No sé lo que hago, lo siento
No sé si lo que hago esta bien o esta mal
Siento que decepciono a mucha gente
Algo está mal conmigo, lo sé
Siento un gran vacío que me desgarra el alma y trato de llenarlo, con mentiras, ilusiones, narcóticos, drogas, amor comprado, besos infieles al momento en el que vives que luego se pierden en la siguiente mentira que te dices a ti mismo, con el típico, estoy bien o voy a estar bien, me niego a pensar que me acostumbre a sentir dolor, pues no dejo de luchar, por al menos un gramo de luz y un segundo de amor real
Quiero llenar este vacío que hay en mí, no sé cómo, de alguna forma, aún que sea con mentiras, con engaños, un falso mundo, cualquier cosa es mejor a...
Apparently, the world has gone crazy and somehow hatred is all left in this world. Selfish, Pride, Disrespect are all most people care about. They don't think about others, they don't think about how other people may feel or how they will react. Why would people do that?
The world has gone chaos, there are lots of good people turn bad, bad people stay bad, and children are left alone to magically can act according to the society needs. What is happening? Why people expect other people to change but, they know they don't want to change just because other people said so?
Please think, Selfish, hatred, pride only last because you want to keep it. it will only get bigger an...
Words can be violent.
did you know?
When they cut deep,
you bleed out slow.
It lives in my darkness and it feeds on my pain.
It is scared of light.
I can feel it breathing on the back of my soul.
It makes me restless.
It is hard for me to sleep,
When everything I do feels so heartless.
Am I heartless?
I had a dream where I was swimming in a pool of salt.
It was hard for me to breathe because my light was off.
It felt like I was a deserted island.
Am I alone?
It has its heavy hands on my heart.
I cannot keep up with this feeling.
It is calling my name.
I broke my back bone to follow its moves.
Am I helpless?
This is all I know,
I can feel it grow,
As I fall.
Seems I cannot figure it out,
Can some gentle hands can pull me up?
I don't want to live with that feeli...
So, here we are.
At a space that I thought would stay and survive the pandemic.
Upon my word, this virus has truly infested our core to rest eternally as a patriarch uprooting small joys.
I always felt sadness was a constant, and that happiness would occasionally glance.
Today I find that that sentence could never have been truer.
Taking hurried screenshots while cringing at my past work has been a blast, along with anger and pain towards the realisation that this was the only non-judgmental space I could ever find in all my years, which really says something about this world we live in.
I always knew that whenever my heart would get heavy, the silent premise of lettrs would beckon me to...
कोई कहदे मुझसे..
वो सब एक सपना था!
मेरा यार, मेरा प्यार;
कभी न मेरा अपना था।
झूठा था उसके लिए;
मेरे लिए तो वो मेरा अपना था।
हर दिन जिसके साथ बीता...
आज नहीं उसकी खबर मुझे,
खुश रहे वो जहां भी रहे;
यही दुआ दूं, मैं उसे!
आज दिन है खास!!!
ना है वो मेरे पास।
दुख नहीं होता है अब,
मान लिया है मैंने...
बिखर ही गया है सब!
आगे बढ़ना ही तो ज़िन्दगी है।।
चलती जा रही हूं....
हर कदम पर लड़खड़ाते;
संभलती जा रही हूं!!
A cute boy
That studied abroad
To an audience awed.
Stacks of plastic cups
Lined in rows
He approached the girl
He says he knows.
A smudge of purple
On a white button
An anxious girl
Incapable of shuttin’ up.
A rain soaked
Red rock resembles a heart
She was quite cold and wet
For such a cheesy start.
A setting sun a perfect backdrop
For his unrealised intentions
In the car, she ducked his lips
And spoke apprehensions.
In the drivers seat she
Was given a delightful surprise
She returned his kiss
With closed eyes.
A new day had begun
As they kissed in the doorway
And to be each other’s only
They lay close and passioned
In a bed of na...
I just joined today. And it's going! Such an incredible application, a voice to introvert the power to express what can't be expressed by voice so easily. However, we must obey the change. Hope this app will be back in a new look new way. Am waiting. Writing 1st letter and maybe last, cause I want at least a letter to stay with this app. I am poor in English so if anyone discovers it, please forgive me. Stay well all, stay safe.
Life Through The Eyes Of An Addict
9 Months Clean & Sober
I take things to extremes
Its all or nothing and no in between
If it feels good I want more
I want something stronger than what I had before
I don't know my limits
I fuss and I fidget
in a desperate attempt to keep still
Was raised to think everything could be solved with a pill
I have a high tolerance especially for pain
I get bored when life feels too tame
I sleep too much
or not enough
I'm a complete control freak
I forget to think before I speak
Sometimes I romanticize
as I begin to fantasize
About how it would feel to go back out again
Take one hit, two hits, maybe ten
The demons occasionally crawl into ...
When they see you as a strong woman, they think that you do not need anything or anyone, you can bear everything and will overcome whatever happens. That you do not mind being listened to, cared for or pampered.
When they see you as a strong woman, they just look for you to help them carry their crosses. They talk to you and they think you do not need to be heard.
A strong woman is not asked if she is tired, suffering or falling, if she has anxiety or fear. The important thing is that she is always there: a lighthouse in the fog or a rock in the middle of the sea.
The strong woman is not forgiven anything. If she loses control, she becomes weak. If she loses her temper, she becomes hysteri...
Sweedle's Creative Corner
We had a good conversation last night, and you thought we both ended the call satisfied and happy.
But I must confess, I am sorrowful.
Not because the reader might think it is your fault, but because it is mine.
Sometimes, we capture a belief that takes ahold of us, that helps us live, that helps us breathe.
And being with you in the future would mean letting go of that belief- something which I cannot do.
I know you believe that we will ride out this pandemic, and I believe with you too.
But after that is not the resuming of love, it is its end.
I have yet to meet someone like you, who has wholly completed me- and leaving you is a terrible, terri...
Tripping over rocks
Colliding with walls
Every turn dead end
Every progression resistant to momentum
Hacking through the brush surrounding
Pushing my way through
I stumble through
Relief of obstacle
Moving with greater ease
No impediments block my path
All I ever needed was the final push
Choose the right path
With enough will and strength
Ease found in the freedom of direction
All paths are now open
There’s no more ends
Only beginnings are beyond
He vuelto por que los días en esta época del año se vuelven más oscuros y más difíciles de sobrevivir.
Siento que pasan tan lentos, tan pesados, como que si el grano de arena pesara como el acero en el reloj de arena.
Sé que son etapas, como todo en la vida, pero esta es particularmente peculiar porque me siento diferente... en ésta me quedé al principio de querer darlo todo.
Hoy estoy con las manos llenas pero con el corazón roto.
Qué ilógico suena no?
Quién espera eso luego de sanar y esperar tanto para amar de nuevo?
Seré la única a quién le esté pasando esto?
Me siento decepcionada...
Born to over think
Heartache most wouldn't believe
Life's beauty angered me
A childhood trait
Now I've passed it to little B
I wish I could take away your pain
I'm sorry I just gave you away
Filling you with anger and shame
Then just walked away
The things I put you through were not okay
But how do you tell a six year old momma shoots dope into her veins
Because of it with Mommy Dearest you have to stay
Now you know an alcoholics pain
Perfect for abuse because your mommy abandoned you
I can see where you've confused love with hate
An how sometimes living an dying look the same
I see the hurt on your face
I promise there's more to life than pain
It's ok to keep your trust locked away
In time y...
in memory of when i cared
cared about what you said
cared about what you did
cared about every little word you said to hurt me
cared about every phrase you spoke to put me down cared about every moment you put me down bullied and berated me
now i can happily say
i dont care
i heard he holds you in his arms
i heard he slaps you're face
i heard he kisses your lips
i heard he yanks your hair
i heard he hugs you close
i heard he pushes you away
i heard he strokes your hair
i heard he punches your face
i heard he loves you
i heard he threatens you
I've heard a lot of things about him
now i want to hear it all from you