My stomach feels like it’s tied in knots, I’m afraid of what you’ll say if you and I talked tonight.
The thought of still being able to message you keeps me awake at night, as I’m laying there, sulking in the fact you aren’t mine anymore.
You were a previous chapter which I can only indulge in re-reading our story from time to time
but I cannot re-live the experience
I know that you’re tortured within
And you’re eyes look hungry again
But, I’ll never leave you again
All my life I’ve been waiting for the day that you become what you should’ve been from the beginning.
He was twenty five with a beautiful girl by his side.
With no expected destination in sight.
They just wanted something more to life.
I never wanted to drag you down with me, but every instinct in my body was telling me to let you drown.
I remember seeing this lightness dawn
that so desperately tried to keep the darkness at bay
I don’t want to be a part of a generation of anxiety in a “look at me” society..
I met a girl once, a long time ago
We instantly fell in love
But, now we’re both alone
Everything around me is falling into pierces, and I’m too lost under the rubble to do anything.
And you know what the worst part was? I found myself missing you, and the hundreds of memories we made together
It almost feels like we see the exact same thing, and yet we find different truths
But, even if you were lying, I didn’t care.
You see, I wanted to believe you so badly, that I lost myself in all the lies, and became obsolete to everyone around me
Even with the unsaid words and the regretful goodbyes
I cant help but love you and your beautiful eyes