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Cwpoet

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A lover of words, people, running (literally and figuratively), and healing. All work is original.❤
October 18, 2017
 

I have been judged
and thrown away
by people
because of choices
I had to make
in this life.

Years later,
I have wiped
the tears of my judges
as they have walked
the same road.

Life does not care who you are.
Remember that.
-cwpoet

DAY OF TRUTH
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October 16, 2017
 

  

Unravel me
string by string
do it fast
so I feel everything
take me far
take me near
make this world
just disappear.
-cwpoet

KISS A PRINCE
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October 13, 2017
 

What do we do
when words
don't work?

We stop and
we listen.
To our hearts,
to the wind,
and where our
feet want to take us.
-cwpoet

#INKTOBER
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October 12, 2017
 

The temperature has thrown a curve ball
With this frost on the windshield.
Exhaling produces clouds of visible pain,
Each release emanates another breath
That was taken without you.
Each billow reminds me that you
Don't breathe any longer.
Soon there will be snow-
And I will have to remind myself it's been
Four years since we've died.
I'm just the only one still half tied to Earth.
Time doesn't do death any favors.
When will I decide that moving on
Isn't a complete separation?
You'd want me to.
Maybe tomorrow?
Maybe not.
-cwpoet

DAY OF TRUTH
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October 3, 2017
 

Fall
Falls upon us
Like scraped bloody knees
On cement.
It's fresh and suffocating
At the same time.
The nostalgia of so many seasons
That represent a slow dying process,
Giving pain and comfort
simultaneously.
A soothing depression.
A hollow happiness.
A beautiful darkness.
-cwpoet

WORLD DAY OF BULLYING PREVENTION
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October 2, 2017
 

Hunger rips me out of bed at night.
With eyes wide shut
I tip-toe through the hallway
careful not to trip over bones
Another skeleton has escaped, drunkenly,
From another closet I've forgotten to lock.
And this is why I've risen
I'm hungry-
I want more than food
I want more than you
My hunger is lust and I can taste it.
You heard me get up
You lead me back to bed
And provide more than food ever could.
Sleep is the sweetest desert
And I fall into it with no intent to come back out. Ever.
_cwpoet

KISS A PRINCE
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September 11, 2017
 

America,
I've seen you bleed
while stars and stripes
were torn apart.
I've seen you cry
oceans of tears,
while monuments, dreams, and lives
became dust.
I've seen you become silent,
while there was too much
hateful noise all around you.
But when the sun
finally climbed back into the sky,
I heard your song
louder than it had ever been sung.
A song that will never be
quieted, in our hearts, again.
A song that will never
be forgotten.
America, I see your strength
and I am proud.

-cwpoet

NEVER FORGET
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September 11, 2017
 

On a day,
when so much love
was erased
from this world,
be a role model
for others.
You are not allowed
to give up, today.
Keep fighting.

-cwpoet

ORIGINAL
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September 10, 2017
 

These words
were not born
of my mouth.
They were born from
the sun and how it
cascades your skin,
your breathing
when it is labored,
and how
your eyes speak to mine
in ways that cannot
be expelled through
verbal communication.

-cwpoet

NEVER FORGET
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September 10, 2017
 

She just sat there
looking straight ahead
but only seeing the past.
Eyes blinking like a metronome.
Her shaking hands
held poetry that only a
broken heart could
bleed into existence.
I fought for her,
I really did,
but sometimes you can
look into someone's eyes
and see that they are lost
forever.
And that's how I know
that people can die,
way before their bodies do.

-cwpoet

NEVER FORGET
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September 6, 2017
 

I never knew
how different
healing would be
without people around me,
but for once I am not scared.
I am not afraid to be vulnerable,
I am not afraid to be wrong,
I am not afraid to be apologize.
I can lean on myself now,
more than ever,
and smile a little
bit more because,
finally, I am a lot stronger.
-cwpoet
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MY DEBUT BOOK, CHASING MYSELF,
IS NOW AVAILABLE ON AMAZON AND KINDLE. Link in bio. @cwpoet
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INTERNATIONAL CHARITY DAY
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September 4, 2017
 

I knew I was in trouble
When I had to trust you
More than myself.
My constant flirtation with
Drowning In you
Was more than I could control
I could turn it off
Like a switch.
But now we are in
So deep
I can't
I can't let go
I can't breathe
I can't swim
I can't turn back
And I don't want to.

-cwpoet

INTERNATIONAL CHARITY DAY
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August 31, 2017
 

She softly spoke
of seasons past
Seducing the ears
of someone who asked
Smiling slyly
she stops to remember
Soft lips and shaking hands
In a secret September
Slowly savoring
the size of her sins
With sparing remorse
she searches within
Steadily and slowly she swallows her pain
And spies silver linings
to shine after rain.

-cwpoet

STAY STRONG TEXAS!
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August 24, 2017
 

You've created
a rhythm in my body
that cannot be denied.
You've entered through
my eyes and flow straight
through my heart.
I inhale you and
my world is disorganized now.
Scattered thoughts,
jumbled words,
tangled feelings
that I can't live without.
You have become
the music to my soul,
making me dance,
nodding
to every beat,
Rocking me to sleep
each night.
I will not move
without you.
-cwpoet

NATIONAL DOG DAY
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August 22, 2017
 

Power lies in
the ability to
shut out negative
influences.
Rid yourself of those
who hinder your growth
as a person.
Life is too short
to spend proving
yourself to other people.
-cwpoet

TOTAL ECLIPSE 2017
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August 21, 2017
 

As my moon
dances
across the sun,
I tremble
in the darkness
as two become one.
-cwpoet

TOTAL ECLIPSE 2017
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August 20, 2017
 

Suffering and acceptance means more than just acknowledging pain and that it is organic.
Acceptance requires reflection so deep that it is also subliminal.
Taking it all apart. Laying it on the table. Analyzing what fed into thoughts, ideas and ultimately actions.
Pain doesn't just happen.
It grows over time. It is a born and it overcomes you. It takes your identity and rearranges your priorities.
It doesn't just start with looks, or glares, or words. It thrives on silence.
It blossoms with blame and shame.
It is manifested with hostility and more silence. And then, slowly, one unmet need at a time it's who you are.
Denial makes it unrecognizable in the mirror. The only person who can see ...

PHOTOGRAPHY DAY
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August 19, 2017
 

We stopped listening
we stopped talking
but I still heard you.
Nothing is louder
than silence.
Actually,
the only thing
louder than silence
is the inevitable breakdown
that it eventually births.
Years of silence
will fucking take you down
in a matter of seconds.
It comes out uglier
than the silence, itself.
It stains the people
it touches.
Stains turn to scars
and scars will always remind me of silence
and how I died.
-cwpoet

PHOTOGRAPHY DAY
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August 19, 2017
 

Now that you've
Washed me
Off of your body,
Try cleansing me
From your soul.
-cwpoet

PHOTOGRAPHY DAY
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August 18, 2017
 

I fought for you.
Even when it meant
fighting against
myself.
                        
I fought for you.
Because I know the pain
from the inside out.
And while I didn't
do a good job at
protecting myself
from falling in love with you,
I will make damn sure
you never fall out of love  with me.
-cwpoet

PHOTOGRAPHY DAY
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August 17, 2017
 

I used to dream of dark nights
with the light of the moon and stars, and even fireflies.
Peaceful, breezy, just me and the moon and sometimes you.
Now I dream of being stuck in a black small place, bound, blindfolded, unable to yell for help.
I see nothing but feel everything.
I hear your voice but I can't reach you.
I smell the rain but can't get under it.
I feel insects crawling all over me and I can't move to get them off.
I wake up from nightmares, paralyzed, catching my breath,
Trying to scream.
But no sound escapes.
Now that you're dead, I feel trapped.
In this world without you.
And every night I fall asleep,
I land in a coffin, under the ground.
Dead.
But still alive.
-cwpoet

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PHOTOGRAPHY DAY
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August 17, 2017
 

I welcome the night
And the darkness it brings
With open arms
And insatiable laugh.
I'm not the least bit
Surprised that
The dark is scared of me.
-cwpoet

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PHOTOGRAPHY DAY
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August 16, 2017
 

I ran into the dead of the night
Screaming for help
But not the kind of help
you could give me
I needed help from the devil himself
I needed to feel the pain and anger and Rage that I had been hiding.
I needed to feel terror, sadness, the burning of muscles, a shortness of breath, a rush of adrenaline.
After not feeling anything for so long
I needed it all at once.
And with tears blinding my vision
My hands and knees met the concrete
At the exact same time
And I bled while I cried
I bled more than blood
I bled my soul into a world of feeling
And decided it was time for healing.
-cwpoet

MADONNA
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August 15, 2017
 

I miss my vices,
cigarettes,
vodka,
other things...
I'm an addict.
Anything that tickles
my dopamine and
I'm a fucking dog chasing it.
Maybe that's why I love to run.
The chase
or the high...
I don't even know anymore.
-cwpoet

MADONNA
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August 15, 2017
 

There are parts
that live in me
only to destroy me.
I can't understand why.
And if they don't destroy me
they find a way to someone I love.
I can't stand this about me.
I don't understand why
I tip-toe over happiness
just to run to pain.
Even when I know
that the things I chase
will hurt me the most,
because I am part of them.
-cwpoet

MADONNA
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August 14, 2017
 

Her silence
was often louder
than her voice,
but her laugh,
touched everyone.
I've seen it wake entire
graveyards before,
bringing lonely
souls home,
for the first time.

-cwpoet

MADONNA
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August 13, 2017
 

I breathe in
your memory
and exhale
your ghost.
-cwpoet

NATIONAL LAZY DAY
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August 12, 2017
 

The way
the words
twisted around your tongue
as you spoke them.
The way
blue danced in your eyes
while you looked at me.
Each memory, its own movie,
each touch
it's own story
each kiss,
its own poem.
I am your book.
Don't ever stop
touching these pages.
-cwpoet

NATIONAL LAZY DAY
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August 12, 2017
 

I'm
pretty
sure
I've
loved
all
the
wrong
people
and
gotten
away
with
it.
-cwpoet

NATIONAL LAZY DAY
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