|Between the pain and sadness there are few precious moments of happiness|
Greatest trick Devil played was he made the world believe he didn't exist.
They say Terror has no religion,
They say terror has no nationality
But you can't ignore the passports these nationless terror perpetrators hold.
You can't ignore when a nation applauds such terrorists and provide shelter.
You can't ignore their belief that their religion calls for and clerics remain silent.
A defense personal is suppose to be unbiased, but that ethos becomes blurred when I loose 7 batch mates in just 3 years.
As a civilian the guilt piles on that my brothers are attacked by cowards and we can do very little to avoid it.
I think my heart is dead
It's still pumping that liquid red,
And I keep my body fed.
But I think my heart is dead.
Valentine's day is here,
But I can't even feel the warmth of another body near.
I think I should feel sad cause I don't think anyone is dear,
But what's weird is I don't even crave for beer.
My mind is just focused on shifting here,
I'd rather get an offer letter than a tinder match that's near.
Little while bitter
It's been awhile since I've been here,
I no longer drown in bitter beers.
My vision isn't very clear,
But the notion is very dear.
My goal in my mind is seared,
And I'm consulting all my peers.
But when it doesn't happen it takes over , it's my old friend fear,
And I'm taking a risk that's so much costlier.
But still stuck on the neutral gear,
but I hope now that God is near.
And believe he still hears
I wanna ....
I want to be positive,
Just stop being so negative.
But you can't change years of programming in a night,
People tell me I should try some sedatives.
Prozac and Novacaine I'm being told by a sad relatives,
But I'd rather let time for natural bliss.
I'm no longer searching for a new Mrs,
I wanna focus on me and start a new biz.
Groom myself and watch the world call Me a Wiz .
Over you !
Yet I don't wish to write.
Not about you any more,
I guess your outta my sight.
:D that's all folks
I've been avoiding you,
On Facebook,what app, Snapchat and LinkdIn too.
Deleted our chats n pics of us with Marine Drive view,
My heart skips a beating knowing we are thru,
And no love poems and confessions will end with you saying I love you too.
So like my brother told me,
Stare at it, and let your world burn.
Let things take turn for the worst and everything else be of no concern.
Fall down and cry, even if you feeling like it's better to die.
When your broken from within and you can't fake a smile,
When even alcohol flows like river Nile.
Curse your heart and mind,
not even to yourself be kind.
Blame yourself for not trying,
Even if you know its all a lie !
Cause when your done ...
Even alcohol seems like water,
Cause the high she gave was like no other.
Each time we met, I fell for her,
Like a drug she made me want her further.
I'll find you again,
Before the April rains !
Take your time no one is to blame,
Good things move at their own pace.
But would you spot me, I'm no ace,
And you are beautiful with that angle face.
Is that why we playing this game of chase,
You've left me in a bind for your lips I've had a taste.
Stay abit longer,
I'm not yet stronger.
Just a lil bit longer ?
I'm focused do I write about her or do I write about me ,
Or about my trips to sea,
Never trips to be set free .
For on lettrs I'm free to be me,
I can whine and moan about being weak.
So don't let this feature,
It's like wasting a dream.
Never to late ?
We had spoken to each other,
I thought you'd be safe.
I swear when I held you,
I didn't know tears would come with your name.
When we smile and clicked pics,
Never thought pics would be framed.
I'd brought you roses,
Didn't know would have to hold a wreath.
Please tell me I could hug you,
Even if your hug is a fake.
I've been crying every night,
Tell me what am I to do God Sake.
Maybe I'd end it too,
Would someone drive thru my heart a wooden stake.
For I can't stand here at your funeral, miles away from your grave,
still I'm going insane
And rather than acting funny,
I text her sorry ..
Not cause I did something wrong,
But sorry cause I couldn't save you from you .....
It had been over 2 hours since he had HALOed into LZ.
His new identity awaited him, He had gone thru his briefing several times over his head. He couldn't believe he had to dropped into his own country like this. He was always told he would be a protector for his country but never fathomed he would have to hunt his own kind.
He was no longer the young troubled teenager who had found his way to desk of Chief Commander of Military Intelligence Western Division. He was now the man trained to protect his county in 164 different style and his medals laid off in a metal box marked JCO6005INX at HQ.
It was a simple meet greet with a so called revolutionary, moments later he used one of the 164 s...
The Test !!!
I'm worried ,
I have this big test,
I haven't had Enoch rest
I was up all night trying to study hard books up till the chest .
I think I'll fail this time I must confess :/
If y'all must know I was giving a blood test :P
Not the One....
hey there my new friend,
Come here there is something I'd like to share.
I know in the past few days when you were down I was the one who cared.
But like I told you before we aren't a pair.
It might sound harsh and least bit fair,
And the dam of tears you held might tear.
But I can't keep up this facade ,
My heart still belongs to the past.
So understand when I drop your card,
It's hard for me to break your heart.
The truth you must face we are world's apart ,
I've made this clear from the start.
Evey time you said I love I've said no and depart ..
About a year from now,
I was returning from Marine Drive
I'd fallen in love somehow.
It didn't happen when we shared our pain,
I'm sure it didn't happen when I spoke to her in the broken dialect of Spain.
Although we did share love of Mid June Rains.
I'm sure it wasn't the way moon glowed,
Or how the retrieving waves exposed the sand floors.
I doubt it was when we held each other's hands,
When we got up to leave cause her family n my office had other plans .
I'm sure it was when she hugged me in the cab,
I felt like she was my missing puzzle that's why i suppose ......on to her I tightly grab
Hitting restart ...
My inside burn,
May its cause of all rum that I've had.
I think it's something to do cause I feel sad,
You see there was this idiot he made this mistake.
He thought he'd learnt from his mistake and he was iron clad,
the poor fool lil did he know he would loose his mind soon n go mad.
Now just to get up he'd need Vodka with crann,
He'll get over her it's become a fade.
Maybe later he'll write poems about her posing as Rad.
Maybe I'll have a bud tonight,
Who am I kidding it'll problem be 10 pints in spite.
Even the demons agree what happened isn't right,
So let's high, maybe it'll calm the nerves that never knew fright.
I think end of Ol boy is near the new guy is gonna b...
Central to Phoenix
I still don't understand why are we apart,
Just cause someone told the world our Gods reign a different part ?
Didn't we know this when we had decided to start?
I thought we would figure this out weren't we smart ?
I guess destiny played it's part.
So what now,
Do we just ignore our past.
How long will your silence last,
What happened to magic you'd cast.
Another enchanters approaches me,
She tries hard but spells don't Work I'm still stuck in the past.
Or maybe it's
I thought I heard you stay with me forever,
May I miss heard you cause looks like you said never !
I'll remember you when all my friends are gone,
Maybe I'll sing you a song.
So fare thee well oh honey,
I'll be gone.
Even when you call my name,
And I'll make sure I'll be gone.
For someone else has understood my value,
Sadly it still isn't you,
It's only a matter of time I'll replace you.
For I can't seem to find my heaven we once drew amidst you .
It's funny how I blamed you for taking her away from me. And even thought I wasn't religious I started praying for her every moment went I regained my sanity
Blame the weather ....
The phone rang insanely,
He couldn't notice the glowing shimmer.
As the screen went dimmer,
He held on tighter.
For he didn't want to lose the moment kind of .
As they adjusted behind the sheets,
He couldn't stop what his mind imagined.
For others would have surely called it a sin,
But for him it was pure from within.
As it got colder,
He covered very inch of her over.
And as he whisper dozing off to sleep I love you.
He realized it was just a dream and a warm pillow instead of her body being pulled closer
Last Christmas .....
Every year it's the same,
It's always tears never velvet rain.
Its hard to say how to convey,
I still hold on to you it pains.
Why is it that every December it's the same.
I'm always alone and my pillows with stains.
I'm gonna stay strong,
Watch me walk thru the widow pane.
Cause this ain't a game like Max Payne,
So if I falter help me strong keep me refrain,
I'm sure me and her are to blame.
But I rather wish we'd work thru it than acting like innocent game
The Story ...
So a year I left everyone behind,
I wanted to stand tall maybe that's why.
I broke a few hearts while few broke mine,
But done worry we all got wine & fine dine.
I have grown a bit older,
Lil bit wiser but not colder.
I'm tougher now to carry the weights on my shoulder,
I'll help you with your boulders.
If you lonely and world seems colder,
Text me new friend better than nursing a depressing hangover ;)
It's been a while since I was here,
It feels to new yet old thus I have lil fear.
But I think I'll get used to this to .
Glad to be back to #lettrs again !!!
It was by surprise She kissed me.
it was like cool summer breeze
I wish I could be stuck forever in that moment .
She gave me goosebumps,
I swear she is heaven sent .
I'm scared to let her know .
I love her forever more , I have been burned by love before
I'm trembling to my core ,
I wanna hold her even more.
maybe after awhile you can explore my soul ,
I'm starting to wish it's you with whom I want grow old .
Just crash into each other and fold
I swear it felt like years have passed.
I left lettrs with couple of plans.
To be honest they worked well,
Had a holiday in God, met a girl it was a swell.
But I was itched install lettrs once again.
Maybe I'll keep of the sad stuff and keep it fresh like that new car smell
My goodbye .....
I realized something deep,
the very moment after sitting for hours on the beach.
I just sat there looking at the waves break and how the water seeped
I sat alone and just thought just another country that I now weep.
At first I thought to end it all,
My life never matter to anyone at all
I wondered, my life seem so small why would God answer my call ?
I saw my life flashback every moment began with a fight If correctly I recall.
I did the best I could so don't tell anything else cause I would say balls .
I didn't ask for much just someone to love. Hold on to me even if I fall,
Was that to much to provide God.
Why was I punished, always felt so odd.
But after speaking to ...
What have I done to expect the end
works of the devil. sulfur is all I smell
You were in my soul that's where you dwell
tears of blood I shed, my cloths are red .
Have I lost all your respect,
brag to your fucking friends how I'm cold n dead.
Moment I remember our kiss,
I break in and wish . All that I hope is this ,
maybe I'm in a coma this is all shiz.
All I can hope for is end this devilish bliss
But after been instigated and underrated I still give your smile a miss.
I know it's a battle , getting off the bed
but you left me for dead .
I'm ruined like a flower caught in acid rain.
Can you feel my pain, can anybody hear my thoughts I'm going crazy.
I'm going insane this isn't wh...
I look has street lamps pass by
I'm roaming around empty roads
driving by states to stay strong I try
I reach to the interior not a soul in sight.
Yet this loneliness doesn't flinch me like the loneliness that awaits me at home all nights.
Haunted roads don't scare me like an empty bed where I hold a pillow and break down at times.
But it's what we good men endure for the world seems to be blind.
I fail to muster hope to look for anymore signs .
Vodka, Rum, Whiskey doesn't drown my sorrows no more not even cheap wines.
I'm not so morally weak to get my need for love fulfilled by meaningless flings and love bytes.
For I never told the world was a fair place I won't say I was lied .
I gave it ...
How the fuck am I suppose to move on,
Your in my veins, I go into recovery
but your always lurking somewhere in memories.
Hell you could understand what you meant to me, You even realized what you did to me
But eventually that's all you'll be a memory.
You wanted me to set you free
live your dreams roll around in greed.
But don't ever return to me when life seems bleak . I felt we were meant to be , but all you wanted was yourself always Me Me Me.
Now go on and crib about how your new bf is a creep and you stuck in quick sand deep.
What thou sowed bitch thou hath reap .
I miss my Home away from Home
Oman my second motherland,
I spent my childhood and teenage life there
My education Excellent I could never fair.
I miss you Oman even though I never had a love affair.
But the beauty of sand and harsh sun spoke to me . It made me strong enough to survive
I was trained by nature never experienced any blizzards.
I shed a tear has I flew over, You treated me like a son To me after India you are Dear.
I'll return someday soon I hope .
Even though I didn't belong to you
you made me feel belonged.
I miss you ISWK I'll miss how our flag swayed.
Darkness to light in my memory shall always remain .
Most of all I'll miss school plays
Being in the ch...