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Beth Simpson

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United States
United States
You can change the world girl...unknown.
February 17, 2017
 

Chapter 17

Life of I

I have this paralyzing fear of death, not my own but the death of my loved ones.  Like my wife Mimi, my pets, and other people in my life. I was told by my psychologist that if I don't recognize the fear it will take control and cont to take control and wreck havoc.  Which is exactly what it is doing.  He told me to write about it, give it the power for 20 min a day, and not push out the thoughts as it just makes it worse.  I guess I better trust the guy I have been seeing him for almost 9 years.  I spent wed afternoon having a panic attack and crying so badly I was drooling...just at the thought of my wifes death. Im a catastrophic thinker. My mind goes to dark pla...

SET THE MOOD
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February 17, 2017
Grafton, United States

Selfie

I'm a survivor. I've been through addiction, men abusing me, prostitution and rape. I've survived suicide attempts and self harm. My past is dark and ugly, but my future is bright and pretty. With the help of my wife and my mom and sober friends I've changed my ways and removed the negativity from my life. The big ones anyway. No more drugs no more sex no more darkness only light. 😀

LOVE IS...
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February 14, 2017
 

Skylark challenge

It was a glorious moment of apricity.
Holding you in my arms.
Your enticing nature drawing me in.
As I gaze down over the water like glass, I realize how fragile life is.
My heart is but a pool when your near.

Holding you in my arms.
Makes my stomach get butterflies.
This view of frost on the trees, with sun coming up explains my heart.
My heart is but a pool when your near.
You are my sun.

This view of frost on the trees, with sun coming up explains my heart.
You are my rock to lean on.
You are my sun.
You bring meaning to my life.

You are my rock to lean on.
My tree in the ground
As I gaze down over the water like glass, I realize how fragile life is.
L...

DREAM BIG
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February 12, 2017
Grafton, United States

Favorite horror movie

Omg. It's weird that I was on letters tonight right after I'd just seen the James McAvoy move called Spilt,  m night shyamalan does it again in a brilliant cast excellent plot and an emotional story behind it all to keep you in your seats not wanting to pee till it's over. So bursting bladders aside, well worth it.

This is my favorite the most favorite genre ever. I will always pick the horror over the comedy or boring love story. And right now in the theater is the time for dark movies. But back to my fav horror. One movie I can never pass by when on tv is any alien movie. Love those movies, and resident evil. So the next I need to see it the final chapter. Heard it...

KILLING KNIFE
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February 7, 2017
 

Love

Our love story is definitely a story. My wife Marianne is born and raised in Port Glasgow Scotland. She lived there till she was 16. She was born November 30, 1972. When she moved to the states she moved to Charleston, SC. Where she came out at 21. This is where she met a woman who needed her help. We will call her E.  E was 8 months pregnant and just gotten kicked out from her ex girlfriend house. Marianne had a huge house she was renting that had lots of room. She offered her a room. They became friends and Marianne became Mimi to a little boy named Ajay. After 3 years down south Mimi and E and Ajay move to Nd. Due to the ties E had up in the frozen tundra. E meets another women name...

SMALL BEGINNINGS
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February 7, 2017
Grafton, United States

Skylark challenge 73

Through the dark troubles ahead I vow to always hold your hand to help and to hold through sickness and in health though secretly always maintaining my love I have for you. May our love fair through all times.  I do swear over my heart forever.

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HUG ME
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February 4, 2017
 

Destiny or choice

I believe in destiny. Destiny determines choice. Through out my life I've made decisions that have led me to where I am today. My wife and I met out of destiny. Long story short we got together out of our exs. I tried to kill my self the day before we hooked up and the first phone call was her the next morning. That's destiny. She has been my reason for living all these years. My reason I am supposed to be here. Destiny is her. Destiny is our choices we make over time. I'm proud to be a part of my destiny.

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DESTINY IS MINE
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February 4, 2017
Grafton, United States

What's my most favorite thing on earth. Oxygen so I can breathe and live here. Lol.

Peace.

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BLOSSOMING
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January 31, 2017
Grafton, United States


                           Time

Time, can't change it nor bend or move it. To talk about time one must have an open understanding into the theory of it all. Time is the indefinite continued progress of existence and events that occur in apparently irreversible succession from the past through the present to the future. Time is a component quantity of various measurements used to sequence events, to compare the duration of events or the intervals between them, and to quantify rates of change of quantities in material reality or in the conscious experience. Time is often referred to as the fourth dimension, along with the three spatial dimensions. The others are related to math and physics. ...

LETTRS BLACK AND WHITE
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January 29, 2017
Grafton, United States

Life of I.

Chapter 16

When pondering ones life why does one always look into the past and not the future? I have so many things to be thankful for but I get so depressed and anxious so quickly. Especially over things I can not control. Like the current states of affairs of this controversial country. Or the impending death of loved ones or my animals. Things that in an instant are taken away from you and your left lost searching for love again. Only but to never find it. Or do you? I am a worrier and worriers get no where in life. They are sick little beings with health troubles. And that pretty much sums me up to a tee. I try not to worry and give it up to the creator but what's he gonna...

LETTRS BLACK AND WHITE
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January 27, 2017
 

Dear Martha Lucia,

I really enjoyed signing authentication of the letters. Made it more real for me. Hope it comes back.

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CELEBRATING REPUBLIC DAY
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January 25, 2017
Grafton, United States

You were down that day I asked you to talk to me, About you. I told you to, to take your your time. You said I know why. As my heart pounded into a million pieces. I'm not mistaken  I saw you kissing her. I want you to leave and never come home. For this is no longer your home. You broke it when you kissed that man like you kissed me. Why didn't you just tell me ? That would've been easier to comprehend than this secret betrayal. No, you must go.

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CHEATED
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January 17, 2017
 

The town who thought it could.
Chapter one

It was a beautiful sunny day in Gilroy. The birds were chirping, the frogs were croaking, and the dragons were just awakening. Jok was the alpha dragon in the pack. He was a beautiful red green with black charcoal highlights from head to tail. His eyes a brilliant yellow that saw right through you. His scales shimmering in the sunlight made him nothing but spectacular to look at. His mate shawlea was pure black with blue highlights trailing down her spine. Her eyes a beautiful shade of jade, made her nothing but irresistible and the most valued female in the pack. Jok was a lucky guy. That morning was unlike the others. The town was preparing for...

LETTRS BLACK AND WHITE
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January 15, 2017
Grafton, United States

Life of I.

Chapter 15

So another weekend ends for another week to begin. Always so disappointed when the weekend is over. It's probably because my wife goes back to work and I'm left here alone. It wouldn't be such a problem if I had friends here. I don't my friends are 45 miles away. Sometimes a geographical relocation isn't always a great idea especially when the town you move to has nothing to do and in being honest here is go to the bar and play bingo. And all the restaurants and coffee places close well before 9 pm. So wtf am I supposed to do here. Go visit the sister that thinks I'm a leach. Go knock on the door of the nephew that has not said two words to me in 3 years?  Yeah pref...

STAY COOL
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January 12, 2017
Grafton, United States

Life of I.

Chapter 14.

I've been really restless. Unable to sit still. I know this is cabin fever. I'm having problems with it. This is going to an ongoing issue as it's only January. The temp here today is -26 feels like -47 Fahrenheit. It's only supposed to get colder tonight into tomorrow. People wonder why do you even live here? That's ok I wonder the same thing. People bitch in the summer when it's too hot and they bitch when it's too cold. It's like our attention spans are stunned and don't remember either season. Here you don't dress for fashion in the winter you dress for warmth. You learn that real quick when your ears and fingers get frost bit at 2 minutes. Who gives a shit if...

POSITIVE LIFE
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January 9, 2017
Grafton, United States

The most powerful word I believe is "hate". I have never said I hate someone I have only said I highly dislike them. Because how can you say you hate. When there is only love. I know I have difficulty with negativity but I feel my emotions so deeply and affirmingly that sometimes it becomes difficult to tear myself away from them. When you hate you fear vise versa.

There is only ❤️.

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BE THE CHANGE
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January 8, 2017
Grafton, United States

       Happy.
When I cease searching everywhere but myself for the good in people, I will be happy. When I pause and stop remembering how people passed me by looking at my like trash, I will be happy. When I stay living in yesterday and tomorrow, I will be happy. When I layoff making the same insane mistakes, I will be happy...when will I be happy?

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LETTRS BLACK AND WHITE
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January 3, 2017
Grafton, United States

Sometimes I can't sleep at night and I daydream. Do you daydream? What do you most commonly daydream about, vacation or being rich. Where does your mind go to be at ease?  Tag it daydream so it's easier for me to find and let me know when your done. Be unique.

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NERD ON
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January 3, 2017
Grafton, United States

Sometimes when God gives you a window , you have to do the work to open it.

Beth.

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HAPPY 2017!
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January 2, 2017
Grafton, United States

Skylark challenge 68.

I meet this older woman in the plaza. I was just doing some everyday shopping that day, you know your regular everyday items and she struck me.  Sitting on the bench. Clasping her walking stick with weathered hands. Just sitting there pondering the world to come. She looked liked she needed a friend. So I sat down. Not knowing she was blind I proceeded to talk to her. She talked with an polish accent. Began to tell me all about the nazi German war. How she was in the camps. Met her wife there. Of course had to keep it quiet otherwise they'd be killed. The story was amazing. I asked her if they were still together. They were. They came to the plaza everyday to meet new...

REGRET CHANCES
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January 2, 2017
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You so shiny and bright with everything I delight
Oh so silver and sharp with everything that's right.

You cut and slice, dice and undercut with all the flavor I can mender.
There's pain and blood with relief that all I can render.

The voices say " do it" the mind says don't surrender.
Go on the bender, have a splendor.

So she cuts in awareness of her body in hopes to see her soul whole.
The crimson color drips down her soul which is now thriving in control.

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FAKE TEARS
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January 2, 2017
 

we didn't get along because of honestly unknown reasons.  I tried to get along with you for the sake of my nephew your now husband.  But something just didn't jive between us.  Could it have been the story of his 18th birthday party, how I tried to buy him a hummer for 50$?  He had a great birthday.  He used to adore me, until you came along.  With your big hair and big ideas, with your big "brains" and "think than your better than " attitude.  There isn't much left to say in the fact that after he met you, I lost him.  he didn't think of he would or we would nearly lost everything.  

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CHARLIE BIT ME
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January 1, 2017
 

To all my penpals, Happy new year! May it a blessing and great year in your country as in mine...hopefully!!  may god be with you!!

Love
Beth

CELEBRATING TOGETHER
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