The rock was not very tall
But when the sunset hit the rock just right it’s shadow was long as night.
I was standing in the woods across from the school. I had not planned to skip school. I had just paused for a minute before coming out of the wooded path shortcut. I just stood there looking over at the school feeling overwhelmed. I did not have my work done. It was the first year that there was significant homework and I was far behind in all subjects. Book reports, math assignments, and science projects all undone.
I felt embarrassed and I felt stupid. I was not able to follow the math on the board. They moved too quickly. I could not understand exceptions in grammar. I could not remember well the dates and names of things. I could not keep up with the reading assignments. I did not think...
If the blue sky falls
Dive into the ocean blue
Let the bubbles rise
I am sitting in the blackness, let it come. Let see will it knock me off my feet. Will I be crushed under its weight. I have spent so much effort wrestling with it. Moving every way possible to try and get out of the grips of it. Maybe I just have to sit still and let it come at me full force. I can't outrun it. I can certainly not out think it. In fact, it is the worst trap of all to think I can mentally devise a way out. It is my thinking that has in large part gotten me to this point and it is now a defective part. So I must let my strength gather at a deeper level than thought will allow. All the dead I have been carrying with me along the way, I must set down beside me. All the wounds an...