How I long to see your face
feel the warmth of your embrace

Hear your voice whisper in my ear tell me the world is ours

Look me in the eye and tell me we're not living a lie

Hands with interlocked fingers
Feel my energy move through you

I can hold I can withstand
We must keep fighting together if we want to make it through this land

     ~☆CDM☆~

Take some time.  Time for yourself. Time to laugh, time to cry. You need all of it. Explore all of the emotions that you are feeling. Don't hide from them.  They will only get worse. Face them, write about them, document them, and then move on. You will find who you really are and you will find your true strength.

#TakeTimetoWrite
  ~☆CDM☆~

Blinded by your own mountains
You cry out

Listen very close
Only then you will see crystal clear

I am here
Never fear

To hold you
Guide you
Push you
Encourage you
Love you

Relinquish the control

    ~☆~CDM~☆~

I said things
You know my heart
All I really want is you

Love is a continual act of forgiveness
A choice and decision

When we have a disagreement you want to hide and walk away and lock up your heart.

Plug-and-play signifies you're not willing to do the work.
My love is not a game

Fight for me
Don't just tell me you love me
Show me you love me

I don't care what we do
I don't care where we are
As long as we are there, together

At the end of the day
All we really have are the kids and each other

You have to make the time
Choose me
Commit to me

I cannot make that decision for you
You have to figure out what is most important to you

Here I stand naked and soul open
On the precipice of...

   
    Alone in the dark
      How to see the light
    How do you not succumb
      So much numb
    You try to fill me
      Nothing is there
    So much of a void
      But do I even care
    Just aimlessly walking
      Are you even talking

     Soul bleeding
       Needing

   This is the sound of an angel.       with broken wings trying to learn how to fly again.

        ~☆~ CDM ~☆~

The whisper
Your face on my face
Your breath on my lips

Fireworks imploding
My will gently eroding

The soft caress
I release the stress

Your hands hold mine
Inhale
Exhale

I rise to you
I know you feel it too

Our souls forever entwined
Say you'll always be mine

Show me your scars
I'll show you the stars

                  ~☆~CDM~☆~

Alone in the middle of the web I weave to keep you out

Should I bring you in?
The complexities of life.
The web that has been woven goes in and out round and round. It's a maze.  I am lost.

I want you in. I want you in.  Will I let you in?

Full of venom
do you want it? Do you want to be full with me?

I'm still trying to digest last night's dinner. It left me full, it left me empty, it left me sick.

Oh I've made it to another tree. Another web to weave. Around I go. I lie in wait for you.

Will you let me embrace you?
Will you embrace me?
Will you let me fill you with my poison?

            maturity

        decisiveness

     
                                        consistency

                                    strength

I'm a wreck babe
That's ok

You're a wreck babe
That's ok
I'll love you anyway

Embrace the madness
Together we conquer

Death

Is it easier to know and say goodbye
Or not to know and have you suddenly gone?

The shock is sudden. Unexpectedly having all of what you feel emerging. It eventually subsides. The pain is always there. The intensity is only in the beginning.

Not being able to see you or not being able to hear you tell me you love me for me. To hear you say how proud you are of me and that I will always be your girl.

I went through your things. I had to. Everything you cherished, things you loved and worked for.

There was no one else. I had to be strong. To go through your clothes and smell you and remember our time together.

Ashes. Your body reduced to a pile of ashes in a box. All wishes, drea...

It's tearing me apart
The broken pieces of my heart

You used to say are you ok
Now just two strangers going about their day

I gave it all
Sorry you got used to me

Lack of care
Love me love me if you dare
It used to be rare
Assurance was there
Never a doubt in the air

Maybe I love too much
When times got rough

Should I run and hide
There's a stranger by my side.

You can blame it on me
Say it's my fault

I've wiped the last year from my eye
Looked up to the sky
Stopped asking why

It's not all roses
I tried to see it through
I've done all I can do

~~CDM. May 8, 2013

"We dive unconsciously
into a world unknown

Feeling that which cannot fathom
High and low the waves come and go

Open your heart
Release the pain

Open your heart
Don't be in vain

Beneath the guise of a smile
Come and stay awhile

Not to just peruse
Be the muse"

~~CDM

Pick me up when I am down. Find the light when I can't see. Show me what you see. Help me be better.

Ride the waves with me, whether good or bad, sunshine or rain.

Let's dance with Love's Embrace.
Soak in the sun with our successes
Shield each other with the umbrella when it rains.

I will catch your tears in my hands
Share laughter and shake off the little things

Ladies stop giving a boy the power if he's not man enough and willing to know what to do with it.

Guys stop giving girls the power if she's not woman enough and willing to know what to do with it.

(power=love, hopes, dreams, protector, provider, etc)

~CDM

God gave you the person you need. Your spouse is your help mate. They can do things you can't.

When your spouse is weak you are their strength. Stop fighting each others weaknesses. Love covers a multitude of sins.

"And what is a friend? More than a father, more than a brother: a traveling companion, with him, you can conquer the impossible, even if you must lose it later. Friendship marks a life even more deeply than love. Love risks degenerating into obsession, friendship is never anything but sharing. It is a friend that you communicate the awakening of a desire, the birth of a vision or a terror, the anguish of seeing the sun disappear or of finding that order and justice are no more. That's what you can talk about with a friend. Is the soul immortal, and if so why are we afraid to die? If God exists, how can we lay claim to freedom, since He is its beginning and its end? What is death, when you com...

It's tearing me apart
The broken pieces of my heart

You used to say are you ok
Now just two strangers going about their day

I gave it all
Sorry you got used to me

Lack of care
Love me love me if you dare
It used to be rare
Assurance was there
Never a doubt in the air

Maybe I love too much
When times got rough

Should I run and hide
There's a stranger by my side.

You can blame it on me
Say it's my fault

I've wiped the last year from my eye
Looked up to the sky
Stopped asking why

It's not all roses
I tried to see it through
I've done all I can do

~~CDM
May 8, 2013

"Okay I Believe You, but my Tommy Gun Doesn't"

I am heaven sent
Don't you dare forget
I am all you've ever wanted
What all the other girls all promised

Sorry I told
I just needed you to know

             Fear

Fear causes us to put up our walls. Fear tells us not to let people in.  
We made this bed now we can't fall asleep in it.

Always remembering, always knowing what should have been.
Instead, we make choices to isolate ourselves because we think it makes us stronger.

Knowing this is what you want but you choose to walk away from it all.

You can't fight the demons when you pretend they aren't there. We choose to run but they always find us until we finally face them.

You can't break what's already broken. You can choose to embrace the brokenness and find the beauty in the ashes or you can choose to walk away and pretend that you're okay.

It's ironic how we let things ...

running but not knowing where your'e going

eyes open but blindfolded
arms wide
fingers outstretched

dark cannot be contained
a lifeless void
yearning for something to fulfill the quench

the water is ice
the numbness succumbs quickly

                    Myriad

I'm thinking that I don't know what you are intentions are. Your actions and words do not align.

Are you asking me how I feel because I just called you out on it or are you asking me how I feel because you are genuinely concerned?

My weekend was crap and I was near you and you KNEW.  But I didn't get any communication from you at all.

So are you here because you really give a damn or are you here just because I'm filling your time at the moment?

YOU found me. Now you have to figure out why. And what are you going to do now that I opened the door.
Regardless of how WE choose to proceed, I am here FOR LIFE!!

I'm not in a hurry. I've already beat death so I know...

How do you describe the feeling?

The feeling that you know everything seems so right

the feeling that you know you want to dive in head-first

the feeling that you want to be overwhelmed

the feeling that if you say yes everything is beyond your control

a whirlwind of butterflies
elevate to the sky

what happens if I say I'm not okay that I really need you to stay

"What happens when an angel cries?
Who is there to wipe the tears?
What about after the tears dry?
The rain stops and the heart is no longer black.

What about broken wings?
Will you mend them and teach how to fly again?
Soar above the clouds in the high places."

     ~ CDM 04/2014

Come here baby let me make you sweat
Can you feel the heat
Come get closer
Like the burn you have to earn
We're in the danger zone
Dont get scared
I have the scars
Been through the fire
Are you ready lets take it there
Fierce like the sword
Sweeter than honey
No time to cower
Stand taller than a tower

~CDM 04/2014

I know he really likes me and he's really into me. But he doesn't fully know me and I don't fully know him.

Plus I just got out of a 5 year relationship three months ago. He still doesn't know all the stuff that I've gone through.

I haven't told him partly because I'm just listening to him and feeling him out.

5 years is a long time. I'm still not over it. I still need more time to heal. But I'm a lot better than I was three months ago. Trying to get my strength back. I lost myself somewhere along the way and I need to find that inner strength and my inner voice again.

He wants me to move in with him but I'm not ready. And it's not fair to either of us to rush into something that I know ...

The rain stops falling
The clouds break

The eyes dry
Blink

Open for just a glimpse
A shade is no longer closed

There is a ray
Peeking

It's the only light in the dark
One small step

From the muddy waters it rises
Blooms stand tall
Color radiates

Failure is, in a sense, the highway to success, inasmuch as every discovery of what is false leads us to seek earnestly after what is true, and every fresh experience points out some form of error which we shall afterwards carefully avoid.
- John Keats, 1795-1821

Communication in relationships is about more than words

Failing to speak can be hurtful in your relationships

Silence because you talk but are not speaking

Silence because it is what you're not saying that resonates loudly

Silence is deafening but can you hear what I'm saying through the wavelengths?

"Usually doors won't open and you'll have to break in and get what you want like a motherfucking boss!"

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