I'm afraid to be the person I was before You, but the thought of being who I am because of You scares Me even More!!
I wish I could warn you about Her, and who she really is.
If you knew her true colors I know for a fact that you would be miles away from Her. But when I see you with Her and how happy You look I can never bring myself to do so, when I see You with Her she acts and is someone who I don't recognize, then for a brief moment I think "maybe she changed?".
And I stare at my own reflection Wondering who I am? She who is Me doesn't deserve a Man like You, if He only knew who She who is Me really is...
I'll be waiting for you in the past...
Whenever your done building that time machine.
And I'll take back what's Mine!
And I'll take them with me and guard them with all my strength, because all this thing make me who I am and I will not allow you to Change my identity!!!
It's so exhausting and frustrating trying to be yourself and the person you love the most keeps pushing you back in the closet.
And hear I am showing you a side of me that no one knows and you go and judge me.
And He stood in front of me so closely and with his tall figure he got even closer and took me into a tight hug a forbidden hug, and it lasted for a few seconds, I'm sure he could feel my heart almost jumping out of my chest, it was beating a little to fast,
And he slowly let me go little by little he looked straight into my eyes and nothing was said but his eyes said it all "if you were mine I would kiss you and if you weren't taken I would kiss you and if it wasn't because we were in the middle of a party I would kiss you and if you would tell me I would kiss you"
And as I walked out the door I knew we would never see each other again.
We are two souls who are attractive to each other, who will never share a first kiss.
But when you stare into my eyes I can just feel all those things, and it's crazy yes, definitely!
It's like playing with fire knowing you can get Buren and lose everything like your fiance for example.
And the thing is that I feel so out of place in my boyfriend's world and somehow my opinion is never heard, and it's like I'm just the girlfriend and maybe I am just that.
Let's go back to the beginning where She lost her way, that day at the game where she looked into the wrong eyes, those eyes that were filled with mystery and so much power, a power that would capture her in so many ways starting with capturing her gazed she couldn't look away followed by capturing her thoughts, and from her thoughts it capture her heart and her soul, and she realized that maybe she wasn't as strong as she thought.
She had been captured by some beautiful dark evil brown eyes who she would forever be afraid to find in every eyes she will gazed at, but no one had that mystery that power in their eyes to just look at you and reached all the way to your soul And so He did, takin...
I use to be a open book....
But now I'm like a vault barried deep in darkest part of the ocean.
Happy Anniversary to the Man who I call my love and fakes his happiness.
Happy Anniversary to the man who is the love of my life and I can't seem to help him get out of a hole.
Happy Anniversary the only Man who has truly made me happy!!!
I OOVE YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MT HEART AND THE DEEPEST PART OF MY SOUL.
And you say to Me "let's decide together" when you had already made a decision.
So much for being this Amazing Great Perfect Couple.
And I was standing there in the beach, looking ahead of me and at the never ending ocean,
It was calm you hear the wind and the waves making a magical sound, I took a few steps into the water when all of sudden the waves got crazy the water reached my shoulders and a panicked losing balance and I couldn't feel the ground and in then I realized that it was all in my head I was actually walking on water, my thoughts had gotten the best of Me, just like that I new it was a Miracle that He was there, He had saved me in a storm that was all in my head.
And I worry about everyone and I take care of everyone but who does it for me?
I make sure everyone is alive and well and no body sees that I'm dying slowly so slowly so painfully that I can't even call for help!
I Hate it, when you call out for help and everyone just thinks your exaggerating! When the Truth is that you feel like you just hit a dead end, and everything is closing on you like being stuck inside a room with no windows or doors.
But yeah maybe I am exaggerating.
Sometimes it looks like a bump in the road, just to find out it was a crash on the wall.
Moments like this I wish I could fade away into dust!
He doesn't send cute text anymore or reminds me why He likes me.
And know He is always to busy to give me hug!
I talk and talk and try to comfort You, but it seems like all I do is look like if I'm preaching and I hate it!
But when I only listen You ask Me why I have nothing to say as if I didn't care when there's no one in this world who care as much as Me!
Sometimes He doesn't talk to Her kindly and others He gives Her a kiss on the forehead!
E & L