It was midnight in 2016. I was crying myself to sleep because I looked at myself and the mirror and repeated in my head “ugly UGLY UGLY!” I was crying for 2 hours that night and when I woke up the next day for school, I still kept repeating it. I was “emo” back then so I was labeled an attention seeker and all my friends were mad at me so I didn’t really have anybody. I honestly did not know how I lived back then. I did, some days I regretted it, some days I didn’t. But I’m trying to not convince myself I’m ugly anymore but it hasn’t been working. I’ve been trying not to think about the awful thoughts anymore but it still didn’t work. I’m trying and that’s all that matters I guess
Have you ever felt not sad but really fucking empty like you aren’t worth it one single tiny bit :’(
Touch me all over
Call me daddy
Suck my dick
And ride me hard!!!
It’s hard to know
The way you feel
The way you act
The way you think
The way you hate yourself...
Just because I don’t act like it doesn’t mean It’s not there
I have to keep it all a secret from everyone
If I let them know they wouldn’t care.....