Dead weight only hangs around as long as you let it hang around.  

“One day they’ll realize they lost a diamond while playing with worthless stones.”

— Turcois Ominek

O sun
Where art thee?
You used to shine so valiantly
Clouds from the horizon
Have taken home over me
This is not me
Not where I want to be
I cannot see in front of me
Give me a rope
Give me a light
My world is dark
Crying out to the void
Resisting to become the void

     
               July 9, 2017
If you're not happy with yourself don't expect somebody else to be!!! If you want something go get it. Don't rely on somebody else to get it for you and don't expect somebody else to get it for you. And be Fearless. You only live once!!! If people are truly on your team they will be with you sunshine or rain!

          My 37th Birthday

She cries
The waves move
She cries
The tear falls
The wilted petals fall
She cries
Internally until it comes out
She cries
Alone
She cries
You dont care
She cries

             
                  I bring the sunshine!

"Selfish"
I wanted to call you
I'm not waiting
Someone else wants my time
Someone else actually says it
We get along well
Have a lot in common
But he's not you
My soul yearns for you
Our conversations about anything and everything
The way you make me smile when the tears start falling
But at the same time you put up your walls
Don't be afraid
This will hurt
It's called growing pains
The whole purpose of a partner is to bring you out of selfishness
But while you are reflecting on yours,  I will be reflecting on mine
Very soon, there will be no more me,  but US.

<<>>
Take some time.  Time for yourself. Time to laugh, time to cry. You need all of it. Explore all of the emotions that you are feeling. Don't hide from them.  They will only get worse. Face them, write about them, document them, and then move on. You will find who you really are and you will find your true strength.

Rely on your friends who are there for you. Laugh with them, cry with them, let them love you. Because your friends will be there during this time and after.

Do not let just anybody in though. For people will now try and treat you like their prey because you are vulnerable.

Keep your eyes open and your ears open and your heart open to only those that you are...

“Life”

Chicken, pancakes, nachos..
Those are a few of my favorite things.
See when you love strange things your love is strange, but old strangers fall in love and that’s cooler than tang.
So no more anger because good food is like good people. Put them all together because life is a dinner table.

~GMK ~

I smile because I woke up today.
Someone somewhere didn't.

There's nowhere but up when you're down
I've been through it

Who are you? Are you along for the ride or are you a bystander?

Through the rain I hold my head high
For tomorrow, the sun shines again

When you love someone you hold on with every fiber of your being. You hold on to the point that it hurts you can't even breathe. Love conquers everything. But sometimes when love is not enough you have to let go. Really let go. You have to allow God to handle it because it is not in your hands.

You let go and you let God handle it because it's for your sake and for the sake of the other person. And then if it's meant to be it will be.

And then when you both make it to the other side you're able to clearly see the love

How I want to feel you next to me
Your hand in mine
Our lips collide
Eyes seductively gazing
Captivated by the smile
Your body becons mine
Magnetized
Enticed by you

My will gently imploding
Bodies colliding like the sea
You sail smoothly into me
Into the bliss of ecstasy

We could reach the stars together. We could make anything happen. But then he decided that he wanted to take aim with all the animosity he was secretly holding against me.

And that's when I decided that I would turn and walk away.

I wanted to call you today to say you crossed my mind

I wanted to call today to tell you that I am OK

I wanted to call you today because I still feel you with me

To tell you that I love you even across the distance and time.

Love that transcends the physical

Because when our fingers touch and our bodies collide, our souls became one.

  But I still feel you with me because I know we are connected.

But how we were is not how we are.  I move onward, the only direction.

Today, I feel you with me
And today without you, I am OK.

Sea Creature

Here I stand on the edge of you
Knowing you feel it too

Miles and distance
What did I get myself into

Sincerely smiling
You're eyes are not lying

Gazing to the sea
One day we will be

More than just the smile
Come and stay while

Beautiful minds and souls enfold
Let the story not go untold

Paradigm has been shifted
Perspective has been gifted

Surprisingly feeling this way
Disaster happens when you go away

(Jan 20, 2017)

Tired of giving someone my time and energy when they don't  respect you or see you as their equal.

Putting someone else above yourself and your family and friends but not getting the same in return is exhaustive.  

I have paid for almost everything and yet I still get the condescending behavior. I have sacrificed everything to be with this person and now I cannot do it anymore.  

I was an actress and I had a few things going on the side. I had the beginnings of a small business going.

Here I was moving away into a whirlwind of someone else's world because I thought he showed me he was serious and he cared.

Despite the warnings from his family and my friends, I continue...

(Jan 20, 2017)

I am tired of apologizing for my shortcomings while embracing someone else's. I will no longer apologize because someone didn't like what I have to say.

I will no longer tolerate someone putting everything else before me. I will no longer tolerate an outsider whose been around for 6 months think they know me.

You do NOT know me and what I have been through and do not know what I am capable of.

I am tired of sacrificing my resources and making excuses as to why you're never around.

I am not sorry for speaking the truth that supporting others is ok, but supporting your significant other is not. Family or otherwise. The excuse 'If I ever need something, they would be ther...

Sitting alone
I was fine

You took my hand
We started dancing
Feel your heartbeat next to mine
Stopping the hands of time

It hurts we are so far away
With faith
We'll be ok

Lucky am I
Getting high on you

Trust and you will see
The best is yet to be

Don't be just a fan
Don't be that person
Don't downgrade yourself
Be THE person
Be MY person

Still missing you every day
They say time is supposed to make it easy But it has not been breezy

Broken in a thousand pieces is my heart
Where do I even start

Memories are all that remain

Maybe it was just for a season
Maybe that was just the reason

To learn to love unconditionally
Through the years
Though the trials
Through the tears
Through the rain
Through the sun.

I dont know of we will ever be ok
But I do know
Though I still love you
I had to walk away

"Reflections"

Where I've been
Is a closed door
No one lives there anymore

Trash has been emptied
I've been washed
Repeat those sins no more
It hurt to the core

I stood at a crossroads of life and made a decision to live.

Amid the frenetic pace of our working lives, it’s easy to forget that the messages you receive during the week — quick notes from connections, customers, or clients — come from living, breathing, feeling human beings.

I wanted to call you today
I wanted to spill my soul today

But then I remembered how you didnt want me. I remembered how much I gave and gave.

Then I remembered that I'm OK.

Its different this time. I still love you. You know. I've proved it. But, I walked away with nothing more to say.

Now, look at my back. That's all that's left because I'm not going back.

I love you. I love you more than you realize. You know it. You can't handle it. I try to contain it.

Maybe it's all just one big fantasy. You and me.

I'm not sorry. I want you to feel something real. I want you to feel me.

I know you did. Up until now. I can tolerate a lot. I've the thickest skin of anyone you've ever met. I've proven it .

But now, I have to go. I will not and can not deal with this. This crosses the line for me.

Only because I've been there. Only because I've lived it and watched others as well.

It was a journey to get to where I am. Many tears have been shed. You've even helped dry a few along the way.

The way you did it makes me love you. The way you look at ...

"When you aim, shoot for the stars. If you miss, try again. And when you finally land on one, enjoy every minute of it because it wasn't easy getting there." ~~ me

When we love, we always strive to become better than we are. When we strive to become better than we are, everything around us becomes better too.

    
                       Imperfection Elegant

When everyone thinks you're perfect
You find out I'm not
Here comes the big let down
Still I remain
Stripping your rank
You're just a fan

No longer on the same branch
I'll put down roots in another ranch

I confess this elegant imperfection

Bring the special people with you in your journey through life.  It's easier than you think.

2 weeks til my bday!

Destination mode ON!!

Where should I go? :D

I was down and out like last week
Where have you been?
You're just a fan.
You dont hold rank.