|amateur writer, love Kim Jonghyun, books n chocolate, predictably & unpredictable, trying to find the lost the spark in my work.|
Love is such an obstinate language, neither you understood me
nor, could I express my love to you.
Life does feel unfair,
I don't know when things became so complicated
Everytime I see you, I try not to think of you
I always decide, I am not going to think of you,
Over and over again.....
However, I come across your existence in a beautiful way.
This really makes my day, but I also feel sad at the same time.
I love you, you told the entire world through music,
But, I wanted to be the only one to love you.....
There are times that make me think back about you
No matter how you look at me,
With smiles or with seriousness,
I will never forget you
At all times, infact everywh...
Someday, out of the blue
I hope you will return
A beautiful soul, so desolate, lost, wandering, searching for your destination.
You were ecstatic and blessed with victory in life.
The entire world bestowed love and blessings on you,
And you left suddenly without a word
I still cry, thinking about you...
I tried to convince myself by saying that it is a matter of feelings...
Doesn't seem to work!!!!
My heart still remembers your love for music...
It was stupid of me, to want to be your one and only love...
I am still at crossroads, trying very hard to forget you
I guess, it's impossible to forget you......
I am still here living without you, but still loving you....
With the world steeped into silence,
In the piercing dark stillness of the night
The stars remain silent in the sky...
The world seems so empty...
yet, I search for something that left my heart restless and in pain,
My beating heart knows that I have to endure this unending despair.
I don't know if my love for you was real,
I keep on convincing myself that I love you everyday,
even though, I feel so stupid
Your existence is so deeply rooted in my heart,
I don't know if it is love????
But, I sure did miss you today,
I will miss you tomorrow, and I will miss you everyday....
Look into my heart and you will see the meaning of love
I know it is a dream,
I don't want to let you go,
Your love gave me a new meaning,
Losing you, brings tears to my eyes...
I thought you were safe in my heart forever....
But, now you have found a better place for yourself....
And, all I have to do is send you away.
I hope you find the peace you always craved for in life,
I am just left behind with a sad, aching heart and tearful eyes....
If I ever meet you again, tell me the meaning of love by looking into my eyes.
Do explain this to my aching heart, coz I"ll be waiting....
Is it impossible for you to give me your love,
Because, now I love you very much....
I guess I am just a mess
Or maybe I am just lonely
Life just seems bitter
but I know my head's a storm
and my chest is empty without you
A musical star
I keep wondering if you will ever know me,
I do think about you everyday,
Which has made me very different ?
You had everything,
Yet, you chose to give it all away;
and embrace eternity....
Your life seemed so perfect
I Didn't you give it a thought that,
something which I missed?
You were a shining star
Polished and perfect
Without a speck of dust
You were the definition of perfection,
Living in perfection.
Life of perfection.
Sometimes, I think if I still love you.....
Although, time has passed on,
but your memory still lingers on in my life.
They know me so well.
I’m funny, silly, and positive.
I’m hyper, always smiling, and always laughing.
But, they don’t know me as well as they think.
They don’t know what I do when people aren’t looking,
when my friends aren’t with me,
and when the house is silent.
If they knew me as well as they thought,
they wouldn’t be laughing with me.
they’d be crying.
A Parallel life
I can’t wake up
I open my eyes up to partly clear skies, I look around and see a ghost town, a place I once knew.
A place I once loved, and yet I still wanted to fly up above.
The partly clear sky isn't all that meets the eye,
there is a black cloud I'm in the midst.
Alone once again
Forced to deal with my thoughts,
The more I struggle and struggle my patience starts to wear me down.
I'm stuck in a world that I don't want to know, and there is no way to wake up.........
All of my life. I have been trying to find myself, trying to get somewhere. I have tried over and over to get things right, and when things are looking up for me, it's like a wave is being crashed into me, knocking me deeper and farther into the ocean.
Some days are better. Floating peacefully above the water. Then the insecurities and pain drag me down like sharks. They take me to the bottom where there is nothing but sand, creatures, and darkness. There is no way up.
Whenever I act fine, it seems as if I am perfectly enjoying paradise above the surface. I just need to make sure other people are up there safely so then I have to worry about nobody but myself. I know there isn't a way t...
"While he was feeling better.. Something was still giving him anxiety. He couldn't understand what it was until he opened that book. Something fell out and as he picked it up from the ground...
with trembling hands, a familiar aura filled the room. The writing at the back, had the date and address. It was reminiscent of the bygone days, his life, his love. Tears welled up his eyes.
His heart was filled with unknown happiness and the memory of his love left him refreshed.
Thoughts of contacting her started lingering in his mind.
Things evolve, people change, situations change, will there be a chance for a new life
He got up and drove to her place. Standing at a distance, feeling his heart, h...
I wonder what colors are,
just like a gust of wind bringing me your memories....
It was raining today,
the feel of the raindrops on my palms,
reminded me of you
It made me realize
"Memories are like raindrops
the tighter you grab it, the faster it slips away"
Take me somewhere, someplace where I can just look at you all the time
My only regret is not knowing you
I once fell in love
with a bright star,
Nobody knew that I loved the bright star,
Nobody knew that I even existed,
I guess, I just pushed myself to love the beautiful star with all my heart......
I learnt an important lesson,
love chooses you,
not the other way around.
all I have is your music
and beautiful memories of you....
Meet me again somewhere,
where you can see my love for you....
I want you to love me like I do.
I never asked for the star to love me in return,
It hurts continuously, now that you are not here anymore....
With time, it will be the same as before....
Stars do shine and die,
but, your light will always linger on in my memory........
My love will...
I will just be a
I will try my best,
to set an example,
as a good human being.
Never go in
search of love
go in search of
Life and life
will bring you
the love you seek
I chose to search for love,
a dumb mistake.......
Life seems exhausting at times.....
My mind runs at 1000 kmph,
and I can never
seem to catch up with it......
Sometimes I do feel like a graded_manufactured product thrown out into life,
with a price-tag on my head,
born and bred to mint money every second.....
for the employers I work for....
A smile can always take you places, create magic....
take you to places of unimaginable happiness, give you peace.
your smile always makes me cry with happiness......
As you are resting peacefully
But, I will always have you in my heart,
I cannot change the things in the past, the people nor the world,
I will try to see the beauty of life without complaining about your non-existance in this world
I know, I have to walk alone with this unbearable pain through this passage of time.
Next time, I am never letting you go out of my sight.
" I think sometimes, people don't understand the loneliness inside me,
the loneliness which I bear alone in my heart."
Without you there is always a loss that I will always feel,
Your smile spreads like a rainbow that lights up my heart.
Without you things feel a little empty,
Even the world seems strange,
except for the empty blaring echo of your music
Nothing can replace your sound of music
Beautiful thoughts and dreams about you are endless
My heart is so restless without you,
just hide me in your heart forever
hide me from this world....
I just want to be there where you are,
Your music helps me remember you,
The world seems unrealistic.
Maybe someday, somewhere, I will fi...
We walked 2 steps together,
but you chose a different path...
Leaving me all alone
I know, I can never be your love,
nor can I be your friend,
If you ever need a companion,
Let me be the one to accompany you...
I will walk with you wherever your path leads....
Let me be a part of your journey,
Let me walk beside you always
I will comfort you at every step
Somewhere along the way, at a turn in your life,
you will need someone.....
someone to comfort you.....
someone to talk to......
I will be right there next to you....
I will always be close to you wherever you are,
Look around, you will find me smiling at you.
Life is short,
Time is fast,
Tomorrow is not a guarantee.
Enjoy every moment
Life is a war,
It makes you face challenges
You are alive for, the reason
A reason called purpose
I wish, I could say this to Kim JongHyun
"Sometimes the strongest people in the morning are the ones who cried all night"
When I lost my way,
I found you, only to rediscover myself
I know I will never see you again,
I will cherish you till the day I die......
I don't know why it hurts so much
There's a precious word in my heart,
which is hidden deep inside me
"Stay happy wherever you are"
Warm light spreads everywhere,
but doesn't reach my heart;
I am still struggling with this unfamiliar world;
The sweet melody doesn't revive
the purpose inside me.....
I close my eyes and try to listen
to the music.....
Only trying to figure out where things went wrong,
I still don't know where to start my story
My heart is broken
I remember the past days
Don't know why it hurts so much
Past memories and faded recollections
In my heart it's always been you, Kim JongHyun
Help me find you in me
I still remember you
All about love
1. How you love like crazy ...
"I realized I was thinking of you, and I began to wonder how long you'd been on my mind. Then it occurred to me: Since I met you, you've never left." — (Unknown)
2. Why love hurts ...
"Pleasure of love lasts but a moment. Pain of love lasts a lifetime." — Bette Davis
3. Love is strength ...
"Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage." — Lao-Tzu
4. How love works ...
"Love is like war: easy to begin but very hard to stop." — H. L. Mencken
5. Love is life ...
"Thinking of you keeps me awake. Dreaming of you keeps me asleep. Being with you keeps me alive." — (Unknow...
When I find someone like you
in this wide world;
although words are spoken
unspoken thoughts do remain,
my heart tries to find some joy too.
I once had a thousand dreams.
But, Now my heart is very sad
I try to dry my tears from my eyes
I could never say goodbye....
These days seem hollow
And these nights seem dark without you....
My soul feels empty, as your memory lingers
Lonely days is what I endure, everyday....
Words don't have a meaning
Your name is what I remember,
Your music is what I have as a reminder,
Your heart always belonged to music,
Your music keeps me close to you,
One day, I want you to recognize me, coz I loved you.....
Promise me that you will love me too....