And I decided
Participating again ,
One year passed late evening
Running against the odd
Still can filled differently
Abusive thoughts needs to balance on
It's a last beep
A hope of finding light
Standing on the edge of darker side
Don't let go
Keep chasing up
As it's a 'different' call
A 'different' start
Nail it differently, 'different !"
If you wish to keep your mind off me.
Better keep your hands off me too.
I apologize for fitting in when I know you made me different. I was born foolish but you filled me with wisdom. You were always the light to my darkness, the faith to prevent my suicidal thoughts. And the strength that pick me up on my weakest days. You made me brave when I was born a coward. You perfected my imperfections and made beauty of my past. You made me first when I thought I was last. Because of your grace, i don't look like what i've been through. Because of your grace, I am free now. You are the reason why i'm smiling. Each and everyday you remind me that you are the beginning and the end, the truth and the light. I am very thankful.
Sometimes I feel like I'm broken and maybe it's true!
I don't know my way...
I'm lost and I guess it's too late to start from the beginning!
My family say so...
I have to move on but I don't know how?!
If life was just about surviving I could handle that...
But when it comes to living, to feel happiness...
That's the hardest part!
Oh look am here again, readily accepting that what i have been saying in some of my past writings weren't right. Not because I deny them but because I have stopped believing in them. The ones who want me to believe are also believing that I cannot.
It's not easy to change the way you think so you change the way you perceive things.
Fear is like a storm of dust which leaves you breathless and all you do is to throw your limbs around and struggle just to breathe again. Mere survival is not the gift we seek from life, we seek and deserve much more than this. We deserve to grow and most importantly we deserve to breathe...
It's been a long while.
Hope one day I will believe again.
"I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Livin' might mean takin' chances, but they're worth takin'
Lovin' might be a mistake, but it's worth makin'
Don't let some Hellbent heart leave you bitter
When you come close to sellin' out, reconsider
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance (Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along)
I hope you dance
I hope you dance (Tell me who wants to look back on their years and wonder)
I hope you dance (Where those years have gone."
Artist: Lee Ann Womack
Song: I hope you dance
My love for you seems endless.
It follows me even when I don't want it to.
As soon as I think I've forgotten it;
That feeling shows up at my doorstep again.
I always try to shut the door,
But there it is...
Wedged in the smallest of cracks;
I guess I never healed that.
If only timing had been on our side,
Your love wouldn't have to fight.
I am so in love with the way I want to grow with you. I found you my perfect partner in crime. Anything seems achievable with you by my side.
Let's go high enough to see everything so small from the top. And even there, kiss me slowly enough to get me back to earth.
Success and Love
I hate how religion is such a big deal. Yes there’s many people who pray to God differently, but please don’t try to get them to change to your religion by constantly telling them about going to church. Don’t try to have a conversation with them when you’re trying to find a way to bring in religion. Some people go to church once a week and others don’t. That’s ok! If you don’t believe in God, that’s fine too! Just respect people’s religions! I respect everyone’s religion and honestly wish people would respect mine and stop trying to convert me to another. If I decide to change my religion, it’ll be my choice and not cause you told me to.
Her scars weren't real unless
you felt compelled to look at
your own pain and shed a secret...
your shame can't hide in her light.
And the fears you expose dissipate
in the clouds of truth shared.
This is what it is to be
For my daughter
And anyone else who reads this...
Be bold enough to
to use your voice,
brave enough to
follow your heart,
and strong enough
to live the life you've
My daughter never fails to surprise me. If I was 18 and taking a gap year, I would probably spend it surfing and partying on a beach in Bali or Goa. To be honest, I still find that thought appealing even now lol
But no, my little girl is spending her gap year training as a commercial yacht skipper and scuba diving instructor, before returning to the UK to study Oceanography.
I am filled with pride and a sense of awe when I see how much confidence and self belief she has, I feel like her mother and I must have done something right along the way, but to be honest Im not really sure when 😀
I don’t know what this life has for me
But if it has you waiting for me somewhere down the road
Then I know these mistakes were worth making
And this life was worth living for
Hope is not pretending that troubles don't exist. It is the hope that they won't last forever. That hurts will be healed and difficulties can be overcome. That we will be led out of the darkness and into the warmth and light of the sunshine.
They say that love is magical.
So, this is the day
That I clasp onto hope that
Fairy tales come true.
#magical #ThisIsTheDay #clasp
I can't even remember
The last holiday
That we spent together
And I regret not knowing
How many seasons
Of amber leaves passed
While you were clinging
To the hope that
You would see us again
It must have been rough
The beat of your heart
In the paper crown
You thrust upon my head
When I was just a child
And that I was never able
To fully accept
The responsibilities it bore
Leaving me now with only
Harbored love and loss. JD
*Clinging To Hope* Father Part XXXXVIII
#LoveAndLoss #clinging #rough #BeatOfYourHeart
#AmberLeaves #LastHoliday #PaperCrown