|My heart's too huge for this world. I'm a dreamer, a lover, expressionist, go-getter, highly adaptable, witty & sometimes a very serious human being.|
As I sit under the stars thinking so hard... I wonder what it would be like to disappear from the Earth we roam and enter the Galaxy as humans and roam...explore. I know it's an absurd thought but my thoughts roam.
I truly am thinking, do others live in a reality of settling for the one you feel in your gut is wrong for you? Or how does one really know if they are wrong for them, in the end, because you cannot predict the future? However, I have experienced instances that occur where you do predict the future and it becomes your reality. It becomes an existence, permanent. It's a fixture because you allow it. It's become who you are.
How do you overcome such a fear of the normal becoming a ...
As I sit alone and cry in the dark and hear the faucet drip even after racking up a bill that is yet to be paid off for the plumber to "get it fixed," I feel overwhelmed with my pain and sadness. My heart has been broken already several times so has been very slowly healing therefore it's tender. My anxiety is real and my depression is hiding but beginning to show its ugly face. I think of so much....I replay everything as I try to hide the sniffles and the weeping and sobbing.
I'm stuck. It's something I want so bad yet it hurts me. It's cold hearted and snakey. It's a setup waiting to happen. I think to myself all sorts of scenarios. All because of the past. Because of the causes and effec...
Slipping away into a distance you could forget. Leading one to a slope of where the body melts into a puddle....it turns into a pillow of mush. If you've felt that feeling where you're falling amd sleeping and you fall yourself awake, well then, you've lived. I can't tell you how many times I've fallen..... and died even....
Tomorrow's another day to
Above and below
The ground, so soft, turns to dust.
Catch my soul and never let it go...
You are one of a kind. Something to someone. All this life you've spent finding people to love you and it wasn't ever hard, we know that. Such a people pleaser you are, with a big heart and helpful mind. Loving those who hurt you even..... so beautiful inside and out. Truly remarkable. You must be seen to be believed.
All this life you should have shown the true love to yourself. Shined the true light with lessons onto your own soul. Regardless of the talents and mindset you always had that proved you were destined for greatness and maybe just a slight bit ahead of the curve with most everything, every time, the lessons should have been for you, from your own criticism.
Thought about writing you and then I thought to myself, why waste my breath and time on words you will throw out? Then I remembered how I told you about my love for words and writing and how I express myself that way so I had a second thought....with a little delay.
I realized, at first, I had lots to say when you contacted me like I knew you would. Too many things came to mind and I eventually forgot and thought why give the time of day to even compose something that may or may not mean a thing.
Two things in life that are constant is change and change.
I always cherished the friendship and bond we created and I'm glad we met. We always had a good time. From just sitting in the car talkin...
When you can really open yourself up to someone there's a feeling you get of pure comfort. When they make you feel that you are the only person they want to hear anything about and that all of your being is the only thing that matters to them. That feeling that your vulnerability has somehow disappeared for a moment in time. It's one of the best feelings in life, that you can solely trust this one person who made you feel like you could believe everything they say and you have the instinct that they were being just as open and honest to you as you are with them.
Until that day you find a lie, to then find three more lies, which turned into a lifetime of lies. Something like this breaks you ...
Have you ever seen the moon at 4am looking like a thumbnail? a little sliver of the bright with the shadow of the whole moon staring down at you...I find myself behind my wheel driving alone on every road I travel at this hour and I'm in deep thought. probably smoking a cigarette too, especially after a long work day of traveling and playing professional with an unexpected shitty night to follow.
I think about why we are here and what we are doing when I see a fellow car somewhere along my drive home.
have you ever been woken from a deep sleep when you just went to sleep 4 hours prior? only to get in the car and go somewhere but get to come back in an hour and go back to bed...
I feel like ...
To those in committed relationships,
At what point does one person say their values, needs/wants are not important because someone wants to make the same mistakes in a relationship? We are not perfect as human beings and mistakes are meant to happen and they can also be erased and new beginnings can evolve from them. But, where is there a line drawn? Is there a line drawn? Isn't it against the grain to give up on anything you work so hard at to retain? Shouldn't this apply in a relationship? Should it not? Is there a point where one should give up even after so many years of hoping for better, hoping for change, hoping for growth and learning in a relationship? I wonder about and weigh thes...
I must admit my love for letters and writing. I have stumbled upon this app and I love the simplicity of it and how creative you can be. I am a poet at heart and simply writing what's on my mind makes me very happy and gives me motivation to create! 😎
Happy writing and creating fun signatures!!