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We are all so different, yet same, in so many ways! I've realised we all need each other, at some point in life.
Be it a 5 min talk, a shoulder to cry or just some random meaningless shit to make you laugh out loud once in a while.
It's never easy opening up to someone, spilling out your past before this random person you've never known before. But I found this really interesting, We open up to random people knowing that they won't care that much! Also knowing that after sometime they might not even remember what you said. But it just feels good, letting it all out. Letting it all out just to leave that baggage of thoughts.
It's the either the closest souls or the most random ones, no in be...
It's been so long,
So long since I last talked to myself,
Drowning is all I feel.
Getting helplessly succumbed into something,
Knowing it won't make me end up in a good place.
I wonder how did I end up being such a mess,
But what good is a mess all empty,
I keep naming myself as one of those "Chaotic Souls",
A Mess who never stops dreaming,
A soul which never stops reverberating wild thoughts...
Somehow my heart wishes I could be her again,
It's been so long,
Since my soul last felt it was in the right place...
I want to be so much more,
So much more than just existing
In this definite time loop.
This soul of mine craves to justify each and every part of the universe of which it is made.
There is this force that keeps pulling me towards it,
That keeps making me want something more from myself,
And this restless soul of mine keeps chasing for that one thing,
Not knowing where it exactly is.
I wanna breakthrough time,
Breakthrough all those endless bounds,
Which this flesh of mine cages me in.
I wanna breakthrough and run wild with these endless thoughts of mine,
Turning all those hopeless imaginary dreams into reality.
There will be days when the voice inside your head will be louder than ever, cursing you every moment instead of calming your soul.
And you'll sob like anything, crying your heart out to escape the misery, but all in vain!
Your hands will grab the nearest emotion possible and hope that it will help you in bringing to the shore.
We often misjudge what will be the best for us and drag ourselves deeper into the dark.
I clinged on to various emotions hoping that they'll save me but they didn't!
What saved me from perishing was the spark within this soul.
Because this soul of mine truly wanted to get healed, it wanted to feel cozy in someones loving arms, and it did!
My soul rested every tear ...
I fear being immensely grateful,
For everything that i have.
I fear I may lose it all someday.
It's not easy, is it?
Having it all just makes me fragile at times,
Vulnerable to that immense pool of emotions which just pulls me inside and makes this heart hollow but heavy at the same time.
There is this part of the darkest universe inside my soul,
Feeding on all the blissful moments I ever lived in.
I know it will keep making me fragile,
I just hope I'll be having you by my side when this fragile soul reaches its breaking point.
I don't want to be scared my love,
I just want to live with you a little more each day...
Ahiru Wishing the lettrs family a very Happy New Year!!!
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Aren't you afraid?
We may be having it all
Only for today...
Maybe tomorrow won't come
Maybe today is the day
Would you still spare any moment
Won't you stay?
Ain't we in deep love?
Ain't we one soul?
Won't you hold on a little longer?
Just for today...
Be mine forever my love
Be mine till the end of the time.
Be the one
I believe you are
I'll be your the one
If you promise to be mine...
Don't leave my palm
Please hold me close
This heart keeps rushing
It's afraid to lose
You my love
Are my everything
My misery my muse...
Won't you stay
A minute more
Let me kiss those lips again
Hold me love
Like never before
Like we only have
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Your memories dwell here
In this Creased Scuffed heart
Holding on to every bit
Of your essence,
I keep adoring
The way you made me
Into a self lovable mess
And prepared me for all
That was going to come.
But you my love
You are my strength
You are an open book
To my escape,
You held the particles
Of this soul
And gave them
A perfect shape.
To me you are my "All"
You are the cure
To my past
Full of Rust,
Don't you ever Think
Of leaving me
You've been my all
Love and lust...
This heart is more
More than just an empty room,
I can face ...
Along with the Fall...
A mere cavity I am
Just like this room,
Moulting my creased skin
Scuffed from beneathe
Over the surfaces of my past..
I keep craving for the lush
Searching my escape deep within
An escape to the infinite
Within it's innumerable Particles,
Particles which forever last...
I will leave these bits of Rust
In the box where I used to Think
Think about it all!
Untouched by the mocking breathes
I will fade away along with the fall...
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Under the dusky pile
Where I hide
My creased soul,
Abandoned long ago.
A little more.
Oh it cries
And it cries so hard
In this volatile ocean of pain
Hoping to feel it's own tear
Before the particles fade away.
Come my demons come
Consume the more of me,
A room you gave me of rust
A room of my flesh
I give you for free!
My feet won't shiver any less
If this soul again gets exposed
So I think of My Escape
Leaving behind all
if you find me,
Under the dusky pile
Where I used to live,
You'll find me
Mocking at my demons
At their immortal misery...
Oh the Pretentious flesh
Are you trying to fool your soul?
I kept wondering all night,
Awake, silent, serene.
What all it took me to become myself... again.
For the nights when I cried for someone else, for those times I worried not being worthy enough of love.
All that was a heavy cost that I paid in parts of me. Parts of my originality.
I came to a point where I gave up.
And I am glad that I did.
I gave up on the false image of myself
Which I was foolishly accepting to be true.
I will tell you this one thing, believe me. It's beautiful to be able to completely accept oneself!
And if you are reading this today,
"Don't let your flesh
And it's endless ...
I lay back
Tracing my memories
Hoping to get closer to you,
Over the reverie
Which this heart felt
In your arms...
Soothe me again
Kiss me at the dawn,
Kiss me tonight
My love again
Cuddle me up
In your loving arms...
This might not be the day
For us to be one,
This moment may not be fortunate
To see our bodies intertwined.
These hollow lights
May not be
Touching our souls,
You have already owned
This heart of mine...
Soothe me again
Let me cry tonight,
Help me sleep,
Let those memories cuddle us
It's been a hard month.
In the mid festive season my younger grandfather was hospitalized for a week who ended up being in coma for 3 days and then expired. It was a tough time, going through that.
All those thoughts of losing someone near and dear. The flashbacks and heartfelt words ever heard echoing everywhere. Those precious times where you shared giggles with them..
All of a sudden yesterday when we were in our college hours another sad news came to us. One of our classmate expired in an accident. The reason of death was assumed to be him doing photography on railway tracks and coming under the train.
I have been reading several newspapers from the morning each giving some or the ot...
Allured by your love.
And all of a sudden
I owed my every bit to you!