I did not forget you. You are my comfort who can absorb all my pain and sorrow. After the trip we both got someone special. We also got good friends. Somewhere I got busy with my crush and new friends surrounded me. You were lost somewhere. You seemed happy and I felt like you've got new friends too.
Then things changed. You changed.
I never forgot you.
I asked you about your mental wellness. You hid everything from me.
You never told me your true feelings, even what you thought about me. Strange it is! Coz I considered you my everything. I shared every bit with you. Sadly, you never fully emptied yourself. Even upon asking you hid things. I felt like leaving it on you only coz you were no...
The mind feels overburdened.
It is overloaded with trash.
It thinks and overthinks.
It imagines situations.
It loves to fantasize.
It wants to submerge in thoughts of what it wants to happen.
It likes to be hit hard continuously in parietal region.
What a pleasure it is to hit !
It feels like I am relieved of all pain.
I remember nothing.
No worries. No anxiety. No tension of career. Nothing !
I feel sleepy.
I fall asleep.
Deep. Deeper !
Thank You Zen for being with me throughout...whether I deserved it or not !
Dil dukh rha h mera
Har pal har saans me dukhta h
Ankhein band krti hoon
Agli saans me phir dukhta h
Aur ankhein khul jati hain
Ankho me bharipan hai mere
Or dil dukh rha hai....
Saanson me bharipan hai
Ankhein jhuki si hain
Dhadkane mehsoos hoti hain
Dhadkano me dard ki aahat
Or dil bohot...
Dukh rha hai !!
I wished I was ill again so as to lose some weight.
God Blessed Me !
I long for someone who could UNDERSTAND me to the fullest.
Someone who could fix a bit
and leave the rest.
I am not a regular Poet
But You are my Morning Prayer
And Midnight's Dream !
Some days are bad. You want to cry out but it is futile. Better is to fake smile and say I am Ok. The person close to ur heart will hug you and say I know you're not. But the day is still bad.
Having Well educated and Morally upright humans as parents means half the battle of life is won.
Saat janmo ko jati wo pehli tareekh kab ayegi
dariya kinare apni wo jhonpdi kab ban payegi
Aasmaan par taaron ki siyahi se likha apna naam kab hoga
Tere naam ka sindoor meri maang me kab hoga
When your answers are trimmed, grounded and polished, Do you know not I can decipher the raw impulse running from your heart to your mind?
Daddy Daddy Daddy!
You remember how u hugged him
Carried him in ur arms
I was small though
But i remember you Loved him
You brought his favorite sweets
You kept him on top priority
You prayed when he was ill
You prayed whenever he was in need
I was small though
But i remember you Loved him
He is the same Son Daddy!
He's hit hard, very hard
He's broken, he's forgotten path
He's trying but he cannot
He's ill Daddy you get it not
You scold him hard
You torture him on phone
You expect from him a lot
You look inside him not
You are ashamed of him in the society
You Not ashamed of yourself?
You point five on him
You look not within
I was small though Daddy
But i remember you Loved him.....
Honey! I heard you saying, "Leave it to me Darling. Calm your mind. Just wait a little, I'll embrace you within, forever, soon!!
And it relieved me of all of my worries and anxiety and stress.
I saw. The sky opened like venus fly trap and some unseen creatures fell down in abundance.
Jab manzil ho paas to jeene ka maza nhi ata
Jab rasta ho maloom to dhundhne ka maza nhi ata
Jab chhaon ho Har jagah to paon jalne ka maza nhi ata
Jab Khana ho ifraad to bhookhe rehne ka maza nhi ata
Jab dil ho shaad shaad to rone ka maza nhi ata
Jab sab kuch ho behisaab to khone ka maza nhi ata
Jab iraade na ho buland toofan se ladne ka Maza nhi ata
Jab Marham ho dastiyab chot sehne ka maza nhi ata
Jab bemaqsad ho zindagi Aey Dost!
Faqat saans lene me maza nhi ata..
Kuch to baat Hai tum me
Jo baat yaha tak aa pohchi
Ham dil pe Gaye dil tum pe gaya
Aur baat khuda tak ja pohchi
I, sometimes, feel quitting everything and relying completely on him...
Sometimes events happen in sequence, showing miraculous cause and effect. You easily connect the missing dots that lead you to disbelief, distrust, and confirm betrayal. You are tempted to believe in what you suspect. A whole false story germinating in your unconscious takes impersonation of pseudo reality. It is scary at this point. Your world is shaken.
Then, you discover the actual reality. How ambiguous the evidences were? How they led you to unconsciously hurt the most treasured ones. You regret. You better understand. You learn. You grow up.
Aaj phir us darr ka kohra chhaya
Aaj phir us avsaad ne mujhe apnaya
Aaj phir chaand ko ghane badal ne ghera
Aaj phir raat ki tanhai me wolf ka deraa
Yes, i am in unrest. I don't want to tell you. I don't want to bother you at this crucial time of yours.
Why is this happening all of a sudden? Why am i unable to concentrate? Why this sudden rise of gloominess? I am afraid that i am afraid of something. What could it be? Why this unknown fear? I feel a slight but sharp headache all through the day. Why this sudden emptiness and lust for solitude?
Ummm Okay! No sleep? Let's write.
It's 3 am. This odd hour brings in the oddest thoughts in my mind. When i was in 10th grade I started thinking of existence. My question was- why do we exist? If something created us why did it do so? If it had such an immense power it could have been happy even without creating the universe. What would have been there if there was no universe and no "Us"?
I asked my 10th grade bestie about our existence. She laughed for ten full minutes. Since then i never unveiled my thoughts.
Life and Death are such great mysteries. You dive in, you keep on sinking only to find that there's no surface to land. There is truth in it. I see uncertainty. If there wa...