One of the hardest things to bare after losing my father is that I did not have the opportunity to say goodbye. Naturally, it is impossible to be with every family member when they cross over.
I mean it's when a loss is so sudden I often feel that I have missed closure. I feel cheated out of a special moment with my Dad. Losing him brings about deep feelings of grief, and grief still consumes me.
Obviously, it was harder in the first few weeks and months after he died but now that the harshness and shock has faded I still fill the pain if not the same but more as the numbness has been seared away with time. Although, the grief is significantly more 'transparent' what it la...
THEY DON'T MAKE THEM LIKE YOU NO MORE.
The only one who knew me before, all the masks and the gaps and the eyes like maps you looked through until the camaflague cracked. It's me missing you, the one who never flew in the wind of your wings, so sore. Those lies took my side to the better tides and I never knew you were true for sure. You loved me to the core and I loved you much more, than you saw. My heart is raw still on tour to the shores we ensured to forge. Like you hoped I will float on the boat through the book you wrote and feel ease on the seas where we've been, and in the breeze your soul soars free, rest in peace. I wont slack in your tracks, you're my Dad I want you back. They d...
You taught me to walk on my own feet way back into the time . You did let go off my hand because you thought I have learnt to take steady footsteps. But dad , your strong daughter didn't learn to walk steadily in her life yet. She had a bad fall and had bruised herself and I wish you were here to help her back on her feet again. I wish I could wrap my hand around your finger and learn the right way to walk again. I need you in here. I love you and without any doubt, I miss you too.
- Arunima ❣️
You are graying now aren't you?
You are perfecting the paradigm of hustle
You are cutting through, wearing off, every muscle
You make me believe destiny is only a tussle
You pull one over, fight the flight.
I hate I cannot emulate you, though forever in sight.
I love you for all those rules, even more the ruse
A very happy birthday Paa, I will always continue to be a part of you.
My crown lays crumpled
And the little prince cries
We were over thrown
And lost our place
To an imaginary throne
A couple extra heartbeats
By a handful of mistakes
Took the king
Away from us. JD
*Crumpled* Fahter Part LVI
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During your life here
You walked purgatory road
But now that you're gone
I'm holding on to the hope
That you ended up elsewhere.
*Hell Bound* (But Heaven Sent?) Father Part LX
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As the oldest I have always been trying to do my best to be strong for all of us. I've seen the way my siblings crumble under the weight of your absence. I do too, and everyday I contemplate about my death. I contemplate of the ways I should leave but always end up remembering the way you'd cry. That probably breaks my heart more than the thought of my own death. I don't blame you. I've been able to live the life I've been living so far because you chose to work in another country, but I look at families that argue about which netflix movie to watch and I can't help but wonder if that day will ever come. The most mundane things to others are moments I've been forced to miss with you. I...
My dad is Portuguese
And I never knew what that meant
Until I said I'm just like him
And someone pointed out
That we don't match
But I have his smile
And the way he laughs
We reason the same
Our morals match.
He taught me to love
And how to be loved
So how can DNA
Be more defining
Than all these lovely
I say I'm just like my dad
But appearance isnt what I mean
It's all of the million little things
That make up a family.
To Maa And Paa ,
It has been an absolute honor to fail at all those premeditated challenges you threw at me, not because you knew i couldn't do them but because you wanted to impart a lesson to me that has my head bent around even today, " You cannot and will not be able to achieve everything in life and it is okay to let go", it is more important to understand incompetency but not conform to it. Paa, you have been instrumental in achieving fear of peers in me by being a friend first a foe after only to have me understand life is more than what meets the eye. I have always feared your presence and it now years later turns out is only because of the respect i have for you and the amount of ...
It's been awhile since I thought of you.
Your face appeared like an old photo that stayed the same.
Stoic and solid, heroic and fearsome. Your eyes mirrored the woman who birthed you and the people before her when the world was different and simple.
I wondered what you thought of me if you were here.
I wondered if you'd recognize me as
I saw you in every man I've ever loved.
The only trace I have of you is your last name.
I wondered if you ever remembered me up there.
Despite everything that you had said and done,
I wished you could see me riding a bike, watch the fireworks together and maybe walk me down the aisle someday.
I wished you could see me now and told me everything i never heard...
My mom died when I was 17, I remember one Night, it was years later I had said to him that it was OK to Start seeing someone new. And he said "no your mom was the one for me so why look for someone else" For years I always wanted that kind of love from somebody that my dad had for her, And 16 years later I'm realizing that I also remember hearing my mom didn't want my dad any longer but she stayed with him.
I don't want that kind of love any longer....
But I want someone to love me back the way I love them.
Random memory that hit me.
Made me sad. And angry. My dad doesn't deserve to be alone. Hes had a horrible life.
I also feel bad he had to deal with a child like me. And still do...
EL DÍA QUE PAPÁ SE FUE
Y aún me preguntan
y mi respuesta siempre es
¡Pero por supuesto que sí!
¿Dónde puede existir un suplente?
¡No hay nada que pueda sustituirlo!
Los brazos de e papá eran fuertes
y me salvaron de peligros
el beso en la frente
su sonrisa y su alegría
mi mejor medicina.
El valiente espera
jamás atenta contra su vida
y él espero con paciencia el día
que sus ojos se cerraron
y sus labios se sellaron
su corazón se detuvo en el tiempo
y yo sentí que mis pies no respondían un golpe oscureció mi vida
la luz de mis días ya no estaría
dolía mucho su ausencia,
más debía pensar en la familia
no podía fallarle.
Sabía que nada sería igual.
Feliz dia del padre a todas las mamás solteras, a todas aquellas que no tuvieron el apoyo de un hombre y sacaron adelante a sus hijos sin apoyo de nadie...
Feliz dia del padre a la mejor mamá del mundo la que fue capaz de ponerse los pantalones y sacarme adelante.
Porque eres ejemplo de
Porque nos amas a pesar de.
Porque nos enseñas,
Porque eres incondicional,
Porque estás siempre.
Porque das todo y más por nosotros.
Porque nos haces reír.
Porque nos cocinas y nos abrazas fuerte.
Porque eres honesto, bueno y trabajador.
Porque siempre ayudas.
Porque todas las cualidades que tienes no sólo te hacen un buen padre, sino un maravilloso ser humano.
Porque tengo mucha suerte y gratitud de tenerte.
Por amarme, cuidarme, aconsejarme ,sostenerme hoy
y todos los días
Eres el mejor papá del mundo entero,
al menos del mío.
Te amo inconmensurable e inmarcesiblemente.
POR AQUELLO DEL DÍA DEL PADRE.
Cada quién tiene su historia y sus perpectivas sobre este día. Que si sí, que si no, que si ojalá... Que si siempre, y que si nunca.
En mi caso, creo que parte del hecho de crecer y madurar, es darte cuenta que tus padres —esos seres cuasi-divinos en los ojos de un niño— son simplemente humanos, de carne y hueso, con defectos y errores.
Pero parte del hecho de madurar no sólo es ver sus defectos, sino también reconocer lo que han hecho bien. Y hay mucho bien hecho, en realidad —al menos desde mi punto de vista—.
Y si bien el hombre de quien obtuve el apellido, el parecido, y el carácter abrasivo, jamás me ha dicho que todo lo que toca la luz algú...
It is the day
Of the dad
Hurt and disgraced us
But he's not here
To make amends
Or answer for that
And it still hurts
Beyond belief. JD
*Beyond* (answers, belief, this world....) Father Part LVIX
Rest in Peace Daddy - I know Valhalla is a far better place for you to be.
Happy Father’s Day
I may not remember the first step
of mine ...
When you held my hand to make
I may not remember my first
wabble that you
Cherish for your life...
And so many more memories of my child as a toddler which you have clicked ...
Adorable you call it always ...
But yes DAD I remember every time of my life that you have stood by my side...
Have forgiven me for my mischeifs to the Sins..
Have taught me how to be a human in this wordly word...
I cherish every moment that I have spent with you ...
Not a just a DAD to me ...But more as friend..
You are my finest jewel that I possess...
I know it now ...
My serenity c...
Dad...😃 Unlike most of you.. I used to be afraid of my dad when I was a kid. Well he wasn't scary but preferred discipline and truthfulness over everything else. And me on the other hand was the most naughty child in our family. 😝 So getting scolded and being caught lying was my daily routine as a child. 🤫 As I grew up I understood one thing that is : my dad will keep me safe from everything...no matter what. Loosing him when I was just 14 ...did hit me hard. It's tough life without your dad around and its tougher to accept that you are on your own...and you are never gonna see him again. 🙂 I don't need a day to remember him but yes on Father's Day... I am missing him a bit more cause I am u...
There are many many things in you which I admire the most!
There are things you do for me which no one else can and love me the most!
I don't care what you are with others but what you are with me matters the most!
I know I am the hell difficult person for you to tackle but your love for me has made you to mold!
You are the onion in my pizza,
And tomato in my Maggie!
You are, from whom I have got the back to say whatever I want!
You are the one from whom I have got my pride to flaunt as I want!
I know you fear to make me away from you!
I know maybe I am the one whom you are afraid to lose!
But the boundaries can never separate the unconditional bond we have!
I know you will be with ...
Papa ki cycle
Piche baithe hum do
Jaane kab kat gaya
Wo school se
Ghar ka safar
Nadi ka kinara
Godd me hum do
Behati nadi paar ho gai
Mere papa hero
Gaon ki galiyaan
Wo lamba safar
Aam ke baagiche
Suraj ka kahar
Papa se be-sar pair ki baaten
Kat jata tha wo lamba safar
Din bhar ki thakan
Sofe pe padi najar
Kab aankh lagi ,kise khabar
Suba nind khuli hum the bed par
Kon jaane kab hua ye,
Papa mere jaadugar
Hamare sapno ko
Khud dinraat mehanat kar,
Umar ki is dahleej me bhi
papa mere hero,jaadugar.