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It was hell of a journey,
The last one and a half year.
I met new people, made new friends, finally got a new perspective for different kinds of people around me.
I started with a new business of my own,
It's like putting up lego bricks together right now, but I am hoping for the best. Hopefully it will be turned into a beautiful art piece when I look back at it 5 years down the lane.
I did crave for family warmth in these years. But I always had their support no matter the distances.
I am back home now.
It's peaceful here. It's beautiful to be back. And it's beautiful to be back here at lettrs.
I hope everybody is good! Winter greetings to all!
It never struck me that you will be my "meant to be",
You were always the one I felt comfortable with, the one who was not mine but always felt like one.
That soothing rhythm to which your heart beats keeps drugging me in some way or the other,
And my soul is left with nothing of me but only the desire of wanting you more and more.
We are all so different, yet same, in so many ways! I've realised we all need each other, at some point in life.
Be it a 5 min talk, a shoulder to cry or just some random meaningless shit to make you laugh out loud once in a while.
It's never easy opening up to someone, spilling out your past before this random person you've never known before. But I found this really interesting, We open up to random people knowing that they won't care that much! Also knowing that after sometime they might not even remember what you said. But it just feels good, letting it all out. Letting it all out just to leave that baggage of thoughts.
It's the either the closest souls or the most random ones, no in be...
It's been so long,
So long since I last talked to myself,
Drowning is all I feel.
Getting helplessly succumbed into something,
Knowing it won't make me end up in a good place.
I wonder how did I end up being such a mess,
But what good is a mess all empty,
I keep naming myself as one of those "Chaotic Souls",
A Mess who never stops dreaming,
A soul which never stops reverberating wild thoughts...
Somehow my heart wishes I could be her again,
It's been so long,
Since my soul last felt it was in the right place...
I want to be so much more,
So much more than just existing
In this definite time loop.
This soul of mine craves to justify each and every part of the universe of which it is made.
There is this force that keeps pulling me towards it,
That keeps making me want something more from myself,
And this restless soul of mine keeps chasing for that one thing,
Not knowing where it exactly is.
I wanna breakthrough time,
Breakthrough all those endless bounds,
Which this flesh of mine cages me in.
I wanna breakthrough and run wild with these endless thoughts of mine,
Turning all those hopeless imaginary dreams into reality.
There will be days when the voice inside your head will be louder than ever, cursing you every moment instead of calming your soul.
And you'll sob like anything, crying your heart out to escape the misery, but all in vain!
Your hands will grab the nearest emotion possible and hope that it will help you in bringing to the shore.
We often misjudge what will be the best for us and drag ourselves deeper into the dark.
I clinged on to various emotions hoping that they'll save me but they didn't!
What saved me from perishing was the spark within this soul.
Because this soul of mine truly wanted to get healed, it wanted to feel cozy in someones loving arms, and it did!
My soul rested every tear ...
I fear being immensely grateful,
For everything that i have.
I fear I may lose it all someday.
It's not easy, is it?
Having it all just makes me fragile at times,
Vulnerable to that immense pool of emotions which just pulls me inside and makes this heart hollow but heavy at the same time.
There is this part of the darkest universe inside my soul,
Feeding on all the blissful moments I ever lived in.
I know it will keep making me fragile,
I just hope I'll be having you by my side when this fragile soul reaches its breaking point.
I don't want to be scared my love,
I just want to live with you a little more each day...