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July 9, 2020
Jefferson, United States

           Learning the Ropes

Laying in bed, all cozy and nestled under cover when I realize I forgot to lock the doors... and they're way over there😳. Ugh.. I tried to reason with myself, tried to tell myself there's no need, everything is fine, no one is coming here..
but then my good ole imagination starts to kick into overdrive and .. well.. yeah, I've gotta get up and lock the doors.

Not willing to take any chances or unnecessary risks .

Dang it, I wish I felt a little more secure, a little less vulnerable... even with two Great Danes and locked doors I'm still a nervous nelly.  I'm always scared that someone will try to come in.. in all reality anyone who wanted to enter isn't goi...

RELAXING THE LUXURIOUS WAY
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June 27, 2020
 

F........A........D........I........N.......G
" You were fading away...... becoming distant from everyone and everything around you"

And questions kept screaming in my head ..........Why?.... ...
why didn't you talk to me?
why didn't you check on me?  
why did you choose to give me space without even trying to lift me up?

Then I stood still for a moment and I found out that part of me didn't want you to ask, as I won't be able to talk to you about what is bothering me or  for a matter of fact  talk about it with anyone else because I have never been good in talking about my problems.

The rest of me wanted you so badly to ask about me ........ To reach out and try to help me become the ...

GABRIEL MUCHIRI
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July 7, 2020
 

To E.l(for him thoughts)

You grab my heart
and throw it like its trash
That is hard thing...
Even my behavior is not sensitive
You smack that and kill it
I felt your vibe and was toxic...
What is wrong with you?
Didn't expect that, you surprise me soo bad as hell...
Anger and tears in my face
I don't have words to describe it
Pain
         Was
                  Over
                           My
                                Body....

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INKTOBER: ANNA
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July 3, 2020
 

How does
happiness feel ?

What is it
to be peaceful?

When is that
you are in control ?

Fear filled rage
Tear filled hope
Smiles full of lies
Life full but empty.

What the mind knows,
The heart doesn't.

How much ever
life pushes,
Hope fails to
resurrect.

Why does it
come to that?

When will
the fog lift ?

Is there ever
a road to clarity ?

When broken
you can pick up,
But the fear of
awaiting the break,
is much too
horrible,
I wish that to no one
But myself.

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ART OF WRITING
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June 13, 2020
 

      
( CONFESSION) Open letter -05

To my friend-cum-strength,

There were days when I lived in oblivion, and my potential was unknown to me and the world.

Then you came into my life like a knight in shining armour who was ready for a roller coaster ride with me! You chose to hold me tight and gear me up for a fight.

Suddenly the gumption to achieve something came into light, and by the end of the day I was ready to fight.

But, unlike Karan Johar's films neither my middle class status had a Gucci packing nor the sets were larger than life!

Keeping the facts aside, I was ready to enter the corporate world unaware of the impending "BLOOM".

I managed to dodge many fake offers, which wer...

SIMPLICITY DAY
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June 28, 2020
Enid, United States

Putrid sound of a vile tongue,
Slithering snakes move through everyone.
Heavens gates are bound no more.
The willows weeps at the broken door.
The tears stream down as the clock ticks by.
The dust in the air,leaves a deathly sigh.
A broken heart,into shattered glass.
Catastrophic bits to fill with ash.

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MAN ON THE MOON
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June 27, 2020
Los Angeles, United States

I may be lost and idk where to go from here. I don’t know why I don’t follow the signs when they are loud and clear. I’ve been damned by addiction and lately I’ve drowned to in my pain. I could inhale it all and still feel alright let this pain exhale but side effects hit strong. I just wanna do this life what’s happening with me is on me and no need to worry just let me be is how you do. Thanks for the check up, you don’t notice me when I go absence. When I go blank. When I disappear. That’s okay you’re busy, important tasks at hand but having a thought or a wonder if I am ok just flies right by because that’s not how you were brought up, to check on loved ones you once claimed family. Get i...

ALL IS WELL
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June 27, 2020
 

We live in a world where each one of us has a battle to fight. So, should we share our plight? Or choose to keep our lips tight?

What if we choose someone to share, and they can't help but stare and say -- what's the use of suggesting anything to you, now there is nothing that can help you.

All I have told you in the past was hardly followed. So now you better swallow that emotion.

I don't blame them  as I know they have their individual battles to fight, and this time I will fight with my demons day and night...

TAKE TIME TO WRITE
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June 26, 2020
Jefferson, United States

           ~Lake Jackson~

Last day in Tator-Tucky before making the long trek homeward bound for the Northern Black Hills.
It’s been such a pleasure to help Fridge reassess his values, rearrange his home and get his life back in order. He says me coming was a once in a lifetime opportunity.. he tells me he’s honored to have helped me along my journey into the unknown as it was mine to help him as well. I’m actually contemplating moving down here so we can get a part time beach house here on the coast... I had an offer for work already to run large equipment for a road crew outfit (something to contemplate on my 24 hour long trek)... business is good they tell me and a few friends said despi...

LOVE WINS
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June 22, 2020
 

Pain

Wishing the pain is bearable
But
It's not physical
It's emotional

Wishing not to be angry
But
It's not in control

Wish I can do something
But
It's not on strangers
It's on family

Wish they understand
But
It's not worthy for them

Wish I can understand
But
It's unbearable now....

DAREN COLBERT
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June 22, 2020
 

Was happy,
when being alone..
Then become sad knowing,
There is no one to share it..

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THINKING OF YOU
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June 20, 2020

                                               NO PRESENT


Last time, I thought about the present, I was a kid

so lively in instant time, now time's money, more like a bid

though I know the importance but my limitations don't let me

The nostalgia of no-near future, craving, wishing to had a greater  past,

making my presents skid.


To check if you are Modern, count the excuses

if you are getting presents, considered lame, count the bruises

On the island of hope, in a bottle, tied a note, looking at the starry sky with

dreamy eyes

my insight got the note, with the glue of time trying to fix the torn-present-

pieces.

SET THE MOOD
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June 14, 2020
 

‪Death.‬
‪Does it scare you?‬
‪Does it intrigue you?‬
‪An adieu or an advent?‬

‪I embark on this quest.‬
‪On this uncertain path;‬
‪Carrying mortal desires,‬
‪And life’s dire desolation.‬

‪The breeze sway my flight,‬
‪The waves roughen my sail,‬
‪It’s sedating, steady, scary.‬
‪I am sinking. I am dying.‬

‪I leave to the other side,‬
‪He embraces me to a new life,‬
‪In his eternal safe haven,‬
‪I am finally home!

- Adlee Sharon














LOVE IS ALL WE NEED
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June 18, 2020
 

   This is pretty much a continuation of last letter. I felt that, that required more of the immediate attention than this.

  I'm really sad, and really low. Two days ago, I got to know that, one of my friend's mum is diagnosed with brain cancer. I was super shocked to hear that. Like u had no idea what I could say to him anymore. Cancer is scary, but the timing is just horrible, with Corona all over the place. One whiff, and you know you're done for.

  I couldn't find any words to tell him, and while talking to him yesterday, I was saying, let's hope for the best and hope she recovers soon & got another news from him. That one of our mutual friend is diagnosed with cancer and he's undergo...

BAD DAY
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June 17, 2020
 

I don't like to revive memories,
Because you were possible in the past.

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ANGEL BREATHING
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June 17, 2020
 

A HEARTFELT TESTIMONY.....

This morning I woke up with a heavy heart; so broken that I didn't want to face the world anymore. Tired & Defeated. I crashed into my bed again.
But, I couldn't sleep. All that came out of my lips in that moment was that
"Father, please deliver me from this feeling".
And, after 10 mins, I woke up instinctively thinking, "What can harm me when He is protecting me; How can I allow the devil to make me feel this way when God lives within me & is looking after me?"
And, then I started listening to some worship songs. I heard to this song by Hillsong Worship which had some lines which said, " While I was a slave to sin, Jesus died for me" and " In my Father's house,...

SATURN
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June 16, 2020
Udaipur, India

Do you ever feel
that the noise is too much?
that everything should stop
just stop!
It's alot to process,
alot to take in,
alot!
one after another,
it keeps coming
one after another
before you heal,
before you know what to feel
before you know how to deal.
it just has to end,
to cut it's cords,
to stab its heart
to bleed itself cold.
stop ! just stop!
let there be no voice.
no sound. no noise.
let's just greive
and mourn
from dusk to dawn.
let's just be.
exist plain.
uneventful
disdain.
meaniglessly
float the
damaged
boat.
relive the
way to live.
Let's not defend
Let it be the end.

ART OF WRITING
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June 12, 2020
Calgary, Canada

My inner thoughts...
I never knew there were different types of lonely until I was lonely for you. The different types of sorrow deep in my heart keep finding they’re way to the surface. For each reason you leave, have each individual sinking feelings in my gut... but the deepest lonely is when I know you won’t be home for a while... our relationship might be ripped at the seems, our hearts might not be as full but the toxins that full our lungs keep bringing us back to where the cycle began. I’m lonely without you, but unfortunately I’m lonely with you, too.

IT'S FINE
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June 12, 2020
 

And one day,
He choose her,
What unforgivable i did
I will never know.

All i have is love,
There's only you,
I will wait until when
There's no more of me.

If there's just a day
You will have me back,
My world would end
in a happy note.

Please give me a chance
To be near you
I know i am not worth
to have you ever.

I think i am crying
Tears left long back
There's just ache
from deep inside .

My mind holds me
a prisoner
Memories choke me
I stop breathing.

If i could hold
that forever,
Maybe i would never
disturb him
even in my thoughts.

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SIMPLICITY DAY
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June 11, 2020
Oklahoma City, United States

Do you ever cry so much your lungs collapse? Do you feel the salt drip down your face? The ache in your chest holding you back from taking the next breath? Do you ever cry so much that you feel something gnawing at the pit of your stomach, slowly inching it’s way forward, bile rising higher and higher where you feel like you are about to choke on it? Does it ever hurt so much you wonder what would happen if it all just stopped? Has it ever crawled so deep into your mind and hurt so much that you would rather not be able to think if only for a moment? Do you ever feel like you are drowning inside your own head, your own body, your own mind? Do you ever wonder where the feelings come from and i...

DESPAIR
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