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Bekah Hollinger

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United States
United States
October 18, 2018
 

The rain awakens my senses
It refills my soul
The sweet heady perfume
Of humidity cascading down
Rain washes over me
Cleans away the bitter day
Refreshes the aching land
Rain is life and vitality
Taste it on your skin
Water and salt glistening
Listen to it's sound
How powerful the pitter patter echos
When thunder booms down
The clouds darken with a secret
For only they know
How long they will scream out
Rain refills the oceans
Turns a trickle to a stream
How greatly it effects us all
How quickly the end seems
Leaving puddles and warmth
In it's frenzied wake
Or perhaps after it's steady beat
Wrap your skin in sweet humidity
Like a kiss over too soon
You watc...

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October 11, 2018
 

You can break all the walls
Holes in every one
Put pictures up to hide
Pictures of the past
pictures of what you want
But people still see
When those memories fade
You must find new ones to fill
The holes you leave again
But memories can't be made
When your not around
And when you left
We finally slept without a sound
Someone new came in
He fixed every hole
Opened up the windows
His smile brought sunshine in
The love that filled that house
Poured out in laughter and
Presence.

True meaning in life is where your heart is, you may give out love that is weak because that is all you know. But when you have witnessed an all consuming love you have no excuse to hold back....

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October 11, 2018
 

Now I lay my babes to sleep
I pray the lord my airmen
he keeps
Under wings, when not with me. Have angels watch us
In our time apart
While heavens marvels
What great hearts
Where two grow far
Three stand firm
Amazing what can last
Where prayer comes first
And selfishness last
When I'm alone
The tears may fall
But soon I know
He'll return
And I'll be whole
So angels watch my man tonight
Until he's home
My husband, my hero
My life.

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September 20, 2018
 

I look to you and wonder
Which of our lies is truer?
The one you painted thin on your lips
Or the ache I carved in my heart
I look at you and wonder
Are you silently judging me?
Tearing a near castle down so you feel higher
I look at you and wonder
When did it become a contest?
To see who could be someone’s conquest
I look around and see so many beauties
Who only want release
You hear the words but never believe
Please just stop looking at me
Don’t bother with the mirror
Because what’s really pretty
Lives dormant deep inside
You locked away the innocent
Traded her for skill
Took what you wanted
Looks that could kill
But listen to the little girl
Who just wants to tw...

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September 19, 2018
 

Honestly
I’m more broken than I seem
You think you know
But all your eyes see
Is the mirror I put in front of me
My armor is bloody
Silent battles you put me through
Never knew what I was doing
Took the mask from my captor
All this time spent fighting
And it was you
My skin is a road map home
Where I’ve been, you’ll never see
Things that haunt my dreams
Cold and alone
My safe harbor, I retreat inside
Safe is not the word I’d use to describe you
The bruises I hide come from the words you use
They burst from my chest
Beautiful wreckage that rains down
Just because my smile is in place
Doesn’t mean I can’t feel the things you do
Better needs to be Best
Its hard to see...

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September 19, 2018
 

Acceptance
To some it seems like a four-letter word
For me it means being beautifully free
Waking up to know
That tomorrow will be better than today
Not because of effort
It should be effortless
Breathing in
And letting go
Acceptance
This is what life is made of
Growing up
Getting out
Saying goodbye
Sunset
Brings in another sunrise
You choose to see only bad
But I'll choose the joy
Love, laughter, light
Sunrises fill my life
It’s a choice everyday
Not easy, Nor skilled
Choices of where I want my life to grow
This is where I say hello
See you soon again
Because acceptance is a four-letter word
But it isn’t in what you see
Because in your world
Change is a disgr...

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September 17, 2018
 

And in the shadows
I see my insecurities
My simple humanity
Painted red, raw across my skin
Words could be a comfort
Wrap me up in a lie
Save my skin for another time
But when I’m alone
I lay bare
Reflected at me
Are all my deficiencies
I choose how I see these
Whether weakness or strength
Your voice will not dictate
My beauty or worth
I am enough
I am full of words
I am a terrified of my heart
My feet wander the path
My soul sings
My arms are always full
This is me.
I breathe in
I let you go
In the darkness we may find ourselves
The truth under our lips
The whisper that lingers
The scream hiding inside
Let it out
You are worth it
Your heart will beat
Even ...

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September 16, 2018
 

How else could I describe passion?
How else could I show you myself?
With a scary truth
And a maddening vulnerability
With lies and secrets
Whispers to a crowd
And screams to the trees
Or crying into a quiet stream
Writing these words
Pushing the physical
Breaking toes
Bending the music
To erase my woes
Do I create the wonderland?
A mad passion that made me take
Everything for my King
And leave behind myself
The brokenness that filled my emptiness
Can you hear my lips?
Will you listen to the story in my eyes?
Can you walk my roads?
Dance through the storms
And smile into the rain as I did?
Listen to my words.
Listen. Imagine my voice
No matter how long gone I am
The...

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April 25, 2016
 

Adult tantrum
Letting go
Would you clean up?
If I left?
What would be ruined?
Would it all be the same?
Being young
Not letting go
So controlled
Everything's the same
You can't reinvent yourself
When your an adult
your always the same
Being a wife
Being a mom
Joys of my life
Constricting me
Change is good
But where did my change go?
I love you
I love her
But how do I love me?
Thinner
Better
Best example
Small cracks
Invisible
Being perfect means
Broken only in seclusion.

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September 15, 2015
 

Hearts never break
Not the same way twice
New fissure
Nicely cracked
Beautifully broke
We throw away toys and glasses
Fragile things are sacred
But our hearts we bare on sleeves
We open up our chest
For people to see
Poke and prod us
Please!
Rip us away
above our forms
Sew them up
Mend the cracks
Put on clay and glue
Like cheap nick nacks
These beats are precious
And few
For the more cracks we gain
The more we must make ourselves
New.
What happens though?
When we protect that heart
The fragile thing that beats?
It runs wild
Galloping off after every sunset
We risk becoming stagnant
Old and decayed
Never broken
But surely never made new.

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July 21, 2015
 

Except
Accept
One is an excuse
One is the end
One prompts a question
The other goodbyes
We accept death,
We want to here
Everyone except you are regular
Every one wants to be normal
No one wants to be plain
All three mean the same yet
All so different

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March 10, 2015
 

My, I love you's
Are not the same
My I love you yesterday
Has changed for today
I am not repeating myself
I am not simply stating
I am learning new things
And falling in love
Newly everyday
So I loved you yesterday
So I loved you today
But
Wait until tomorrow
For our love never stays the same

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February 21, 2015
 

My Darling
My Daughter
My Little Maggie Moose
You change and you grow
So big you've become
Giggles just for me
And smiles for daddy
Dancing around with our little family
Watching your eyes
You learn and you love
So young, my sweet
So innocent, my love
Never could I say,
how much a heart holds
Because my love for you still grows
In the darkness and in light
I'll always be here
Through the days and rough nights
I'll catch your tears
And coax your laugh
I'll be here to yell at
But no matter what I'll never leave
Because my mother told me
I must teach
I hope more than anything
More than the stars in the sky
And more than snow flakes that fall
To show you how
A mothers love grows
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February 2, 2015
 

Please don't tear this apart
Don't tear me apart
Ripped into shreds
Broken and bleeding
Loved truly
Torn completely
Where are you in this mess?
Feelings unsure
Never spoken
Promises broken
Worn like a noose
Hang me
Hang us
Purity in death
Purity in new life
Bring me back
Take me down
I'm waiting
Bleeding
Tears are falling like rain
Cold like ice
Rhythm in fears
Falling
Watching it all in reverse
I believed
You denied
I waited
You left
I tried
You promised
I stayed
You left with her
I left with him
Your hurt, my heart
Wanting to be done Please don't tear this apart
Don't tear me apart
Ripped into shreds
Broken and bleeding
Loved truly
Torn completely
Where...

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November 17, 2014
Wasilla, United States

Boys only want the chase
Torture ends in disgrace
Men pursue
But women love players
Girls daydream
Stolen kisses
Long nights
Heart ripped
But still beating
Lungs drowning
But still heaving
Is this love?
Or just wreckage?
Never forget the hurt
Always remember his face
Love truly
Love messily
Love never ends prettily
Stop wishing
End daydreaming
Wake up
Our poor girls
Chasing heartbreak
Lovers and lust

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October 23, 2014
Wasilla, United States

My friend
Who had love
First kiss
Last worry
I told myself no more regret
Be careful
Be safe
I can't fret forever
Dear one
Lost brother
Please don't run
Sweet one
Gentle one
Toxic can't control you
Rage rage rage
Not against the ones who
Can hurt you
Don't let these powders
control you
Smoke can bend to will
You just need to fight it
A path that leads you forward
A light that won't let go
My love will always hold you
My arms wish to reach you
Protect and save
Believe, believe
Trust me
I want to help
Wishes won't save you
Prayers I hope protect you
Lost one loved one
Hope will find you
Loved one lost
No one will replace you.

For John Allen Wolf
If he doesn't ...

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October 16, 2014
Wasilla, United States

Sleeping at last
Feels like I'm not sleeping at all
Different times
No different worlds
I've waited so long already
Your awake when I'm asleep
And around we go
Promises and hearts
Feelings feel like wires
Please don't break a shattered thing
Even if it hurts step in-between
Keep dancing to our song
I hear your voice as it calls to me
I wake misted eyed and lost
I dreamt to have my love by my side
And woke to find him gone
Each morning is the hardest
as it starts like this

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October 16, 2014
Wasilla, United States

I've lost all my heat
My breath escapes me
Water hides the tears
That I refuse to cry
Which mask is real
What story is true?
How can I find the true you
Without losing the real me?
Could I change you with a smile?
Or is that childish dreams
Running faster
And spinning with questions
That only I can answer
Why is it that the farther I fade the louder this chatter becomes.....
Please God take this
How many times do I need to cry out?
Why am I drawn to this?
I am still so young
Show me your way
I'm scared of the dark
Dreams I can not remember
And a still silent heart
Should I try to revive my faith?
Where is my hope?
I cannot find the pulse to my smile
And all I want is to run to...

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October 13, 2014
Wasilla, United States

Your family should be mine
We work so well with one another
I miss your arms
Hold me close
I miss our doorways
Now they swing close
Why can't I let this go?
I've tried so hard
Please help me let go
Being tethered to you
Hurts everyone around
What should I do?
These what ifs kill me
I just want to know
Uncertainty is my enemy
I love you
I try to leave you
I love him
But when I leave him
I love you
My mind is flooded
These memories won't relent
Coming after me
I drive
I sleep
I cry
I plead
But still you have my mind
My heart twirls
And burns this love it hurts
Because I'm his not yours

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September 24, 2014
Wasilla, United States

Drowning slowly
In all these opinions
Torn rapidly
In all directions
Choking
On my morals
Suffocating
In this family
Scars show what I've been through
Her cries keep me up at night
His love keeps me going
Songs and poems hold my sanity
I hold everything that's breaking
Inside of me
My mind
My heart
My family
I'm losing myself
In what I am doing
I don't want to snap
I can't let go
The pain inside keeps rising
I try and ignore the burn
Everyday it rises higher
Trying to smoke me out
I hold on so tight
To a string
That's already broken

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August 20, 2014
Wasilla, United States

I can so perfectly
See what my life should be
Road trips, sunsets
Nights we would never forget
Inside jokes
Like the doorway
So shy
We never came out and say
What we felt was real
Looking back
And looking ahead
I wish I could
We are past these childish things
The wants, the almosts, the tears
I miss you already
What would we do with one more day?
Being blissful and forgetful
Just living in a moment.
I know if you gave me one memory
I wouldn't leave
Staying stuck in last year
Is impossible to do
Since this year
I won't have you
I'm sorry for the hurt
For the wishes
The wants
For the lingering what if?
Be happy
Be strong
Be everything I know you can
Move on
Move forwa...

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August 18, 2014
Wasilla, United States

Trapped in a life I created
One mistake
Love misleaded
Hope and heartache
I needed a release
Least of the evils
I traded dancing
My family
Joy
Love
A future I ached for
The addict in me wanted a break
I wished to purge
Work off the world with a sweat
Lose myself in silver, black and red
Instead I shed my skin
Gave all I had
I gave in
Now life is what I have inside
Although I feel dead everyday
Why can't I escape this depression?
When will I find relief?
I daydream about giving her up
Breaking my heart
Releasing my soul
Giving up and going away
I want to run away but she deserves life
I took life once
I won't be weak this time
I'll make sure she's here safely
But I can on...

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August 11, 2014
Wasilla, United States

Passionate arms
Sweet kiss
Unsatisfied words
That refuse to burst
Sparks
Then fire
We're consumed with desire
Adventurous nights
Exploring each other
Lovers trust
Secret fights
We hold it all inside
I break, you break
We build each-other up
Mountains and castles
Our own dream world
Rust and sand
Don't let it fall down
Knees together
Lips apart
Come on sweet lover
This is just the start
Years to come
As months go by  
Let's run husband
Until our wings learn to fly
Soar with me
And help me grow
Please sweet love don't let us go

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August 11, 2014
Palmer, United States

Pink and blue
Perfect harmony
Absolutely worthy
You are mine
And I am yours
Bound in rings we wear
Sworn to our hearts
Light that guides me home
Always in your eyes
Heart that holds me
When fears or uncertainties
Come our way
Arms become my castle
More than just my home
My friend
My darling
Waiting
For our soon to be daughter
Growing
Strengthening
Working with each other
Love and honesty
Wrapped in communication
Still waiting
And praying
Loving you true
Our story
Of pink and blue  

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