If they all could read my mind they might just break down and cry. The anxiety and suffocation I’ve felt every day since I was a child weighs on me at times. Back then, I wasn’t even allowed to be myself. Now it carries through today where I feel like I have to put on a mask and hide the real me. No one knows but he, who I really am right now. He, the one who I love but I have sinned with. I hate myself some days for it all. But with him my heart feels cared for and in that moment I was so happy and loved. I know I’m wrong, but why is it wrong to just do what feels right and be happy? I’m so scared. These days I can barely stand to be alone without the comfort of another. I want to gain my st...
You didn't love me for me, you just love me cause I was there!
Me cansé de amar, de reír y de llorar
Me cansé de abrazar, de besar y olvidar
Me cansé de creer y me cansé de callar
Y así sin lugar, sin razón y sin convicción
Mi corazón se cansó de esperar
Looking back all I can see is you
I desperately try to catch your attention
But you never look my way.
Sharing smiles, sharing hugs, sharing love
My heart is full of my love for you
But it know it will never be returned.
All this time spent I knew
that we would be nothing more
Than a pair of friends
Than two people standing next to each other
Close but never touching
Close but never anything
Because I was the only one
Hopelessly hoping for your gaze to meet mine,
Though I know it never will.
So I will continue to stand by your side
Giving you my time, giving you my love,
giving you my attention
But never giving you my heart,
because I know I w...
I literally just want to break down and cry. Everybody is just completely fuckin me over one by fuckin one. Now all of a sudden because she has apts and agreed to help watch my boys don’t want to and wants me not only to find a baby sitter because it’s “risking her life” but I gotta find my own way to work because apparently the car ain’t mine and she had to got on the bus with her kids to take them to day care and go to work smfh. Why does everybody hate me. Why must I be put through these dumb ass situations. Why can’t I be one of the lucky ones who were blessed with money and can get their own cars, apts/homes, pay bills etc... I feel like no matter how much I help I apparently am told I d...
So terribly lonely
So terrible lonely
The itching you notice
The flies only the wall
So terribly lonely
The silence speaks
Magic is real
May of slipped there
But let me tell you
I’m so terribly lonely
What if he loves you and she doesn’t want to commit?
Would you accept that kind of love?
What if she keeps friendzoning him despite his immense love for her?
Would you accept that kind of love?
What if she’ll be by his side, always, but one day walks away
Should he even love?
What if he just wants to be sure about his future, thus is asking for tag
Why should he suffer?
What if only she gets to decide fate of their relationship?
Should she just leave him hanging?
And one day, after years of parting, he sees her, there is numbness inside of him but tears in his eyes and instantaneous chains of regret in his heart.
I don’t think he will call her.
His eyes will follow her th...
Either leave me or hurt me so much that I ‘ll leave you ....
It happens once and
remains till the end
Even in some, it doesn't end,
it last forever
What is it?
It is true love.
sudden burst of anger
sudden gush of love and sympathy
dreaming deaths of family people
sudden urge to cry out loud
what is this?
Encontré realmente quien es...
En los silencios,
En la soledad,
En su intermitencia,
En su frialdad,
En su desinterés,
En su manera de irse,
En su cobardía,
En su traición,
En su indecisión,
En su desamor,
En sus falsas promesas.
Le conocí totalmente diferente hace algunos años... pero la vida, usted y las decisiones hablan por sí solas.
Quien lo diría...
It's been years since we talked
Will you come out for a walk
Shall we play the game of love again
To make our hearts speak
Do you still hate me
& Here I am waiting for you
My love is incomplete without yours
Life is dark coz' it's missing you
In my saddest moments,
I miss you.
In this moment, I miss you.
Another night when it doesn’t add up and It’s been more aches than I can count.
I miss you when I’m with you.
The universe has a funny way of keeping us humble, forced to be lonely but what about us when
All of me is missing you and
None of this feels right.
Our toughest battles are the ones we conquer, when our life feels like it’s on the edge of insanity.
(Jan 20, 2017)
Tired of giving someone my time and energy when they don't respect you or see you as their equal.
Putting someone else above yourself and your family and friends but not getting the same in return is exhaustive.
I have paid for almost everything and yet I still get the condescending behavior. I have sacrificed everything to be with this person and now I cannot do it anymore.
I was an actress and I had a few things going on the side. I had the beginnings of a small business going.
Here I was moving away into a whirlwind of someone else's world because I thought he showed me he was serious and he cared.
Despite the warnings from his family and my friends, I continue...
To traverse the white,
Into shades of grey,
There's nothing in sight,
As you make your way.
The darker it gets the safer it is to feel,
The deeper you go, the lesser to reveal,
Light would illuminate you, as you'd prevail,
Darkness embraces you, with an impregnable veil.
Who is more real? Ask yourself again,
The illuminated victor, hiding his pain,
Or the stealthy assassin, plotting his next game?
Engulfed in the darkness, enlightenment you attain,
The shrieks of reason, once found insane,
More reason in contrast, they'd have always contained.
You are the darkness, and the darkness is you,
There are no distinctions now, between the two.
For where there is light, shad...
I, missed my train, they
Said it's okay, it will come again.
But I'm, still waiting here
So long it began, seems
This might be end. This might be.
I, cannot defy, what's
In my head, it's totally mess,
Hope is something I don't get.
Stranded in my own world,
I couldn't care less.
I want to go home, maybe
One last time, again.
Where it all began, but I, I
Missed my train, it might go to vain.
I want to fall in love
And suffer the ignorance
feel the joy of togetherness
Let the chord strike the beat
Dance, with our entangled feet
Fight, with no reason
Demand, for an endless season
Handover myself in hopeless vain
And you pull me off
From the wordly strains
And once love had enough from me,
I shall bid farewell, to self
That was held, till then, by thee