|Be kinder than usual, for everyone is fighting some kind of battle in this life.|
I don't feel like you're mine enough. Sometimes I feel I don't have you quite enough. Every time I try to escape it.... the smell of your fragrance pulls me back in.
Anyone who walks life saying "I have a certain type" or believes that they only go for a certain type. Rather it's dating, or choosing friends. I want to tell you that you will never be able to see everything life has to offer because you are stuck in a certain type and culture views. Life is meant to explore. Open your eyes to new things my love. With that being said, I do think it's extremely important on who you choose as a friend and who you choose to marry but these things doesn't require having a certain "type". Love all races and cultures. If you listen to understand with a tongue that speaks to inspire others, every culture will be accepting. Lean not on what society says is true...so...
I apologize for fitting in when I know you made me different. I was born foolish but you filled me with wisdom. You were always the light to my darkness, the faith to prevent my suicidal thoughts. And the strength that pick me up on my weakest days. You made me brave when I was born a coward. You perfected my imperfections and made beauty of my past. You made me first when I thought I was last. Because of your grace, i don't look like what i've been through. Because of your grace, I am free now. You are the reason why i'm smiling. Each and everyday you remind me that you are the beginning and the end, the truth and the light. I am very thankful.
Remember when I used to steal change from your purse to buy candy at school? Now I got friends stealing money out of my Gucci bag hoping I won't notice. I'm not upset with him. I'm hurt that they were ever in a position where they feel like they had to steal. Instead of getting angry...I hugged him with tears in my eyes. Ma, at night I twist and turn in my bed because I can't get away from my hellish past. Lately, I've been sleeping with all kinds of women. Women I wouldn't typically go for... like married women and atheists. I think my days are numbered, i'm finding it hard to smile now days.
I went to a coffee shop today. I was relaxing on the rooftop enjoying the lovely view when I over heard two people talking. One man said " The two shall become one flesh; so... they are no longer two but one flesh. What therefore God has joined together, let no man separate. " the one man continued " When a couple consummate their vows, it is not man, woman, pastor, or parent who's the main actor...God is.
The other guy said " That's huge. I truly value that but there's so many flaws in my wife and I's marriage. We lack a lot things that we just can't provide for each other. "
The first guy smiled with no ounce of doubt. And said " God will bring you in a relationship with someone most ...
I have a story.
Milo lost his job. Milo was sitting on the couch with tears in his eyes wondering how he was going to tell his wife. Milo's dad walked in the room and saw his son weeping. Before his dad could say anything, Milo yelled "I lost my job, dad. I'm losing it. Idk how i'm going to take care of my family. I feel like giving up." His dad tossed him the keys and said "let's drive."
Milo: Really? You want me to drive your new car?
Dad: Yes, let's drive.
MILO STARTS DRIVING.
Milo: It's starting to rain, dad. Do you want me to turn around?
Dad: No, keep driving.
Milo: Dad, it's starting to rain harder. Do you want me to pull over?
Dad: No, keep going. In fact, get o...
You Must Be An Angel
In a world where darkness can be felt, hope can be lost and dreams can be shattered. You seem to have built your palace with stone...You've aways remained unbroken. There's no hate in your heart. In times of unjust you've always remained loving and gentle. You are so patient. You have given it all away many times and have been left with nothing... just to see someone else happy. In a world full of greed and conditional love, you certainly can't go unnoticed. You walk this land in the flesh... yet, you live in the heavens.
I've come so far from where I used to be. I've had so much success over the years. I'm at the point where I feel like I'm all out of blessings. As if there's no more hope for me. I feel trapped and lost. Regardless, I just want you to know that i'm forever thankful.
I stare at my reflection in the mirror: "Why am I doing this to myself?" At the end, only the scars remain. The ones who claims to love me left me out to die at my weakest hour. Please forgive me if I seem a little pale. I've been spending most of my days sleeping and most of my nights thinking... I keep falling.
Love, why do you do this? Why do you let him put you through this? You never know what's good until it's gone, girl he's clueless.
I feel your vibe, it's contagious. My life is going through some changes. Let me get this career going steady. And I promise by then I'll be ready. This New York life got me anxious. I don't like leaving my apartment, so many people and they're heartless. I'm trying to make it on my own. Mom and Pop moved to France. I haven't spoken to them in weeks. I'm venting but I just really need to sleep.
Right now, someone you haven't met is out there wondering what it would be like to meet someone like you.
Honestly, when you used to prostitute in our home... I never forgave you for that. I used to see random guys giving you drugs. You used to thank them for that. You never married my dad, I was a bastard for that. After ten years you tried your hardest to get him back. Back in the day my babysitter used to rape me for that. It's sad because it was my uncle. Someone who I would of never thought would ever do that. I'm drunk so I'm talking, this liquor is bringing memories back. Tears in my eyes...I wonder why I had to go through that. Grandma just overdosed and died, She was the queen of the family. I don't go home for holidays because my family used to supply her the drugs to go and do that. I'...
In the Bible, I remember reading a scripture saying " Our God can change the world in a twinkling of an eye". I asked myself how, how would God change the world. Would he end all cancer, would he lower gas prices, or would he give us all equal rights... Then it hit me. God wouldn't change the world by doing any of those things... Instead, he would change the world by simply changing all the minds of the people who are in the world.
Maybe the world doesn't see you, and maybe they don't understand you. And you feel so alone in your heart, everybody has a story, none of them seems quite the same...But if I could, can I hold your hand through the storms because love brings change and I wanna help settle the pain.
Give me the chance, ...Give me the opportunity to fall in love with a woman like you. You'll make our world a brighter place. Let's not rush into things. I would love to go on night walks with you and talk about our future, make each other laugh, but most importantly, make each other feel comfortable. Show you that no matter how much you fall, I will always be there to pick you up. Even though I find beauty in everything you do, I believe the ultimate beauty is when our kids are telling their kids how much Mom and daddy loved each other from the day I married my angel.
By no means am I trying to ruin what you may have planned, but tonight, I was thinking maybe we could do something a little different. Maybe have a late night picnic on the beach with your favorite fruits and making you laugh uncontrollably while drowning in your smile. Or maybe go to your favorite Italian restaurant and tell you what it's like to wake up everyday to an angel. Or better yet, light scented candles and turn lights off. And play our favorite slow jam music. While we slow dance in the dark, I softly kiss on your neck and shoulders while also reminiscing the day you changed my life. Simply because I want to give you the love that you've always deserved. My love, I a...
Too often my heart is with you but yours is nowhere to be found.
One day, on the way to work I stopped at a coffee shop. One of the workers approached me and said " Sir, you are always dressed really nice. I love your car as well. I would be so happy if I was as rich as you." That employee is there every morning. Serving people with a great smile. Making sure the area is always clean. I would watch him everyday and ask myself " how does he do it? Serve with such Joy and kindness to strangers. And treating everyone with pure love?" When he said he wishes he was rich, I simply said to him "you already are, my friend. You have a sense of kindness and a huge heart that no one could ever buy. My friend, you have riches." Your character is more important than mo...
It feels like too much blowing up and showing up....but not enough growing up.
She looks so innocent.... Not in the sense that she's never told a lie, but as if she hasn't experienced life yet.
This magician was very famous for proving to his audience that he can walk on water, he's done it several times. One day a huge crowd gathered around to see more of his stunts. The magician asked the crowd " how many of you believe that I can walk across this lake while carrying a 65lb block with me on my back while also pushing a guy in a wheelbarrow?" The whole crowd shouts " we believe you, we believe you, You're awesome." He then asked, "who wants to get in the wheelbarrow and come with me?" Crickets. Everyone got quiet, you could of heard a pen drop. You see, believing that he could do it, that was easy. They'd seen him do it before. Getting in that wheelbarrow and letting someone else d...
I freely go just about anywhere I desire, but I don't feel free. I can buy just about anything that interest me, and yet, I still feel so broke. I would hangout with the best group of people I know, and still feel very lonely. I'm wearing so many layers of clothing ....I still feel naked. I know this city like the back of my hand; And yet, I still feel lost.
Can you...Feel the damage as you hug me, Can you....Can you see the lost of life as you look into my eyes, When you hold my hand is it cold? Isn't it beautiful, how for some reason when I hear your voice, my heart says "there's my favorite song". Did you ever know how much you took away when you left, my dear? Too often, the only escape is sleep... From this messy reality. I forgot what it feels like to live without you. My dear, too often, I find myself living in a depressed state of mind. In another life, our story doesn't end after this chapter, the book ends with you and me, we bloom.
Of course I look at a woman's physical beauty, but when we're talking about forming a permanent relationship such as marriage, I find beauty in other things. For example, kindness is beautiful, being slow to take and quick to give, what she's willing to sacrifice for me, living a life that we truly value, and being sensitive to others feelings are some of the true values of beauty, in my eyes. The beauty in her smile... the way she looks in that dress, doesn't nearly mean as much to me. See, my intentions are pure. My desires are to fall in love with your heart, I believe that's the main source of who you really are. And love you with fear of losing you so I will never get lazy and quit tryin...
Don't let loneliness and the absence of affection, have you in the wrong arms of a man who will lead you down the wrong path.
...As a child , I always wanted to grow up so fast. But now I realize broken toys and lost pencils are better than broken hearts and lost friends.
Dear future wife,
I must say it's been lonely without you. I fall down so much in this life, I still haven't fully recovered from the scars that has hindered for so long. I'm often impatient, settling for women who doesn't deserve that part of me. This world is changing by the second.The way society treats women is pure evil, as if we ( men) are better than you. I want you to know that I don't follow this world , I encourage you to think for yourself, not the way the world wants to think. But mainly, I want you to stay true to yourself and never let this world rob you from your individuality. While we're still separated I want you to know that I'm praying upon all your successes. And ...
Driving by that old lake where we first kissed. I always find myself swerving on the road because it's like I see you there everytime. There you go, I see you dancing on the sand. I promised myself that one day I'll join you. I was grocery shopping the other day, I saw that pure cranberry juice that you love. Ohh how I never liked it but I got it. Last night I was looking at your photo book while drinking your favorite drink, I loved it soo much, that was one of my better nights in while. I walked into that bar where you were bartending at two years ago. It was my first time there without you. They gave me all my drinks free, I couldn't believe it. They played your favorite playlist. There we...