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So I've been seeing this girl for a littler over three weeks now. I'm thinking about taking her out to dinner tomorrow and asking her to be my girlfriend.
We click really well, we have so much in common... things are going really well, she's already said to me it makes her sad thinking about me being or seeing other people. I told her I'm not seeing anyone else.
I want to make it official though, guess I'm just a litter nervous...
I really like her 🙃
I just want to take a second to boast about how good you life is right now... you know it took me a long time to get where I am today and I'm honestly so fucking proud of myself.
Like fuck I'm almost at a year clean of self harm, stupidest thing I ever did. But I'm so proud of how far I've come, it's been a seriously long and hard struggle... there was a few times I thought I wouldn't make it but I just kept taking it one day at a time and eventually life started getting better.
If you happen to be reading this and you are going through a tough just know that it's always greener on the other side.
If everything in life is awesome nothing is awesome.
I often find that people get so caught up in this idea of happiness, when really it's not about money, or the things you want or dont have. Its about finding yourself. Finding what makes you happy, it's not supossed to be easy. if being happy was easy everyone would have it, sometimes shit has to happen for life to work out. but i promise you money doesnt buy happiness and it never will, not true happiness. you dont see people loving money, you see them loving people and things, animals sure money can buy a gold ring but is that gonna make you happy? im not talking about thar selfish bitch, im talking about the person beneath that the true you. is that really going to make you happy?
So there's a girl....
We've been on a date and hangout a few times... it's definitely going somewhere we fooled around... that was fun, but I'd be lying if I said I wasn't scared shit less..
It's been over a year since I've been with someone and it got so abusive on both ends and honestly.. it took a long time to come back from that. But mostly I guess I just worried I'm gunna hurt her. I really don't want.
And then again when you don't want to do something you usually avoid it pretty damn well. I am known for being a heartbreaker, but I really do like this girl..
Oh great Jesus! Why do people suck so much, honestly. I'm just gunna go off on a little rant here, I mean seriously what's the use in being a total cunt when you can make someone's day better. I'm just laying it on the table right now you feel so good when you make others smile... like some people's smiles just bring warmth to your heart.
I just don't understand how some people can be so cruel. Like seriously what tiny animal crawled inside your ass and laid eggs. If everyone was just a little bit fucking nicer.
P.s. my team lead is a dick -.-
There's this woman. We work together. I for the love of God can't seem to get her out of my head.
Like honestly, this is by far one of the worst crushes I have ever had.
I'm not sure how long it's going to take for me to get over the way her eyes light up when she talks about where she's from or how happy she gets when I tell her funny stories.
But yknow when it's all said and done
She's married. And I respect her too much as a friend to ever try anything. All I can do now is just sit and hope for something different in another life.
'some people come into our lives and leave quickly... some stay for a while leaving footprints on our hearts... those are the people we are never the same without'
I've learned a bit in this life, i may only be 16 but if ive learned anything in the world its to live life to the fullest. Don't hold back, have no regets and live each day make it count. There's nothing worse then regrets. LIVE don't be afraid to do something stupid