You say you wonder where the chemistry has gone
Then you look at me like I'm an ugly swan
Guess what, your not always going to like what I say
Everything is not always going to go your way
If you want the chemistry back
Stop taking offense to everything I say or do
Your always right even when your not
You do not apologize
And you wonder where the chemistry has gone
How do you get someone to see what they're doing to your relationship?
I'm forced to sit here and just watch him sink our ship
All cause I said I do
Jehovah give me strength to get thru
In the Bible adultery is the only thing to break what Jehovah has made into 1 under marriage
You lack true love, tolerance and patience
What I seen in you had to be a Mirage
JEHOVAH GOD I need your guidance
Carry me in my time of need
Let him take heed
My emotions are not a joke
Was our marriage a hoax???
My 4th step in AA...
For keeping her from me for so many years
Checked all check Mark's on it
For not seeing her the times I could
Checked all but sexual relations on this one
For his failure to be a father, sexual abuse, addiction and etc
Checked all checks in all columns
For keeping me from my dad and letting jeremy watch us again after the 1st sexual abuse
All columns checked
For everything abuse, forcing sex after abuse, mental abuse, taking my money, making me have abortion, taking my family from me
All columns checked
Jossalin, my daughter
For the things she did and said
All columns except sexual relations checked
For her part ...
Have you ever wondered why people lie over the craziest things
Unaware what their lie brings
All to look like something they're not
Eventually to be put on the spot
Be yourself what do you have to lose??
And if you can't be yourself??
Finding yourself will be a challenge
Because yourself will no longer be in sight
Once you lose yourself be ready for a battle that is the hardest you will ever fight.
Some never come back
All for an image that is completely whack....
BE TRUE TO THY SELF
A TRUTH WORTH LIVING...
Life in a nut shell
We perceive them as being cursed
Or as being blessed
Could it be that peace is ours if that's how we choose to feel?
Or we can cry as if our glass of milk was spilled
Think positive, rise and overcome all obstacles.
Painted to be a monster
By my own daughter
Brainwashed by her dads family
Who kept her from me
But told her I didn't want her
All cause I didn't want him
The storm and its thunder
Jehovah God hear my pleads
Help me stay strong
I need you now more than ever
I often wonder if I'll ever be completely healed
Leaving me to think what is the deal
I believe I'm damaged goods
Some say I am just a fool
Others say I'm such a breath of fresh air
But I feel like I'm sinking into despair
Is it our body who heals so grand
Our mind who believes it does
Or possibly our creator who loves us all
Problems in my marriage
Were causing me such discourage
But a simple prayer
Has been a success
Our love restored beyond compare
A repair to endure
For love restored
Jehovah God gets all the glory
A success story
Thank you Jehovah, Jesus Christ, The Holy Spirit with in who keeps my faith strong.
Nothing shall end our love
Who would have thought?
Restored beyond what I sought
Lies, lies and more lies
And I expected this time with this man to be different
The definition of insanity
What is love?
Why is this word so misused?
Why is it so misunderstood?
In the Bible it is plain as day to what it is meant to be.
Yet it is still thrown around like lust.
I often wonder when love will no longer be a must.
The world is feeling with hate.
True love is becoming just a myth......
He asks me do I remember him
The answer is no
He isn't the same man I married
Truth be told
Who I thought he was has faded
Who he is has began to truly show
They say with every forgiveness to a man
He loves you more
But with every forgiveness from a woman
The love becomes more distant
Once he can't live without you
You can't live with him
How unfair the balance truly is.
He does the things he does and wonders why I'm upset
Let me disrespect
The same way
And see what he has to say
The wooded area where many bird's nest are home to many baby birds you usually hear the Bird's sing a melody that seems to bring a peaceful tranquility to the forest but today smoke fills the area and fear to many baby birds is the melody the fire brings.
Endure and overcome
Take a lot
And give some
Are you ready for that battle that needs to he fought?
Strength without the man above is minut
With Him it is grandeur
So many thoughts enter my head
Can I get them all out before I end up dead?
God uses us all in different ways
Messages pour out trying to round up the ones led astray.
How to reach them all?
How many of us know our God given path?
Blessings to come or suffer the Devil's wrath?
As I look around at what is going on in the world
A fear enters my body that I can't ignore
Thoughts of Revelations
Thoughts of the end
Is it closer than we want to believe
What is alive in your imagination?
Warning signs is what I believe Jesus and Jehovah are trying to send
Start thinking about preparing for a time of no freedom
Where the government tells us when to stay or if we can leave
Time to learn the land like the Indians
It may be our only way sooner than we think
Or take the mark of the beast and seal a date that nobody truly wants to meet
What is our purpose here on Earth?
Less than half of us don't even know our own worth!
The universe's mysteries,
Or could it be we are in our own way
Causing utter misery!?!
Just maybe it's right in front of our very eyes to see!
Why don't we try loving each other?
Instead of tearing down one another!
Food for thought!!!!!
Just because I'm a success in soberiety doesn't mean life doesn't come at me on it's terms
It only means I have found a healthy way to deal with it on my terms
Together we live in a peaceful harmony
In utter serenity
2 ways to look at this paper
Someone breaking into pieces
Or being restored after a painful journey
Today I am thankful that my story is helping others who struggle
That is the whole point of Alcoholics Anonymous
Light at the end of the tunnel
Living a life in torment wasn't done in vain
As long as I give hope to even one person
Gratitude is surely mine to gain
Would I change one thing
Not at all
I had to fall and feel the sting
To rise again and and overcome what I thought to be my demise
Jehovah God and Jesus Christ the savior's in my life
I'm keeping my eyes on the prize
Definitely worth every ounce of pain
No matter what comes my way
I have learned to dance in the rain
There is still rays of sunshine that break thru the dark clouds
I'll be just fine
I no longer ha...
I have went from a life not worth living
To a life more than meaningful
From bondage in addiction
To freedom in Jehovah God and Jesus Christ
From feelings of being cursed
To blessings after blessings
From a life of rebellion
To a life of obedience
I do not regret my past
Without it I wouldn't have learned the greatest lessons in life
It has opened my eyes to beauty, peace, joy, happiness, as well as, real inner peace
Without knowing ugliness, turmoil, sadness, betrayal, abandonment and fear
This world I now know wouldn't even be appreciated, loved nor would I be grateful to live in it and I would still be blind to what the world truly has to offer us
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