Winter came faster than expected. She wasn't prepared. She shivered uncontrollably, as she walked past the river. Her thoughts were in a blizzard. Seeing the wizard perform, all the bad memories were triggered. She was bewildered. Her father was a wizard with immense vigour and was her idol and advised her to never be a quitter. If it wasn't for liquor he would've never gotten sicker. Her father passed and that made her hate the wizards. She was scared and not prepared to be in this world without her father. Winter just brought this flow of memories she never wanted to confront. She was ready to leave everything behind and affront the world. But, something didn't let her and that was her fath...
An Antsy Boy
He was labelled weird,
His reputation was smeared.
His life disappeared,
This is what he always feared.
He tried mingling,
It was riveting.
His anxiety was quickening,
His hope started dwindling,
The impact was sickening.
He was identified as a pariah,
But, in the eyes of his parents, he was their messiah.
His life was a mess,
Like students during recess.
He became misanthropic,
Optimistic thoughts became myopic.
Cynicism and Pessimism spread like a disease which was chronic,
Everything turned catastrophic.
Our expectations are often the reflection of our social mirror. We never actually sit down and assess our deepest values and priorities. Most of us do things just so we could be validated by our surroundings. We all just lead a very empty life where we just try to fit in with our surroundings. We don't question the things around us. We just accept them without fully understanding their true meaning. I just hope that someday we can all live a life where we can be ourselves without pretending for the sake of others and be free of all this burden that inevitably weighs us down.
Lost so many people this past year. Each goodbye was tougher than the previous one. I never wanted to lose any of them. The circumstances made me do it. I don't blame them only, i blame myself too. Even if they are not in my life anymore, not a day goes by when i not think about them. A little part of me will always love them, no matter what.
She wept all night,
She couldn't take it anymore,
She was so lonely,
She wanted to take her life.
He neglected everyone,
He couldn't cope with his life,
He was in solitary,
He wanted to give up on his life.
She was in agony,
Felt only apathy,
Standing alone in the balcony,
Was waiting for some kind of alchemy.
He was melancholic,
It turned him into an alcoholic,
Wished for some frolic,
Took comfort in relics.
She fell apart,
He broke into a million pieces,
She lost her heart,
He was drinking himself to death.
They were walking toward destruction,
His addiction and her affection,
At this time all they needed was each other,
But due to their egoistic and arrogant minds they both ended u...
Bitter words mean little to me,
I fought with you and now i am so lonely,
Thought of calling,
But i keep on stalling.
Thought you'd be here to always pick me up,
But, you were just an illusion i made up.
It was my fault to love you,
But, you moaned when i caressed you.
You tell me, was it fake? Or was it real?
You know what, it doesn't matter now cause i can't feel this anymore.
There's so many thoughts running through my mind and now i just know i can't heal myself anymore.
I want the old me that i left behind.
I am trying but i can't find him this time.
I am tired of this reality,
Hoping for some clarity,
All i get is this irregularity,
Feeding my insecurity,
Wanting some serenity...
Rode the waves,
Cried like droplets of rain.
Life filled with strife,
Fought with pride.
I can't thank enough,
To the people who stayed.
I know I raged,
But, still i cared.
Peace is all we wanted,
Violence is all we got.
Pieces of our love,
Ceased to exist.
Isn't it hard?
Isn't life threatening?
Do we bend before it? or
Do we rise against it?.
Her touch gave me goosebumps,
She made me feel alive.
I had all i ever wanted
It still felt too good to be true.
I thought i was day-dreaming,
But it was the reality.
For the first time,
I knew i belonged in her arms.
I felt safe,
I felt heard,
My sorrows were hers too,
Her smile took my pain.
She gave me a reason to live,
She showed me what love felt like.
She taught me caring,
She taught me sharing.
She was my everything,
But nothing good lasts forever.
So did we
But no regrets, only memories that i will cherish.
Love Never fades away................
Obsessed with her,
Depressed without her.
Suppressed my demons
Expressed my feelings.
She rejected my heart,
Accepted someone else's.
He broke her heart,
She still loved him.
I comforted her,
Made her demons mine.
Gave her my light,
Took away her darkness.
She fell for me,
I made her mine
She truly loved me
I did too.
Even after thirty years,
I still love her, the way i used to.
Even though she's not alive anymore, My love never faded away.
These waves they talk to me. They tell me their story, their sorrow, their ecstasies. They try to shape this world and show us that, how waves keep moving, we should too. We should never stop achieving our dreams, our goals,our aspirations. There might be stones that might try to stop the waves but it fights and gets through it. Just like that hindrances and obstacles come in our lives too. It's up to us to fight through it and emerge bigger and better than before. In the end, everything depends on us. No one else.
Love feels like this calm ocean breeze that soothes you and also makes you feel safe and comfortable. That's all everybody wants, that having somebody out there who has your back. Somebody who cares and loves you more than anything, more than they love themselves.
Life is like smoke sometimes it's dense and sometimes it's light. When it's dense it's filled with excitement, blissfulness, felicity and hope. But when it's light we forget every feeling we had and find darkness and make it our friend. We find comfort in feeling morose, melancholic and sorrow.
We start sympathizing ourselves, start feeling sorry for ourselves and forget who we were. There are a lot of people out there who lost themselves along the way and now they're just trying to get it back. My advice is stop searching for yourself, you won't find it. Accept it and try moving on, unless you do that you'll be stuck in the middle of nowhere. Once the scars have been made they stay with you ...
Expectations, hopes, anticipation and contemplation ruin us. Everyday we live in the hope of this day being better than previous one, but honestly it doesn't get better. It's either the same or worse. We hurt ourselves on a daily basis because of this hope. True happiness can be achieved only when there are zero expectations from this life or from anyone. This helps us from disappointment and in moving forward. This might seem like a pessimistic way of looking at life. But it's the truth. It's actually reality, that's too much handle not fiction.
If you're alone and you need somebody, stop looking. Go in front of a mirror and there is your partner in crime. Start finding solace in yourself. People will come and go as they please. The best way your heart doesn't break once more is if you love yourself more than you'd love anyone. Do things that you've always wanted to do. All this free time utilize it. Read a book. Watch a movie. Do anything. Keep yourself busy. Soon enough you'll realize that you don't need anyone.
Love happens in so many mysterious ways. You can never control your feelings. The harder you try, not to fall for someone. You inevitably end up falling for them. Even when you know that they're going to leave you eventually. You still can't stop thinking about them. It just stays on your mind the whole time. Now, you can either embrace this feeling and tell them how you feel or just keep running from it. Till you're finally tired.
It has become so easy nowadays being anyone. Everybody is just pretending, they are just wearing a mask so that they can hide from the world. Maybe it's because they don't want to show everyone they are depressed. Maybe they think people will judge them for who they really are. I get it. They're maybe right. But if you can't accept yourself as who you are. The world will never. It will never try to understand you. You gotta accept yourself, then even if the world doesn't it will not matter anymore.
The truth about life, don't get attached to anyone. They'll just break your heart. Even though you think they are the one or they are perfect. They will tear you apart without even caring.
Moving on seems so simple but is so hard. You just can't forget the person you once loved and continue on with your life. But i think moving on is very important because you can't be stuck in that same emotional state forever.
Decade by decade, year by year, day by day we all are growing in some or the other way. That's just how it works then why do our leaders still act like little kids? There's so much of tension going on but no one is taking an initiative to stop these kids before it gets too late.
Life gives everyone so many opportunities but some people are blind to see what they have, and take everything for granted. Taking granted is the main reason they lose everything in life. People don't realize that they are even lucky to have this life.
I loved her with every tiny piece of me,
Then why couldn't she love me with one tiny piece of her.
Sometimes when something bad happens you lose the hope that you'll ever be happy again. Eventually you come back to normal, thinking things will be alright this time. But life comes at you hard again and this time you're sure things will never be fine. Still believe that they'll come back to normal. Have a little bit of faith. Never lose hope.
As you grew up you understood the lyrics to all the songs, you only used to sing.
When you get too attached to someone, you think about one thing that if someday that person leaves you and go, How will you live your life without that person? and it scares you the most because you are used to that person .Your morning starts with their call and your night ends with their call.
Prayed every single day that someday she'll become mine. But some things just won't happen.
My life has come up to a point where i am hating myself. Everyone is really concerned and worried about me. But i am unable to return the favor. It's just that i want to be alone but i also don't want to be alone my whole life has become a paradox. I just want to smile for once, I just want to feel alive.
Think about all the times we had together, all those late night talks where we used to talk about our future and used to get happy because we knew that we would be together. But now you're a millionaire and a successful and settled person and i am still in love with you.
All this greenery tells me that there is still good left in this world not everything is that bad. Just see everything with a little bit more positivity. Be more optimistic. It won't hurt you.