Fear causes us to put up our walls. Fear tells us not to let people in.
We made this bed now we can't fall asleep in it.
Always remembering, always knowing what should have been.
Instead, we make choices to isolate ourselves because we think it makes us stronger.
Knowing this is what you want but you choose to walk away from it all.
You can't fight the demons when you pretend they aren't there. We choose to run but they always find us until we finally face them.
You can't break what's already broken. You can choose to embrace the brokenness and find the beauty in the ashes or you can choose to walk away and pretend that you're okay.
It's ironic how we let things ...
running but not knowing where your'e going
eyes open but blindfolded
dark cannot be contained
a lifeless void
yearning for something to fulfill the quench
the water is ice
the numbness succumbs quickly
I'm thinking that I don't know what you are intentions are. Your actions and words do not align.
Are you asking me how I feel because I just called you out on it or are you asking me how I feel because you are genuinely concerned?
My weekend was crap and I was near you and you KNEW. But I didn't get any communication from you at all.
So are you here because you really give a damn or are you here just because I'm filling your time at the moment?
YOU found me. Now you have to figure out why. And what are you going to do now that I opened the door.
Regardless of how WE choose to proceed, I am here FOR LIFE!!
I'm not in a hurry. I've already beat death so I know...
How do you describe the feeling?
The feeling that you know everything seems so right
the feeling that you know you want to dive in head-first
the feeling that you want to be overwhelmed
the feeling that if you say yes everything is beyond your control
a whirlwind of butterflies
elevate to the sky
what happens if I say I'm not okay that I really need you to stay
"What happens when an angel cries?
Who is there to wipe the tears?
What about after the tears dry?
The rain stops and the heart is no longer black.
What about broken wings?
Will you mend them and teach how to fly again?
Soar above the clouds in the high places."
~ CDM 04/2014
Come here baby let me make you sweat
Can you feel the heat
Come get closer
Like the burn you have to earn
We're in the danger zone
Dont get scared
I have the scars
Been through the fire
Are you ready lets take it there
Fierce like the sword
Sweeter than honey
No time to cower
Stand taller than a tower
I know he really likes me and he's really into me. But he doesn't fully know me and I don't fully know him.
Plus I just got out of a 5 year relationship three months ago. He still doesn't know all the stuff that I've gone through.
I haven't told him partly because I'm just listening to him and feeling him out.
5 years is a long time. I'm still not over it. I still need more time to heal. But I'm a lot better than I was three months ago. Trying to get my strength back. I lost myself somewhere along the way and I need to find that inner strength and my inner voice again.
He wants me to move in with him but I'm not ready. And it's not fair to either of us to rush into something that I know ...
The rain stops falling
The clouds break
The eyes dry
Open for just a glimpse
A shade is no longer closed
There is a ray
It's the only light in the dark
One small step
From the muddy waters it rises
Blooms stand tall
Failure is, in a sense, the highway to success, inasmuch as every discovery of what is false leads us to seek earnestly after what is true, and every fresh experience points out some form of error which we shall afterwards carefully avoid.
- John Keats, 1795-1821
Communication in relationships is about more than words
Failing to speak can be hurtful in your relationships
Silence because you talk but are not speaking
Silence because it is what you're not saying that resonates loudly
Silence is deafening but can you hear what I'm saying through the wavelengths?
"Usually doors won't open and you'll have to break in and get what you want like a motherfucking boss!"
We push ourselves because we have to. Not because we like it. It's the breathtaking view at the top that keeps us climbing and makes the pain worth it.
I'm not supposed to be alive right now. I literally could be dead. I know others my age who have been through cancer and did NOT make it.
I'm sorry that you seen to think it's OK to pay with a life and put it back on the shelf like a toy.
I am not a toy and I am not your toy.
I value the people I surround myself with.
If you're not on my team, then keep it moving. Time is a very valuable resource. If you don't have time for me, you don't need to be in my life.
Everyone has their vices but not everyone is brave enough to face them.
Away from the noise and chaos
Quiet screams my soul
Can you hear the rhythm of your heart?
It speaks everso softly
Come and rest awhile
Peace is waiting
*sighs* when will people learn to respect me enough to be honest. I'm not a fragile flower that's gonna fall to pieces on the ground. And if I did happen to fall to pieces, there r PLENTY of REAL pple who have & will pick me up and put me back together! :-)
---March 9, 2011
“It is impossible to live without failing at something, unless you live so cautiously that you might as well not have lived at all, in which case, you fail by default.” --JK Rowling
I don't need a list of empty words. I don't want the promises only to have them broken.
I want the REAL every day CHOICE to be where you are. No excuses.
You've seen me at my worst. Do you want the best? Can you handle it?
Life is full of the ups and downs. When it's down can you ride it back up?
Did you come to play and stay? Did you come to play and run away?
I often wondered where you were. We were cool but I guess life just pulled us apart. We both had our own living and learning to do. Now that our paths have crossed again, may we make the most of every opportunity we have.
my eyes are blurry I can't see straight tell me what are we doing
back and forth a silly game we play prove to me that you really want to stay
we always put things off until tomorrow. there too many tomorrows. tomorrow I will do this tomorrow. I will do that tomorrow. what if I do not have tomorrow? What if today is my last day? what if there is no tomorrow?
Love is a continual act of forgiveness. Being happy is only a temporary emotion.