Today is not the day
Bad pain in my back and my left leg.
Sometimes I just want to run away from everything.
If you want to link her to you for life I have an advice: Cum in her heart not only in her cunt!
Good morning to you all,
Another night of work is passed and now I'm just eating something to feed my body.
Why I can't find something to feed also my mind and my spirit?
Why I am so?
Why we are so selfish?
We think all the time that everything should be connected with us but it's only an illusion.
We are not the only fucking human being in this planet.
And we are so selfish that we don't recognize that we are swimming in a sea full of shit, and we are so addicted to this smell that we like it.
Now I feel empty, I don't know why but sometimes I just want to disappear and to run away from everything and everyone.
I just want to die, but not physically, just in my mind, I want my mind died.
Here I am again.
Maybe this time I can find someone special in here.
I thought this app was better than others, a place where we can put our feelings and other people can talk with us to share something, but I realized is just another passive app where passive people read passive letters.
No words to explain what I have in mind.
Sometimes I feel like I have so many persons and characters inside my mind and I can't understand who really I am.
I'm not a jerk but I feel someone really jerk inside me.
I'm not evil but I feel so.
Maybe I am a kind of sum of every single person that I feel so, who really I am?
Never thought I could understand
Never thought I could learn
Too tired to apply
Too bored to find the strengths
I'm going to model this stone
I can give it the shape I prefer
But I can't transform it
A stone it will remain
I can build a wall for the gardens of God
Or just throw in the air to study the celestial mechanics
It can fly through the sky and reach the stars
I can hide it under a thousand miles of water
A stone it will remain.
What about me?
Am I going to remain the same?
Humanity is falling down.
There's no hope for us, we are constantly busy and we never think about important things, first of all we don't have time for our parents because we are too busy and we like to be so.
We don't have time for our children, we put them in front of a TV or a computer just because we think to have no time for them, we have time bet we are so selfish that we prefer to leave them alone with their selves.
We don't have friends anymore, we have 1000/2000 virtual friends but we are alone. We don't have anymore a friend to talk with about our problems, a friend to fight with for a girl.
Humanity is fading because we are not humans anymore, we stopped to be humans when w...
How long I've be standing out there?
At my back the sea and the clouds
So many lines indicate you
I can see you now and you're alone
When we live we feel like God
But our creations are made of sand and time
How hard we try to make them weld and we try to understand?
I can't face it
I can't resist
Will I suffocate the pain
I'm confused and...
will I forgive you for your different choice?
I can't hide it
I can't erase it
Neither the time can help me
is repressed and...
I wish you had made a different choice.
Here I am,
looking inside my mind what to do with my life, finally I find something.
Trying to live here, with insurmontable problems or leave this shit of country, maybe going to Norway or Sweden.
Really I don't know what to do, so many things block me here, but I need more, i need to be free and here in Italy I never can be free.
Here we cannot live, we have to survive.
Back to the September days years ago, memories are still knives, never mind the words spoken. I don't know and I wonder why every time I try to fix things in my life you close the door and go away.
That candle that sparkle in this darkness reminds me that there's another way to live my poor life.
Looking towards the end of this path finally I sense the begin of a new life, maybe there's another one who can heal me...
Here I am opening my mind and my feelings for you.
I don't know what to think about myself, my life, my role in this universe.
It's time to leave my sheltered cage, to face my deepest fears, the world is against me, I'm fighting back the tears.