|A depressed writer who wears the mask of an arrogant person & also, a computer engineer by profession who at heart wants to be a nomad & a filmmaker.|
I woke up in a hallway. It was same as the one that kept recurring in my dreams. Like all those dreams, I heard a girl crying and I went towards her. I saw a woman shouting at the girl. She stopped when she saw me and shouted something at me. And the next thing I remember is getting a strong blow on the back of my head and everything went dark.
"John! John! Wake up! Wake up!"
I heard someone calling my name and I tried to open my eyes . In front of me was a little boy. He kept saying, "get up, get up, we have to go now".
"Where to?" I asked.
"Come with me!" He grabbed my hands and dragged me along with him. I looked around and saw green walls. It was a maze. We kept walking for a long...
"Reality is killing me"
I say this to myself every single day . I always wondered if there was any way to escape from all this and live a life where there is no trouble. A dream like life where life is perfect. It sounds crazy, I know. I have reached a point where I cannot accept this reality anymore. So I turn to dreams. Dreams take me to a world where I have no problems, everything is just the way I want it to be or sometimes not the way I want but better than this reality in which I exist. So I started sleeping.
And now it has become hard for me to distinguish between what's real and what's a dream.
Am I even writing this in a dream?
The last thing i remember was listening to a boring lecture and then all of a sudden it all went to a blur and I found myself in a hallway. I looked around and saw that it was dark on either side of the hallway, only the path was lit, at the end of which I saw a door. I kept walking in that direction and as I was walking I realized that the door is quite far from my where i was now. It felt like the distance kept increasing by each step i took. But I kept walking and all of a sudden I heard a woman talking to someone in a language that i hadn’t heard before. I tried to find out who it was. I kept walking towards the sound and suddenly I heard a girl screaming from behind. The scream so ...
Everything is more complicated than you think. You only see a tenth of what is true. There are a million little strings attached to every choice you make; you can destroy your life every time you choose. But maybe you won't know for twenty years. And you may never ever trace it to its source. And you only get one chance to play it out. Just try and figure out your own divorce. And they say there is no fate, but there is: it's what you create. And even though the world goes on for eons and eons, you are only here for a fraction of a fraction of a second. Most of your time is spent being dead or not yet born. But while alive, you wait in vain, wasting years, for a phone call or a letter or a lo...
Drunken thoughts #1
Alcohol came into my life one fine day just like you did. It all started when I made myself believe that it was all for forgetting you and once I'm over you, my relation with alcohol ends. Years went by, and I still think about you whenever I am drunk. My friends ask me isn't it high time you forget her?
But I have no idea. I'm still that same arrogant guy who loved that silent girl.
"And you, my father, there on the sad height,
Curse, bless, me now with your fierce tears, I pray.
Do not go gentle into that good night.
Rage, rage against the dying of the light."
By Dylan Thomas
I started drinking as a way to forget you. But the more I drink, the more I think of you and talk of you. The more it made me realize that I was not ready to forget you.
"Strangers in the night
Two lonely people, we were strangers in the night
Up to the moment when we said our first hello little did we know
Love was just a glance away, a warm embracing dance away."
From my all time favorite Frank Sinatra song "Strangers in the night", even after all these years it's still listened by a lot of people around the world. :)
P.S sorry about the length :)
You have given and taken a lot from me.
You gave me a reason to smile.
But you took away my ability to love anybody else.
I love her, but I act like I don't.
Thousands of thoughts in my mind, but I have no clue what's it about.
Have lots of friends, but still feeling lonely.
I don't wanna talk to anyone, but I still feel like I need someone.
"Mohabbat karna hamare bas mein nahi hai ... us mohabbat se door chale jaana ... woh hamare bas mein hai"
It's not within our control to fall in love ... but to go far away from that love ... is within our control.
Ae dil hai mushkil!
"One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand"
Viva la Vida - Coldplay
Long live life!
Wanted to write something deep from my heart, so I'm writing about you.
It's been 2 years since we last talked. I don't how you are now. I still remember the day I fell in love with you. The feeling was so out of this world. And even my best friend (who was beside me at that moment) noticed it in my eyes. The days I spent in class just looking at you. The times I disturb my buddy talking about how beautiful you are. Your beautiful voice is still in my head. I always loved it when u sing. I used to watch the video of you singing on our school farewell day. The day I said I love you and u said no. But still we remained good friends. I thought I would get over you. But later did I rea...
One one hand, I want to forget her.
On the other, I know she's the only person in the entire universe that will make me happy.
From the movie 500 days of summer.
The shopkeeper as always came early in the morning, opened his shop and did his everyday job of cleaning the shop etc. At 8 he looked at the bus stop across the road, he saw the old lady sitting there. The first bus came at 8.10, she started searching for someone. She repeated the process each and every time a bus comes.
9.50p.m- the last bus came, she again searched for someone. But she didn't find the person. She went back home with a disappointed but hopeful face.
The shopkeeper remembers the first time he saw her. He was new to the city. He saw her everyday and one day out of curiosity he went to her and asked her who are you waiting for? She showed him a young man...
As Sir Winston Churchill once said,
"Success is not final, failure is not fatal, it is the courage to continue that counts ".
I have failed a lot of times in my life, my parents blame me for that a lot, but I never gave up. I am still alive, breathing. I have failed again, but I won't give up, I will rise from the ashes like a Phoenix bird.
One day I will make all those people who said bad about me regret for wat they said.
PS. This is a fair reminder, not just some post I write when I am pissed. Be patient for the results.
How far will you go for love?
Have you ever asked that question to yourself?
Some say they will do anything to make things work but actually they end up ruining it at an earlier point.
Some be like " Ohh it doesn't matter if it's meant to be it will be ".
Actually I am a person who believes that ideology. It's true in all cases not only love, if its meant to happen, good or bad, it will happen. We can just only sit and watch. Sometime we can prevent things from happening, but we cannot change what is done.
The writer, artist, film maker, traveller, singer,dancer, actor/actress etc. inside them cried out loud when no one was around. They asked fate "why is it that we cannot be what we want?"
Fate replied "Sorry my child, your parents want you to earn a shit load of money, so go be an engineer or doctor or some other profession where u can make good money."
And now they live wearing a mask covering their sad faces coz nobody said it out loud to their parents that they want to be this, not that.
In most of the cases people say, listen to your heart. But why is it that when it comes to making a life long decision they have to ask others opinion and take something that will satisfy all the others...
So when I saw that picture the first thing that came to my mind was this song named "September Song" by J. P Cooper. So i am quoting my fav lyrics from that song.
"Sometimes I think that I see her
Face in the strangest of places
Down on the underground station
I get a mild sense of danger
Feel like my heart couldn’t take it
‘Cause if we met we’d be strangers
You and I
Still I play that mixtape every weekend
Got it repeating, got it repeating
You were my September Song summer lasted too long
Ooh, time moves so slowly (so slowly) when you’re only fifteen
You were my September song, tell me where have you gone?"
Life is a highly encrypted Cipher. The key to decrypt it is never known to us. But wait you will be thinking "then how are we supposed to decrypt it?", the answer to that question is, it comes to us at a point in our life where we actually need it. That day we will truly understand the purpose of our existence. And that day will be one of the most important days of our lives. That is the day you will remember for the rest of your life. It is going to be the day thats going to change your life forever.
P.S. Now I'm not drunk!
How do people become serial killers?
That is my next story. I decided to write a story about that. And I will.
PS. I am drunk!
Karma is a boomerang. No matter how much we try to run, the sins we did follows us home. Okay, let's think of it this way, wat if we didn't do any of that mistakes?, what if we never met the people that made us do that mistake?, what if we never told things we shouldn't have, and that too to the wrong person? And just one simple mistake that we did made us suffer all these. Life would have been more better if we didn't do all those wrongs....
Inspiration from the movie dhruvangal pathinaaru :)