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Drakon805

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United States
Mother, wife, gamer. IG: Drakon805 Anxiety/social anxiety/depression/chronic pain/migraine sufferer
November 15, 2019
 

My hand covers my eyes.
My head hangs in disbelief.
You held my heart in your hand.
You tossed it away.
I am left picking up the pieces.
There are holes that will never be filled.
Cracks that will never fully mend.

           -Drakon805

GRIEF IS A MASK
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November 4, 2019
 

Some days, like yesterday and today, I feel a great sense of loss. Uncontrollable crying and anger that happens throughout the day. Only, there is no actual loss only the feeling of loss. There is no real reason to be angry or to cry.

                       -Drakon805

                              

DEPRESSED
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October 31, 2019
 

Halloween, Samhain or what ever name you call October 31.

It has been one year of being smoke free.

I know I still have a problem because I still crave it. I still think about it. Every now and then I forget and look for my pack.

I still find it hard to breathe sometimes. Especially when I'm walking, that seems to be the hardest.

Although, being sick isn't as bad. I don't cough as hard or as much and my chest doesn't hurt. At least not like it used to.

I can be around people smoking that does not bother me or make me crave. I only crave when I'm alone and my thoughts are running wild.

I have an addiction and I know it. I am recovering. It has been a year without it.

              ...

SILVER CLOCK
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October 20, 2019
 

The feeling of my heart aching for you.
The memories of our last kiss.
My arms missing your embrace.
My mind filled with painful emotions.
You may not be here but I still feel you.
An eternity of love left waiting for you.
To see you now would be a dream come true.

TIME HEALS ALL WOUNDS
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October 3, 2019
 

There is a fire that burns throughout my essence.
An unquenchable and constant fire.
You were the only one that could tame the flames.
Without you I am burning out of control.

ON FIRE
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September 28, 2019
 

Together, you and I.
Forever, you and I.
Happy, you and I.
Love, you and I.
Irreplaceable, you and I.
Connected, you and I.
Unforgettable, you and I.
Memories, you and I.
No longer you, only I.

SOULMATE
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September 24, 2019
 

The cool crisp air of the early morning wakes me.
The space where you used to be is cold and empty.
I find no comfort or warmth alone in this frigid bed.
I still find myself reaching for you knowing you are gone.
Cold and alone in the bed we once curled up to cuddle in.
Our story started long ago and is left without a proper ending.
Today I will miss you and tonight as I sleep I will be with you again.

MISS YOU
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September 19, 2019
 

Happy birthday my dearest friend. I send my love and wish you another great chapter to your book of Life. I am so proud of you for all of the hard work you have put in to become a better version of you. I am your biggest fan and I love you! 💙

                                          
                                     -Drakon805

THE SECRET BOOK
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August 26, 2019
 

To really begin this story I need to tell it from the very beginning. My, now ex-husband who I will refer to as husband for the rest of this story, and I had gotten pregnant with our 3rd child.  During my pregnancy I went to the ob/gyn regularly. I had all of the normal tests done. When I had to get the test to see if there were any abnormalities I already knew it would come back that there was something wrong. I even told my mother-in-law it would come up this way. I remember the call from the doctor telling to sit down. I didn't, I told him to go ahead. I remember him saying the test came back that the baby had down syndrome and that he wanted me to get another test done to verify. I was ca...

GRATEFUL
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August 23, 2019
 

#Skylarkchallenge205
#3

Drowning under waves of sadness and pain.  Heartache engulfing my very being.
My thoughts clasped to the memory of us.
My arms reaching into the darkness.
Searching for any hope of rescue.
Slowly fading into the loneliness.
This never-ending sense of loss.
The sudden disconnect of what used to be.

THIS WILL PASS
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August 23, 2019
 

#Skylarkchallenge205
#2

Darkness engulfing me, drowning in waves of sobbing and tears.
My hand clasped in yours, reaching for answers to bring you back to me.
Faith came to your rescue, our miracle would come 19 days later.
You are here with me now because of one simple question,  "Do you do anything different with her that you didn't do with the other children?"

LET FAITH BE BIGGER
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August 19, 2019
 

#SkylarkChallenge205
#WeeklyChallenge

I thought he had rescued me, but he decided to fling me into heartache.
The arms that once held me pushed me away.
I keep reaching through this darkness while the waves of his memory wash over me.
They keep engulfing me, drowning me.
He hid the fork of his lie filled tongue, his words flying through my thoughts.
My heartbeat no longer clasped to his as he disappeared back into the universe.
He has left me stranded for eternity in this lonely and dark world.

TIMELESS MESSAGE
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August 16, 2019
 

                     #SkylarkChallenge204 #6

               The expression on your face said more  
               than what came from your lips.
               The sharp pain of betrayal left its        
                impression on my heart.

NOT AGAIN
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August 16, 2019
 

#SkylarkChallenve204 #5

Your expression of Love broke me.
Your lips forever poisoned by your actions.
Your words cut sharp and deep.
Your selfishness leaving an impression of untrust within me.

HURT
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August 16, 2019
 

#SkylarkChallenge204 #4

Lips on lips, as an expression of Love.
His love left a lasting impression on my heart.
Now unending sharp pains and heartache feel my body.

HEARTBROKEN
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August 16, 2019
 

#SkylarkChallenge204 #3

Chapped lips, dehydrated, overheated.
Sharp pains of a migraine untreated.
The impressions of the heat have always left me hate-filled.
In the heat, my facial expressions are never those of feeling thrilled.

DRAINED
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August 16, 2019
 

#SkylarkChallenge204 #2

I hold an angry expression upon my face.
everywhere I go I always feel so out of place.
My lips rarely form a smile.
I have been like this for quite a while.
I seem to always leave a lasting impression.
No one really sees my anxiety and depression.
Some days my tongue is sharp like a knife. It cuts and tears at my reflection of my life.

DEPRESSED
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August 16, 2019
 

#SkylarkChallenge204 #1

oh, this sharp pain I get in my chest.
My heart aching for you beneath my breast.
You left a lasting impression, and imprint on my aching heart.
My lips wishing yours would never part from them.
My heart still beating as an expression of Love.
Knowing you and I were destined to be by the powers above.

LET'S FALL IN LOVE
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August 13, 2019
 

#WeeklyChallenge

This journey we call life, leading us down new and different paths. The paths we choose are always changing, always evolving and almost always hard. We, sometimes, make it through to see the next challenge before us. As we walk our chosen path, like a stray dog looking for the right way to go. Some paths will bring joy, some pain, some love and some tears. Yet, we continue through the path we have chosen never knowing how long it will take or if it will suddenly end. Choose your path wisely, appreciate the views before you and never forget the paths that have gotten you this far.

NATURAL
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August 11, 2019
 

I wish for a perfect end to this night.
To be in your arms once more.
To feel your hands gently moving along my curves.
Kissing my body as you slide down.
Your hands gripping my thick thighs.
Your teeth marks imprinted in my flesh.
Your tongue playing gently between my legs.
Moaning as you tease me with your fingers.
Your hot breath on my skin.
Spreading my legs wider only to tease me more.
You know how loud I can be.
You know the neighbors can hear me.
You love to hear me moan and scream in pleasure.
You kiss me hard as you force yourself into me.
You like to be rough with me.
You love to choke me until I climax again.
You bite my neck before you forcefully turn me.
On my hands and knees you...

EVERY TIME
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August 8, 2019
 

#WeeklyChallenge

The sun began to fade behind the horizon. Red, orange and yellow fill the sky overhead. The colors temporarily painting the pavement at the train station. On a bench sits an abandoned book. People passing by take a quick look at the cover as they rush by. The book hoped the dream of someone turning each page in awe of it's story within would soon come true. The fear of fading out of existence was creeping in as the book sat on the bench waiting, begging in silence for someone to pick it up.

THE SECRET BOOK
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August 4, 2019
 

#SkylarkChallenge 202
Entry #2

The pain in my chest, where my heart used to be, is burning and tearing at my insides.
The face of the pain is in the monstrous ways I have been treated.
Feeling damned by the horror in my mind, my thoughts so dark.
I lost hope of salvation when I lost the one, my last chance faded away with him.
His essence released back into the universe, leaving me behind to grasp at memories.
My thoughts are caught spinning and turning to the memories we shared.
The darkness surrounds me, the light that once saved me has burned out forever.
I am alone with these thoughts, dark and sinister filling my head with words and images.
This pain is endless, as endless as my thoug...

DESPAIR
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August 3, 2019
 

I want to feel your naked body next to mine.
I want to feel our bodies intertwined.
From the front to the back and side to side.
Until we switch our position, 69.
You always wait for yours until I get mine.
Your tongue is skilled and beyond devine.
Your fingers on my body, touching bare skin.
Fingers between my thighs, not ready to end.
You bring me to climax, inhibition free.
I want to feel your raw release inside of me.
I can feel you inside of me, it's been so long.
My dreams, replaying like a beautiful song.
You touched my heart and chiseled my mind.
Even through death we keep a tight bind.

DREAMING OF YOU
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August 2, 2019
 

Dear neighbors,

When you see a single female, barbecuing for one, that is not an invitation for conversation. Especially when that single female has her headphones on, a notebook in one hand and a pen in the other. You can see she is lost in thought, writing something as she sits alone waiting for her dinner to finish on the grill. You don't need to walk up to her and ask what she's making for dinner or ask her where her man is. I was not aware a man was needed to barbecue. I am pretty sure interrupting her thought process while she was writing was annoying enough. Only to have the audacity to insinuate she needs a man. I am sorry to break it to you but most women can be the hunter/gatherer'...

FEEL IT WRITE IT
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August 1, 2019
 

You say your words come from inspiration.
Everyone can tell they are for recognition.
We hear the desperation in the things you write.
All we read is SEE ME, KEEP ME IN YOUR SIGHT.

You are hoping for a like, a shout-out, a repost.
You enjoy the comments and fake love the most.
You have lost your words in others works.
Just be yourself and know your worth.
Your mind is not a prison of thought.
Learn to teach, not just be taught.
Spill that ink with your own curves and lines.
Wrap your words in our heads like ropes and vines.
Let go of your doubts and your fears.
Stand beside your friends and peers.
Write your story the way only you can.
Share your words written with your own hand.

DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY
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