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"Poetry at its core" I'll be focusing on poetry and I hope you enjoy what you read.
June 20, 2019

I don't need to be an archealogist to dig up my past
I don't need to be a speaker to leave an impression that'll last
I don't need to be a doctor to heal the inner me
I don't need to be a taxi driver to, the road in front of me, see
I don't need to be a therapist to heal my mind
I don't need to be a charity organization in order to be kind
I don't need to be a babysitter to watch life grow
I don't need to be an actor in order to be a part of life's show
I don't need to be a psychic in order to, my future, see
I don't need to be a beekeeper to be as sweet as honey
I don't need to be a teacher to leave a mark on those who walk into the room I teach in
I don't need to be a famous sports player w...

May 29, 2019

Isn't there a rainbow after rain?
Why don't I see it yet?
Will I ever get to see the rainbow and see what I needed to gain?
Do I need to continue to fret?

Or is this the rainbow in disguise?
Why does a rainbow feel so much like rain?
I can barely see in front of my eyes
Is a rainbow supposed to make me feel like I'm going insane?

Isn't rain supposed to bring growth to the plants on the Earth?
Am I not a plant that has done a lot of growing and, for once during this growth process, just wants to see the rainbow?
Why is my rain just not helping me feel anything but not much worth?
And me, as a plant, just doesn't get the chance to show myself because there is no time to do so?

I need this gr...

May 12, 2019

The life of a piano ain't an easy one
It sits there in all its glory, waiting to be played
It might sit there for years, forgotten under a blanket by someone
Or it might be played by a player who leads his, or her, audience down a path s/he newly made

The keys bring out a melody oh, so meaningful
The only ones who can play it are those inclined to music and the musical ear
Some people forget that this is not true and complete and utter bull
And, truth be told, we never really know who has that ability to play music that people are inclined to hear

Each note says another thing; brings out another tune
Each note tells another story and brings the story to life in the melody that whomever choo...

May 2, 2019

We're builders; not breakers
We're the fire; not the candlestick maker
We're the passion; not the hate
We're the compassion; not people who easily frustrate
We're the foundation; not the bricks
We're the flea spray; not the ticks
We hold hands; not letting go
We stand by each other; not letting the other one be forgotten as part of life's show
We each play a part; not forgotten in life's play
We each add a note; not a forgotten melody, we are every day
We each play an instrument only we can play; not given an instrument of no use to us
We are children; not the driver on a school bus

And, as such, we each play a part and aren't forgotten along the way
So, what I'm trying to say is that, as fr...

May 1, 2019

Tangled in light
Our love shines bright
In the night

Tangled in love
Our love is felt through the air and feels strong enough
And is as white, and pure, as a dove

Tangled in our hands embrace
We hold each other tight and don't let our eyes off of our faces
Because we know that our love, no matter what, can stand the sands of time and still remain in this loving place

Tangled and encased
In the love we never chased
We realize that our love is our own version of an embrace

Tangled in the love we feel
We realize it's even more real
Because we have each other and our hearts will forever be stolen by the other, even if we didn't want, it, to steal

Tangled in strings made of steel
We realize t...

April 16, 2019

Tranquility is what I seek
It's hard to find in a second or more
Because it's not so easy to, into it, get a peek
For right now, it's behind some door

I don't know where that door is
Nor am I sure that right now is a good time for me to look for that door
Because, right now, I see no abyss
And that would be reason enough for me to look for it and possibly find more

More than I expect to, right now, find
Because, in the chasm that is the abyss, there's no looking back as you fall
But, right now, I accept that I'm not in that abyss nor is tranquility anywhere nearby to help me out of this bind
Even though I'm not in any abyss, there's still a need to find tranquility and I know, deep down (no...

February 26, 2019

God, please guide me
Please stand beside me
In my struggles, I need You
Please help me through

God, my prayers, please hear
I am crying and really want a listening ear
I don't want to do this alone
I don't want to go through this on my own

God, You stand by Your people no matter the plight
I know I'm one in a million, but please, no matter what, help me fight this fight
I really need Your helping hand helping me through my hard times and helping me be me
I really need You to help me see

God, You see the parts of me that I don't see
Even the parts that I really want to see and understand clearly
Because I am lost in this world and, me, I cannot find
I am lost in my own mind

God, I wish, I ...

February 17, 2019

The road to success is under construction, you say
I say the same thing in a different way
The road to hell is paved with good intentions, you might say too
But I have a different point of view

The road to success isn't under construction; it's almost all in your hands
The road to hell isn't always paved with good intentions; at least, not always by man
The road to success is up to God and you to build
Man and his evil deeds will not help him with both; especially, up any hill

No matter the size of the hill and no matter what the hill is made up of, you've always got a choice as to whether the hill is a climb and/or the hill is made up of good deeds
Don't ever forget that both you and God d...

January 23, 2019

She can't express what she feels inside
What more does she need to hide?
Her feelings are not being addressed because, to some people, they're not there
And that's not fair
Oh, she knows life ain't fair and life ain't cherries and rainbows galore
But the pain, the anguish.... How much more?
How much more can she take of the unspoken feelings that are ready to pop out?
How much of herself does she need to do without?
Because who is she if she has feelings and is being a human like everyone else on this Earth?
Does she need to be numb in order to have some worth?
Why do her emotions need to be stifled and why to people think they need to be pushed aside?
Because than those exact people can walk...

January 9, 2019

I want to scream... but my mother can hear me
I want to scream... that my father never sees me
I want to scream... but what about the neighbors?
I want to scream... but what about the haters?
I want to scream... but what about the men?
I want to scream... but what do I do AFTER then?
I want to scream... but what will happen to my vocal cords?
I want to scream... that I am never even heard
I want to scream... but with what words?
I want to scream... but don't want to be left out in the cold
I want to scream... but am afraid to be THAT bold
I want to scream... but am afraid I'll never stop
I want to scream... and I don't even know what
I want to scream... but where do I begin?
I w...

December 30, 2018

I don't know where to start
There are so many feelings deep within my heart
If I start crying, I am sure I will explode
I don't even want to go down that road
I am sure that I will cry like there's no tomorrow
But I am not sure if I'm ready to face that sorrow
I am so scared of something and I don't want to be
Every day, I am blocking out this fear because, it, I do not want to see
I don't even know why I am so afraid
All I know is that it keeps on coming in cascades
I so badly want to feel better, but I don't know how to even start
All I feel is broken pieces of what once was my heart
I don't want to face the fear, whatever it may be
But it may be the only thing stopping me from...

December 9, 2018

There is an invisible rope called life
Every day, we continue to climb
Sometimes, we fall down an inch or two
But we always manage to climb back just in the nick of time

The rope seems endless and may leave us out of breath
But we continue the climb up, no matter the obstacles in our "path"
We take a step up, hoping it's the right one
Hoping we won't face another obstacles "wrath"

As we continue the cllimb up, we wonder if this rope will ever end
But life is the rope, and if it ends, that means we did too
So appreciate the cimb
I know it's hard; trust me. I have been, it, through

I am still climbing; I am still a work in progress
I have made the climb till now and so can yo...

November 25, 2018

Imagine, if you will, walking down a path
The trees surrounding you in their loving embrace
But all you feel is their wrath
It's written all over their face

Inside, you feel a tornado of feelings that seem to show up outside of yourself too
But all you want to do is just to walk down this path
And enjoy the scenic view
Not to face the trees apparent wrath

You continue walking, seeing the trees wrath grow
You decide to quicken your pace
And not walk so slow
You walk so fast away as if you are in a race

As you leave the path with the trees no longer in view
You breathe a sigh of relief, not even realizing it escaped your lips
But, as you continue on to a place you call home,...

October 19, 2018

There is a time a place for things
There's a time and place to be a human being
There's a time and place to do what you feel you need done
There's also a time to set aside time to have some fun
There's a time where all of ourselves is tested
There's a time where our bodies don't feel so rested
There's a time where pain hurts more than the words said
There's a time where things go on in a loop over in our heads
There's a time where times change into a different time
There's also a time where time itself has no reason or rhyme
There's a time where we question our own existence and wonder where we belong
There's a time where we might not have so much strength to face any obstacle coming our way,...

June 15, 2018
Airmont, United States

I'm not perfect, and almost never claim to be
I have a lot of issues as some people can clearly see
I am insecure, or at least, I consider myself so
I am not independent and I know I'll have to take things slow
I am fearful of a lot of things
But, most of all, I'm sometimes not okay with what God brings
They do say that you don't have to like everything given to you
But I want to like things more then I do
I don't want to let life give up on me
But I'm probably giving up on it before it can do that to me, see?

So, as I said, I'm not perfect and don't claim to be
And I do have issues, as some can clearly see
But will these issues I think I have stop me?
Or will I grow from them like a tree?

June 12, 2018
Monsey, United States

I am stuck
I don't know how to go on
I don't know where to go from here
All I know is that my job here on Earth is not yet done

I don't know what God has planned for me
I don't know what to do next in life
Do I find a job?
Or do I become someone's wife?

I am existing, but I'm not living
And I don't know how to live normally
All I know is that I'll continue on until I find something...
Something that'll give me a reason to go on to see the possibilities awaiting me

My Heart
June 12, 2018
Monsey, United States

I don't remember the exact moment you stopped speaking to me
I don't remember the exact moment you broke my heart
I don't remember when that happened
But my heart is now in shards

I can't trust a guy because of you
I don't know how to love because of you too
I'm afraid to put myself out there and see what guys are like
Because you ruined that for me more then 3 times and that's a strike

Why did you stop speaking to me?
Did I do something wrong?
Did I become a burden to you?
Or am I, to you, too strong?

What did I do wrong to deserve this as a punishment?
Did I do a sin?
Did I hurt you?
Do I deserve to feel like I belong in a garbage bin?

Why make me feel this way?
Why hurt ...

June 4, 2018
Airmont, United States

There are so many empty
Words that are spoken
There are so many promises
That end up being broken

There are no actions to prove
That what you said is real
There are no feelings involved
In any deal

If there were
You'd keep what you said
If there were
It wouldn't be on a loop in my head

So forget about the words
And think about the act
Will you fulfill the words
And promises you once made while you had some tact?

Or will you forget
That word you once said
And make it go on a loop
In someone else's head?

June 3, 2018
Airmont, United States

I need to know that I'm okay
I need to know that my way is not the way
I need to know that I'm not the one holding the world in my hand
I need to know that I'm not the one in command
I need to know that I only hold the key
I need to know that I don't hold eternity
I need to know that this isn't me
I need to know that I'm just seeing, but I'm not in control of what I see
I need to know that I'm just part of God's overall plan and I'm not who He is
I need to know that my life isn't mine to control and that's what's been amiss
I need to know that I don't have to start with I need to know
I just want to grow
I want to grow into who I'm destined to be
Whether or not it's approved by me
I just want...

May 31, 2018
Airmont, United States

Go through the rain and come out refreshed
As if your past is no longer hanging on your feet like a ball and chain
The rain might be hard to go through
But go through the rain and, so many things, you'll gain

You'll gain what YOU need to gain
No matter what it is
And you'll feel better
You don't have to tell anyone because it's not their biz

So, go through whatever you need to go through
And I promise you that you'll gain more than you'll lose
You won't have to have that ball and chain anymore
Imagine how you'll feel when you'll look back at your life, amused

You're not carrying around with you something you dislike
You're carrying around you
And your past can go where the past belongs: in...

May 31, 2018

Tears come and go
Tears go away very slow
Life gives you a reason to cry
When tears are waving goodbye
That's when you have a reason to smile
Tears come when you're happy and they're never out of style
But when they come and don't go away
Or they come and you don't give them a reason to stay
That's when it's confusing as heck as to what exactly you feel
But you know those emotions are real
So cry, no matter why
Just cry
You'll feel better, trust me
I just hope you cry only because you're happy

May 31, 2018
Monsey, United States

My feelings are like water:
Once they hit the shore, there's no telling where they'll go
Take a minute and think about my feelings too
Because my feelings are important too and they're not "just for show"

I feel just like you do
Except I feel it differently, that's true
But that doesn't mean I don't have any feelings to consider
Instead, do you want me bitter?

So take a moment and think
My feelings are like the ocean blue
Once they hit the shore
There's no telling what they'll do

They might "damage" the picturesque beach
Or they might just go back into their "place" and, again, be out of reach
Either they'll be calm, like they are most of the time
Or they'll be angry and hit you with slime...

May 31, 2018
Airmont, United States

I seem to be crying in some way
No matter what they say
My tears keep coming down
And, what once was a smile, is now a frown
My heart aches and there's no way to stop it from aching
My body shakes and there's really no way to stop it from shaking
The only way out is in
And, maybe, then, I'll win
I'll stop crying internally as well as out
And maybe the tears will come through a different route
For example, when I write poetry, the tears are put on paper (not literally) and I can finally breathe
Because, inside of my heart, there aren't teeth
There isn't anything hurting my heart
So, there wouldn't be a reason to cry and tear that image apart
Is it an image? I don't know
What I do know is that ...

May 31, 2018

Point me in the direction of tomorrow
Because I'm still stuck in today
Or am I stuck in the day before?
It's hard to say

Point me in the direction of tomorrow
Where there won't be as much pain
Because I've gotten over yesterday's problems
And I want, so much more, to gain

Point me in the direction of tomorrow
Because today isn't easy for me anymore
I want to move on
And open up tomorrow's door

So point me in the direction of tomorrow
And I'll make sure you come along too
Because who wants to stay in today's sorrow
And not enjoy tomorrow's point of view?

So point me in the direction of tomorrow
And my smile will finally feel, and be, real
So why haven't I been pointed to that direction?
I ...

May 29, 2018
Monsey, United States

She watches me like a hawk
I feel like I'm being stalked
Every move I make needs to be known to her
If it's not, she goes crazy with worry, of that, I'm sure
But I feel like she has to understand
I'm sort of no longer under her command
Yes, she may have some rights to me
But that doesn't mean that she can't let me be
I want to breathe, but it feels like my breaths are counted too
So, what do I do?
What do I do when I feel like I'm being watched like an eagle eyeing its prey?
I'm not food, so why do you treat me this way?
I have a right to live my life the way I please
Yes, you have rights to keep me at peace
But that doesn't mean I need to feel like I'm under surveillance twenty-four hours a ...

May 24, 2018
Monsey, United States

God, You send me a challenge that I cannot beat on my own
You send me a challenge that I cannot beat alone
So I ask of You only one thing:
Help me, Your human being

Help me beat the challenges You send my way
Help me beat them so I can finally shout: HOORAY!!
Take my challenges and put them as far away from me as You can
Because, God, You're The Man

You're The Man to turn to in a time of need
And You Help the challenge grow into a flower from a mere seed
So, help Your flower grow!
No matter how fast or how slow

Help that seed grow into a flower
No matter if it's done through rain or through showers!
And, in the process, please help me grow into a flower too
Because You're the Only One who ...

May 23, 2018
Airmont, United States

I'm breaking
And there's no one helping mending me
I'm shaking
And there's no one helping me breathe
I'm crying
And there's no one there to calm me down
I'm trying
But a smile can't appear that easily when there's a frown
I'm torn
And there's no one there to mend a torn heart
I'm forlorn
But there's no one that's willing to help me, again, start
I'm not me
And there's no way to get me back
I can't see clearly
Because, in this life, vision, I lack
I don't have whom to turn to
I don't have anyone that'll be willing to push me
I want to see life through a different point of view
But, like I said before, I can't clearly see
I can't see what's ahead of me
I can't see what's behind
But please help ...

May 22, 2018
Airmont, United States

I don't know how to fly like a bird in the sky
I don't know how to be so angelic and fly
With the wings, I would soar
If only I knew how to do more
How to do more then sit at home and wallow
I wish I were a swallow
Or any bird with wings that fly in the day or night
So I can claim that I have the ability of flight
Which means: I have the ability to let go of the past
And put things into perspective which would possibly make them last
A bird doesn't fly backwards, last time I checked
I want to let go of my past and live a life that's slightly more perfect
In that way, I want to be like a bird that flies in the sky
And doesn't look back as it, with its wings, to the past, waves goodbye

May 22, 2018
Airmont, United States

This is me: I'm broken
This is me: I let people into my heart without a token
A token of lasting affection
A token of no rejection
A token I won't fear giving
A token to continue on living
A token that I forgot to mention:
A token of lasting attention
Because, guess what? I want, and need, all of the things I mentioned above
I don't seem to find that kind of love
Instead, I find someone and give them a place in my heart
Without even giving them a token, so they tear it apart
They tear it apart from the inside out
And they don't care how much they hear me shout
The shouts are from being broken too many times and thinking it's okay
The shouts are for letting them into my heart as if they have a...

May 17, 2018
Monsey, United States

You're allowed to cry
Just give it a try
Take a deep breath in, and take a deep breath out
Let out those tears and, if need be, give a loud shout
The crying will help alleviate the stress
And the crying will acknowledge the mess
The mess you may be stuck in
And the feeling that you'll never win
So take a shot at crying
You won't be hurt by trying!
Whatever gender you are, you have feelings just like the rest of us
So, no matter how, you can cry and not make any fuss
Why does it matter what gender you are?
We all have feelings that need to be addressed, just like a scar
Either a physical one, or an emotional feeling
You need to address both in order to start the healing
So cry! Cry! I promise,...