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May 17, 2018
 

I am struggling.
This is so hard.

All the things it covered up, there's nothing to cover them anymore and they HURT.
It is unimaginable if you are not an addict or an alcoholic. You grew up and learned how to cope. How to quiet the inner voice that circles like rabid wolves waiting to take you down. We didn't. We never sent the wolves away, we used instead and muzzled them. They're always waiting, watching with hungry eyes.

When you stop, when you get sober and get clean they attack en masse and it
HURTS
I don't know how to stop them without the help of old "friends."

I won't, because I'm too stubborn. It hurts and it's insane. And to look at your own thoughts and recognize that they are...

WOLF
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PO#631226
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May 15, 2018
 

Living far away from you has made me feel discreet....

Whenever sun shines upon my head ,
I find you in rays....

Whenever rain makes me wet,
I find you in droplets...

Whenever wind takes me away,
I find you in the way...

Whenever mountains cry,
I find you in the river passing by...

Whenever forests unites,
I find you in those darkest nights...

Ohh dear..!!Come back soon,
I can see your glowing face shinning in this full moon....

-Vidhi.

LOVE IS ALL WE NEED
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PO#634097
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May 11, 2018
 

Everyone has a dark side mine is chocolate

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PO#604090
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May 9, 2018
 

I know Lettrs is meant for poetry and pretty things... Sometimes plain speaking about life is a pretty thing....

So I've been pretty open about being an addict and an alcoholic. I've known and understood being and addict for years, and I sort of broke the cycle with drugs now and then. What I never noticed is how my drinking picked up when I stopped using. So I've recently, as in within the last month, realized and admitted to being an alcoholic.

I've also made changes because I don't want to be "that guy" and I don't want to die. More importantly, I don't want to lose my family. During this time I've listened to a lot of people, I wrote down the things they've said that resonated with me a...

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PO#631226
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May 9, 2018
Hicksville, United States

I absolutely REFUSE to let drugs be my demise.

I am better than that, and so are you. You deserve to feel good about yourself without a substance. I know it’s hard. I never been called handsome until my last girlfriend. Yeah we broke up. Will I let drugs and alcohol be the solution? Well if we’re honest, yeah I made that the solution. But like when we solve math problems or more accurately chemistry equations... we would be wrong.

2 + 2 = 4. Not a beer.

We are given these life problems and we choose to answer them with wrong answers because there is no one grading us anymore.

Let’s try a harder equation...

((Depression + Easy access to Drugs)Working at a Bar) - A reason to be your best...

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PO#632271
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May 6, 2018
 

                                          INTOXICATED

                              So I'll keep scratching
                                    Harder n harder
                           Till i peel all my skin off
                                  And let my blood
                         Intoxicated by your smell
                              Flow down my arms
                           Leaving me just a mere
                              Pile of blood n flesh...

PARI

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PO#606249
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May 5, 2018
 

Sleepy cat on the window sill,
Where you come from I know not.
For I have never had a cat,
Yet there you lay in my favourite spot.

I approach cautiously as not to wake,
The most adorable intruder.
Lightning flashes warning quiets break,
Shimmering off your fur like pewter.

The thunder cracks and we both jolt,
I guess we're both a little skittish.
I stop and crouch so you don't bolt,
You show teeth in a frightened hiss.

Slowly I extend my hand,
You give a curious sniff.
More relaxed you stretch and stand,
As I inch closer you seem to stiff.

I gently pat your retreating head,
A promise not to detain.
All you did was find a warm bed,
To shelter you from the rain.

Droplets still cli...

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PO#533312
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May 4, 2018
 

From chous of my heart one sound I see,
Which leads to you and down it leen.....
Behind the darkest cloud,you are my paradise.,
Where there is no cliff of pain crushing me,
Only your warm hand to embrace.....
The mystic sound of your breezing heart and the chiming of breath,
Makes my soul weak.....

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PO#631225
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May 3, 2018
 

Routine.

5:30am Get up, coffee, cigarette.
6:00am Feed the horses, goats, chickens and dogs, cigarette.
6:30am Milk the goat.
7:00am Strain milk and store in refrigerator to be pasteurized later.
7:15am More coffee, cigarette.
7:30am DONT DRINK, cigarette, head to a meeting.
8:00am Meeting, cigarette.
9:00am Errands, cigarettes, home.

12:00pm Lunch, cigarette.
12:30pm Clean the barn, listen to podcasts or music, cigarette.
4:00pm (Mondays only) Therapy, cigarette.
4:00pm (Tuesday - Sunday) Hang with the kids, no cigarette, second hand smoke is bad.
6:00pm Feed the horses, dogs, and goats. Collect eggs and lock up the chickens. Cigarette.
6:30pm Dinner. Cigarette.
7:30pm Time with the most ...

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PO#631226
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May 4, 2018
 

Everyone is addicted
          to something  or other,
                          mine tends to be you.

     People are distracted by things     
                              but                                     
            you are my distraction,      
                           because              
   you captured my mind and heart.

ORIGINAL
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PO#309814
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May 2, 2018
 

Stages of alcohol::

It’s not my passion

But never aware of its addiction

It became my expression

Gone through some rationalization

Got rid of thoughtless fermentation

In love with some experimentation

Started reinvestigation

Got new interpretation

With ideas integration

With perspective neutralization

Improved skills of communication

Got rid of superstition

Unleashed new dimension

Lost physical cooperation

Increased consumption

Tried new composition

Experienced soul liberation

Yet it’s not a passion

After 7th peg it became a compassion

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PO#619858
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May 1, 2018
Randolph, United States

Bottoms Up

I think about you so I drink
I always think of you when I’m drunk
So I drink more
Then I black out
But I bet you’re among the thoughts
Of the black out me too

-t.m.g.


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DREAMS
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Tay
PO#632977
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April 29, 2018
Easton, United States

LET THEM FALL

I thought I was done crying over you.

I thought all the tears had fallen
and somehow my ducts were dried.

The powerful waves of the oceans behind my eyes had crashed down upon shores of my cheeks for nights upon end, and tonight let that repetition proceed.

I am so sad.

- t.m.g.


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POKA DOT PORTRAIT
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Tay
PO#632977
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April 27, 2018
Ghaziabad, India

Writing is not an Art.... It is a method to empress your emotions and feeling by a pen and paper....

I don't know, Why do i write?
But the truth is every emotion of your daily life contains many kinds of writing stuff.... Just like.. if you are sad then you will prefer to write some sad poetry....
If you are happy.. then you will express your happiness in your words....

Writing comes from your heart & Heart dictates you to write the thing you are writing....

Writing is all about your feelings and emotions... Without emotion we can't write anything amazing....

" Never stop writing, if it is your passion then never leave it alone, but make it all your own "

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EXPLOSION
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April 25, 2018
 

You are not alone. In this you are not unique. We all come from trauma and the attempt to run from the pain. We are all the same and we all need each other to get better. A good friend related us to aliens, and non-addicts to earthlings because we are a group unlike the "normals." You'll always be an addict, but you don't always need to be controlled by it.

The Twelve Steps of Narcotics Anonymous
www.recovery.org

1. We admitted that we were powerless over our addiction; that our lives had become unmanageable.

When you see the disasters your addiction has caused and acknowledge your real need for help, you face reality with humility and open the door for a changed life.

2. We came to bel...

FACE YOUR FEARS
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PO#631226
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April 24, 2018
 

With one hand you caress your beloved pet DOG.
On your other hand is your favourite fried CHICKEN.
We are 'Humans' 😊

PEACE FOR ALL
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April 20, 2018
 

Getting woke up again at 3 am by that phone call. Wondering if she has been in an accident or arrested? Neither this time!! She is stuck at a ratty motel and her car won't start. So gone out of her mind that she can't comprehend what she is doing really. Cusses me out when I won't come to her rescue. I have dealt with her addiction to drugs, alcohol, sex, and stealing for far too long. Took a wrap for her many of times...No is what came out of my mouth and I could barely believe that it came out of my mouth too. It is a Thursday and I am not going to be late to work and deprive myself for the sake of you..no more! Get your shit together Lady! Spreading all this disease with to this man and th...

EVALUATE YOUR LIFE DAY
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MJ
PO#64291
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April 20, 2018
 

If you want somebody to be addicted to you. Its very simple.
Stay there when they need you and be honest in your opinions, that will add your value to their life and they shall never stop considering that value. 🤗

EVALUATE YOUR LIFE DAY
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