Dear Quiet Man,
We’re coming to the point where our roads diverge. I’ve pined for you, you’ve stared at me and so far, nothing here has merged.
So I say this now without plan or design
Without hope or attempt to take over your time.
I want you to know that you are wonderful and kind
I love your voice, your eyes, your heart, your mind.
Your quirks, your laugh, your smile, your frown,
All of it is beautiful and all of it profound.
If ever you doubt it, as long as you live,
I want you to know
That you are worthy of all the love I was willing to give.
So now, I’ll let go, tear my heartstrings away, and let you choose for you - I won’t make you stay.
Maybe someday you’ll draw strength from these...
You love her she said
And I denied a hundred times
Thinking that if I lied
And kept it a hundred more
That the lie will be true
For I know deep down
When I utter the words
I love you to her
I can't look her in the eyes
But then I beseach my diva
And utter the same words
I love you my diva
With a smile in our eyes
For the heart knows where it belongs
But the mind knows where it should stay
She like a breathe of fresh air my lungs can only worship in this toxic world
Her eyes brings me heaven on earth for my mind gave that image up murders ago
For I am not saint but yet she been my guardian angel for 4 years now
My sky is no longer dark for the sun isn't afraid to shine anymore
while my nightmares turned into sweet dreams while her presence lay beside me at night
there is no need for my soul to wish anymore amongst the stars for my wish will soon bare a ring from my heart on her hands
I am blessed
I shall never take a day of her for granted for her smile is once in a lifetime
My queen shall never cry unless there visiting from an emotion called joy
As those mystical clouds tha...
I can Hope...
"Don't Hope, Hope is heavy
A lie that anchors you to the past
with promises of a better future"
I can Dream...
"Don't Dream, Dreams are noise
A song with no lyrics -
I can Try...
"Don't Try, Trying is the first step to failing
An unnecessary risk
of irrecoverable loss"
I can Change...
"You cannot, Change is an illusion
A fiction invented
to sell self-help books"
I can Love...
I can Learn...
I can Grow...
"Don't be a child,
You Are that You Are
written in ink
If you wanna give someone something give them Hope
It will shine in their eyes
And smile on their lips
Even glow through their skin
And you'll see the person actually living the life instead of surviving in it.
The Voice within my Head
I would speak all that is seen and all that is blind
All that is fair and all that is wry
All that afflicts and all that's beguile.
I shall speak all that I want, not what one wishes of my psyche.
(in hope that I shall be honest in my words)
I tried and tried
Every single day to forget
The raw feeling of agony
I hated myself with you
Every single seconds is pain
Knowing that nothing is real
But no matter I do
No matter what I tell my heart
I just can't let you go
No matter how much I cry
And set all this wall on me
I still find myself with you
With a wistful thinking
Just maybe this time it's real
But I knew, I know
Even the foundation is rotten
We will not last
We can not last
For I'm starting to realise
Every times you say I love you
That action speaks louder than words.
We used to build weapons in order to go to war
Now, we create wars in order to sell weapons
But we will never create peace by going to war
Will we ever learn!
We will end war and violence when we start fighting the causes of war...poverty, injustice, ignorance.
We will find peace only when empathy replaces greed, hatred, intolerence and predujice.
[Aunque no puedo sanararme a mí misma, reconozco mi humanidad ante Aquél que me creó y su omnipotencia. Y confío en que seré renovada.]
Papá, estoy agrietada. Restáurame otra vez. Me cuestono si soy quien yo sé que no soy, porque alguien que amo me ha catalogado como tal. Ayúdame a vencer la mentira, la culpa y esta red de pensamientos irracionales que me persiguen. Recuérdame quien soy porque TÚ eres mi vida. Aunque mi mente sea finita y mis emociones me hagan flaquear, no me dejes porque yo no quiero dejarte. Eres mi todo. Eres mi razón, la única razón. Sé mi fuerza...
Y Declaro, confío en tí, sé que me sanarás otra vez y me harás una nueva vasija.
Gracias, en ti espero.
I'm holding out hope
That these few
Leaps of faith
That I took
Without a net
To catch me
Will lead me
To somewhere safe
To someone safe
And that soon
I can learn
To love aggain. JD
#Hope #ToLoveAgain #FebCMchallenge
I believed you when you told me that the air was breathable.
I burnt the supporting beams,
knowing my walls would fall
because you convinced me that I didn’t need to live
with the comfort of a roof above my head, if I had you.
You promised me that the stars would be enough
and yet, when the sky opened up
and your eyes saw an entire universe of opportunity,
your gaze was set on a destination
that took you as far from us as you could possibly be.
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I would rather go through life sober
Knowing that I am an alcoholic
Than go through life drunk
Pretending that I am not
I dont care who you are
Or what you may have done
Anyone who choses recovery
Over the hell of adiction
Is a fucking warrior in my eyes
When you no longer
Fear the opinion of others
When you no longer
Fear the crowd
When you find the courage
When you dare
To stand alone
Then my friend
You are free
Dear Mr Guerera,
Do you remember teaching me in my teens
Do you remember
Telling me aged 15
That I would never
That I was a dreamer
With my head in the clouds
My dreams took me
Around the world
So you may have thought
That I dreamt to big
But I think Sir
You thought too small
~Ignorance Is Bliss~
No matter how bad it hurts this time I’m giving up on you. You promised to stay away and hopefully you mean it because the last thing I need is your toxic ass bouncing in and out of my life whilst I make a serious attempt to deliver myself from you and your evil.
This is it. No matter the hurt now it can’t hurt as bad as your inconsistency to commit and I’m tired of being treated like a throw away option.
It’s too bad but you aren’t the one. If you were we wouldn’t constantly be separated more than we’re together so I figure this is my best chance of getting on with my life. I can concentrate on work and you can concentrate on fucking off far away from my cur...
Out of the water, I am nothing
~ Duke Kahanamoku
This quote has hung heavily on my mind in recent weeks. It has been a few weeks since I went for what was meant to be my final surf.
But this morning, as the sun rose over a beautifully hazy Newquay Bay, as I gazed wistfully out to sea, watching a few of the guys and gals sitting out in the lineup. I thought "fuck it". I went home and zipped up my wetsuit, grabbed my board, and did what I have always done. I went surfing.
I am just not ready to become one of the old timers, sitting in the pub, reflecting on their glory days.. I just cant do it.
Doctors have told me that to carry on surfing would be foolish, the damage caused to my h...
I hope you see me,
Storm wreckage and all
Because you are now
Witness to someone's
Rise from far too many
Ashes made of scars.
You don't have to be hopeful about the future, it's enough just to be curious about what is to come. Life is an experience, a great adventure. It may not always be fun, but it sure as hell is interesting.
In its obsessive need
to conquer and destroy,
the darkness knew not of my ability
to shed my own skin in order to survive.
You taught me that,
I learnt to let go of the things I no longer need
in the same way you let go of me.
- ‘I have outgrown you.'
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Being a survivor doesn't mean being strong - it's telling people when you need a meal or a ride, company, whatever. It's paying attention to heart wisdom, feelings, not living a role, but having a unique, authentic life, having something to contribute, finding time to love and laugh. All these things are qualities of survivors.