When I smiled through
The tears and pain
I percieved life
In the most vividest of its forms.
May be one day I will forget,
All that has hurt me.
But I will never be able to forget,
How I still smiled through the tears and pain.
And that will always remind me
Of what made me do so,
And how I was not given a moment
to weep and vent.
A tangled mess to a warrior for life,
The journey hasn't been easy,
And the transformation continues,
to be painful,
Yet I choose to live and let go,
For I found myself,
And my soul,
Beautiful in pieces.
Kabhi Ashq, bewajah bhi behjaate hain.
Kabhi bayaan karjaate hain
Ghalatise rokne par.
Dil ab beparwah sa hogaya hai
Apne ghum ko bhi
Apnane se Inkaar kardeta hai.
EMBRACE THE FEARS
Fight your fears one by one. Life without challenges is awful and when I say this, I only mean that such a life neither feeds your soul nor makes you grow.
So yes when the storms hit you, dont despair. Allow the lightning to enter in you, and one day you will be invincibly standing, owning the much needed light which can transform anything bleak and morose.
To be able to decode the tangles of life. The silence or the calm a person brings when everything seems chaotic. The depth of understanding a person has about an emotion or adversity life brings with it. Immature is the one who has superficial and shallow outlook about life.
The foremost thing to understand about happiness is that, it is we who choose to be in whatever the state of mind. Some choose to remain happy in any challenging and difficult phase of life. That's how I always chose to be. To me happiness was never a goal or dream to strive or cry for. It's all about living the days truthfully with all heart.
Yeh tabdeeli kaisi?
Takleef naam ka ek safar tha,
Ek daur tha.
Jiske khatam hone ke baad,
Sunapan bhi suna na lage;
Aur na akelapan kuch kami sa.
Yeh bhi kaisi hassi ki baat hai
Dard apko sirf seekh nahin deta
Thoda sa paagal aur
Majnu bhi banadeta hai.
Asal mei, aur khayal mei
Kitna farkh hota hai
darmiyan kuch hi
Toh sirf fasle aur ikhtilaf
Ek sach yeh hai, aur
Bakhi sab jhuti tasalliyan
The most emotional person, being given the only choice to stay strong.
How difficult a task should that have been?
ENDURE THE PAIN
More than stopping what's hurting you, the first thing you need to realise is the reason for pain whatsoever is a blessing in disguise.
Rumi said what hurts us blesses us. Its beautiful once you understand that pain is actually making you a different individual each day. When you come out of that phase you are no more the same person. You become lot more humble, sensitive, kind and sensible.
More importantly that pain will teach you the value of life, makes you connect with others miseries and sorrows in a way not everyone can. You will become a healer one day and most importantly a beautiful human inside out.
So be a warrior, nothing lasts forever.
It's just a phase, ke...
Life has always been an overwhelming journey, as I am more of an emotional person. I perceive everything so vividly that I feel every bit of it. Yes it is exhausting at times but it has only made me better.
The feeling when you come across the best of the souls, was the profound emotion and the most true of the experiences I have ever felt.
When I say soul, it is the warmth, the truthfulness and the innocence which I verily cherish in my life. Those emotions weren't just profound but their echoes spellbound me, for they were so boundless and palpable.
We never grow as a person with age, but in those moments of life that send chills down the spine. Life's difficult circumstances do change our perception.
Sometimes, even after having been hit by so many storms, you dont wake up the strongest. It is a process, which has no visible end.
Life seems new every single day, for we never know what it unveils. What remains constant is the change, that is how our perspectives change. This doesn't mean the definition of bad days also changes. It is indeed a rollercoaster ride, for we sense everything so very deeply.
With time, we learn to become more calm in the chaotic moments. We become more patient and wait for the pieces to fall in pl...
THE DARK ROAD
Finding the lost self and
The most true self
I embrace her so tightly,
For I fear to lose her
In the crowd of this world
And in the chaos of tomorrow.
When the days become harder
And the nights restless
In the most confusional time
I question myself of the void in me.
A voice whispers in the dark,
You have lost yourself again
As you cannot clutch it with you
Yet, it has to flow in your veins
With ease, even in the dark.
Dard ko seene mei dabaker jeena
Bilashubah mushkil sa ehsaas hai
Un ansuon ko girne mat dena
Yeh kamzor karne wale hain
Mehfooz rakhna jaise koi sitaara ho
Umeed ke chiraag ko bujhne mat dena
Ghum ke saaye mei bhi sukoon hai
Talaash karo khudko un raastonpe
khareeb se jaano ge apni rooh ko
Tabdeeli jismani nahin, ruhani hona
Zindagi ka markazi maqsad hai
It's the rarest thing in the world
To see someone be the very you
Or the version of you
That you have always dreamt to be
The kind of happiness,
Their magnanimous presence gives
Like a life that has found its purpose
It makes you a whole person
And makes you believe
In the empathy and love more
Being with them
Brokenness too seems beautiful
And its journey a worthwhile experience
There is eternity in the moment
That makes me yearn and love their soul
More than anything in this world.
WHEN A HEART QUESTIONS THE MIND...
IF you are going to live the moment for once, then why do you decide to fail in living it whole heartedly.
This is the question to you, dear toggling mind.
And a voice whispers.
Yet the mind is powerless over what the heart wishes to do.
Do chaar boond yun ansu bahake
Pal bhar ke liye zindagi se roothke
Apne aapko kahin khoke
Khudki shaqsiyat bhulake
Duniya ko bewajah ghalat samajhke
Toh kabhi namurad hoke
Kuch istarah maine ek sabakh seekha
Choti baatonpe apna waqt zaaya karna Insanko bade payemaane pe
Nuksaan pahunchati hai.
BEAUTY OF EMOTIONS
Life never waits
For the emotions
To mean something one day
They are just in you
And within, as sparks of light
That will bring a visible change one day
It is the road not taken by many
Holding them within
It squeezes you at times
You will see them making a mark
While you thought it is just
Another scar, another memory
She took a deep sigh and summed up the year saying, "Eventually all I learnt is my very own perspectives are at fault."
I never wished for the sparks,
I never wished for the ease.
Today life has all of that,
And I dont see any beauty in it.
I dont see any glitter, as to me
Life is beyond all of this.
Even if there are roses laid,
I will travel not the easy road.
I cherish life, but not its happiest moments
Yet for the person it made me,
As I see the world different today.
AN OBSCURE MIND
I am certainly the words, I speak.
I am the emotion, they convey.
I am somewhere lost,
In the abyss of silence
And in the wave of thoughts.
I ponder and mull over
Not about the wonders of this world
But at how enigmatic the Life is.
I know you have seen and lived
Everything the life throwed at you
I know you are grateful for all of it
For making the person you are today
I know you are lost for words
For you have become the silence after all
I know there is a pain in you
Waiting for it to be felt
I know the scars of yours have healed
But they are still so deep
Now hear it all
I the soul wants to take your moment
I know you are just rushing
Gathering courage, not falling apart
But listen I have something to tell you
I am in love with yourself today
You know why?
Because you have let life teach you
You didnt drown in the ocean of sadness
But you thrived
I am in awe of you
How did you do tha...
WHO AM I?
Am I what I speak?
Am I what I feel?
Am I what I be?
Who am I?
The very question I ask myself.
Yet, not I just existed
but lived beyond all this.
In the brokenness of the moment,
In the loneliness of the dark,
In the tears behind the smile,
In the calm amidst the chaos,
In the shards of the life,
In the tales untold,
there I was,
The Invincible me;
The Unseen me;
The Inexplicable me.
— Juveria Khanam
That one word
No I will fight
No I will stand strong
No I will go on
No I will live
What a difference
It has brought
From no where
To some where
From the dark
Into the light
It is just
What you say to yourself
That brings all the difference!
— Juveria Khanam
Why am I so fragile from inside
When I am so adamant like my life
Why am I so fearful to lose anything
When I have lost all that
I thought I couldn't survive without
Why do I look back
When I dont resemble the person yesterday
Why do I think of things I have surpassed
When I know it still breaks me
Why am I so bewildered and confused
When life has taught me everything so clearly
Why do I still not care for myself
When I know this life is precious to me
Why do I wait for time
When I know its never going to come
Why am I so grateful for yesterday
When all that has only broke me
Why am I falling into place
When nothing has settled
Why do I give up on circumstances
When I know my life is ...
What if the end is just there
what if I am where I need to be
What if beautiful things fall into place
Only after a few mishaps
What if I believe
Everything happens for a reason
This speaks volumes
For where my destiny leads
This is where
I exist for myself
– Juveria Khanam