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Queen Ace ❤️🤞🏼💍

PO# 226663
United States
United States
24 💜 | Mother of 2 👩‍👧‍👦 | Malachi Isaiah💙 & Maliyah Olivya💕| 2 Peter 1:5-9 🙏🏼 | RIP Momma 10/24/66 - 10/28/19 😭💔😇
December 6, 2019
 

It doesn’t matter they past you have with anyone, if they are fake and phony, they’re gonna switch up on you.

I’ve had probably the hardest month of my life. And there was very little people there for me.

No one understood what I was going through. Grieving my mom I pushed a lot of people away.

I remembered tonight that I had a dream before i had my daughter that I was screaming and crying for my mom because I couldnt do this anymore.

I had this overwhelming sense of just knowing? I guess? Just knowing that it was trying to prepare me.

My moms death is the hardest thing that I’ve had to go through.

I’m thankful for my boyfriend though,  he hadn’t let fall into a depression like ot...

ORIGINAL
December 2, 2019
 

I’ve had a really rough month and a half.

Like honestly probably the toughest I’ve ever had.

My mom died.
My kids father died. (Well to me at least 🤷🏻‍♀️ he’s still out there somewhere ruining someone else’s life unfortunately)

I’ve been arguing back and forth with family.

It’s been ROUGH.

However. Despite all the BULLSHIT, I’m still moving forward. Things are still falling into place. And I still keep a smile on my face.

It’s just me, MY kids, and the ones we love around us.

I can honestly say I should’ve divorced that man and left his dumbass alone back in 2013. Hell back in 2010 when I first met him. 🤮

I’m just completely blown by everyone and their actions. I’m done with th...

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November 16, 2019
 

One thing that’s been pissing me off most about my moms death, is that her family had felt more entitled than my brothers and myself.

They have us urns the size of a tooth fairy box.

And now for the obituary, the didn’t mention my older brother, they spelled my name wrong, and my kids weren’t mentioned.

Come to find out my grandmother was the one responsible for the obituary.

I’m calling her tomorrow and I’m lighting a fire under her ass and in her ear. She’s going to have to hang up on me to stop hearing my mouth and then I will call to talk to my grandfather.

My older brother was not my moms biological son. But she took him in and raised him like he was.

She was his mom because ...

WORLD WATERCOLOR MONTH
November 10, 2019
 

I just want to be alone.

I feel like that’s the best thing for me right now.

Be alone. Focus on the woman my mom and I agreed I would become.

I want to be happy again. I haven’t been happy in such a long time.

I’m seriously depressed. My mom passing has thrown me into the deepest darkest depression of my life.

It’s time I get my groove back.

I’m doing it for you momma. ❤️

LIGHT LETTRS LOGO
November 9, 2019
 

I’m just not myself lately.

I feel like I’m in a constant battle of my mind.

One part of me is like “these people ‘grieving’ my mom acting like I didn’t just lose my bestest friend in the whole world. Y’all didn’t even know her! She didn’t even like you!”

And the other part is basically rolling her eyes like “you’re acting like an entitled brat”

We got my moms ashes today. The boxes are tiny and it made me so mad.

That was my mom. MY mom.

I’m allowed to be selfish and entitled.

The ashes we got were the smallest things you’ve ever seen.

I feel disrespected by what we got off our mother. My younger brother is just as mad.

Today was another bad day.

I’m sad and the one perso...

LIGHT LETTRS LOGO
October 30, 2019
 

Day 3.

The grieving doesn’t get easier.

I’ve found myself trying to call you a few times today mom.

Never in my life did i think i would have to experience this so soon.

Today I’ve been mad.

Mad at the world. Mad that you were taken from us.

I’m still randomly crying when something reminds me of you.

I saw a lady who looked like you in public and I froze. I couldn’t speak or move. She turned around and my heart was shattered.

I miss you more each day my beautiful angel.

Please continue to watch over me and the kids.

We love you so much.

Visit me in my dreams momma.

I love you and miss you. 😔💔

RIP momma 10/24/66-10/28/19 😇

#INKTOBER
October 27, 2019
 

It was originally tomorrow when i woke up.

But an extension was requested.

Wednesday.

If no change by the , my deadline remains. The consequences remain. My life continues to go on.

So far. Not looking so good.

But I was told to just hold on.

So I’m holding on until Wednesday.

It’s not too much to ask.

It’s not unreasonable.

Wednesday is the deadline.

I just hope it turns out how we all want it to turn out.

STRONG PEOPLE
October 25, 2019
 

Though times it seems
Like I'm coming undone
This walk can often feel lonely
No matter what until this race is won
I will stand my ground where hope can be found
I will stand my ground where hope can be found
Oh, O'Lord O'Lord I know You hear my cry
Your love is lifting me above all the lies
No matter what I face this I know in time
You'll take all that is wrong and make it right
You'll take all that is wrong and make it right
Your strength is found
At the end of my road
Your grace it reaches to the hurting
Still through the tears and the questioning why
I will stand my ground where hope can be found
I will stand my ground where hope can be found
Oh, O'Lord O'Lord I know You hear my cry
Your ...

DRAINED
October 23, 2019
 

After what I heard today,  what I’ve seen over the last week or so, I’ve finally made my decision.

So I sent the book. I sent all about my feelings on the situation, my hopes for the future and said my final goodbye.

I’ve got my game plan. I’ve got the strength to take my life back.

It’s time I reclaim my identity. It’s time I let go of something that didn’t deserve my time or energy.

I’m blocking numbers, I’m moving on with life.

If you love something let it go right? And if it doesn’t come back it was never yours to begin with?

Let’s just see how true this is.

Letting go. Moving forward. Just me, my babies, and the rest of our lives.

Goodnight lettrs world ❤️ it was nice whi...

THE EDISON BULB
October 22, 2019
 

I’m in love.

Everything is planning out just as God promised back in 2013.

I prayed for all of this for about 3 years.

Piece by piece he is restoring and renewing all that has been broken lost or destroyed.

I serve an awesome God.

Tonight, through prayer and a little bible study, he has shown me that everything is working out.

Not everything is what it seems.

“See what I can do.” Keeps ringing in my head.

That’s what I’ll do. Regardless of the he said she said. Regardless of what it looks like. I’m going to just keep trusting God that he can do just what he said he will do.

How very ignorant of me to think that some HUMAN holds more power than GOD himself.

Tonight I was hu...

THE EDISON BULB
October 22, 2019
 

Life doesn’t have to be this difficult.

HONESTLY like I just don’t understand why everyone makes life seem so hard and whatever. Yeah the challenges suck but if you make it harder the. Of course it gonna seem like life is rough!

It just blows me.

Life really doesn’t have to be this difficult. It’s the people around that cause the problems that place the extra obstacles who make it difficult.

Lord take me home, I hate it here.

I wanna be closer to you and your Glory. Take me to the place where I belong.

Take me to the place where everything is so simple and enjoyable.

Lord, Take me home!

THE EDISON BULB
October 20, 2019
 

Today I was reflecting on some things.

I asked myself “what is it that makes women ‘crazy’ per say when they’re in a relationship?”

And it hit me. We all just want to know and feel like we’re the most important woman to the man.

When you’ve been hurt, it’s easy to slip into that ‘crazy’.

It’s up to you whether you decide to let it affect you, or let it motivate you.

Like, are you going to stalk all these different females and be all up in your head asking crazy questions making yourself look psychotic, and most importantly, BUGGING your man?

Or are you going to look yourself in the mirror and tell yourself that enough is enough?

Today, I looked in the mirror. Today I stated some...

DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY
October 16, 2019
 

It’s October 16th. Today is the day my baby girl is supposed to be here.

I have a game plan. I was in the hospital last night and they sent me home because I’m only 2 cm dilated and 60% effaced. Her head isn’t fixed into a birthing position but she is super low.

Friday I have another testing appointment and after that I will be sent for induction.

My game plan is long walks in the cold freaking air, eating as much as I can handle because once you’re in the hospital, they starve you! And finally, I’m motivating my daughter to come on out and be with mommy and daddy and big brother ❤️

If she doesn’t come before tomorrow I need to wash my hair and re straighten it so i don’t look complete...

DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY
October 15, 2019
 

Over the past 4 or 5 years, I’ve written you many many letters.

Some I’ve sent. Some I’ve left sitting in my drafts only because I couldn’t send them and start more bs.

About a month ago, before I ghosted you out and blocked you on everything because of the betrayal I felt, I wrote you a letter but I realized it wasn’t worth sending.

I have absolutely no problem being civil or friends with anyone as long as it’s true friendship and not just keeping me close to make sure I don’t attempt to take your man that’s never really truly been your man because he is married to me.

I pray for you often, that your heart would heal from everything you’ve been through. I pray that one day things can...

DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY
October 7, 2019
Machesney Park, United States

Isn’t it crazy.

I’m just 9 days away from meeting my daughter.

I feel like I’m not the least bit prepared.

I have mainly everything I need.

Pretty much everything actually.

The only thing I’m waiting for is this house to be clean.

This apartment to be taken care of

And finally, for my kids father to have the Time for so I can have our last baby girl on his schedule that way he can be there.

Crazy right. To think I have control over when she comes.

We’ve talked though. Maliah and I have an understanding. She needs to wait for her daddy. 🤣

Big brother is very excited to meet his little sister.

Mommy and daddy are ready to meet their little girl.

I still can’t believe it. ...

MADE WITH LOVE
October 4, 2019
Machesney Park, United States

Everything is coming together.

Slowly but surely.

Tonight we got some more stuff that mom ordered for Maliah.

Still working on some minor details and getting things situated.

We’re moving in the right direction.

Tonight I realize that not everyone is coming to the next level with me.

This transition that I’m in has shown me alot of people’s true colors.

It’s shown me the using and the no goods.

I’m thankful that I’ve been able to cut the negativity from my life thus far.

I’m focused on my future work my two kids whether there’s a husband involved or not.

Either the man will act right for you or he won’t. Same goes for family and friends.

Either they act right and assist ...

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September 27, 2019
 

I could’ve stayed.

I could’ve been in your arms all night.

I could’ve held your hand in mine until the sunlight poked through the window.

But I left.

It was a hard decision to make.

But I think in the end when our love wins, when our fire burns higher than the others, things will be so much better.

Way better than it was before.

Things will be different and life will be complete.

I’m patiently waiting for God to move.

For him to fulfill every promise he’s made.

But for tonight. I’m in bed with Maliah.

We’re watching our shows and we’re going to have some talk time.

I’m missing your touch and your kids already but everything will work together in due time.

I love you f...

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September 24, 2019
 

On Sunday at church, one of our members was talking about going to the next level.

He was saying things that I swear were just for me.

He was saying things like” in order to move higher you have to get rid of the inconsistencies. The inconsistent people. The inconsistent family. The inconsistent friends”

When he said “get rid of the inconsistency so you can move forward and move higher!” I swear he was looking straight into my eyes like he was talking directly to me.

I prayed that night that God would show me all the inconsistency in my life that needed to be cut.

Tonight, I realized the biggest inconsistent person in my life is my children’s father.

The poor man don’t know what h...

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September 23, 2019
 

It’s 2049.

It’s a typical summertime Sunday after church.

My husband is on the grill.

All of the kids are grown with their own children.

I’m in the kitchen with my daughters  and we’re making the side dishes and setting plates for the kids and the boys.

The grandkids are all running around while my husband takes breaks in between flipping the chicken and steaks and hot dogs on the grill to chase them around.

The boys are all sitting at the patio table watching the kids all play, talking about life and their jobs.

This is what God had promised me long ago.

When he said “see what I will do.”

This is the promised land he spoke about.

This is it.

I’m finally realizing everyt...

LET FAITH BE BIGGER
September 23, 2019
 

The funniest thing about my pregnancies is the audacity of people.

“You don’t come around I didn’t get to see you pregnant very much”

How’s that my fault when you ignore my calls and texts?

“I’m feeling neglected because you don’t talk to me”

Sorry I’m a single pregnant momma trying to make it to the end of the tunnel.

And my favorite from today,

“I’m feeling left out”

😐🤣🤦🏻‍♀️

HOW SWAY.
I just don’t understand. It’s a few different people who have “felt left out”

But last I checked. I wasn’t obligated to include anyone in my pregnancy. I’m not obligated to update anyone day by day or include y’all in everything i do.

Get mad for reasons that matter instead of getting mad a...

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