Overwhelmed and over worked
on the verge of tears. Crying out for some relief . Im currently drowning in my emotions and want so badly to lash out but I know I can't but Im drowning ever so slowly and only able to come back up for a few seconds of air. Im Fucking drowing in my Tears, in my Emotions and in my Fears.
But the jokes on me because Im drowning faster Then I Think..!
Love at first sight no one believes it, until it happens to them and then they see it.
The moment you meet the world seems to stop, everything pauses even water drops. Wondering in suspense what caused it. Thinking one breath could cause it to start, so you hold it all in you feel your beating heart stop.
That look in their eyes they're reading your soul, making you wonder what it is they saw.
Your deepest desires or your darkest secrets. That last one would make anyone leave them.
The love you feel and the anger you hide it's that one look that causes you to cry. Your life on display for everyone to see, yet it's just your imagination and not what yo...
No, I am not
and i never was your lover
We are never meant to be
And we will never be
I am and let me be
just a side gig
That is easier to accept
and less painful
When we talk about
Otherwise i cannot bear
the flash backs suck
my life out
and i fade away.
Otherwise i cannot give you
all that you ask for
Because ,baby remember
i may not be your one
but you are my only one.
Well I guess this is it. I’ve been waiting for a few days (longer if you want to include the day this all started and you refused to communicate why you were mad, sad, discontent.. whatever it was you wouldn’t address but were feeling) and I guess what I’m saying is that I’m done.
I won’t beg you to talk to me. I asked you for an explanation but I guess in your selfish ways, you won’t concede and give me what I asked for... funny thing is, no one ever has no matter how complex or simple my request is.
I really thought we had something special and I thought I knew you. Apparently I was looking through those damn rose colored glasses again as usual and made you into someone you were not. I ...
The more I listen you the more I became thirsty of your voice.
درد و غم دل کی طبیعت بن گئے۔
اب یہاں آرام ہی آرام ہے۔
Now my companion is pain and sorrow of heart.
Now i am living like rest in peace in a low graveyard.
Time changed everything...
All emotions have been locked away
After having being shed shamelessly
In the altar of loss...
And now , fear conquers all
It forced me to hide
And keep my distance
To everything worth living for...
And in the dark ,
All memories return
Like ghosts in the night
Reminding me of who I used to be...
Tears and pain
The gift of a life that has come to pass...
The last vestiges of a soul's dim light
Silently crying for mercy...
I found comfort in melodies of passion
In poems of shakespearean love
And dreams of tragic sacrifice...
And in this void ,
Somehow you found me...
I never thought that I could feel again
Like I do when I breathe your name...
One of the biggest misconceptions about pain is that a person chooses to keep focusing on it.
There are some kinds of sadness that instill themselves so deeply into our very being that they become impossible to let go off.
As time passes, this sadness becomes a part of us, like a companion that makes its appearance only when your heart again decides to take a leap of faith.
A gentle reminder, that you're strong,
That you've lived through it the last time,
you can get past it again.
Maybe that is what this ever present nagging or fear of sadness in the back of our minds is all about?
Just a reminder.
Sometimes all I need is....
I just need comfort cuddles or hugs for last long ... With a peace in breathe in tears in eye corners ... But Comforty ....
Bcz I m a little bit tried from myself...
I really am sorry for what we've become!! I swear I didn't want things to be this way. It hurts more than you will ever know, with you I never thought I'd feel alone.... You were my comfort zone!!! As long as you loved me that was the only STABILITY I NEEDED. Now I feel like you can't stand me. Please don't pity me. It hurts worse thinking you just feel sorry for me me. I don't need to hear you say you love me!!! I need you to hold me while out hearts speak!!! Sometimes I'm to much for even me! I EXPECT things Super man can't even reach!!! Please just love me like the Thomas I pray will still marry me ❤️
"It's been three months, and yet, I seem to have tried everything in vain.."
She was fighting back her tears, trying to type an SMS.
"I have never felt more lonely. So hollow.."
Her heart sank with every word that she typed.
'I don't expect you to understand, but I really want to hold onto you and pour out the grief of my heart to you. If only you could understand what I meant, but I understand that you won't and I don't mind that.'
"You're thinking too much, you have so many people around you", he said.
"Can't be truly vocal around them, can I!?"
Let me tie your shoe less so I can see your child angry face live.
I really missing ur face & voice ....
Then one fine day everything was changed ....
Bcz I lost my home 🖤
Sin 📿 js_lyf
My old friend..
You've been hiding
Since our end
Many years ago
I said goodbye
But who knew
It meant I would
See you later?
Not so much a crash
But a burn
To healed skin
And I remembered
Why I put you down
To begin with
Yet here we are
And I am writing
To an old friend
We struck a cord
And I am lit
Will we ever end?
7 word story ;
Alchocal opens mind & block the HeaRt ♥
I gaze upon the dark horizon
The promise of a storm
Hurling grey clouds
Furiously beating wind
Downpour awaited anytime
It suited my current temperament
As the first drops
started to fall,
I cried alongside.
Cried for everything
I have no control of
Cried for what i fear
Cried for any wrong-doing
Cried out of pity
A beggar of love
Of a normal life
To my transit of guilt
From hailed selfless
To being blamed selfish
Where have i gone wrong?
How could this be happening?
Is it a crime trusting
Giving up yourself for love
And wanting some more
Thinking of something
of it being taken away?
Why have i been destined
Silver blood is much sweeter then the gold her love has to offer
for her pain only moans my name when its sparked by the fear of her imagination
My nightmares numb the kisses her dreams wishes to bless with me for her lips are broken from the words society chooses to ignore
I wish to save her but lust is my kryptonite that now replaces the tensions of her former heart that once beated for me
I am no perfect lover for my riches only provide poor memories and shame
Cupid if you still believe in me, send one last arrow to respark the conscience that once laid in my heart
give it color once again before this white become ice
before I become just a piece of silver she once held hope upon ...
I hate to be here...
I feel scared when i realise that i have to spent rest of my life here...
Only death is the escape from here...
Oh god only thing which i can ask u to give me is ..
STRENGTH to handle every situation..
Even though i hope to get help which is not possible....