What I'm writing here is a comment, an idea ... not meant to the end.
I believe that in life, in almost all aspects of life, it is going about expectations.
Which one to put on, and which one to fulfill.
Expectations to yourself.
To others ... to the world!
Even racism is an expectation.
The expectation that foreigners are bad.
Because they have a different culture / religion because they look different. Because they are foreign.
The racist expects:
Violent drug-selling rapists.
That's viciously harsh ... but that's the expectation of a racist.
And if you expect something like this, you resist it.
But how does such an expectation come?
Or how do general expectations ...
I am sick since 1 week. Can almost just lie. I can not work, not eat.
No smoking and my phone was off 20h. That was enough to turn my everyday life upside down. Then I noticed how I waste my time as if I were immortal ... then my ex girlfriend called me. We were a few at 16 and separated at 32. She was crying on the phone. Her grandmother is dying. She cried so much and I was incredibly sorry. I was speechless. Maybe you know the feeling if you do not know where to go with yourself. We hung up and I was restless. I write down everything to calm me ... Christmas is coming soon. fuck ... people are like Christmas tree balls. The most fragile are most valuable. Look at your life.
A regime has a criticle journalist murdered. After 2 weeks of alleged ignorance. Collecting and examining evidence. Come a story that could not be more dubious. And all states, whether in Europe or America. Would like to say more explination about the case but in the same sentence they make clear
"the business will continue."
And probably it's better that way ... the world is so fucked up.
What happened to this man is terrible. Only more Terrible is just how the world handles it .....
the show must go on.
khashoggi en paz descanses
I believe negative things you stand or solve ... make you happier than positive things. you know the feeling when your vacation is over .... it is never enough .... if you had won the lottery and had no obligations. so stay where you want ... and how long you want ... it would be worthless .... on the other hand, the relief of a solved problem is noticeable in the whole body .
Everything can make you Happy...
Fatigue makes me gentle ..
Sometimes the head needs rest.
Sometimes there are too many thoughts too, too many topics.
How many processes can such an 80s brain do simultaneously? ..
somehow, I do not really want to know.
Before I turn into a human blue screen, I prefer to close a few tabs.
For third People, it looks like sleeping or Chillin...
But in truth.. .
I sort and archive.
And come to rest ..
I drive down!
.. Thats a little Story from my Childhood. My parents are from spain, so i am spanish. But im born and raised in Germany.
So i saw on Every holiday in Spain always things i was mit familiar with. . This Story happend to me during a holiday in Spain when I was 5 or 6 years old. We were on visiting and I had to go to the toilet. My uncle, like the most Spaniards, had a very large bathroom. With much more fittings, so there was a low sink for children. And there was a bidet (attached a picture / to wash the genitals - only Frenchmen invent stuff like that - dann Take a shower gurl )
In Germany Nobody have this ... I thought it was the children's toilet ... it was not ... I was wondered and ...
I Love Chemtrails...
nah Just Kidding.
The Paper Inspiring me to Write this.
Almost everything can triggert one. You also have a memory or experience to so many Stuff.
This distorts all Actions.
I wonder if wisdom comes from experiences. Whether prejudices are a Virtue.
Ps: Chemtrails Rock
I respect nothing more than humanity.
I despise nothing more than inhumanity.
I think the problems started since I can talk.
I'm stupid, and when I talk you notice it.
(If you have love for grammar you noticed too)
It's not bad to be foolish often I forget it, and I think i would be smart, that's nice.
At the moment it is en vogue to be stupid. I mean, Hey, we're President.
No being stupid is not bad ... But be a Woman or Mexican that really Sucks
I lie stoned on my couch eating lactose-free yogurt and watch Narcos
There are some Disney Comic Movies that really no one should do a film from this Plot.
The idea that Hermine ... petite little androhyne hermine ... has Sex with an insistent big beast .... you are disgusting !!..
Harry wil beat you'r ass off...
Idealism is so Pupertary and myopic on me.
"Have you forgotten who George.W Bush is?
Answer from me:
Fuck you, you pseudo smart kiddow.
This is not a schoolyard.
This is Washington, which Bush opposes Trump is the most positive thing that has happened since Trump is President.
Im sure the Obama's have not forgotten who Bush is, not after they swept his broken shards for 8 years.
The Democrats need the Republicans in this Days, they must win for themselves. And i m talking about republican politicians and voters.
For this purpose, Bush is a golden companion. ...
No one has forgotten who Bush is, but I would even prefer him as President trump with kissing hands.
I do not feel good.
I do not know why.
So I already know why.
I am not satisfied with my life.
I am on a wrong way, but I generally do little steps.
I burn time as if I were immortal.
I am Sure When I am old, I will be very angry.
I miss my old life.
I miss love. ..
I do not feel good, missing.
I do not feel good.
I dont know why...
What is sad racial profiling?
When racial profiling is the solution?
2016 was so fucked up that death is overworked and suffers from burnout. I was so drunk on New Year's Eve when I came home at 4am I had to puke myself was unconsciously banging my head against the bathtub. When I came back to myself, I was without orientation and trembled but with the charm of a young Leonardo di Caprio #jim Carell ... Then I had to puke again and again puke .... I puked from 4am in the morning till 1pm ( Except where I was unconscious) it was as if I had popped out the hole year 2016 ... 2017 please be good to me ..
I will not puke anymore
Harmony means sometimes better lonley as with lies.
First night in my new apartment and i am total overtired.
Tired from moving.
Tires from the office.
But most of all, i am tired
from the unaccustomed and
Was I still get to travel but I always had a home ... but for a home it takes two ... now I have only one apartment. Rest is all rules as it has always been regulated. Emotional activism has more People Killed than the invention of the hydrogen bomb
Tired Tired Tired
Please tell me u'r issue in Your Words
It is hard to be close to me for other people.
People they see me every day, say that they miss me.
I like to be alone.
I hate to be lonely.
It's like with the dignity. You see "her" the dignity never alone, she needs always another them appreciates her.
This is clear as White Letter's on Black Stone
What i want to try before i die.
Learn a New Language.
Have Sex with two Women.
Traveling in some Countries.
more good done as bad meant.
Be a Father.
my heart bleeds,
my soul cries and
my brain is afraid.
but my balls are reliable....
Love and Hate are so close, that i thought Maybe it is the same..only different time points of the same Timeline...
#LOVE #morph to #HATE
Please tell me I'm wrong.
a good time to everybody
What a bloody Summer.... terrible.