Another baby later and I'm back.... Again.
Mothering 2 innocent little minds in this horrible world... Is difficult!
It's all about thinking your partner is cheating on you..... Making a fake Facebook account.... Downloading random pictures.... Sending them to your partner.... Catching him in the act.... Trying to hold it all in till I can turn around and tell him to shove it up his arse!
I for some reason have a guilty pleasure but at the minute it's a want!
I want to have a naughty secret affair but only on email! A bit like fifty shades
I know it's wrong but everybody has needs!
I love lettrs I really do!
But I'd love to go back to basics & write a letter to someone and put a stamp on it and send it off and have the antagonising wait for letter back!
Does anybody else?
If so get in touch I'll personally send you a REAL letter! You can then be my real life penpal!
Could do with a loan but through no fault of my own me and my daughter are suffering!
I have to sell everything that I own to support my partner not even for my daughter or even myself,
I suppose this will be a goodbye again due to me having sell my phone again
It may be 9days till Christmas!
But here on lettrs is the only place I can get away from being a mother and a partner.
On here I can be me, myself, I can be who ever I want to be!
To the makers of lettrs I am thankful & I wish you a merry Christmas & a happy new year!
Late night lettrs- get messaging me for a lil chat ❤xx
When things happen in life whether it's good or bad ..sometimes you don't know what the outcome will be or how to deal with the situation, I've got a friend that is engaged and was very happy , her and her partner were on the rocks and found out they having a baby...there over the moon because they love each other...but since he works all day and she's on her own she became good friends with one of his friends as they understood each other's bounderies..but they slowly started to like each other ..she doesn't know what to do as nothing has happened and they haven't exactly expressed their feelings..but what is the outcome of this and how she will cope ? No one' knows not even them and within...
I'm the girl that yes has a drink but doesn't do drugs..... Life's got that hard for me I've started taking pills that I don't even know what thy are what's in them or what they'll do to me... I need help before I destroy my life in more ways than one :/
Easter....a time of happiness
It means i got to face up to my problems head on, im going to be made homeless un 26days, im going to lose my partner my dog my friends my family my dignity my self esteem......everything
I cant help myself and neither can anyone else.
so I woke up this morning and everywhere was covered in snow...and I thought go myself..everybody else's lives will be put on pause today as they can't get to work etc...my life will never be put on pause as at the moment I have no life....yes I have family/friends.....I have no job no money shortly no where to live my relationship is on the rocks, I wish I had just enough money to get up and leave....
Just when you think everything is going fine there's always something at appears that puts doubt on it all..
I've just received an email telling me that I've got sacked, luckily through no fault of my own just they haven't got any more money to pay their staff..I've also had a letter through the post telling me if I don't come up with some money this week to pay my council tax, I'm going be sent to court and thrown out of my home...im only 20 how did I let it get this far...
not a great start to the year..got find some money from somewhere....
first is engagement party......then my 21st birthday... then hen/stag do.. ..then our BIG DAY ! inbetween all this is a house move and hopefully conceiving ! THIS YEAR WILL BE MY YEAR!!!
Supposed be going out for tea tonight...apart from my partner will choose his drugs over me as usual... Why do i carry on like this, because i love him and weve been through thick and thin but now i hare going to sleep an once im asleep i dont want to wake up. :(
Just sat here thinking to myself...what do i want out of life? What is my biggest dreams?
My biggest is to move abroad and live there with my partner
My second biggest is to be able to have a child
So why arent i doing anything about it?
Maybe because ive got no money, not even enough to get some new clothes :(
Its all about moving forward in life....but you cant do that till you leave your past behind out you.
Once you have done that you'll find everything will fit into place an you'll be the happiest person youve ever been.
Then look back on your past...what youve walked away from...what youve left behind....and just smile, dont say anything, dont write anything...just SMILE.
Depression: what is it? How do you know you've got it? How can you tell people are experiencing it?, you dont and you will never know, you can go off what the doctor/counseller/internet says, you can go off what your friends and family say, but really....youll only ever know when your at your lowest and stop yourself from doing something stupid....like me. I got to the point that i ha wrote myself a suicide note to look at when i felt at my lowest and now...im glad i did as ive got everything ive ever wanted, never be afraid to help yourself! :) xx
I've gone past breaking point...I'm at the end of the road..
How do you know when you've found the one? We'll I fell in love when I was 12 with a boy across the street..things changed we both changed our lives changed..we grew apart..we became different people.. He went away for a couple of years..he came back..we catched up..we still live our seperate lives..yet 7years down the line I feel the same as I did when I was 12...
What would you call that?
Id love to be able to meet that person who I can be their bestfriend and their SOUL mate..I dont think I will ever be able to find that because everyone still lives in my past..when im trying move on
it's 11:26am and its raining again.. not that I mind the rain because I dont im glad for what the skies give us..the reason I say skies is because I dont know if theres a god up there..ive got no religion but I have got one secret religion that ive got a spiritual religion that doesnt mean I see ghosts I can do a lot of things some things I dont and cant share with anyone..I also help others with things that have happened or things that they've seen...infact im very open-minded about all religions and about everything in life...I think thats how everyone should be...open-minded
never be afraid to express your feelings..because one day you'll look back at them and realise what changes youve made in life and it will always point you in the right direction. .↑↑★
I feel that im alone in this big place..I feel that im nothing..I have no real friends...I feel like I dont belong here..I feel trapped...I feel like theres no meaning to my life...I have an amazing family. ..I feel ive got to try to be something im not...I put a smile on my face everyday..I dont know how I feel anymore im not happy but im not sad either.
im giving up slowly. .
did you know that there is only 5 faces in the whole world..and that everybody fits into them in different ways?..I find it amazing that we're all connected in some way even if we're not related, blood, friends or if weve never met before..in a way we're all one big family xx
loneliness. .some people despise it..some people worship it..Some people have no choice...others choose it... I personally love to be alone because deep down I know I never am...nobody is..we all live in a world with a million eyes.a million ears. a million mouths. .we're never totally alone even when in total darkness...
life..no one explains how it is or how it will become because its how you make it but when somebody makes it for you there's no explanation for it. you let yourself get taken away from you. you let them turn you in the other direction bit when it all goes wrong..your the one to blame wven if you never had your say. fight through all the bad and sadness in your life and youll soon find your own happy ending. ♥