It's been a long time since I wrote here. So many things happened in the past. I'm gonna start telling my stories again... please look forward for it...
I aim to be the best version of ME. I'm not perfect and I can never be. I have many flaws, I've done so many mistakes and some things I truly regret; I'm also sure that in the near future there'll be lots of disappointments and mistakes too but I won't be afraid. I won't let my fears and my past hold me back from what God wants me to be. I WILL EMBRACE ALL THE JOY, HAPPINESS, LOVE, HURTS, TRIALS, STRUGGLES, etc for I know that I am loved by God and no matter what, He will always be there to guide me... (Ps. 32:8) #thankyouGod
~Too much of everything~
There so much to say and yet there's too much at risk..
There's so much you want to do but you're too busy thinking ahead...
There's so much you want to give but there's too little of whats left of you..
There's so much things you want to change but too small to be noticed..
And sometimes you just need to stop wondering and start acting no matter how great or little things will be in the end what matters is you did something.
---Do these words of mine make sense? I don't know I just feel like I need to write it. 😆😆😆
Space Between Us...
I know that you and I feel that gap and we're trying to narrow it but then somehow at somepoint instead of narrowing it, we ended up farther from each other. I don't know if it's just me or what. Sometimes I just wanna go, leave and start all over again and if faith brings us back, then maybe we can figure out how to narrow down the space between us.
~ I wish ~
I wish you were here
So I could tell you I'm here.
I wish you are mine
So I could call you anytime.
I wish I've had that courage
So I won't hide this heart of mine..
There are so many things
I wish I could have done
but then you are gone
We are a thousand miles apart now and there's nothing I can do about it.
All I can do is to wish that someday we could be together again..
Christmas for me is a reminder.
A reminder of how God loves us that He gave His only begotten son, Jesus.
A reminder of our faith.
A reminder that despite of all troubles, struggles, and frustrations, God is there and He understands through our Lord Jesus Christ.
A reminder of hope that all is well, that everything is gonna be alright.
A reminder that no matter how cruel the world can be, we are still capable of understanding and loving it.
A reminder that we can love and forgive no matter how hard it could be.
Christmas is a reminder of hope, mercy and love to the whole world and the whole humanity.
Merry Christmas everyone!^^
How are you? I just miss you. I hope you're doing fine. Happy holidays. Take care always. Hope to see you again.
When I was about to give up on waiting then suddenly everyone keeps on saying your name.... why o why????
When you always say that the person is not trying hard to be part of your life, when in fact, you're just afraid to let him/her into your life.....
Bible Verse 101
To have faith is to be sure of the things we hope for, to be certain of the things we cannot see
We tend to seek happiness from a smooth sailing life but little did we know that the best music can be created through the rough edges of life.
that feeling when you want to wish them happiness but then you know deep inside you're hurting so bad......
Here I am #IM
Here I am looking at you
wondering if you are looking at me too.
Here I am admiring you
wondering if somehow you admire me too.
Here I am looking at you smiling and laughing with her
wondering if you knew I wish I was her.
And Here I am still looking at you wishing I could show you how I feel.
Just remember #IM, I am always here.
that feeling when you like someone and that someone likes your bestfriend........ 😔😔😔
I love to draw our mother nature.. it reminds me how great is our God..
I love to draw our mother nature.. it reminds me how great is our God..
Tough Situation 104
Its hard that you want him to look at you the way you look at him but someone close to you will end up hurting and yet you also wish for her happiness but then you know you'll end up hurting as well...
which is which??????
Tough Situation 103
Accepting the fact that you really can't go back the way you used to be not because you don't want it but because there are things that only time can heals.. I guess till now I'm deeply wounded and hurt..
Tough Situation 102
Its when you're both feeling okay but then deep inside you know you're not and that there's really something wrong, you just don't wanna face it because it might just all on your mind.
I do believe in magic but then I'm not sure if there's really a magic between us.
Trust that everything happens for a reason you may not understand it today nor you may not know it why, just believe that our Father in heaven knows everything and He will definitely answer everything in His right time. so trust God fully. 😊😊😊
I do believe in magic but sometimes I choose not to..
I do believe in destiny but sometimes I choose not to..
I do believe in hope but I choose not to..
I do believe that there could be an US but sometimes I choose not to..
Coz I know "sometimes" is the best way not to expect and not to hurt myself...
How are you? Days passes by so quick that I can count your stay within my 10 little fingers. I know you're just going to leave our school, you will live nearby and we'll still be friends but then I know fot sure its impossible for us to hangout coz even now you're still here we seldom see and talk to each other how much more if your gone. 😞😓😟
In life, Happiness is everyone's goal. we always wanted to be happy and denied or even supressed other emotions.
Yes, we strive to be happy but remember without all these emotions, happiness can be just an ordinary emotion.
So don't regret or fear to feel other emotions because from these we learn to appreciate every little thing we have had and we learn how to turn every other negative emotions into positive emotions like happiness.
How did we end up like this?
The question Ive been asking to myself for a few days now. All I know is it started from a simple silent argument and end up something bigger like we're strangers now. I wanted to talk to you but I'm afraid. I'm afraid of getting close to you coz you might left me hanging again. I am more afraid than it seems. I'm not mad. Swear I'm not I just dont know how to act when Im with you. I dont know if I should act like I used to be before. so please lets talk. Im confused. I really dont know. tomorrow Ill gather enough courage to talk to you one more time. If it will work then I can assure you it will be like the way it was before as if nothing happens...
Word of the Day
Quondam - former, sometime
My so called bestfriend and sister is now my quondam friend.
IMsorry if I can't show you that I really care for you. IMsorry if IMnot able to talk to you as much as I want too. I don't know why. But I feel that there's a barrier between us or maybe its just me.
Hmm.. I really like you but IMafraid to let you know. if you'll ask why? I dont know. But I do believe that you're the one I've been waiting for. You're the one I've been praying for. And now IMafraid IMloosing you, you're leaving soon. And how can I wish that you could be with me when I knew someone close to my heart also likes you. How? tell me how will I wish for my happiness when my happiness will break her heart... and right now Im jealous cause you guys are closer than us. I envy...
Tough Situation 101
We are, or just me, in tough situation. In my part, I know if I really want to end this I'll do the talking but then somehow I'm choosing not to. Why? I don't know.. Maybe just maybe I really had enough of it, or I'm scared, or I'm used to us being silent with each other or its just my pride and ego. I really don't know. Sad but right now this is the truth. I guess this is how it will really ends
--Sisters to being Strangers-- 😔😟😞