Give me a reason to write again,
Without the tune of poetry, the silence is insane.
A hint, a clue; a line or two?
Waiting for a muse,
the words will ensue.
Sorry I broke a promise
was really worried about her
I texted her
but I assure you I didn't talk anything else
I will keep my words
but guess what
she does notice
she is asking why am I so sad from past one week
#A door, to my heart's core.
You're a day dream,
Who saves me from my nightmare,
Everytime when I scream,
You're always there.
But you're nothing more.
That's all I have in me.
There's just one door,
Which you can't see.
If you were to ever find it,
You'd have to try to open,
Find which is the right fit,
A rose or a gun.
Because once you walk through that door,
Where only you will see mirrors
You'll have entered my heart's core,
Where I hide my treasures.
Treasures in memories,
Treasures that will make you sad,
Here your belief will cease,
Of what we have ever had.
You'll discover what no one has,
Of all my mistakes and every sin,
You'll never want to pass,
Through the other doors withi...
The day my mind paused at you,
I really never knew,
If I could ever stop the thought,
Or the way my brain and heart fought.
Your glimpse brightened my day,
I never knew why you were the brightest ray,
But you could do this little magic,
Which is now nothing more than tragic.
This magic in my brain,
Taking away all my worry,
Like the feeling when it would rain,
And everything seemed to be merry.
This magic in my stomach,
Making me feel so light,
I could feel the flutter,
The moment you were in sight.
This magic in my heart,
It was so strong and rife,
Like a painter's art,
Has come to life.
The magic in my eyes,
When they stop at you,
Like the Earth meets the sky,
And everything feels new....
Roses and thorns,
Different, yet related,
Love or drugs,
#To dance with you, in the picture I drew.
What's the point of giving someone else a chance?
When I know it's only you with whom I wish to dance.
They say, just try and let go.
But they don't know.
The don't know why I can't move ahead,
They don't know what is unsaid.
"Just one bad experience it is,
And there's so much you'll miss."
It's about a beautiful experience to me,
The one only I can feel, think about and see.
There's so much here I've found,
In this, I'm forever bound.
No one or nothing can ever come close,
To the one I chose.
But, you see, this is my choice,
You may say I've given up all joys.
You'll always find me by your side,
But this story, I'll always hide.
I'm just a phone call to you,
And, oh! We exchange messages too.
But the reality is so far away,
I wait for it, each day.
I wonder of the sight,
If we were, how we write.
Last night I dreamt of you,
It was too good to be true.
Sadly, it's a daily fight,
To question, I've no right.
So, it'll continue how it is,
No one to think of or miss.
Cause our reality probably never existed,
Nor did those thoughts I always resisted.
- Ayushi Bafna
I wait for hours,
Just to hear your voice.
A euphony to my ears,
And my heart's rejoice.
- Ayushi Bafna
So, it was that day finally.
When they would part ways.
Never see each other again, maybe.
This was an end to those numbered days.
They'd tried to not count,
But it was undeniable.
They hid their heart break & sadness,
That's how it was manageable.
Through all smiles shared,
All those butterflies,
Each eye contact,
Were a lot of truths, maybe a few lies.
But now, in this moment,
Bringing an end to it all,
Bringing their little world down,
An unjustified, unexplained call.
Not a word exchanged,
Nothing else on mind,
Just deep thoughts,
No one else could find.
They left in that moment,
No tears did they share,
Just one last hug,
Filled with love, wishes, care.
It changes so soon,
In the blink of an eye.
How smiles are replaced by ugly tears,
How stars disappear from the sky.
It's crazy to think about it,
When it was just a few hours ago,
Was that really what happened?
She watched them go.
She sat there wondering,
Why me? No, no, she can't think
Why not me?
Trust me, that'd be crazy.
I told her, how could you?
How could you fall into the trap again?
Haven't you learnt your lesson enough?
Did you forget all that pain?
She sat there blank,
Like she felt nothing.
Like she'd been frozen.
But she was still breathing.
Tears dried up on her face,
The mascara spread through,
She told me silently,
I hate you. I really do.
I caught her,
I tried to put h...
Starting all over again,
Right from the scratch.
Maybe this is it,
Maybe I'll never match.
That one smile
Through the tears
- Ayushi Bafna
If only your letters were leaves.
I would sit there with my back against the tree.
One would drop down every time the anxiety of missing you would storm the leaves.
I would pluck down one or two ,every time I would pluck down a fruit , hungry for the sweetness of our memories.
And then I would sit through autumn , with the ruffling leaves, reading your letters in them.
The warmth of your words would carry me into Spring.
And as the chirping birds would hover around,ready to carry my messages...
I would write back to you.
When the moon was bright,
She laid it all on the table,
She wasn't that stable.
She needed to figure,
What was the trigger,
That broke her each night,
She knew something wasn't right.
So she made a list,
Each point, just a gist.
A few were tough to write,
Reminding her of each night,
That caused all the hurt,
And when she felt like dirt.
She tried & tried,
Till she fell & cried.
It wasn't the same old fight,
Through the tears,
She faced her fears.
She wrote again,
Bearing all the pain,
She had to do it,
Tonight, bit by bit.
Suddenly she came to a pause,
Unable to figure the cause.
Why? She thought.
With her heart, she fought.
It can't be it,
She couldn't sit.
Roses are red
She felt so blue
She tossed and turned in her bed
But that wasn't something new.
Lotus is pink
She saw the twinkling star
Before she could blink
She drifted somewhere far.
- Ayushi Bafna
- THOSE DAYS -
The beginning of a new year marks end of an era,
An era of living life by choice
An era of being with your people
An era when you never thought twice.
Gone are days where nights were spent binge watching F.R.I.E.N.D.S
And days were spent eating at every new place discovered
When we thought none of this can have any further amends
But little did we realize that these days were numbered.
There were days where lunch would become breakfast
and breakfast turned into our dinner even
But food was a shared love
Each of those days were enliven
There were nights when we would just stay up to talk.
Talk about the past, present and future
Those talks, those laugh...
Some days, you'll capture the sunset
In it's full form,
The others, you decide to stay in - waiting
For the demon to come
As the darkness takes over.
Then there are some days, you'll smile
because you want to see them happy.
The others, you cry it out - lying
On the bathroom floor
As the past takes over.
Some days, you'll travel
And lose yourself in the beautiful world.
The others, you'll stay behind those bars
Of all your sins and mistakes
And beat yourself up till you're exhausted.
Some days, you'll break free
Fight all the odds and keep your head high
The others, you'll be tied to chains
Making it hard for you to even move
Until you give in.
Some days, you'll...
My Dark Side (A Collaboration with "The Dark Nights")
I've mirrored my soul as hell
So that my demons can lurk inside,
So that they never try and outrun me,
Nor torment my other side.
Locked inside with no escape,
Keeping track of long lost days,
Where will my weary soul reside,
When there's nothing left inside.
Though I wish to be free
For the day I find the gun you search,
I shall kill not me but the dark side.
But then I shall miss him,
My only companion of dark times
For you can never judge a person's righteousness
Unless he has a dark side.
- Veeral A. Jain
P.O. No. 159847
The Dark Nights
The demons of the dark,
They wait keenly every night,
To take away my spark,
And then - nothing's right.
In the middle of this hurricane,
I stay at the eye,
Bit by bit I accept this pain,
No one has ever listened to this cry.
Hidden in the demon's shade,
Far some place from everyone
At night, away I go
To find that gun.
A pull of the trigger,
Would take me to another place,
But there are things that are bigger,
This isn't just my chase.
- Ayushi Bafna
Kuch yu Alfaaz tum likhti ho,
Jaise khat nhi, bolti titli ho.
Ye yu nasha jagati he..
Mano khusboo ho, gulaboon ke.
Inhe saja kar rakhta hu,
mere khilti Gulzaroon mei.
Baadi mudaat baad kuch baatein chidi hain.
Zindagi k safar mei hum dono apni rastoo mai chal diye hain.
Kuch haeran haeran si tum ho.
Khoya Khoya sa hu mei.
It had all stayed in
It's been there for quite sometime
She wishes it wasn't this way
But maybe this is a crime
She longs for it to reach him
She longs for him to reach her
But it isn't an easy path
It's for something that's treasured
She watches the sunrise
Hoping it will bring it all back
But the hope only defeats her
As the sun fades away in its track
At night the drops stay in
They cannot be shed now
She feels like all of it was a sin
But she just doesn't know how.
She closes her eyes to dream
Dreams of all those words that were said
Words that brightened her world
Till she's asleep on the large empty bed
She's taken far away
Someplace she called dreamland
But she knows it isn't real...
Facing your share of struggle,aye?
The moment of glory must not be far away.
Why dont you churn down some novels then.
Escape from the wild, like a lion to its den.
And maybe the cacophany of emotions will come to an end.
Coz afterall its the weekend.
My mood has been festive.
As the winter chill slowly sets in.
I've been wandering in the woods; trekking to some forts.
Some cycling escapades too,
Just for the love of sports.
A surprise for you is waiting,
A little patience, coz its in the making.
Now that you are back ,there shall be smiles and laughter.
You were missed,
Lets buckle up now,partner!
I think of you as an enigma, you get me thinking,
So, I summon words to solve it,every passing moment ,blinking.
Words didn't come by easy before,blocked, as if my mind plotted a treason.
Going by the exchange we've had, I've had a..
Season of Reasons.
You fridge my letters like artifacts, old.
On second thoughts, maybe you preserve it for the better, in the fridge's cold.
The air smells stale,my mood is pale.
The nights been keeping me painfully awake.
I sit dismayed with a dreamy gaze,
At works of poets,that leave me dazed.
Oh my muse, why do you refuse?
To meet me where our love once brew.
I long for you,my word is true.
So,why cross swords, and cause us harm?
Lets gamble with words,and work our charm.