How I want to feel you next to me
Your hand in mine
Our lips collide
Eyes seductively gazing
Captivated by the smile
Your body becons mine
Magnetized
Enticed by you

My will gently imploding
Bodies colliding like the sea
You sail smoothly into me
Into the bliss of ecstasy

We could reach the stars together. We could make anything happen. But then he decided that he wanted to take aim with all the animosity he was secretly holding against me.

And that's when I decided that I would turn and walk away.

I wanted to call you today to say you crossed my mind

I wanted to call today to tell you that I am OK

I wanted to call you today because I still feel you with me

To tell you that I love you even across the distance and time.

Love that transcends the physical

Because when our fingers touch and our bodies collide, our souls became one.

  But I still feel you with me because I know we are connected.

But how we were is not how we are.  I move onward, the only direction.

Today, I feel you with me
And today without you, I am OK.

Sea Creature

Here I stand on the edge of you
Knowing you feel it too

Miles and distance
What did I get myself into

Sincerely smiling
You're eyes are not lying

Gazing to the sea
One day we will be

More than just the smile
Come and stay while

Beautiful minds and souls enfold
Let the story not go untold

Paradigm has been shifted
Perspective has been gifted

Surprisingly feeling this way
Disaster happens when you go away

(Jan 20, 2017)

Tired of giving someone my time and energy when they don't  respect you or see you as their equal.

Putting someone else above yourself and your family and friends but not getting the same in return is exhaustive.  

I have paid for almost everything and yet I still get the condescending behavior. I have sacrificed everything to be with this person and now I cannot do it anymore.  

I was an actress and I had a few things going on the side. I had the beginnings of a small business going.

Here I was moving away into a whirlwind of someone else's world because I thought he showed me he was serious and he cared.

Despite the warnings from his family and my friends, I continue...

(Jan 20, 2017)

I am tired of apologizing for my shortcomings while embracing someone else's. I will no longer apologize because someone didn't like what I have to say.

I will no longer tolerate someone putting everything else before me. I will no longer tolerate an outsider whose been around for 6 months think they know me.

You do NOT know me and what I have been through and do not know what I am capable of.

I am tired of sacrificing my resources and making excuses as to why you're never around.

I am not sorry for speaking the truth that supporting others is ok, but supporting your significant other is not. Family or otherwise. The excuse 'If I ever need something, they would be ther...

Sitting alone
I was fine

You took my hand
We started dancing
Feel your heartbeat next to mine
Stopping the hands of time

It hurts we are so far away
With faith
We'll be ok

Lucky am I
Getting high on you

Trust and you will see
The best is yet to be

Don't be just a fan
Don't be that person
Don't downgrade yourself
Be THE person
Be MY person

Still missing you every day
They say time is supposed to make it easy But it has not been breezy

Broken in a thousand pieces is my heart
Where do I even start

Memories are all that remain

Maybe it was just for a season
Maybe that was just the reason

To learn to love unconditionally
Through the years
Though the trials
Through the tears
Through the rain
Through the sun.

I dont know of we will ever be ok
But I do know
Though I still love you
I had to walk away

"Reflections"

Where I've been
Is a closed door
No one lives there anymore

Trash has been emptied
I've been washed
Repeat those sins no more
It hurt to the core

I stood at a crossroads of life and made a decision to live.

Amid the frenetic pace of our working lives, it’s easy to forget that the messages you receive during the week — quick notes from connections, customers, or clients — come from living, breathing, feeling human beings.

I wanted to call you today
I wanted to spill my soul today

But then I remembered how you didnt want me. I remembered how much I gave and gave.

Then I remembered that I'm OK.

Its different this time. I still love you. You know. I've proved it. But, I walked away with nothing more to say.

Now, look at my back. That's all that's left because I'm not going back.

I love you. I love you more than you realize. You know it. You can't handle it. I try to contain it.

Maybe it's all just one big fantasy. You and me.

I'm not sorry. I want you to feel something real. I want you to feel me.

I know you did. Up until now. I can tolerate a lot. I've the thickest skin of anyone you've ever met. I've proven it .

But now, I have to go. I will not and can not deal with this. This crosses the line for me.

Only because I've been there. Only because I've lived it and watched others as well.

It was a journey to get to where I am. Many tears have been shed. You've even helped dry a few along the way.

The way you did it makes me love you. The way you look at ...

"When you aim, shoot for the stars. If you miss, try again. And when you finally land on one, enjoy every minute of it because it wasn't easy getting there." ~~ me

When we love, we always strive to become better than we are. When we strive to become better than we are, everything around us becomes better too.

    
                       Imperfection Elegant

When everyone thinks you're perfect
You find out I'm not
Here comes the big let down
Still I remain
Stripping your rank
You're just a fan

No longer on the same branch
I'll put down roots in another ranch

I confess this elegant imperfection

Bring the special people with you in your journey through life.  It's easier than you think.

2 weeks til my bday!

Destination mode ON!!

Where should I go? :D

I was down and out like last week
Where have you been?
You're just a fan.
You dont hold rank.

My territory is increasing! My bank account is increasing! My love is increasing! My energy is increasing! My blessings are increasing! My patience is increasing! My understanding is increasing! My vision is increasing! What I have to give is increasing! My focus is increasing! My assertiveness is increasing! MY LIFE IS INCREASING! I am ready, open and EXPECTING all of it!

"Change is constant. Growth is inevitable. Standing still is not an option." ~☆~CDM~☆~

Happy Besties day!!!! The friends show up and stick around through the good, bad, and the ugly. Sometimes just when you need a shoulder to cry on, someone to just listen to your useless rants, someone who prays for you, and someone to push you back UP when life pushes you down from all directions imaginable!!

Pain. You just have to ride it out. Hope it goes away on its own. Hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions. No easy answers. You just breathe deep and wait for it to subside.

Most of the time, pain can be managed. But sometimes, the pain gets you when you least expect it. Hits way below the belt and doesn’t let up.

Pain. You just have to fight through. Because the truth is, you can’t outrun it. And life always makes more.

May 8, 2013

You have a set back
Don't turn back
Come back

The fire is to build you.

"And what is a friend? More than a father, more than a brother: a traveling companion, with him, you can conquer the impossible, even if you must lose it later.

Friendship marks a life even more deeply than love. Love risks degenerating into obsession, friendship is never anything but sharing. It is a friend that you communicate the awakening of a desire, the birth of a vision or a terror, the anguish of seeing the sun disappear or of finding that order and justice are no more.

That's what you can talk about with a friend. Is the soul immortal, and if so why are we afraid to die?

If God exists, how can we lay claim to freedom, since He is its beginning and its end?

What is death, when...

Ever feel like your on the threshold of a cliff & something inside is telling you jump because what's at the bottom is better than where you are?

They say we only run from that which truly scares us.

Reciprocate with your actions and words. Don't just tell me anything and then not back up what you say. Male and female friends. I am done with the excuses, the reasons why.

You try.  You make an effort. This year is the year you reciprocate.

Now he has a taste of his own medicine
He can talk through text but when I'm in his face..nada
Now he's looking at his phone wondering where I am and what I'm doing..hoping I'll call
Now he misses me
Now he's sweating me
Now he knows I do not need him
Now he's wondering if I'm with another man

And now I'm smiling without him

It's time we get real. This is serious. Take off the rose colored glasses.

Let's talk about what we don't talk about. The demons inside your head are real.

It's easy for someone to say it will get better. Its easy to say I'm praying for you.

What about when that prayer is all you have? What about when you don't even have a prayer?

What about when the rest of the world thinks you have it all, but inside your dying?

When you go 1 step forward, life knocks you not one, not 2, but 10 steps back?

When you're surrounded and that's the  only thing you're able to see. Or when there's so much hurt and pain and that is all you know.

Scarlet rage covers the misery.