And I worry about everyone and I take care of everyone but who does it for me?
I make sure everyone is alive and well and no body sees that I'm dying slowly so slowly so painfully that I can't even call for help!
I Hate it, when you call out for help and everyone just thinks your exaggerating! When the Truth is that you feel like you just hit a dead end, and everything is closing on you like being stuck inside a room with no windows or doors.
But yeah maybe I am exaggerating.
Sometimes it looks like a bump in the road, just to find out it was a crash on the wall.
Moments like this I wish I could fade away into dust!
He doesn't send cute text anymore or reminds me why He likes me.
And know He is always to busy to give me hug!
I talk and talk and try to comfort You, but it seems like all I do is look like if I'm preaching and I hate it!
But when I only listen You ask Me why I have nothing to say as if I didn't care when there's no one in this world who care as much as Me!
Sometimes He doesn't talk to Her kindly and others He gives Her a kiss on the forehead!
E & L
I don't want another fight!
I don't want to feel like am cussing a argument.
How can I explain in the kindness way that I HATE when you joke that you don't want me!!!!!
Just one week they said,
it’s nothing you’ll be fine!!
Well it’s the second day and I missed Him already!
It’s for his own good mama said to me, okay I want him to be okay. But I feel sad without Him,
I want him to come back from his trip already! I want to hug him and be with him!
Yeah I know I sound like in mature little girl,I even cried when he left, how stupid of me it’s just one week!
The question “when are you two getting married?” Scares me more than it should.
And it’s not that I don’t Love You because I would die for you!
And not because I’m doubting on You, because I trust You and man it’s more than obvious that your my soulmate, the love of my life!
But it killing me this fear, than even tho I want to run I stay in your arms because that where I feel protected!
I might not show it, but I am a little sad your not here!
All I really need it’s to lay on this green couch with you again!
I want that!
All that, that we talk about in our future all the things we wish for and imagine I want that, all of it!
I want a future with You!
Do you ever jut want to cry?
Not knowing exactly why or maybe it’s to much but you don’t know of all the reasons witch one it is that your crying for?
Well that’s me right now wanting to cry not sure of why but I’m trying to hold my tears, not because I can’t cry but because crying relieves and also hurts and pain is my phobia.
Far away or close together my love for you does not change, because Distances was made to make Love strong and closeness was made to make love ___________
I know you had a bad day
I know today was Father’s Day and your dad wasn’t there for you, and I know it’s been though this past weeks, But baby please kiss me and hug me and don’t get annoyed because of how much I need you.
Sometimes a grown up girl will need you but won’t say anything because we don’t want to seem to needy or annoying, so I write this here so I’ll express myself and let you be.
I miss you tonight, I miss your lips and your smile I miss being in your arms, I wish We could sleep side by side tonight, But not tonight not tomorrow not this week or in month but it’s uncertain when because We don’t know when we will get married and You and I are what people called a little old fashion, waiting to have love till we get married, waiting to sleep in the same bed till we get married, so One Day I’ll get to give you a goodnight kiss and sleep by your side and in that day I’ll remember of this One day where I’ll I was wishing for is what I’ll be living!
A sunny day,
A kiss on the lips underwater and a bright smile from Him...
Is everything to Me, it melts my heart and weakest my knees.
You are so special to Me!
You are one of the most approachable persons I know and I love that about You!
You are so kind and down to earth, You are one of a kind!
You are funny and with a spirit so bright your smile brings light!
You are unique and warm hearted!
You are so strong yet to gentle!
You are so beautiful and unreplaceable!
You are You and I love that about You!
You are wise yet your still your fun self!
You are a sister for your sister and a sister to your friends!
You are loved and never forget that!
You are worth it so wear the crown proud fully!
You Are so sweet even do life is so bitter!
You are a women and child at heart!
You are amazing and fun at the same time!
You are a flo...
If I could somehow make you smile give you happiness I will! Even if it takes trying one thousand times for me it’s worth it, it’s worth figuring you out and learning how to lift your spirit because I’m Here to stay.
One of the hardest things to do is watch him get in his car and drive home without me, just for the reason that we are not married yet.