Everything around me is falling into pierces, and I’m too lost under the rubble to do anything.
And you know what the worst part was? I found myself missing you, and the hundreds of memories we made together
It almost feels like we see the exact same thing, and yet we find different truths
But, even if you were lying, I didn’t care.
You see, I wanted to believe you so badly, that I lost myself in all the lies, and became obsolete to everyone around me
Even with the unsaid words and the regretful goodbyes
I cant help but love you and your beautiful eyes
How does it feel? Well, it feels like I’m caught under water and I’m shaking too hard to swim up to land.
You were merely a page in what I’ve come to realize
Was one of my worst chapters
I’m afraid they’ve become too attached to what I am now,
to understand what I’ve become
He was sick of being told who was acceptable for him to love,
He was sick of pretending to be what the world thought him to be,
He just wanted to love who he wanted to love,
He just wanted to be what he wanted to be
Just because I’m alone, that doesn’t mean I’m lonely
Just because you have me weak right now, that doesn’t mean I’m not strong
Just because we were once on fire, that doesn’t mean we’re still burning
You ask me why I doubt your love, but you’ve never considered why your love is so easy to doubt
I know it’s all in my head, but it’s too much to take
And this feels too real, to only be fake
And tomorrows another day without you, I guess
And my heart is screaming that it's lonely and depressed
It feels like I’ve fought a thousand wars, and I’ve toughened my skin, and I’ll make it again, with or without you in the end.