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The Real Mrs. Bea...

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United States
United States
The one still married, the one living with him, the one and only he will spend forever with. The Real Mrs. Beard HAS stood up 👌🏼😘🙋🏻‍♀️
February 15, 2019
Rockford, United States

Goodbye sun.

Goodbye moon.

Goodbye stars

And goodbye to you.

A delusional fantasy is a place I do not wish to be.

Claim who you wanna but in the end, you will not succeed.

It’s crazy to me that someone will go to such lengths just to see you lose. To see you not have what God has promised you.

But that’s what demons do.

They come to steal. Kill. And destroy.

Steal a husband. Kill a love. And destroy a marriage.

They don’t want what you got.

They just don’t want YOU to have what you got!

Continue on in your false hope and delusional, sinful ways.

I’ll live my life the way God intended for the rest of my days.

Things will soon change.

February 13, 2019

[Verse 1]
Ask me how I'm feeling
I'mma tell you that I'm chilling
But my temperature could be through the ceiling
You wanna be the villian
Like ooh-ooh killem/ ooh killem (Me in my feelings)
'Cuz oh no, don't speak on things that they don't know
It's so hard trynna let it go when tweet hit my phone
Made me wanna act crazy but I can't say that they made me

We be like (eeyoooh)
I love my haters
Then we let'em dictate us
Then we look like a fool
When we lose our control flying off of the radar

I know your emotionful but don't letthat take control
When your emotional, emotional
No don't, don't/No don't, don't, don't
You might be going through it yourself
But don't lose it

February 11, 2019
Rockford, United States

Today was a busy day for the paramedics of Rockford.

Tonight we had a resident get sent out, the paramedic standing with me waiting for the gurney was telling me about how he’s ready to go home and it’s been crazy.

I asked him what he saw tonight he said “well we just came from a car accident scene, I’ve been to at least 3 of those tonight. The weather isn’t the greatest. Now we’re here and I’m pretty sure I just heard a call for a domestic violence with injury that we will have to respond to after the other ambulance takes your resident”

I was envy of him.

I have been thinking a lot about what I would like to do.

I’ve been talking myself out of the career I want to go through with....

February 11, 2019
Rockford, United States

It’s amazing to me how females operate.

“I’m gonna chase a married man and that doesn’t make me in any type of wrong doing”

Lol okay then buddy.

Y’all think y’all can take him go right ahead.

A man worth actually completely taking isn’t a man that I would like anyhow.

But if a man is going to continually come back to me and be with me, claim me as his wife then I’ll stand my ground.

I’m not going anywhere.

YALL are just gonna have to get over it.

Throw your ignorant childish feelings out the window and move on with your life. Find your own husband.

You were wrong years ago and you’re wrong now.

I’ve said it once. I’ll say it again and again


February 6, 2019
Rockford, United States

In a perfect world...

It’s Sunday.

My husband and I just got home from church with the kids. He’s firing up the grill and we’re having a cook out.

My stepdaughter and her mother, her husband, and her brother is on their way to our house.

My step stone and their mother and her husband is also on their way to our house.

We’re having a family barbecue.

There’s laughter. The kids are all playing together.

My sons step mother and I, being the photo takers of the family, are snapping pictures left and right. Making memories last forever in photo form while all three of us girls hang out and talk about our past week, the kids, work.

My husband and the other 2 husbands are all talking...

February 10, 2019
Rockford, United States

Day 6 of 9.

I’m exhausted.

Work is killing me.

I’m sure of it.

Debated on eating a cup of strawberries earlier to be sent home.

I’m allergic to strawberries.

I’m also still at work.

I’m gonna keep fighting through the rest of this 9 day stretch

Pray for me.


February 10, 2019
Rockford, United States

I'm feeling supreme, whats that even mean
Its means its disrespectful for you just to call me clean
Its means Im really bout that action like a movie scene
Can't crop me out the picture no no I need everything
Im feeling supreme, Im feeling supreme

Song of the day! 🙌🏼

February 9, 2019
Rockford, United States

Do this.

Don’t do that.

Don’t say anything.

Be still.

Stand strong.

Fall back.

You’re leadership, speak up.

Don’t overstep.

Don’t over share.

Don’t have emotions.

Be a humanized box.

All things I’ve heard in the last week. The last two may be dramatized.

But this is legit how I’ve been feeling.

I’m not allowed to have an opinion or care.

I’m not allowed to love and show my compassion and support.

I’m not allowed to stay quiet and handle things my way.

I’m not allowed to speak up and take a stand for myself.

I’m expected to stay to myself in some places and be someone I’m not in other places.

Is there any place I can just be myself?

Is there any place I c...

February 8, 2019
Rockford, United States

I’ve had the day from down under today.

It started with a friend of mine calling and yelling at me for some unnecessary bull crap.

Then i get to work and low and behold we’re working short handed.

The girl who was helping me stayed for the easy part of the shift but left when it was time to get everyone in bed.

My residents started acting crazy.

They’ve all tried beating on me or cussing me out.

I’m sincerely over this day.

To top it all off, i didn’t get a lunch and I’m starving but I have to stay because our third shift is late 🙄


February 6, 2019
Rockford, United States

Being the lead RA at my job is stressful.

I’m the one everyone comes to with their issues.

I’m the one who fixes the problem.

I’ve been assigned one on one care to 2 new residents.

It’s been the craziest day and I’m only half way through.

I’ve been beat on, danced with, loved on. And everything in between.

I love my job believe me. But I’m ready for some action.

I’m ready to start my EMS journey.

One step at a time but I’m ready 🙌🏼

February 4, 2019
Rockford, United States

Today, I took the next step.

I put myself on the list!

I’m super excited for this next journey.

Thankful to God for the guidance and help in making a decision.

Always praying, but super stoked! 🙌🏼

February 1, 2019
Rockford, United States

I’ve taken a break.

I got my mind right.

I’m on the path destined by the Lord.

His timing is everything and I’ve been learning patience.

Learning. Not achieved. Patience is something my mother didn’t pass down to us kids unfortunately.

With 24 right around the corner, I’ve made some big decisions.

I’ve decided on the career path I want to take.

I’ve been working on forgiveness and everything it comes with.

Life has been great.

A nurse I work with is going to accompany me to church this weekend and I can’t wait to show her that my home church my husband originally brought me to is everything she’s looking for.

Life has been looking up. God has had my hand while my husband h...

January 23, 2019

Times are hard.

Things are rough.

The road is rocky.

Potholes everywhere.

I’m swerving to miss them.

I’m praying I get through.

Hard times are upon me.

But I know, if I can get through this,

The blessings will be HUGE ❤️

Life may be rocky but my God is able.

He knows the desires of my heart.

He sees my struggles and insecurities.

He sees my hardship.

He keeps reminding me to just hold on a little bit longer.

The storm is almost over.

One day at a time.

The rainbow is coming 🙌🏼

January 22, 2019

Lately I’ve been thinking a lot about my career path.

Well, let’s be honest, it’s all I’ve been thinking about.

Between that and my relationship, my mind has been racing.

I’ve had a lot to handle over the weekend.

I decided the route I want to take to be a nurse. It may not be the “Ideal” way to go. Or the “Right way” but I have met a lot of nurses that have done it this way.

I’ve decided I want to be a paramedic/EMT to start my journey.

By doing this, my foot in the door will make a bigger opening for my ER nurse position, which is the ultimate goal.

ER Tauma Nurse.

This is probably the most I’ve ever thought about school. The longest I’ve taken to finally decide what it is I...

January 20, 2019
Rockford, United States

My son and I went to church today.

I got a word that touched my soul and warmed my heart.

It opened my eyes to everything I’ve  been doing.

Yes, I was right to stand firm on Gods promises. But I found myself CONSTANTLY defending myself.

Today my pastor said “Stop defending yourself and go on offense against the devil”

Let me tell youuu! I felt that DEEP DOWN. I felt that in my spirit.

Yes stand on Gods promises. That’s my backbone. But instead of fighting with defense, I’m switching to offense.

Don’t ask me my game plans because a great player never tells.

Game on.

January 19, 2019
Rockford, United States

Hold your head high darling.

They can’t compete with you.

You’re 4X the person they are.

You’re compassionate.

You’re loving.

You are a special type of lady.

Yes, you may have fallen off course. Don’t we all?

You may have took a right when Siri said take a left.

As long as you made that U turn, you still had time to pass them up.

They can’t compete with you because you’re living your purpose.

You are living out the promises God had made.

Just keep your head held high and lift your worries to the Lord.

Don’t let that crown fall. ❤️

January 17, 2019
Machesney Park, United States

In the darkest hour, when I cannot breathe
Fear is on my chest, the weight of the world on me
Everything is crashing down, everything I had known
When I wonder if I'm all alone
I remember, I remember
You have always been faithful to me
I remember, I remember
Even when my own eyes could not see
You were there, always there
I will lift my eyes even in the pain
Above all the lies, I know You can make a way
I have seen giants fall, I have seen mountains move
I have seen waters part because of You

Song of the day. ❤️

January 17, 2019
Machesney Park, United States

Actions speak louder than words.

I’ve lived by this for the longest.

The actions I’m seeing are telling me “stand still and stand strong”

That’s what I’m doing.

Today is a meditation day. I’m not talking to anyone.

I’ll continue to stay silent and watch and pray until something changes.

Im prepared for the battle. Are you?

January 16, 2019
Rockford, United States

I keep fighting voices in my mind that say I’m not enough
Every single lie that tells me I will never measure up
Am I more than just the sum of every high and every low?
Remind me once again just who I am, because I need to know (ooh oh)
You say I am loved when I can’t feel a thing
You say I am strong when I think I am weak
You say I am held when I am falling short
When I don’t belong, oh You say that I am Yours
And I believe (I), oh I believe (I)
What You say of me (I)
I believe
The only thing that matters now is everything You think of me
In You I find my worth, in You I find my identity, (ooh oh)

-Lauren Diagle (you say)

I have been finding peace and sanity in things that I’ve never fo...

January 15, 2019
Rockford, United States

6 Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. 7 Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. 8 Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. 9 Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of sufferings. 10 And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast.

1 Peter 5:6-10

I’ve been finding comfort in this scripture since last night.

It reminds me that...