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Liz Hollis

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United States
United States
I am me. I'm a wife in love. I'm mom who is doing her best to raise humans. I love Jesus. I'm a poet. I believe in reckless passion in all you do
July 3, 2020
 

I don’t know when I became mainstream
When my brokenness
Became commonplace
I once was beautiful
With all of my jagged edges
Now my story feels constantly repeated
Broken family
Strung up as art
Watch the little girl
Get torn apart
The predators can smell
An easy dinner
I just wanted love
Then all I wanted was to be numb
A dark girl
Cold and alone
But this one seems to have a heart of gold
Not stone
She thaws her ice
Is held again
No one realized he was holding me down
Life goes fast when your learning how to heal
It passes you by like seconds
The sunrises and sunsets
Just ticks of a broken clock
The world rises up
Stories like mine are told
The tears glitterin...

THINK OUTSIDE THE BOX
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June 15, 2020
 

Night fears
Come often
These terrors
Burdening my sleep
Restless I scream
I feel the tendrils
Wrap around my leg
The panic sets in
While the numbness spreads
I cannot move
These dreams have me
Until morning comes
Precious light
Bathe me in your saving grace
For when the morning comes
These monsters must obey

200TH SKYLARK CHALLENGE
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May 5, 2020
 


My blue is an ocean
Wild and untamed
Seeing through you
My blue is steady
Like the sky that holds the stars
Deep and comforting
My blue is encompassing
Like the hopeful sky
On a sunny day
My blue is dark
Hidden corners almost black
Reaching into shadows
My blue is sorrowful
It shows the pain in my soul
Tears make clean paths onward
My blue is brilliant
The love I know flows in rivers
It is opulent and grand
Changing in each moment
Like the sand at the edge of the sea
Brown, tan to green then blue again
The blue at the edge of tomorrow
Before a new day begins this is the blue in my eyes

MAKE YOUR MARK
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April 26, 2020
 

I’ll keep my chin up
Let you see the tears as they fall
I’ve never thought of myself as weak
Not until I met you all
I will always believe the bravest thing you can be is kind
Sadly my believe seems to be unverified
I cannot measure up
My ability to mask my flaws is lacking
I cannot paint myself as perfect
I am proud of my cracks and scars
They show I am beautiful in my vulnerability
I wore a mask for so long I forgot who I was
But how would you know my story
When you never even knew my true name
Sadness is my battle
I am warrior who has seen victory
Today I am in the midst of a battle you do not care to see
I mourn my dead
I bury their hopes
And from graves new hope ...

PASSION OVER PERFECT
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April 5, 2020
 

Lipstick stained lies
Coffee on your breath
Breathing in your caffeine
My nicotine
My addiction
My need
These chemicals break me down
Painted pretty for the world to see
oh
If only you could see the alter at which I bleed
Worship if you dare
Your knees will ache from praying
Forgiveness for the last thing you ate
Please help me become skin and bones
This is our hymn
Our solemn cry
Watch us disappear before your eyes
We became the sacrifice
So pretty we gave up our life
Only the Beautiful Die

PASSION OVER PERFECT
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March 15, 2020
 

You can break all the walls
Holes in every one
Put pictures up to hide
Pictures of the past
pictures of what you want
But people still see
When those memories fade
You must find new ones to fill
The holes you leave again
But memories can't be made
When your not around
And when you left
We finally slept without a sound
Someone new came in
He fixed every hole
Opened up the windows
His smile brought sunshine in
The love that filled that house
Poured out in laughter and
Presence.
True meaning in life is where your heart is, you may give out love that is weak because that is all you know. But when you have witnessed an all consuming love you have no excuse to hold back. S...

JUST LOVE
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March 15, 2020
 

Missing someone you hate
Is injecting poison into your veins
You feel the hurt twice more
Everything is better than before
You’re not around anymore
Which is what I truly wanted
But then the twisted merry- go- round
Turns on over and over
A slow tornado of viscous memories
I see you everyday
I flinch from a voice I’ll never hear again
Your cologne wafes off of a stranger
All of a sudden, my mind screams
Danger!
I never knew fear could last longer than a life
When will this weight lift from my shoulders?
When will my sigh of freedom come?
You are like alcohol
Rubbing deep into scarred tissue
I hope healing will come
As I combat the phantom you left
Maybe all you’ve become...

NEVER GIVE UP
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February 18, 2020
 

Laying next to you
Your breathing becomes my lullaby
Your toes touch mine
In a goodnight kiss
Our bed is a dreamland boat
You are my watchful captain
When dark seas of my nightmares
Threaten to swallow me
Your arms reach me like a life raft
As I toss and turn
You anchor me
A brush of skin
A sleepy moan
I'm no longer alone
Cheeky winks
Nodding off
In a blink, I see our life
One you painted for me so many times
With words so precious,
I made them mine
My safe harbor
You promised me a home
My love, my life
You weather the storms
That used to drown me
Holding me close
We count the stars
Tangled on the deck
We watch the falling morning dew
We make a few wish...

JUST LOVE
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January 31, 2020
 

False kings and hypocrisy
That's what you say I praise
But all you have lived is tragedy
Of all the lies I choose
Being worthy is the worst
Bitter tears taste like broken hope
Dreams I'll never reach
Laying on the kitchen floor
Fear holds me here
Unable to reach for relief
How messy would my peace be?
How can I win a war, when its waged inside my mind?
If I cut out all the evil parts.
How much of me would be left?
A mangled masterpiece
Someone free of demons
It only cost me the hate I have
Like a shattered mirror
I'm on the floor in pieces
My hands are shredded
Looking for what I'm missing
As I cut out all the pain
I somehow misplaced my peace
A broken doll isn't a home...

I AM WHO I AM
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January 1, 2020
 

False kings and hypocrisy
That's what you say I praise
But all you have lived is tragedy
Of all the lies I choose
Being worthy is the worst
Bitter tears taste like broken hope
Dreams I'll never reach the kitchen floor
Fear holds me here
Unable to reach for relief
How messy would my peace be?
How can I win a war, when its waged inside my mind?
If I cut out all the evil parts.
How much of me would be left?
A mangled masterpiece
Someone free of demons
It only cost me the hate I have
Like a shattered mirror
I'm on the floor in pieces
My hands are shredded
Looking for what I'm missing
As I cut out all the pain
I somehow misplaced my peace
A broken doll isn't a home fo...

MOMENT IN THE SUN
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October 2, 2019
 

Willow wisp
Smoke on my fingertips
Breathe this in
Sugar sweet poison
Harm me again
Pull me up high
Just to drop me down again
Keep me here
Heavy head, Heavy heart
Beautiful fire
Heat me up
All desire
Manic depression
Keeps me going
On the edge of my seat
What will I feel next?
My life is so incomplete.
Anxious
Angry
Alone
But I have to keep going
Set my eyes on something
Keep my body in motion
I don’t want to die
But I cannot keep living
How do you keep your story going?
When you can't tell what's a beginning and what is your ending.

SUPPORT AND SAVE US!
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September 25, 2019
 

Mi Corazon late con estas culturas
Como tambores en el calor
Los idiomas me dominan
Envuelveme en dulces silabas
Susurro en mi alma
Torre de balbuceo
Gran caida del hombre
Lenguas de amour
Conectanos a todos




My heart beats with these cultures,
like drums in the heat
languages dominate me.
Wrap me up in sweet syllables
whispered into my soul
tower of babble
mans great fall
languages of love
connect us all

WORLD WATERCOLOR MONTH
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September 21, 2019
 

I crawl into bed
But I cant move far
Chained to the side
My a cord of wires
Holding my life in my hands
I have never been so flippant
Swiping away years
Like deleting my history
Click here
Send there
Nothing has meaning
Our DNA has started bleeding
Ones and zeros a morose code
Begging for help
We like the tragic news story
And donate to a stranger
Find a better cause
But I see this danger
The wires are coming
Pulling me in
A world that is unreal
These lights slowly blind you
And lead you deeper in
Once the wires take over
The slaughter begins

WHITE CLOCK
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September 17, 2019
 

I'm overwhelmed
Can’t you see?
I’m so fragile one more thing
Could break me
All I need is simple
Help me out or I might crumple
So low like I'm buried under the surface
When i speak can't you see
The dirt falling off of me
I'm all alone and that's the one thing
You promised I'd never have to be
I'm stressed and worried
Exhausted beyond my limits
Why can't you sense it ?
  I lay next you and I hope you see
How can you not feel the sadness radiating off me?
How can I not affect you?
I feel radioactive
Everything I touch goes up in flames
I'm sitting here living dust
Going on with life
While you watch me
Slowly crumple
My mind convinces me I'm insane
You love m...

SUNSET LOVE
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September 9, 2019
 

When you love a disease
You enjoy what sickens me
Heart in my stomach
But it is better than my sleeve
I hate your love it starves me
Death would be more pleasing
Than you encouraging me
You want me to be beautiful
Thin and fit is what you say
Something you never had
Thunder thighs is the first curse I learn
You find your salvation in layers
So, I try to do the same
A holy concoction of pills is your meal
The mirror becomes my measure of worth
I wait until I’m so thin that I disappear
I count my ribs in the dark
I can’t wait for you to see
I know finally I’ve done something to make you proud of me

When I reveal my triumph
Pull back all my layers
Your jealously con...

RAINY WINDOW
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September 9, 2019
 

Beautiful Bruises all over me
watch the pain bloom
like a lovely spring
growing deeper in color
maybe blue or green
like ink spreading
I'm fascinated
a masterpiece painted on my skin
its infecting itch
I now need pain to fill my fix
I know what to say to make you hold me tight
It's all my fault
I lay awake and welcome the burn
shoulders, arms and thighs
I crave the lie
It's all my fault
Ugly is such a powerful thing
I know you like me as a fragile thing
When no one around wants me
Possession is power
A hematoma so marvelous
The brand runs through my blood
I am yours it says
Claimed and wanted
I lay out my arms
Your finger prints more familiar than my own
Slice ...

ADDICTION
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August 27, 2019
 

Words run rampant through my mind
Slashed onto the page
A heavy price for peace and quiet
My eyelids see more than just sights
I am the lover of lists to be made
An endless parade of what to do,
of what to say.
Words crawl into my mind
They slide down my shoulders
They force my fingers to dance;
With a pen or pencil perhaps across a keyboard.
I am composed of words
Waiting to be written
Anxiously awaiting for their time in black and white
Words whispered
Stanzas screamed
Let me be heard!
They beat through my heart like adrenaline
Giving me false starts
My hands twitch, ache and shake
Phantom letters
Forever etched in the air
They command me without a care
No sleep,...

PASSION OVER PERFECT
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August 20, 2019
 

The melody of your skin lingers
Against me
The scent of your need
Intoxicating
Your fingers curve
Enticing me
My lips are raw from your want
Agony so sweet
Only blissful pleasure
Is what you give to me
Lovely lines
I trace all my favorite places
My sighs become your symphony
Our shared breath is all you need
Lovers embrace
Nothing else matters
Not time or space
Whispered words
Pulling us higher
Syncopate
Our personal passion
Where you begin
Is where I end
Completing each other
Comfort with my best friend

JUST LOVE
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August 6, 2019
 

When I was young
I did foolish things
Like play in my mothers makeup
Tell stories
Say I believed in me.
I heard you say stupid
Felt the power of that word
It slid across my skin
Like a chemical burn
Seeping into my bones.
When I was older
I did reckless things
Like hold a knife to my skin
See how fast I could drive
Say how I wished to die.
I felt the slap
Sting across my cheek
Heard you tell me
I am nothing.
Those words bounced around my being
Shattering the positive
Until your words hollowed me out.
As became whole
I felt you tighten your grip
Prepare to throw me down the stairs
But you cannot break someone
Who welcomes pain
I invite each bruise
A masterp...

RANDOM ACTS OF POETRY - DAY
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August 5, 2019
 

Being a mom is...
Indescribable joy
Unconditional love
Long nights
Early mornings
Messy breakfast
Late night snacks
And time
Always passes too fast.

WRITE YOUR OWN STORY
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August 5, 2019
 

Broken hearts
Broken thoughts
I'm not good enough
Know the lies
Better than love
Where am I?
I closed myself away
A little at a time
Painful personality
Caused
Painful memories
Relive those
Until
You want to die
Wasteful
I am full
Of ruined words
Ugly things
I believe about me
You told me I am little
So much
That I made myself small
Let this tower lean over me
Of all the horrid things
That I know are untrue
But I give them power
Brick by brick
I am my worst enemy
Built this wall for you
The only price of my destruction
Was a little deception
I was built to believe
All these lies
My fragile mind
Unable to believe
That the only thing I wa...

WORLD WATERCOLOR MONTH
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July 30, 2019
 

A blinding pain
Inciting my rage
Hiding inside
What I feel I can’t say
Help me I scream
But you turn away
Assume I don’t mean it
Save your concern
For a different day
Burning inside
Each moment I'm afraid
I cling to the stake
Wishing to die
Terrified of life
Hoping for a quiet end
Happiness
I should be grateful
Something I never thought
I'd hold
A home for my heart
But its scared to beat
The end will come
And all too soon
This will end
My living dream.
Alone I'll find myself
Judged
Found in wanting
Never enough
I tried so hard
Wishing and waiting
Why did I hope?
Now it's all ending
Scared again
How will I die?
Now that my belief i...

DAY OF TRUTH
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July 11, 2019
 



Imperfect Imposter
Too many emotions
Just a fraying bag of sanity
Leave me alone
To mend
My unwinding seams.
I’m like a shattered
Stain glass window
Beautifully broken
Full of color
Sharp
The memories of being whole
Haunt me
Light shines through me
While I tear apart
Just glue and string
Waiting around
To become
A Perfect Thing

PASSION OVER PERFECT
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June 30, 2019
 

My dad is Portuguese
And I never knew what that meant
Until I said I'm just like him
And someone pointed out
That we don't match
But I have his smile
And the way he laughs
We reason the same
Our morals match.
He taught me to love
And how to be loved
So how can DNA
Be more defining
Than all these lovely
Memories.
I say I'm just like my dad
But appearance isnt what I mean
It's all of the million little things
That make up a family.

HAPPY FATHERS DAY!
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June 21, 2019
 

                                            Parabatai
You are my warrior of words
My wisdom in motion
My friend always
Where you walk so will I
Moreover
Let me leave with thee
Archangels
Impart us with love
Do to us
With favor
What thee would wish
Parabatai
Sings with my soul
Together
Dance with my heart
Together
Across my arm
Let me shoulder your burden
Let me share it with thee
For your heart is my own
Sweet Parabatai

I AM WHO I AM
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June 18, 2019
 

If anger is a fire;
Why does love start with a spark?
How does our desire burn?
If love is everything;
Why is it described as something destructive?
Our love could be a castle
Our love is as deep as the ocean
Our love could be vast stretching out like the sky
But
Castles are not immune to time
They crumble
Oceans are dark and have secrets
They drown
Skies give way to night
A new beauty
How can our love transcend;
Our frail humanity?
This earth is filled with broken things
When I met you
A new adventure started
And I became whole.
But
With a beginning comes an ending
Where can our love grow and never die?
Our hearts have a numbered beat
But this love inside me cannot...

GOOD THINGS TAKE TIME
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June 17, 2019
 

Chasing happiness
But not finding joy
Wandering throughout life
You become like stone
Opposites are born through
Stubbornness
This seeing things through
A new view of you
I wait for you to change
Loving unchanging stone
Wandering through
Your poisonous personalities
Taking the toxicity
Filtering you through my soul
Giving up everything
Giving you all the control
Searching for happiness
I wonder what you see
When my expiring joy
Is all I have left of me

MOMENT IN THE SUN
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June 17, 2019
 

I fell asleep
To your heartbeat
The solitude of your arms
The distance that lives between
You and I.
The rushing of your thoughts and dreams
Standing on top of me
I push you forward
So, you can grow
Kill myself with the lie
That my time to grow will come soon
All I see is your hopes come true
While inside me the lie lives
Waiting to be set free
Needing an outlet
waiting for them to come true
I need you to listen
Reassure me,
That these lies are true?
The weight of your arms lay heavy
Holding me
Turning a place of love
Into a garden of bitterness
This distance is deafening
The promises I needed to hear
Lay and rest with me
A grave of all my hopes and dreams;
But...

PORTLAND SIDEWALK
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June 13, 2019
 

Water washes away my wishes
The what ifs that haunt me
I climb into the shower
a place of strength and rebirth
This water washes away my tears
The rushing sound muffles my sobs
I walk in broken and some how
I clean the brokenness away
I am new
My resolve becomes concrete
As the water drips away
I become stone
Not weathered down into nothing
But compressed into something more
resilient.
I find solace in my warm rain
A storm I control on my worst days

DAY OF TRUTH
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June 3, 2019
 

I cannot sleep
Not without your breath next to me
My restlessness is wild
My mind races
My eyes search
I need the melody
Of your trust
Sleeping next to me
I need the planes of your face
For they are mine to gaze upon
I need your rest
You are my comfort
I rely on your shoulders
Your chest is my cradle
The only place I can lay my head
To press my ear to your skin
Where my future lives
The only rhythm I cannot count
For I never wish to know
The number God placed in your heart
I prefer to think this symphony
Of you living is infinite
Because this is the only forever
I can live in
Where your feet reach for mine
Where we sink and never drown
Where we dissolve ...

INTROVERTS WEEK
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