you angry.
Your fists, I can taste my own blood.
I jolt awake, tears come on like a flood.
You are the monster that lives in my dreams.
The demon stealing...
I find myself smiling such a genuine smile, a free smile. I didn’t know I still had this smile, haven’t seen it in a while.
I find myself anxiously anticipating your attention. I didn’t know I was this bold, ready to leap with no apprehension.
I find myself acutely aware of my yearning for your presence. I didn’t know I could crave so deeply for another’s essence.
Here’s the raw truth of my emotions.
The totality of my unfiltered notions.
I want you near, here...
Let me make this crystal clear...
Every minute of every day it’s you that I desire. I miss you the next day although you were with me the day prior.
I need all of you, every piece of you, every inch of you. Your touch, your kiss, ...
I miss your presence the second you walk away. Don’t leave, not yet, not at all, please just stay.
I miss your kiss the second your lips leave mine. Your presence is euphoric, is this cloud nine?
I’m scared of this, scared of you.
Because I don’t know if you feel this too.
Didn’t know I could still feel this;
Can’t express how badly I want this;
These days, these weeks, will they turn into months and years. These days, these weeks, will this all end in heartbreak and tears.
Don’t taint this happiness, this feeling of pure ecstasy. Let’s build this moment, weeks to months, months to years, you and me.
After all of these years,
No one hears the screams;
Or sees the tears.
No one notices the pain it seems.
You left me broken;
Missing a huge part of me,
Our words left so much unspoken.
Unsure of life, don’t you see.
Send signs from heaven, please.
That Mischievous look in his eyes is so provocative.
His scent, his voice, they’re both evocative.
Pictures in my mind of his touch, his kiss.
Lost in my own thoughts, i daydream and reminisce.
Memories so vivid i can almost feel his kiss once again on my lips.
Daydreams so lucid i can almost feel his hands gripping my hips.
These thoughts so suggestive...
For him I’ve become possessive...
Makes me miss;
His smile is a taunt;
Makes me want;
Do you even know how many times?
I’m talking about the cheating.
-Did you know from the beginning, did you see the signs?
I did, from the very first greeting.
Do you even remember how many there have been?
I’m talking about the other females.
-Did you know right away that this would begin?
I did, but I also know that this fails.
Do you even acknowledge how insignificant you made me feel?
Maybe it’s easier to believe your own lies.
-Did you know that my attention you would steal?
I knew it the moment I looked into your eyes.
Do you even see how unhappy I am?
-Did you know..... damn.
In a world that tries so hard to pull me under, a life trying to break my spirit. How do I smile, how do I perceiver thru it?
I can never let life break me or take me to a place I don’t want to be! Must never allow the bad, the sad, all the moments you try to forget; turn me!
If I am made to believe I have nothing left to give, then how will I continue to live?
Let me tell you a story, it’s about the life that I’ve lived, all the things that I’ve given and everything that was taken from me.
FORCEFULLY TAKEN FROM ME;
I gave my undivided attention, I gave my time!
Was my refusal to give that part of me a crime?
A gun with bullets, a knife being waved with a threat, an unwanted lover that ...
What are we doing? Tell Me what you’re doing.
What am I doing? Tell Me what we’re doing.
We Need to give this a rest.
We both Know!
It’s for the Best.
This, whatever this is, we have to stop this.
But your Kiss...
But I’ll Miss...
Don’t tell me you want all of me, you don’t need this Mess.
Don’t touch me that way, I’m too enticed by your caress.
What am I doing? I Need Confession.
What are we doing? How far will we take this transgression.
Come closer, I Want your kiss.
-We can’t continue to do this!
Come closer, I Want your touch.
-We need distance, this is too much!
Come closer, I Want an encore.
-We can never have more!
Set-backs are opportunities to run new tracks;
This is your race, run at your pace;
Just don’t stop running!