Waking up in the middle of the night , sweating , and having your heart beat faster than ever. The body feels like it's frozen and is not able to move from its place. Because of the dream you have just had , the dream that makes you feel too vulnerable. Makes you feel too exposed and a lot scarier than it actually is. Maybe because the dream felt too real , felt like it was really gonna make a difference in real life. The night earlier , you were standing there alone , trying to reveal what's hidden , for the first time ever and still weren't able to put it out well. Because it doesn't matter how many times you have lived your secret , doesn't matter how many times you have gone through it yo...
Never thought holding hands would ever bring peace like nothing else . Just walking around or sitting beside each other , amd holding hands. Niether too tight nor too lose , perfect enough to hold the grip. It gives a feeling of reassurance. A feeling that there is someone walking beside you and holding you . Catch hold of you if you fall.
This winter feels so much colder than any other winter
there is a sense of being alone and away from people
Loneliness is just hitting back so hard that it's hurting and I just can't make it stop
There are lights everywhere , every little thing is glowing
But the glow on my face is missing somewhere
Somewhere , where i can't find it anymore
It's like the hurt that caused pain more during the cold because it's just that time of the year
Everyone is happy around , and waiting for the celebration
Yet this place makes me feel dull and a little gloomy
Even with so many people around and laughter's ringing through my ears
There ain't any excitement or smile on my face.
Something is missing
I hope that there is day when i come back home to you , to your presence and to your scent. Just the smile on your face softens the creases on my forehead and your voice is the melody my ear is being waiting for the whole day. when you pull me into your arms , warmth of your hug eases my tensed body and brings a sense of relief. the heartbeat thumping again your chest is the rhythmic tune i sleep to. just by lying beside you makes things okay.. gives strength to face everything.. you may or may not be able to help in solving the issue but surely be able to give strength and hope to face it and make it better.. Talking to you about how the day was and hearing from you , how your day is the bes...
We are often forced to believe that if you are not hurt now , you will be hurt in future..
Hurt is inescapable.. Your past , present or future memories has to be mixed with hurt..
No one knows if its true or not , you don't know how much hurt would you get or if its just the beginning or its gonna end soon..
But , it is very important to understand that hurt for everyone is different ..
Something that hurts me is not necessarily hurtful for you.. Its not important that the reasons for which someone sheds tears , is the same reason for you to shed tears..
Hurt is hurt , it doesn't come with terms and conditions of reactions and intensity ..
If you are not hurt by few things , that doesn...
When the feeling of calmness and satisfaction passes by its the best feeling you will ever experience..
A beautiful sky with an amazing sunset and beautiful colours of the sunset spreading across the whole sky..
While you lie down on the terrace and just get lost into the sky , which is filled with stars..
Such sparkling stars which make you smile and lets you forget everything else ..
Enjoying the view of the stars and feeling the cold breeze touch your face and makes you feel better by just being there ..
The feeling where you suddenly start counting the stars after a very long time and are mesmerised by the beauty of the sky with the twinkling little ones..
Just as you count the star...
The feeling of being a stranger to a known place slowly creeps in..
Not just because it s a different place and different people around
But mostly because there is nothing familiar around
There is the absence of familiarity haunting more than presence of unknown
absence of a familiar scent, familiar touch , familiar warmth ..
Unfamiliarity suddenly makes you a stranger..
Just one hug
Washed away all the tiredness of the day
It re-energized the whole body again
It gave the Calm and Peace which were lost somewhere
Just one tight hug..
What if , what we cannot do in life is exactly what we are supposed to do in life and is our life goal .
Achieving something , we thought we could never be successful in.
Sometimes absence of light is more calm and peaceful than anything else.
Until Next Time
Another tear rolls down
Until Next Time
Another story comes to an end
Until Next Time
Another journey of memories is ended mid way
Until Next Time
Another Soul shatters
Until Next Time
Another heart breaks into pieces
Until Next Time
Choose your forbidden pleasures carefully
You often end up fulfilling them the most
If this is growing up i dont wanna grow up yet
Having responsibilities is good
But being answerable to everyone for them is growing up
Becoming an adult is easy , but adulting is difficult
Because Adulting comes with making decisions ,
Decisions you are ready to make yet
Decisions which include compromise no matter how good the choice is.
Responsibility to be right for yourself and make a correct choice for your future.
They include leaving few loved ones behind , and getting close to strangers
Changing your habits
Adjusting a little in every aspect
And yet being able to connect back to your past life in a better way.
Debating whether to stay or move on in terms of relations,
While I curl up into the bed , layering the bedsheet over me
I remind myself not to cry
Because I'm strong , and strong people don't cry . Is it ?
Thats when it strikes me , why can't I cry and still be strong.
Strong enough to still face the world and rise back as a fresh morning
Strong enough to accept that its tough and heartbreaking , yet I'm ready to face it.
I may have shed tears , while the world was asleep
But they ain't sign for my weakness , rather have given me more strength than anything else.
How easy and quick it was for me to judge my own tears , my own strength and weakness .
Because I think thats what the world has taught me , that tears are a sign of weakness , and they...
To the boy I love ,
I'm well aware of the differences we have , and the similarities we share.
I'm aware that we are more different than similar. That I'm your friend and you're just not that for me.
I know you have seen me as crazy , stupid , loud tomboy
And I know that you think , you can always get your way with me . It's true. Just that you don't know how far , and I know there isn't any limit yet.
I don't expect you to love me back , I know thats difficult
I do hope , someday maybe , you might have something for me
Not Love necessarily. Like , affection , care anything.
You might not be totally effecting my decisions , but you are always in mind when I take one.
Validation in your ...
All 6 of them sat around the table when they heard someone banging loudly, on the front door. For a second everyone froze. Could it be?...."
Is it possible , that the one friend they left behind , is back after so many years in search of them.
They all have met together after 7 years , for the first time after that incident occurred. A heartbreaking and dangerous accident , which lead to the death of one of their close friend. An incident which changed a group of 7 to 6.
The time seem to be the same , as it was 7 years back , the cold weather , everyone going for a holiday into the mountains and enjoying the chilly winds.
Difference was just that the chilly winds now , were c...
From being mysterious, and unable to read
To being the easiest one to read and understand
That one person changed everything.
Fear is scary but important for us to grow
People say - Face your fear , but what they forget is unwantingly , unknowningly , we do live with our fears everyday.
They may not come face to face but somewhere down there we are dealing with them
We just need to take our steps right , before our fear ungulfs us.
Because a fearful life could be a tortured and suffocated life ,
And fearless life , opens doors to new opportunity and a strong life.
There is nothing like good or bad emotion
Or right or wrong emotions. The world does not get to decide that whatever you feel and express is right or wrong.
If you love some , and if you think its right then it is right. Its on you , how you percieve them
If you feel weak , then maybe you have gone through events which have caused this feeling. Its not wrong. Weakness isn't wrong or bad or it doesn't make you less worthy.
Everyone experiences their part of emotions as and when their life takes turns.
Few more than others
Few less than others
And it's okay .
You are not entitled to answer anyone for what you are going through and why are you feeling certain emotion .
The way w...
Trying so hard to hide everything from you
Hiding how much you affect me
Hiding my emotions toward you
Hiding how jealous I am when you meet someone else , assuming them to be someone better
Hiding how scared I am with the slightest thought of you not being there
How chills run down my spine , with the slightest touch of you
How my expressions , my face , my eyes are a clear way through my soul , my feelings towards you.
How your words hurt more than they should
How your appreciation lights up my day and disapproval make the whole day a little more hard to go through
How your one statement spins around in my head , until the second one pops
Hiding how hard I'm trying here
I don't know...
The Last Time :
1. Last person who made me smile was my friend , whom i was talking to after a really long time and it felt good.
2. Last person I said I Love You to is actually no one . It's being a long time since these words have been expressed by me .
3. Last time you cried - Can't remember.
4. Last time you apologized - a few weeks earlier i have apologised to someone who i may have hurt with words.
5. Last time you said Thank You - This very morning , where a friend helped me feel good and it gave me a relief.
6. Last time you talked to your parents - I did just before going to bed.
7. Last fight with your significant other or best friend - an arguement with bestfriend last night ....
Being in Love with someone and wanting to spend life with them are two different things.
You may really love the person more than anyone in your life, you feel the need to be with them , spend time , share memories and just enjoy their presence yet you may not want to spend your life with them. The little things maybe the reason you don't wanna spend you life with them , no matter how crazy you are in love with them and how badly you want to be the one in their life.
Sometimes it's about comaptibility , but the other times it just is as it is.
The perfect life for me would be where i am still learning , experiencing and enjoying the events of Life. Filled with hardworks and achieving sometging for myself .
An average day - where I am still dealing with situations and figuring out ,solving problems. But at the end of the day , I am at peace with whatever the day had for me and satisfied with it. My day ending with an amazing night view and calmness of moon bringing peace finally.
We don't need someone to take care of us ,
But to see if someone is concerned that we do take care of ourself or not.
"They sat together on the couch, watching a movie. His heart was beating fast. When should he tell her? It's never a good time....."
He thought. It's never a good time to have a serious talk and to confront someone.
Someone who has been there since the beginning and if given chance will remain till the end.
Its never a good time to break someones heart , and pull them back into reality. Breaking the safest bubble they are in , just so that all the disappointment and depression hits them on face. But he had to get over with this ,
So he took the remote from her hand , paused the movie for a bit and turned her towards him .
Looked straight into the eye , and finally said her the n...
I have grown to be someone i don't really recognise.
All the mannerism and the behaviour i have learned are from you
The way you talk , you behave and you think is what happens with me now.
Even the way you handle your problems , hide that you are hurt and avoid conflicts .
Its like now, every part of me has a little of you mixed in it. And those manners and behaviour have become permanent , even if tried to change it wouldn't be possible.
And the twist is , you don't even know , you don't know how much i reflect you , than myself these days.
You don't know your ideas have turned to my ideas.
Your ability to avoid is giving me strength somewhere to keep it all together.
And your think...