|✌ 20; Live the life you love 💕 writes about love&life to the 🌏|
He leaves today a holiday and then a family commitment...3 long months without him physically by my side.
I already miss him, but I will be happy that he is going on his adventure. Exploring the world as an individual.
I can’t wait for my journey either. Being an individual first.
And then we will explore it together next year (:
This is the end of our chapter in 2018...stay tuned for 2019.
I know we are strong enough for this. We will be alright.
Thinking of you and him,
It’s going to be a new, scary and exciting 3 months from now.
I hope he still remembers me during his adventures...
I will definitely think of him everyday.
I hope you are well and happy.
Kindly love me with your heart until then.
I’m trying my best right now...juggling new and old things in my life.
I hope you are supporting me.
It’s been 8 months with him...is he you? I want him to be, but how much he wants me will determine our future.
I hit a low. I need to find my high now.
Let’s keep going and communicating.
Such a trek but it’s been 3 months since SD and I became. What’s going to happen next? I don’t know but I trust myself to make the right decisions for myself and us.
Each week presents a new challenge for us to overcome- is it you , is it me or is it just us?
But whatever it is...let’s face it together! (:
Im still learning about you and you me...I hope you take all of me in and see me for who I was,who I am and who I hope to be.
My feelings are so strong for you now...and it’s such a mysterious blissful grey. I hear myself claiming to love you but I also hear myself treading it slow ...and steady...taking in this serendipity.
Everything in me wants you 24/7 and I just want you to not talk and let me do all the talking hahaha
And what if I don’t fall in love? Do I really need you to catch me?...what if one day I just know in my hear...
Dear SD & 🌏,
We had a great date night
You picked me up as usual from woolies cabra hahaha buying snacks for the game :3 and then we went to buy beer!
I’m sorry I forgot my id ): thank you for being chill about it!
Then dinner at Candeloris, I honestly felt that I would instantly like the food since you’ve been there :3 the pasta with truffle sauce was a highlight for me! (Let’s go back one day just for that).
We both enjoyed watching each other eat :3 I missed you so much ...
I was so happy that we could share a meal together...me feeding you and you feeding me...that’s what I wanted -thank you
There was a moment where you were you fed me the Nutella dome - and u pulled the spooon...
My heart is set on you...nothing can change that now.
Will you trust me with him?
Or will I have to change my way?
I need to help him or at least offer to... he has been there for me...he has been there with me...he has been a true friend.
I know this can end badly if I don’t tread lightly...so I hope you trust me as much as I trust you.
Worrying about him,
We had your work hang today, dinner and then movies. It was awkward at first being in together in a group but by the time it was movies I felt right being by ur side (:
I know...it won’t be easy but let’s just try...
Movies was fun Hahaha I wanted to focus on the movie but we kept staring at each other Hahaha thanks for the jacket (; but now I know why you realllllyyyyy brought it for hahaha
After that we dropped off Brenda and her guy then went to our park... I opened up abit more and I hope you see it as me trusting you more.
There was a moment where we were listening to music and my head was in ur laps and we stared at each other...your adoring eyes on me ...I wonder if y...
Had our date today, went bowling and Ofcourse SD smashed me! Although I got one strike! And then we went to Kmart and walked around as a couple 😊 but I couldn’t hold his hand because he lost a bet with me!!! Hahaha but it was nice.... I like listening to him talk- it may not stay but it is heard. We had a flop moment when he chucked out the receipt but we needed it at the front for them to check haahah had to back to get it!! So cute- then we went to Liverpool Westfield, had lunch! Two burgers a chicken and a haloumi (: he devoured it whilst it took me a good half an hour to finish it (he was patient...had to be ahahah) and then we walked to chemist warehouse to buy stuff!
He thinks that a label magically gave me the security to kiss him with my tongue... so cute hahaha
But baby bear...i willingly gave you my first French kiss because it was my gift to you for compromising ...for choosing to be with me in the way I wanted. For your selfless act -I gave you my lips.
Okay I trust your decision- I trust that you are the bigger person and can protect us both... so the choice you made is the right thing to do.
We spent two hours today as a couple, thank you for buying me ice-cream (I think I’ll be asking this a lot of you hehehe). Had our first kiss as a couple by the creek near my home...I let you in (my mouth) and made out near Jt’s home >< wow hahaha something is clicking in my mind and these experiences will be good for me.
I hope that we make the most of this... I hope that we protect each other well. You are a priority now...and I will fight for you and us.
Liking the you who listens to me,
What have I done to him... what have I done.
Is this right? This is going to be a tough journey... we are so complicated when the plain truth is simple....
At 2am my tears come from hurting you... and you feel nothing.
On the 17th of feb we will never forget our biggest disagreement turning into ... something unexpected.
You’re a little bit happy, I am still numb.
I will never forget -Now we're in it, let's nurture it, protect it and let's make it work- your words...
I trust you, I believe in you and I like you.
From the bottom of my heart,
I am a blank slate...fill me with colour, fill me with light and shades and most of all fill me up until I’m full...
Never felt this way for someone...peaceful and flowly - I hope it lasts...
He’s a difficult person and we don’t exactly agree on everything but if he knows love and knows compromise then let his knowledge and experience carry us as far as it can... I will do my best to fall in love the right way for once. I will do my best to fight the right way for once. I will my best to protect him...
Yesterday we kissed 12/02 it started with the hand and then the arm... and I stopped him...he knows I have insecurities...and so he hugged me and we started all over again.kissing...
Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
you’re all that I want,
So make it come true.
Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
I am the happiest,
When I am with you.
The world has shown me how cruel it can be to someone who doesn’t deserve it at all...and I’m afraid that it’s not my job to rectify these signs.
I don’t think I can protect him and love him...and I certainly never imagined myself deserving him.
Can I be his friend? Or will I just hinder the both of us...
I will send good vibes to his happiness because I will never be enough...he deserves better.
To you whom I’m become accustomed to...your face has become one of my favourite faces.
Let me watch you from afar and never give you any hope of us...anymore.
Precious turtle you are
Thank you and goodbye
Just for tonight let my mind run wild...
I feel sad though...I don’t know why
My hopeful heart, and you?
If I love you then I have to do it right. But will you really someone like me?
Will you love me the way I yearned to be loved? I don’t think so.
I apologise in advance at the mess I’ll make;
The one who you held hands with,
Lisa h Vo
Just had a date ...first in 4/5 years and it wasn’t a fairytale it was reality.
We held hands in the cinema and felt myself tingle. Afterwards we talked... he fears commitment that he would have to sacrifice something in order to slot his gf in.
What do I want? I’m fine with anything...I can’t ask for much if I don’t know. If I make a move will he move with me or away from me...
Honestly it makes me confused ...do i allow myself to like this man or should I have him as my friend ?
Ps. He didn’t wait for me to go in ><
Ps. I adore his breathing
The libra in me is rightfully indecisive.
With love and good vibes,
The way you love, hurts the ones you love most. To bare it makes my heart heavy, but I’ll do it for you. And so we can just repeat this nonsense again and again... because I am there for you willingly. So right by you because the only thing you will have to sacrifice is me...always willingly. The ones I love most, I know best. #itsnotmyyear
A storm is coming, let the rain wash away whatever that needs to go and I’ll be there to clean up the damage.
I just hope I really can be there to...
My first crush was a boy in primary school- and all we did was hold hands.
He slipped away from me when we went to highschool and I forgot about him while I searched for myself.
It only has hit me now that he could be everything I have wanted for so long. He is literally my perfect match! He knows my shameful secret, he was someone who I could confide in when I couldn’t with my friends.
So why...did we never come back to where it all started? Why did I not see him as a potential partner? Am I too late now? Will he love me? How do I even come to this conclusion?
I am overwhelmed by this thought and wish I knew if the right thing to do is explore our unknown relationship.
It was coincidence that he was at #sanholo and that I was too.
As I greeted him, he came in for a friendly hug. Then he like a party animal danced until the music faded out- in the middle and up the front whilst I stayed in my circle wanting to come to him in an instant.
As I danced I couldn’t stop looking for him. Couldn’t stop admiring at his coolness. The Gemini has finally come into my life.
At the end, with one hand held onto my best friend in a crowded corridor our faces and our eyes met and we said our heys and byes... and then I did something I have always wanted. To start something. I decided to sing hey baby by Dj Otzi and the crowders corridor filled with his lyrics...
World mental health day is today.
I had a big scare with my close friend who has depression... it came to the point that she was in the emergency ward.
Frantic as I was, I knew my presence would give just a little bit of comfort to her.
I cried so much for you... and you looked at me with lifeless eyes.
I stuck a band-aid on her arm with my name on it to remind her that I am with her all the way. She laughed and smiled and told me I was an annoying friend.
My friend is stubborn and the last thing she will do is go away....I hope she gets through today to live for tomorrow.
Look out for the slightest signs and make sure to help everyone you can.
Be that annoying friend. B...
Had the third dream of my teeth being wobbly and falling out >< all this internal stress and anxiety ):
My internship is coming...and I'm super calm on the outside. But from the inside it's an organised mess. I've got this, lets do this!
Going to relax and chill then get to work!!
I love Marie...
I miss Marie...
I can't wait to see,
My girlfriend has been gone for 4 months now...and I'm starting to appreciate her in a deeper way.
Her non-stop talking.
Her laughter and hugs.
There's something odd about my body for a couple of months now...but I don't feel pain or anything unusually besides it.
I'm going to wait it out and see... and then if it is still like this then in September I will go to the doctors.
I hope it's just by body doing its thing...and nothing more.
Here's to the end of June! I have been busier than normal, and I guess it's because I'm nearly finishing my teaching degreee!!!!
Whilst studying- I had embarked on a life goal of mine and that's to write! I have 3 stories that I hope will be finished in a few years! Going to try with publishing a book and then selling a movie-script. It's going to be really hard I hear...but those words never stopped me becoming a teacher! So why should it stop me now!
Wish me luck!
Enjoy a snippet of this love I am writing about.
We kissed and I exhaled. I turned around and began walking but he didn't follow. Turning around I caught his eyes on me. He is in awe. "What are you doing?" Feeling myself blush as he scanned my body. He's eyes fixated on mine - "remembering this..." My lips pressed together as I extended my hand. he's eyes moved down to my outstretched hand and reached for it. Pulling him in closer, I wrapped myself around his arm. Am I strong enough to love this man?