I can see the whole city
I can see the beautiful sky
While drinking my hot coffee
I can see how birds fly
I can hear the noise
I can hear the chirpings
While laying with my coffee
I can also hear the whisperings
I can feel the warmth
I can feel the chill
And as the sun sets
I can feel that nothing is still
Each cell in my body is craving,
Every part hurts,
The sounds are too loud,
The light is burning my eyes,
Hunger has abandoned me,
Reality has broken up,
Sadness embraced me,
Each cell in my body is craving,
Just for you, just for a glimpse,
You are my drug,
Your talks the dose,
And a day without you,
I fall apart,
withdrawal symptoms take over,
And I forget to live,
But a call from you
And I'm back on track,
You are my DRUG.
Eating tasty food,
Can drastically change your mood.
The table was ready..
So was the tea..
The evening was sunny..
Also flying was a honey bee..
Hiding behind the moving steam..
I saw her eyes gleam..
There again I saw the smile..
Now my heart has again gone for a while...
And by then, i had understood that something was wrong with me. But what?
Spending a lot of time with myself and waiting for the answer, i went on a break. A break from everyone. A break from everything. I spent all the time with myself without talking to anyone. Though i hadn't completely silenced myself, but yeah, i had cut off a lot of relationships. (And by this, i mean mostly friends.)
And it continued for 6 days! 6 long days! 6 days without phone and laptop. I did a lot of things of my choice. I sketched a beautiful butterfly, a colorful tree. I danced after 6 years. (I had danced for the last time when i was in 6th grade.) I did zumba, belly dance, hip hop, all in one single day. Haha...
Ooohhh he kicked again!
Dear baby of mine,
Right now you're in me
I'm able to feel you move
And send you, the nutrients you need.
Oh! Silly baby, don't you worry,
About how this world's going to be
Mommy's gonna be there for you
And take care of your every need.
I can't wait to know how it feels
When you hold my finger tightly,
When you nurse at my breast
And draw milk from me.
Just come out, on time tomorrow,
I can't wait to Love you,
Once you're outside me.
My dear baby, I'm waiting eagerly.
A mother's love is pure and divine. She cares for little, other than her baby's well being and health.
A huge shout out to all of our great mothers. For holding us inside for months on end a...
When she broke me
I became smoke c....
All over the others,
You called us as chain smokers.
Burned her memories in the rolled pipe
Let the pain be free in smoke.
At the end ash remains
And thats how life ends.
Please hold your judgements,
please open your minds.
This story I’m about to tell you,
it’s easy to judge,
to close your mind.
Two weeks ago,
a person I knew,
overdosed on heroin.
How did I know him?
I bought pills from him.
I have 4 invisible painful illnesses...with no cure.
There I go again
trying to seek validation
I’ve been to doctors:
I’m too young to be in pain
It must be all in your head
Take some midol
Here are some anti depressants they’ll help everything
I was suicidal
I couldn’t take the pain.
I buy on the street to partially function-
Making phone calls to insurance & doctors
Being on hold for hours
all while tracking my symptoms,
it’s a full tim...
💕💌SYMPHONY OF LOVE 💌💕
Yeah! I miss you ...
Though only months swept away
Seems many ages passed ............
Let's meet again .....
To rise our sunset love ....
Thinking about those days and nights ...
Lost in those lovely fights
And heavenly moods spent by us .....
U know I don't give a fuck ....
What your people think of ...
And knowing your crave ....
Making this wait an addiction .....
My heart still beats in your direction ...
Time reminding you .....
Slows down a bit
Making moments a memory
The falling rain
The shiny moonlight
The winter winds
The grainy earth
Rejoice in making a harmony ....
For they loved our symphony ......
Yeah! I miss you !!!
I'd fallen for his eyes way before I fell for him.
His eyes, yes they drowse me a way no drug can.
Drowsiness of love? Probably yes.
They aren't ocean blue in which i could have dived deep, or any shade of green in which I could peacefully dwell and sleep,
but instead they have a enigmatic promise to keep.
There's something mystic about his dark brown eyes that drown me in them.
They are like sips of coffee to my needy soul.
Just like caffeine they wouldn't let me sleep, they've turned me insomniac!
Just like a drug which is all the addict need,
All I need is one sight of my love's eyes, to bring me back to peace.
I'm in need of his sight ; my em...
I live with this nagging fear that he isn’t IN love with me. I don’t doubt that he loves me. It’s been 10 years he MUST to not have abandoned me. However, we both know if he did leave... I have no where else to go.
He knows how abusive my family is. He knows they would throw me in a psychiatric ward the first chance they could get. My family, convinced me I couldn’t possibly be in as much pain as I say I was in, I was too young; I must be an addict. My issues (besides anxiety & depression) are physical. I have four diagnosed chronic pain conditions, that have zero cure & a hormonal disorder that hijacks my brain that makes me appear to have borderline personality. How do I know it’s not? ...
You bring me
My coffee in the morning
And warm milk at night
Each laced with
A little bit of death
And making me wonder
Glasses of poison
Will I drink
Before I make
The great escape
And free myself
From your fatal love? JD
*Lethal Mugs Of Warmth*
#GreatEscape by Gavin James
I CAN SEE CLEARLY
INTO THE DARKNESS
You have a tight grip on me
I shout and cry for you to let me go
But do I really want to leave
You give me chances you exhaust
Nothing lasts forever especially you
But without you I feel scared and lost
I hate my life now that you're here
Life wasn't perfect but better without you
I'm now dependent on you to see clear
But what are you enlightening me to
As I said my life was lived before you came
Vibrant and colorful no more, just blue
All those sinful scars which haven't healed,
and all those coffee cups still brewing deep,
call out your name,
like fucking idiots;
With each sip of coffee, I could feel your essence and warmth that we shared in our brunch. The ring on table made me smile and sigh at the same time. Nostalgia knocked on my door again with your thousands of memories to be cherished again.
i reheat my coffee for the fourth time
its always the same cycle
the microwave ding gets caught in my head
an endless loop, haunting
not even the music that endlessly plays in my ears can keep you out