In fact, sadder than I've been in a long time. The world isn't fair. I'm well aware of the fact, but why him. Of all the people in the world, why would you deal the shittiest cards to him. Hasn't he been delt enough? I love him more than words can describe and I'm glad to have him in my life but I'm scared. He's my best friend and I don't want to lose him. He doesn't deserve this. It's illegal. I hate his fucking stepdad. I hate him. I wish he didnt exist, but I know it's not fair to wish that upon someone. I wish he'd realize all his mistakes. I dont know where he went wrong but I wish he'd figure that out. My beautiful boyfriend doesn't deserve to be homeless. He's not even grad...
Flying on a line high up in the sky
Left all alone and forgotten out to dry
Day after day and no one sees
That they left you on the line the sweater of fleece
Cant they see the damage they do merely passing by
All the threads one by one start to untie
A heat struck day followed by rain downpour
Your dragged through the elements each day more and more
I see the damage they have done
All your tears and all your runs
You think they can never be undone
But I’m right here to help pull you out of the sun
Let me pull you down and mend the damage you’ve incurred
You keep trying to blow away with the birds
Stay still is all I ask I’m here to repair your past days
Not to tear you apart in new ways
Time has gone past and I’m the same you see
There’s no history of the past consuming or leaving me
Things deep inside have stayed locked up for good
There’s no wondering as it should
I keep people at arms length and shoulder high
All fuzzy and warm feelings are to deny
Those places you know to be your home are my empty shells
The only things in my head screams and yells
They tells me to protect, reject the things that cause harm
They will not allow me to get Whipped, Beaten or lashed
No harm will come to me now or the things that have passed
As you see me walk pass with a darkened shade
It’s because of the others that are attached as to how I was made
Creep in my mind if you please
They all ...
A few years ago I retreated from all the people I knew to move to Ireland.
I feel my life has been better, overall. But I didn’t have many friends to start with, and since the move, I’m down to almost none.
I worry sometimes that I’ll never find a sense of belonging again. There’s something about the culture here I can’t penetrate, and as happy as I am otherwise, the loneliness has started to weigh on me.
I’m not an easy person to get to know. My interests are somewhat rigid, I smile when I don’t mean it, and if I’m not writing my fantasy novel I’m buried in a book. Still, there must be other people out there like me, right?
To all the lonely people.
I wish I could express you how I feel right now...
Success and Love
The room is full of happiness and new beginning ...
Watching everyone laugh, I manage to smile but what makes feel hollow.
Is the tunnel still not over?
What makes these thoughts re-enter?
More and more questions but no answer to give...
Just calm down and feel the positivity and see the people enchanting the prayers....
Parfois la vie vous offre le plus beaux des cadeaux mais vos yeux restent fermés alors qu'il se trouve la devant vous à porter de mains..
Ne perdez pas de temps avec vos soucis ou vos problèmes quelqu'ils soient car ils alourdissent vos paupières pour vous plonger dans un comas cauchemardesque alors qu'ils vous suffit simplement d'ouvrir les yeux et de voir que le bonheur étais déjà là depuis le début il n'attendait que vous..
It is one of those days.
Headaches, bad moments, the worst thinking, and memories.
How often does it happen to you?
I wish I could just close my eyes already and finish this day. But still have things pending.
I wish I had the help I was promised, but... You know... You can’t force people to keep their word.
Reader, do things on your own.
Success and Love
Hi, once more... I haven´t written in a long time.
I need to talk.
Lately, I´ve been feeling a bit overwhelmed with a lot...
I need to talk but the words don't come out.
I need to speak but I'm speechless
I know I have people who I can trust and tell my problems to, but I don't like to bother anyone with my stupid problems.
Sometimes I feel like I'm gonna explode.
But then I see others with bigger problems than me.
I see them crumble down but at the same time, standing taller and stronger than me.
Christkindlemarkets are a big deal in Germany. They are everywhere in almost every midsize city. But all the glamour is gone. My kids will never be able to attend a market without anti terror barricade at each entrance or exit of the market. It used to be a place to enjoy time together with friends in family. Getting ready for Christmas. Now it's a place of some fear and a weird feeling. Whenever you are standing at a booth, you can't just relax and enjoy anymore, all the security measurements around you keeps you aware of the possiblity it can happen all the time again.
Con las experiencias que vivi aprendi a comprender el alma como un musculo, que si se agota con momentos alegres o tristes, al llegar la noche podrías dormir profundamente, aún que será inevitable revivir esos momentos mezclados en un sueño profundo.
Are you always strong? Are you always brave?
Totally fearless? Then you don't live.
We always encounter situations where we need to get support from others. A life without getting help, without having fear , without admitting you can do it better than me is not living. It's a illusion created by yourself cause you are afraid of failing.
Be strong and admitt, offer support and work together, live your life.
wearing nothing but shame;
Smelling cologne on my sheets.
Moans echoing in my ears.
Dignity shattered, ego bruised.
For you and the abuse
my body craves so much.
One year ago,
I cheated on you.
I did few mistakes for which I still repent.
You still accepted me, I came back crying like I never cried before.
I died in your arms like It was the last time I’ll feel someone’s hands around me.
You on your part never complained, never brought that thing up.
Little did I know that that was growing deeper inside of you.
Lil did I know it had spread it’s branches of insecurities all over.
At this time it was full bloom, When suddenly a hurricane of distrust barrelled towards it when I had a drink with some friends of yours.
Okay I did some mistakes but was that enough to cover your abuses? Your disrespectful attitude?
Comparing my mistakes with you...
Aun siento ese vacío intangibles, un sentimiento fácil de ocultar, donde la ese sentimiento nubla las ideas y te aleja de la realidad, atrayendo te al dulce aroma del ayer, recordando e imaginando lo que pudo llegar a ser esa vida inalcanzable e inolvidable.
I still remember the first time your little hands cupped around one of my fingers while I was rocking you to sleep. Back then, those big green eyes, already so curious, yet so afraid, they just asked one thing: would you take care of me? And I tried, actually I've been trying really hard even though sometimes I just couldn't be close enough to avoiding you from falling or getting hurt.
You turn eighteen today, a dangerous and so amazing age to a human's life. I can't hold the back of your bike's bench when you were going too fast anymore because... Now you're too far for me to reach you with my bare hands. But I still watch you from distance, you know? Even those times when you...
Aprendi a agradecer las buenas y malas cosas, por que los momentos dolosos aprendí levantarme, y en los momentos de superación y paz espiritual aprendí a reflexionar, admirar y agradecer hasta las cosas más pequeñas, buenas o malas de la vida.
Jealousy feels ugly
I’ll keep to myself
Configure a machine that loves with out possessive tendencies
Pressure isn’t friendly-or comforting
I found a window, unlatched
I made use of the open space
And gently taught myself how to fall at a logical pace
If there’s a sharp pain in your chest
Maybe you miss me
It’s easier to plummet and plant roots
I don’t know about you but,
I’d rather admire the city
before branching out
What if it's all about being one's own salvation?
What if its not about being together, but learning about oneself while having a companion to hold you grounded?
Can I save someone?
Can I give myself that much power and authority to consciously let someone depend on me?
Unjust. Unethical. Unsustainable.
Although it is a deeply satisfying thought; knowing how important you are and how dominating you can be, I can't go ahead with it.
Darkness is not romance.
It is destruction.
So how will I love you when all you want to do is gulp in the light and cage it within your ribs?
But I shall.
But I shall.
I will wait for you to try to destroy me, in the eye of your storm.
Because I am sure th...