Not everyone knows her story or knows who she is. She bleeds like everyone else. She understands there is a purpose for her mission. But from her experiences she can say she is beyond repair. She is barely holding up some days.
She walks and talks like she is ok but deep down inside she sometimes wishes to take her last breath.
She comprehends she was a creation from the heavens and her journey would be filled with teachings. Having said that, she is exhausted. Her mind seems to diminish her thoughts of hope bit by bit.
Others will never understand what losing the most important part of her life felt like. It is to the point where she loses sleep, eating habits all over the place, her ...
You will meet so many travelers on your journey. But there will only be a few that were meant to ride this journey out with you. Once there presence is gone, life becomes a mystery. A mystery full of questions.
Stops are missed on the journey simply because every moment that was created, there was a part of them left behind. Things never get easier. Words start to fade, life becomes a blur, and your soul is stuck in the past. Do I miss someone who picked up after my every disaster? Of course, always.
He never lets me forget him. The signs are in every foot step I make.
We said we would be there always for one another. Unfortunately we also knew neither one of us would last forever.
I said goodbye thinking what a great opportunity this was for you. You said your goodbye thinking road trip. But neither one of us knew your goodbye would forever hold a memory in my mind for as long as I live. I lit a lantern for you. I wrote a message on the outside of it and released it into the sky. It was essential to let the whole world know I lost a very special person like you. I stood there waiting for the lantern to reach so high that it appeared to be just another star in the sky. Because I always saw you as a star in my eyes. I los...
The ground we walk on is meant to show us every fear we need to conquer while we travel this road.
To have good things happen constantly wouldn’t be good for our soul. Our soul would never get the opportunity to deeply feel emotions as a human being.
We need devastating experiences to bring out the appreciation and unconditional love to the surface.
We are souls traveling in a protected vessel to explore. Our soul is here to crumble and at the same time to find the hidden secret we all possess within.
We need to tread through the darkness to get to the field of bright sunlight.
Pack lightly on your travel and don’t allow someone’s energy to dim yours.
She can’t see herself like she used to. The world has finally brought her to her knees. She is at the mercy of the world. She has been pulled in so many directions and she has yet to know where she truly belongs.
The signs are hidden in invisible ink and she has absolutely no clue how to get back to where she was supposed to be heading towards.
She thought she knew but in her mind, she knows nothing. She isn’t on anyone’s level and she is exhausted from the trip.
She is riding the waves, hoping the wave throws her under where she can finally release her last breath. Release the soul from this body that no longer needs her so she can finally Rest In Peace.
No one really knows the emotions you go through. A smile can be expressed however your mind can be at the gates of heaven pleading to get in. Emotionally you are broken down and nothing appears to make sense.
The emotion I feel for him dying and never sending a message to warn me has created madness in my head.
The physical world doesn’t excite me anymore. They say I need to let him go but really I want to cut the cords and let myself go.
Life is a struggle...
There’s an old tale about how to get time to stop for you. He was always intrigued by it.
Sara seemed to be getting worse as each day went by. She went from being mobile to lounging in bed days at a time. Sara’s energy was weakening and all he could do was make sure to keep her comfortable. He hated the fact comfortable meant stabilizing her to one room of the house. Sara was no longer able to enjoy the simple things she enjoyed. Dancing, planting flowers in the garden, painting in the garage, cooking, etc...
The days just made her more and more confused. He knew he had to do something. He didn’t want to make her last experience to be filled with denial and sadness. Sara was expe...
He was sent down to calm the storms I was placed in the middle of. He heard my cries. He saw my many sleepless nights. He knew I wasn’t made for this life. Therefore, he waited by my side until the right person came along.
I thank God everyday for that soul stumbling on my path. That person was the greatest thing that could’ve ever happened to me.
Someone is always watching over you from above.
She was never fond of holding hands. She always felt it was old school up until the day she met her future love.
He proved to her that holding hands was not only to show she is the love of his life. But to have her experience the strong love connection that ran from his heart to hers. So now she is the one to grab his hand first.
Who can resist the power of the vibration of two hearts beating at once.
Such a powerful word. The word no one chooses to speak of. It’s the dirty little secret that tends to never be revealed. The secret she holds oh so tight. She is lost among the wild. She claims to be someone she isn’t. She never wished to be under these circumstances but it’s to late. She’s always thinking of ways to hang herself from the same rope her mother used. But what good would that do to succeed and to have another death embedded in the family history.
Family history!!! Smh. There
was never really a family to begin with. She says family because she shared the last name. Last name full of shame and no substance. She never knew who she was until she dragged hersel...
He was a soul who struggled to adapt to the world. He knew he was better than this world. The temptations tried every attempt to suck him in but he was no match for the darkness. But in the end he gave in and asked to be sent back to heaven. He no longer wished to be a part of this world. He had enough and his soul was exhausted.
Some people aren’t meant to be with us forever. Therefore, enjoy life with those who are around you. Create memories!!!
You leaving opened a lot of doors and left room for a tremendous amount of changes.
There were babies being born, people moving out, jobs being lost, classes being missed, drifting souls, relationships and friendships destroyed, student graduates, student drop outs, marriage ceremonies, family separations, neglected faith, and religions being questioned.
I could honestly say when I wrote a good bye letter many many years ago I thought it was for the best. I somehow thought you guys would be better off without me.
But you beat me to the punch and left a trace of your spirit with everything you touched.
You not being here today is devastating. You have affected our lives immensely. We...
He left with a portion of my heart. The air I breathe is barely enough to get by. My heart aches. He said he would never leave and now I’m stuck struggling to keep my insanity under control. I am lost. I’m falling and hoping no one is there to catch me.
Ever feel like you are trapped in your own mind and it seems impossible to fight back. It’s not like me to stop fighting. I can honestly say I am ready to hang up my boxing gloves and let my opponent win.
Being a fighter is way too much work. It’s draining every ounce of strength and power I possess. I’ve lost the battle.
Maybe it isn’t about fighting. Maybe it’s about learning to let go of something that I can’t control.
He looked at her and said, “I thought this was what I wanted. But looking at how things are turning out, I really want you in my life.” He fell to his knees hoping Kristina would give him another opportunity to change. She spoke no words and she slowly starting walking away. He screamed, “stop, I need you.” She said, “you don’t need me. You need her. Call her to come pick up where she left off.” Kristina walked out with her head up to sky and wiped her last tear.
Love is a beautiful thing when both people choose to engage.
Lights rose guitar
He played every night at the Drummers boy lounge. Not too many people would show but it was a way to get his name started. He wrote his own music and played the guitar.
He was so frustrated on how love treated him these past couple years. He barely was getting by with what the club was paying him. He pretty much gave up on everything but his music. His music was his way out. He played as if he was playing for thousands in a stadium.
He just wrapped up his session. He was packing up his guitar and ready to head home. He heard this laughter across the room. He couldn’t help but to look across the room. As he looked so did she. They locked eyes. They both exch...
Music is what saved Samantha. As playing piano at a young age, she could not quite catch the notes nor place her fingers on the right keys. But one day, she experienced a lose so unbearable. The piano was put to rest. Samantha said she would never play again.
Until that one day, she walked past it and there was a warm sensation that went right through her. She decided to do the one thing she forbid to do and that was play piano.
She uncovered the piano. Sat on the bench and placed her fingers on the keys. As her fingers started to move with grace, tears poured down her face. She could feel her mother sitting next to her. Samantha was playing their favorite song and she whispered something...
I lost a fellow traveler along my way. I haven’t seen him for quite some time. I am afraid to say that as time goes by his image that lingers in my mind fades. I yearn to go back to those days where we all enjoyed each moment together. He seems to be at every step I take. I try to keep his memories alive by looking through old photos and replaying family videos. Life caught me by surprise. I thought I knew what I was doing and where I stood in my life.
My fellow traveler didn’t know he was leaving. I can tell you why.
There was a memory of me hugging him, my fellow traveler, my son. I told him, “junior please don’t ever leave me.” He said, “mom I will never leave you.” Words to die for. W...
Like I always said to my son " you have to make moves" and he sure did. He graduated high school which was the best day ever in my life. He accomplished something I didn’t have the opportunity to do.
Then he applied for college, I was beyond emotions at that point. I kept telling myself I have a college student on his way to endless possibilities. Eventually he was accepted into a fraternity and he was on a new journey.
With all this happening, there was something still missing and I wasn't sure how to handle it. Instead I would always ask him “u ok papa". He would always respond " I'm good". I swear that was his favorite line with me, he never liked to express his emotions.
In the end...
I know it's been awhile since u left and it does have it's good and bad moments. However, I am entitled to my days until I figure out how I am going to get to that place where I need to be. I guess you can say I am trying to find my place in this world.
I noticed when juju was out here there was some unanswered questions I had for him. That eventually got me to think on how I want to see myself from here on.
Life doesn't give us signals as to when we are leaving this earth. We don't get a letter saying hey your time will be up on this day. If we did, we probably would be more productive and conscious of our decisions.
We live in this state of the unknown. Surviving out here is to belie...
Nancy would always say she was in pain yet she hid it behind the crooked smile. No one ever stopped to ask. We all kept to our busy lives as she was deteriorating. She was the one who walked into a room and heads would turn. Now she walks into a room and her shadow leads the way.
Her life was something out from a bad chapter in a book. She stopped caring and gave up on everything. We made a pact when we were younger. We were suppose to keep in touch.
I broke the pact. I got too busy and left behind only memories for her. She would send a text or a call here and there. But I was always too busy to reply. I guess that’s the case I’m pleading. I wasn’t too busy to chat with my coworkers from...
This woman resembled her in every way. Her brown hair, her body type, her looks, and her energy. I was caught for a second by her eyes. One was brown and the other black. We both stood in the way of the doors. The doors were trying to close and they started beeping. I was lost in time. I couldn’t help but notice this was me in a near past. But the eyes threw me off. She must’ve said something to me but all my senses were foggy.
We never get to really connect with our past on a physical level. The way I see it, life happens and we move on physically but mentally we can still live in the past. Especially if the past, has a better view and the comfort level is far more loving than the present....
I really wish there was a time machine. I would go back to see him one more time. I would tell him everything I needed him to know. I would ask him all the questions I needed to hear so I could move forward with my life. I could never forget the words he said to me, “I will never leave you.”
But he did. He left memories that trailed behind me every step I take. His first steps were my first steps.
We vowed when we made that first eye contact that we would take care of one another. Unfortunately an accident occurred and neither one of us can communicate with each other. You are in another dimension and I’m on another. There isn’t enough to hold us yet I still fight to get to the light ene...
We all come from a place where some type of pain has been buried within where our soul resides in. The question would be how do we find our way out. The pain has left behind a series of cycles. The cycle that keeps on giving I would always joke about.
Who am I? I feel as if I don’t belong anywhere on your planet. In fact, I was here to accomplish something and I got stuck. I was left behind. From my perception there’s a child that was born to a young woman who herself had no clue about living and raising a child. The young woman was left to learn on her own. She didn’t quite meet up to the standards here and later ended up dying. For that young woman, giving up was easier.
The only problem...
Welcome to my world. I must warn you. You are entering on dangerous territory so please read all fine print before entering.
I’m a wreck by the way. I’m a loner. I’m a soul who has been damaged and have been forgotten about. There’s no easier way of saying this but I’m not looking for you to save me or pity me. I just need you to understand what you are getting yourself into.
If you can agree to all terms, your more than welcome to be a part of this journey.
P.s...Nothing is perfect and unconditional is all I request.
Not all souls are in a form of a person. Animals are also an extension of souls. They are placed on this earth as guardians to watch over us as well as keep us company throughout our journey.
He lost the only thing that held him back from becoming the monster he once was. She rescued him from the flames and he fell for her. He knew the rules and one of them was too never cross over yet he did.
This was years ago.
Before leaving she left him a note that read, “goodbye”. She had the table set for one and the note was folded in half with her lip prints on the envelope placed next to the burning candle.
He was devastated and he fell to the floor. The one time he ever cried and it felt like he was dying from a heart attack. It was as if she reached into his chest and ripped his heart into pieces. Everyone told him she would leave one day and he didn’t believe them. He...
I’ve been down that road with loving someone and they don’t love you back. It’s a suicide mission. It’s a never ending battle of pain that leaves physical heartache. I begged to be freed from the everyday tears until one day I walked away. The feeling to know someone doesn’t love you back is like a game similar to a mouse in a maze searching for the piece of cheese it’s so desperately seeking.
The not loving that individual yet you are content that’s not enough for me. I can’t treat myself nor another being like that. I understand love is supposed to be shared but I refuse to waste it by showing disrespect for myself nor that other individual. People can grow on you but who wants t...
We all want the happiness.
I’m starting to realize it’s not about happiness. To find Happiness was something I created on my own without any research to back it up. I was always wishing I had it when in fact it was deeper than that. I always thought me being detached from people and life was a terrible concept. But it isn’t. As much time as I put into finding myself, I found I am where I should be. I don’t want to apply the rules from this society I live in today to myself. The rules don’t apply to me. I’m in a place where the earth meets the sky. Not many people can still dream when they are brain washed to think following the rules of society will get you to where you “think” you should ...
Looking out can be all the mind needs to refocus the mind. Try it!
He stopped noticing the little things like how far the skies extended, the sun rays that touched the water, and how he never took a minute to admire art.
He must’ve crossed over that same bridge for the past 7 years and never stopped to admire the scenery. He was always running against time.
Until one day on the way home, the bridge seemed to be packed with people. People were giving away their smiles to one another, children playing, and lunch dates on the deck. There were a couple of boats on the water with music in the air. He felt a strong beautiful energy overcome him.
He so happened to see a couple with their chi...
When I see you again seems to be what lingers in my mind. We never get to say the proper goodbye.
We assume life will be fair. Don’t take life too seriously. We are here to serve our time and move to our next destination. Appreciate who you are now. On your next destination you may be a completely different entity.
See life for what it is and don’t put too much thought into it. There’s always going to be a path. Which path is right? No one knows. Be brave and walk it like you know where you are going. Accept the challenge. Trust your instinct. Believe in the better of you. Don’t let anyone take from you.
Sometimes you have to give and let go. It’s a part of life.
If people want to wal...