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Rebekah

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Nothing is more satisfying than saying what needs to be said...however, the consequences may be devastating.
December 9, 2018
 

Dear Mom,
You have always been my biggest supporter and best friend. You have taught me many things about life and a lot more about the flexibility that is needed to survive it. You have made me cry and upset me beyond what I thought was remotely possible. You have also made me laugh and graced me with your musical talents.
It is with the greatest sorrow that I see you now, so weak and tired. Pained by the tumors that have consumed your body, you now have to fight for your life. I hate that I’m not able to be there for you or fix this with a simple hug and an “I’m sorry”. I want to scream to world for you that is isn’t fair or trade places with you so that you can continue to touch the live...

TRUE LOVE
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March 25, 2018
 

Hello my inner thoughts, how are you this evening?
I see you are still not getting along.
No worries, I’ll stay up with you until we can come to an agreement. Even though that might make us stay awake ‘till the morning. I know there is a lot to be said, even more to be done. How about we try to solve problem number one?

*6 hours later*

Good morning my inner thoughts, I’m glad we could make it through this first pressing issue. Hopefully today will be okay, as I know you must be exhausted from arguing. Let’s put that fake smile one and try to get through the day. We really must make an effort to meet at better times.
Anyway, ‘till next time, I bid you good day.

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THE OFFICE
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March 25, 2018
 

Call me baby just once more.
Hold me tighter as I quiver with fear.
Show me you care and wipe my tears.
I hurt myself again, do you know why?
I’m just your bitch, I hold no value in your eyes.
You use me for stress relief, but fail to see me refusing to eat.
You own my attention by a ring, yet you encourage me to have a fling.
Reaching out turns into a shove.
How I pray to heaven above.
I found someone better, I think...I hope.
The risk is too high, so I might say goodbye.
You hold my weakness and flaunt it for all to see.
I’ll never be able to leave.

DARK DEPTHS
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November 12, 2017
 

#Music

There's no sunshine
This impossible year
Only black days and sky grey
And clouds full of fear
And storms full of sorrow
That won't disappear
Just typhoons and monsoons
This impossible year

There's no good times
This impossible year
Just a beachfront of bad blood
And a coast that's unclear
All the guests at the party
They're so insincere
They just intrude and exclude
This impossible year

There's no you and me
This impossible year
Only heartache and heartbreak
And gin made of tears
The bitter pill I swallow
The scars souvenir
That tattoo, your last bruise
This impossible year

There's never air to breathe
There's never in-betweens
These nightmares always hang on past the dream
There's...

LETTRS BLACK AND WHITE
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March 2, 2017
 

#SkylarkChallenge 76

Dimension, Chaos, Infinite, Parallel, Limitation.

I looked in the mirror today and for the first time in a while, my inner self showed me who I truly am.
It was as if I was in a dismal dimension that is parallel to my own, there was infinite chaos and abundant limitation of self worth.
I have visited once before, or so I believe.
I don't remember it being so bleak and depressing though.
I wish not to go back, but I have no control over that. After all, this is me...

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February 24, 2017
 

#SkylarkChallenge
Walls, Scattered, Open, Shelter.

My thoughts are scattered and I feel the walls caving in.
My eyes are wide open and searching for shelter, but all I find is you...

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February 23, 2017
 

I need to free my mind for a moment. Forgive me if my thoughts are incoherent.

I feel my mind splitting, beginning to think for two separate personalities. One so sweet and innocent, the other dark and troubled. I bounce back and forth between the two, but with the same person on the other end. You challenge both sides of me to be creative and articulate, unaware of my fragile state. You don't know that I live a double life, one open and public, but sad and restrained. The other hidden away in secret, yet full of life and free from chastisement. You know my hidden dark side, not my open identity. Playing this game is hard and wish I could combine the two people inside me...but I know I can...

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February 1, 2017
 

I have it for today, but might not tomorrow.
I watch with anxiety, as my time slips through my fingers.
Will this be my final night?
I guess we will find out...
Tick Tock.

#photochallenge

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January 14, 2017
 

It's been a year since my Angel passed. I miss you more than I can express. I wish you could continue this adventure with me. You were the best 4 legged friend anyone could ask for. You saved me more than once and then you left and I fell apart. I know you are at peace, and one day I will join you. For now, I find comfort knowing that you are no longer just Angel but my guardian angel.

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November 15, 2016
 

#SkylarkChallenge #61
Toxic, opportunity, curve, blade

"Tell me, why are you here?" He asked.
"Well...I have an addiction and I wish to get over it. Can you help?"
"Of course I can, why don't you start by telling me about it."
"Okay, well...every opportunity I get, I do it.  The feeling is just so, so...umm...I guess you could say toxic?"
"I see. Please, continue."
"I just can't seem to help myself. I don't even remember how I got started, it just happened."
"Most addictions don't just happen, but something can trigger you to feel such a need...sort of like muscle memory."
"Oh, I see...but the coolness of the metal, just the feeling of the curve of the handle...and don't get me starte...

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November 14, 2016
 

It warms your soul, bringing your mind some peace.
Just enough and everything feels right, but too much and your head may ache.
Red or white whatever your preference, sit back, relax and enjoy its presence.

Inspired by a lovely glass of Stella Rosa Black.

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November 11, 2016
 

Service is no small sacrifice

This I know...and for that I am eternally grateful for all those who have served, are serving and will serve.

To my Grandfather, thank you for setting the standard high and being an example to others. The way you carry yourself is inspiring.

To my Father, I know you struggle with the pain still...but I admire the way to persevere. You have taught me values that I continue to live out.

To my Husband, you are my rock and my shield. I adore you with all I am. I know it wasn't easy, but the time you served is appreciated.

#WhatDoesFreedomMeanToMe

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November 11, 2016
 

He stands there, waiting...
Looking out into the mist, He calls "Take me already!"
For in his mind, there is no reason to live.
She is gone.
She left before him.
He is alone once again.
He has nowhere to be and nowhere to go.
Living under the bridge has been hard, but it was easier with her.
His companion, his guardian, his life...gone.
"Goodbye Angel..." he whispers to the ground, as he buries the motionless golden retriever.

#photochallenge

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November 10, 2016
 

Skylark Challenge:
Dismay, Monsoon, Vacuum, Swept.

As I stand here in utter dismay, I wonder how I let this happen...
How did my son become such a slob?
I'm terrified to check his closet...forget looking under his bed. He used to be so clean, but then he turned 15. Sigh.
I remember how I wouldn't have to ask him if he had swept and how he always forgot to return the vacuum. (That was the only thing he forgot to return). Nowadays, I walk in and a monsoon of laundry topples over me, I'm not sure if it's clean or dirty. It smells iffy...maybe even a little fishy? Good God! What is that??!!! Oh, it's an apple...I think. Ugh. That's it, when he gets home, it's deep cleaning time.
No "fun" t...

BARNEY
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November 4, 2016
 

I'm trying to branch out a bit here...
Tell me a little about yourself using only song lyrics.
It would be cool if you named the songs/artist you use. :)

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November 2, 2016
 

It's not what sports can teach us...
it's what we learn about ourselves through the game.

#whatcansportsteachus

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November 2, 2016
 

Music is my way of communication.

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October 31, 2016
 

Skylark Challenge:
Dragged, Fret, Blisters, Swaying

тнє ℓєανєѕ αяє ѕωαуιиg ιи тнє ¢нιℓℓу єνєиιиg ωιи∂. ι fєєℓ тнє αυтυми ωєαтнєя fσя тнє fιяѕт тιмє. тσиιgнт ωιℓℓ вє α ρєяfє¢тℓу ¢яєєρу нαℓℓσωѕ єνє.

αѕ ι gєт тσ тнє ℓαѕт нσυѕє σи му ℓιѕт, ι ¢αи fєєℓ тнє вℓιѕтєяѕ σи му fєєт. ωну σн ωну ∂ι∂ ι ¢нσσѕє нєєℓѕ σνєя fℓαтѕ?

ιт ιѕ ραѕт мι∂иιgнт αи∂ ι'м єχнαυѕтє∂ fяσм му тяι¢к σя тяєαтιиg. ι αм ѕσ ¢ℓσѕє тσ нσмє ωнєи ι fєєℓ ιт...ѕσмєтнιиg σя ѕσмєσиє ιѕ иєαя. ι вєgιи тσ fяєт...ι мυѕт gєт нσмє.

тнєи ιт нαρρєиѕ, συт σf иσωнєяє ι αм вєιиg ∂яαggє∂ ιитσ тнє вυѕнєѕ! ι ¢αи'т ѕ¢яєαм, ι fєєℓ ∂ιzzу.....∂αякиєѕѕ σνєя¢σмєѕ мє.

ι ωαкє ωιтн α ѕтαят. ωнαт α нσяяιвℓє ∂яєαм...ι мυѕт яємємвєя тσ ωєαя fℓαтѕ тσиιgнт ...

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October 30, 2016
 

As I sit here looking through the window into the falling rain, I wonder if things will ever change...

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October 28, 2016
 

I am mistaken day by day...
For I am too dark for many...
I am not a color or so they say...
But does that mean I'm too shady?
-Black
#color

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October 28, 2016
 

"Nothing is so common as the wish to be remarkable..."

(attributed to)
William Shakespeare

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October 28, 2016
 

"The farther backward you can look, the farther forward you will see..."
-Winston Chirchill

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October 24, 2016
 

ℓєт υѕ ¢σиѕι∂єя тнαт ωє αяє αℓℓ ιиѕαиє... ιт ωιℓℓ єχρℓαιи υѕ тσ єα¢н σтнєя, ιт ωιℓℓ υияι∂∂ℓє мαиу яι∂∂ℓєѕ...

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October 22, 2016
 

Locks keep out only the honest...

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October 16, 2016
 

ʏᴏᴜ ᴅᴇᴍᴀɴᴅ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ ғʀᴏᴍ ᴍᴇ ᴀs ɪғ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴏʀʟᴅ ɪs ᴍɪɴᴇ ᴛᴏ ɢɪᴠᴇ...

I do what I can, but it still isn't enough...

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October 15, 2016
 

I have held the sun for so long, I forgot how the rain felt...
My stars are gone there is only night...
You were my hope, now you are my weight...
I am back to where I started, we both know how that turned out...
I want to shout and speak my mind, but my voice is gone...
I fail to sleep now, with my dark mind...

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October 15, 2016
 

нσω ιѕ ιт тнαт ѕσ мυ¢н тιмє нαѕ ραѕѕє∂ αи∂ ѕσ мυ¢н нαѕ нαρρєиє∂ αи∂ уєт ι fєℓℓ ωσяѕє тнαи вєfσяє? нσω ¢αи тнιѕ вє? уσυ ωєяє му ѕανισя, ι ѕαι∂ ι ∂σ, ωє'νє α∂∂є∂ αиσтнєя...αи∂ fσя α тιмє ι ωαѕ нαρρу αи∂ вℓιѕѕfυℓ....вυт иσω ι'м ℓσиєℓу αgαιи.

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MUSIC ON, WORLD OFF
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June 2, 2015
 

Five more days...
All I want is a true family dinner with both parents...
I can't handle this "pick who you want to be with" way of life anymore.

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BUD THAT BLOOMS
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May 31, 2015
 

It's that feeling you get when you are losing someone that hurts the most...

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LETTRS SHERLOCK
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