Happy New Year💕
A night of surprises,
A night of communication,
A night of fornication,
A new year together,
So many bangs, up's & down's😉
Both sore, both crying out in painful ecstasy...
Rest now baby...you've deserved it😈
I will be there no matter what
I will mop your brow
I will listen to your sorrows
I will lighten the darkness
I will catch you when you fall
I will be your guiding light
I will be your everything
I will be strong when you are weak
I will be your love, forever, eternity........
Happy ...the word we all claim to be even when we aren't even close...
True happiness is felt in a blink of an eye with a thought,action or memory....
Nobody is happy all of the time nor can make it another's responsibility to make it so...
I am happy right here right now....there are many blinks of that eye .....I AM HAPPY☺
No airs but plenty of graces
Has seen the world & many faces
A mixture of joy & sorrow
Always looking to tomorrow
Unaware of her worth..a true treasure
Integrity & honesty beyond measure
Strong but weak like no other
Lover,Friend,Sister...but first a Mother
Poor fragile mind
Are you ok?
So manic & lost
Up in the clouds
Down in your boots
Love then venom
Whenever it suits
Poor fragile mind
Are they ok?
Can't be healthy
Around this all day
Obsessed & distressed
Often daily perturbed
Friends turning their backs
Put on or disturbed?
Poor fragile mind
Are you ok?
Trying to wreck lives
Nothing new to say
Time you changed the tune
Read all to him since Oct when you got in touch
You thought I had gone
You've left out how you kikd him so much😂😂
Poor fragile mind
Are you ok?
I know you are troubled
Dwelling on past every day...
Why does it bother you so?
Does it make you feel better to lash out?
Does it make the demon...
Extra extra read all about it...
Back to reality
Cold outside, hot in bed
Days & nights wrapped in each other
First Valentines then anniversary
Lots to celebrate😉
But now back to the world
Wish it would snow every day😈
Dynamite, sparks & fire...
Nothing dampening our desire
Dirty, filthy acts of lust
Like two creatures lost in must
Laughter,passion,love & care
Entwined raw animals souls laid bare
Months,weeks days roll into years
All paying off our path is clear.......
As he approached her
She shivered with fear
The intruder spoke not a word
Her body froze knowing what was on his mind
As he pinned her down, brutally taking what was his, over & over
She met him thrust for thrust,bite for bite
Until both were crying out....panting, sweating, spent....
Tears in her eyes & a smile on her lips
Beware the flying monkeys
For they have no true master
When they turn & bite
The poison can kill....
Shadows come from light
They are nothing to fear
If your light shines bright enough
The path to your promised land is clear...
"In with the New"
New adventures to be had
New memories to made
New viewpoints on what haunted the past
New challenges will arise
New solutions will be found
New levels of commitment
New smiles to share
New levels of understanding & love
Looking forward not back x
Is there anything more beautiful than making love?
Eye to eye
Lips tearing & touching
Explosions of stars
Paralysed together in rapture
Unaware of hours that have passed
Just two people as one.....
Perfect New Year😘
Goodbye dear Lettrs
It breaks my heart as such a beautiful app
An opportunity for me to express
honestly & without fear...
However I cannot write on here anymore due to a bully/stalker....
Anything I express is used against me so it's best I uninstall...
Keep writing everyone
A sharp intake of breath
Close your eyes
Let go & free fall
Fear & joy all at once
Life is for experiencing
Existing is not living
Not all have safety nets
No need for them
It's up to ourselves to be our own net
Life is now...this moment not future or past
Goodbye worry, hello life
I knew it all the time......
Anxiety is a bitch
Worrying about worrying
That awful trembling inside
Making mountains out of molehills...
Add in a couple of stressful weeks & it can take hold...I'm determined it won't.
For my sake, my little boy, & my loves.... I've always been told I'm strong...to feel weak as a kitten is alien to me...but I'm human & must be kinder to me, take my time. I'm just grateful my loved ones understand & are so supportive... It must be a shock to them.
I meditated for the first time yesterday
Felt the earth beneath my toes
Let go & truly loved myself inside out
I've never felt more calm or relaxed.....
A new daily ritual
A fresh outlook
Watch this space.........
Sunday morning pt2
A different kind, waking up without you here...
Despite us being on the phone half the night...🐉
It's strange when I've woken up with you every morning for goodness knows how long....
I miss my breakfast😈
I miss Sweet C serenading me😍
I miss your smell....
It's not for long but still a different kind of Sunday morning all the same😉
Life as we know it.....
Up's & downs
Twists & turns
Good & bad
Happy & sad
Life as Ive known it....
I stopped writing, I stopped drawing, I may as well have stopped breathing....blocked,afraid that if I looked inside too hard I would never recover.
Knowing someone was purposely trying to destroy me & mine...Hurt people, hurt people they say. But why hurt me...I wasn't to blame.
Firing back didn't work
Begging to be left alone didn't work
Ignoring didn't work
For some nothing works
So enough is enough, it's time for the past to remain exctactly there...forgiven...erased...gone...that I've made sure of.
Now no more energy or power to be given to the meek or the bitter....the victims of ...
You jokingly say "oh go on please get it...I'll be your best friend"
To which your lover responds quite seriously... " that infers that you aren't already" 💏
My beautiful autistic son showing the wonderfulness of the spectrum,
Somebody showing you their flaws unashamedly,
Accepting my own & embracing them,
Taking risks into the unknown,
Waking up with my lover each day albeit at 5am!😉
Watching an old couple still holding hands like teenagers,
Hearing a wave crash to shore,
A song reducing me to tears in it's wonderment,
Having the best friends you could wish for,
My mum slowly coming back to life after an awful experience,
A smile from a stranger,
Frost on a cobweb shimmering in the light,
Feeling scared & excited all in the same moment,
Sharing every aspect of your sexuality no holds barred,
Nothing beats being wrapped around you baby.....especially this weekend...knowing you're not leaving.
The future is bright for the three of us, a new chapter, fresh horizons.
A year of many, many ups, a few downs but hey that's life....
What doesn't kill us makes us stronger..
Happy Anniversary Cowboy xxx
Sunday Morning Recipe
Take two people
Entertwine them around each other
Lazily explore each others body
Add some lust
Make sure both fully satisfied
Return people back to bed
Ensure sound bar is on
Add some country music or comedy
Wrap arms around each other
Add some giggles & turn up the heat
Make sure they are piping hot
Throw in some biting & spanking
Only stopping when spent
Then curl up whilst male serenades....
Then & only then do you have your perfect Sunday Morning recipe 😍
" Give Peace a Chance"
I'm not one for lecturing or confrontation but I cannot stand hypocrisy.
You cannot be the victim in a story if you were the perpetrator or a knowing willing participant.
You cannot claim to be an injured party if you knowingly tried to hurt another.
When others are trying to put themselves back together you should not be reminding them of a past indiscretion, constantly, without thought of anyone else but your own version of hurt....you maybe hurting the healing of something real & true.....
It's like the person who was truly wronged does not matter if you constantly rub salt in their wounds.
We all get hurt in this world trust me I know this more than most,th...
Nothing makes me happier than when you are here....
A surprise last minute visit to vanish my tears,
Making me groan,smile & giggle to soothe away my fears,
An awful week erased in seconds because you are near xxxx
Now way a Valentines day I wish repeated!
But now she is safe & will get better....the phone call ...cardiac arrest...induced coma...and the frantic journey to ICU...
So very afraid that I would lose her not to the cancer she was having removed but because her heart wasn't strong enough on the day that heart's beat stronger & faster!!
I don't know what I would have done without the support shown to me by those who love me...especially you who I know had a very anxiety filled day for entirely different reasons! It made my journey back in the early hours a welcome distraction from the worry & stress of the very long day we both had...so very inappropriate but needed none the less as fantasy ...
Days of hedonism
Didn't realise how much I'd missed it
Animals to the core
Very much more than once bitten
But never shy with each other
Fun, frolics & fire
Definitely brought your 'A' game
"Recruiting" was never so good😉
Utterly demolished & spent
Why did Friday come too soon????
Note to self:-
I am good
I am loyal
I am smart
I am strong
I am trustworthy
I give my all.....
I am a mother
I am a woman
I am a friend
I am a whore
I am a thinker
I am a joker
I am an open book
I am everything...
I am me
I am beautiful
I am LOVE.........