Hey guys I could use
some words of wisdom to get me through this detox and before I go to treatment tomorrow.
All my love,
"they say humans are social animals they can't live alone...
But you're kicking it pretty well by yourself...
I'll tell you, you start feeling lonely in a group, it's better to have real solitude by yourself" - Cowboy Bebop
They say loneliness and solitude can bring about a diffrent mood
I say that shit is clowny cause I've been there and there's nothing new
I feel no emotion like I'm flowing in an Ocean, heart is broken, broken into million pieces cause I left it open.
And now I'm smarter and I'm harder but my blood went colder
Well I guess that's the pain that comes with getting older.
And I'm exhausted from the weight that I hold on my shoulders
Seems like my problems star...
So it begins,
what is supposed
to be my
My last hoorah.
“You always say that”
-all my friends
They’re not wrong!
This weekend I go to treatment.
one of my
iOS screen time app
last 7 days.
high or not,
I have become
O B S E S S E D
To say it has been
would be the
of the year.
Broken heart 💔
Time : 03:35 AM
Ki ab main tumhein bhul chuka hun, ab tum wapis mat ana,
Ki tumhein mujhe chode hue kuch 4 mahine aur 20 din ho chuke hain.
Is samaya hum aur ladkiyon ki bahon main madhoosh ho chuke hain.
Ye galat nahi hai tumhari yaad ati nahi hai,
Han lekin ab subha, shyam ati nahi hai.
Ab mere pas kalam hai kagaz hai,
Tumhari yad main shayri hai.
Dil main bhuj chuki is aag ko jalana mat,
Ab main tumhein bhul chuka hun,
Meri Zindagi mein wapis ana mat.🙂
The lesson of the day!
Sometimes, your own body can surprise you with a little tantrum just to make you a little more motivated to do well on it and to make you aware of what you are eating!
I am truly
u n i n s p i r e d.
She is empty
Nothing to feel
Drinking hoping to heal
Getting high drowns her
Her past start to taunt her
Her mind is trying to trick her
Her past scares her
But her heart temps her
Her beauty no longer disguises her
The world can see right through her
"The days seemed longer, darker. Time passed slower and slower. Until one day time stopped for him....."
It wasn't until she walked into his life that he realized he had lived the same day over and over again.
She was different, unlike any woman he'd ever knew. They tried to warn him, let her go! I'm sure thats what drew him to her ever more. She put joy and laughter back into his soul, he gave her heart peace she needed to sleep.
Now their both in too deep an secrets are hard to keep. It's real, but love is something they both are scared to actually feel.
His Point is dull but he continues to try and puncture his skin. Her bottle is dry but she tips it hoping there's still ...
Dear Drew Bartkiewicz,
I’m a few days deep into what is going to be an incurable Lettrs obsession! Upon dabbling on here, I had to read more about the background!
I read all about you & your idea behind it, which is brilliant & when I saw you were active on the app yourself
I thought to myself -
“Wow! What a guy!”
After only 5 days on Lettr I have begun dabbling in writing again as to deal with my addiction/mental health, which I have not done in years.
It turns out, people like my writings and I have actually found a few people I chat about Recovery with on the side!
Users are all friends, looking to help others & quick to compliment, unlike the other social media rights. It’s is ...
F A L L I N G
a b y s s
B A N G, B A N G
K I S S, K I S S
Well, it used to be fun.
all of the sudden,
it just wasn’t.
the only high
I chase is
Sitting here , sick of fighting
tired of being alone, tired of hiding.
have another drink for the hurt that remains
smoke another bowl to try and numb the pains.
reaching out for help but no one hears my cries,
the only thing you can trust is not to believe my lies.
i hide behind a tissue with every tear i wipe,
i wear a mask of glass each time i hit the pipe.
people know my demons but im still the one blamed
my family acts embarrased even though im the one ashamed.
i cry myself to sleep on nights i actually go to bed,
i live with pain in my heart and disturbed thoughts in my head.
i know its wrong but not enough
to make me want to quit
so until i hit rock bottom
i'll just take another hit.