Lights rose guitar
He played every night at the Drummers boy lounge. Not too many people would show but it was a way to get his name started. He wrote his own music and played the guitar.
He was so frustrated on how love treated him these past couple years. He barely was getting by with what the club was paying him. He pretty much gave up on everything but his music. His music was his way out. He played as if he was playing for thousands in a stadium.
He just wrapped up his session. He was packing up his guitar and ready to head home. He heard this laughter across the room. He couldn’t help but to look across the room. As he looked so did she. They locked eyes. They both exch...
Music is what saved Samantha. As playing piano at a young age, she could not quite catch the notes nor place her fingers on the right keys. But one day, she experienced a lose so unbearable. The piano was put to rest. Samantha said she would never play again.
Until that one day, she walked past it and there was a warm sensation that went right through her. She decided to do the one thing she forbid to do and that was play piano.
She uncovered the piano. Sat on the bench and placed her fingers on the keys. As her fingers started to move with grace, tears poured down her face. She could feel her mother sitting next to her. Samantha was playing their favorite song and she whispered something...
I lost a fellow traveler along my way. I haven’t seen him for quite some time. I am afraid to say that as time goes by his image that lingers in my mind fades. I yearn to go back to those days where we all enjoyed each moment together. He seems to be at every step I take. I try to keep his memories alive by looking through old photos and replaying family videos. Life caught me by surprise. I thought I knew what I was doing and where I stood in my life.
My fellow traveler didn’t know he was leaving. I can tell you why.
There was a memory of me hugging him, my fellow traveler, my son. I told him, “junior please don’t ever leave me.” He said, “mom I will never leave you.” Words to die for. W...
Like I always said to my son " you have to make moves" and he sure did. He graduated high school which was the best day ever in my life. He accomplished something I didn’t have the opportunity to do.
Then he applied for college, I was beyond emotions at that point. I kept telling myself I have a college student on his way to endless possibilities. Eventually he was accepted into a fraternity and he was on a new journey.
With all this happening, there was something still missing and I wasn't sure how to handle it. Instead I would always ask him “u ok papa". He would always respond " I'm good". I swear that was his favorite line with me, he never liked to express his emotions.
In the end...
I know it's been awhile since u left and it does have it's good and bad moments. However, I am entitled to my days until I figure out how I am going to get to that place where I need to be. I guess you can say I am trying to find my place in this world.
I noticed when juju was out here there was some unanswered questions I had for him. That eventually got me to think on how I want to see myself from here on.
Life doesn't give us signals as to when we are leaving this earth. We don't get a letter saying hey your time will be up on this day. If we did, we probably would be more productive and conscious of our decisions.
We live in this state of the unknown. Surviving out here is to belie...
Nancy would always say she was in pain yet she hid it behind the crooked smile. No one ever stopped to ask. We all kept to our busy lives as she was deteriorating. She was the one who walked into a room and heads would turn. Now she walks into a room and her shadow leads the way.
Her life was something out from a bad chapter in a book. She stopped caring and gave up on everything. We made a pact when we were younger. We were suppose to keep in touch.
I broke the pact. I got too busy and left behind only memories for her. She would send a text or a call here and there. But I was always too busy to reply. I guess that’s the case I’m pleading. I wasn’t too busy to chat with my coworkers from...
This woman resembled her in every way. Her brown hair, her body type, her looks, and her energy. I was caught for a second by her eyes. One was brown and the other black. We both stood in the way of the doors. The doors were trying to close and they started beeping. I was lost in time. I couldn’t help but notice this was me in a near past. But the eyes threw me off. She must’ve said something to me but all my senses were foggy.
We never get to really connect with our past on a physical level. The way I see it, life happens and we move on physically but mentally we can still live in the past. Especially if the past, has a better view and the comfort level is far more loving than the present....
I really wish there was a time machine. I would go back to see him one more time. I would tell him everything I needed him to know. I would ask him all the questions I needed to hear so I could move forward with my life. I could never forget the words he said to me, “I will never leave you.”
But he did. He left memories that trailed behind me every step I take. His first steps were my first steps. We vowed when we made that first eye contact that we would take care of one another. Unfortunately an accident occurred and neither one of us can communicate with each other. You are in another dimension and I’m on another. There isn’t enough to hold us yet I still fight to get to the light energ...
We all come from a place where some type of pain has been buried within where our soul resides in. The question would be how do we find our way out. The pain has left behind a series of cycles. The cycle that keeps on giving I would always joke about.
Who am I? I feel as if I don’t belong anywhere on your planet. In fact, I was here to accomplish something and I got stuck. I was left behind. From my perception there’s a child that was born to a young woman who herself had no clue about living and raising a child. The young woman was left to learn on her own. She didn’t quite meet up to the standards here and later ended up dying. For that young woman, giving up was easier.
The only problem...
Welcome to my world. I must warn you. You are entering on dangerous territory so please read all fine print before entering.
I’m a wreck by the way. I’m a loner. I’m a soul who has been damaged and have been forgotten about. There’s no easier way of saying this but I’m not looking for you to save me or pity me. I just need you to understand what you are getting yourself into.
If you can agree to all terms, your more than welcome to be a part of this journey.
P.s...Nothing is perfect and unconditional is all I request.
Not all souls are in a form of a person. Animals are also an extension of souls. They are placed on this earth as guardians to watch over us as well as keep us company throughout our journey.
He lost the only thing that held him back from becoming the monster he once was. She rescued him from the flames and he fell for her. He knew the rules and one of them was too never cross over yet he did.
This was years ago.
Before leaving she left him a note that read, “goodbye”. She had the table set for one and the note was folded in half with her lip prints on the envelope placed next to the burning candle.
He was devastated and he fell to the floor. The one time he ever cried and it felt like he was dying from a heart attack. It was as if she reached into his chest and ripped his heart into pieces. Everyone told him she would leave one day and he didn’t believe them. He...
I’ve been down that road with loving someone and they don’t love you back. It’s a suicide mission. It’s a never ending battle of pain that leaves physical heartache. I begged to be freed from the everyday tears until one day I walked away. The feeling to know someone doesn’t love you back is like a game similar to a mouse in a maze searching for the piece of cheese it’s so desperately seeking.
The not loving that individual yet you are content that’s not enough for me. I can’t treat myself nor another being like that. I understand love is supposed to be shared but I refuse to waste it by showing disrespect for myself nor that other individual. People can grow on you but who wants t...
We all want the happiness.
I’m starting to realize it’s not about happiness. To find Happiness was something I created on my own without any research to back it up. I was always wishing I had it when in fact it was deeper than that. I always thought me being detached from people and life was a terrible concept. But it isn’t. As much time as I put into finding myself, I found I am where I should be. I don’t want to apply the rules from this society I live in today to myself. The rules don’t apply to me. I’m in a place where the earth meets the sky. Not many people can still dream when they are brain washed to think following the rules of society will get you to where you “think” you should ...
Looking out can be all the mind needs to refocus the mind. Try it!
He stopped noticing the little things like how far the skies extended, the sun rays that touched the water, and how he never took a minute to admire art.
He must’ve crossed over that same bridge for the past 7 years and never stopped to admire the scenery. He was always running against time.
Until one day on the way home, the bridge seemed to be packed with people. People were giving away their smiles to one another, children playing, and lunch dates on the deck. There were a couple of boats on the water with music in the air. He felt a strong beautiful energy overcome him.
He so happened to see a couple with their chi...
When I see you again seems to be what lingers in my mind. We never get to say the proper goodbye.
We assume life will be fair. Don’t take life too seriously. We are here to serve our time and move to our next destination. Appreciate who you are now. On your next destination you may be a completely different entity.
See life for what it is and don’t put too much thought into it. There’s always going to be a path. Which path is right? No one knows. Be brave and walk it like you know where you are going. Accept the challenge. Trust your instinct. Believe in the better of you. Don’t let anyone take from you.
Sometimes you have to give and let go. It’s a part of life.
If people want to wal...
The addiction. It was her best friend. It never judged her and constantly hid her from the world. She never felt pain which was a huge bonus. She would see herself drinking from day to night.
One shot in the morning, a double in afternoon, and countless at night. She lost track after the fourth. Nearly losing herself within the life she created. The unhappiness and depression were buried in the core of her mind. She was constantly being tested by her ego and pride.
She never wanted things to get to this point in her life. Unfortunately the addiction snuck in and found a great place to lay dormant in. I was the perfect match and now I’m scared to live life.
Hi my name is loner and I’m here because I have no purpose. What’s your name?
That’s how I feel sometimes. Life can get pretty real in seconds. I think I have done my part to help as much as I can. I am the cheerleader of the group. Always uplifting others to see them reach their peak. But sometimes I want to feel like I matter too.
I’m lost between the past and the present. I can’t remember when was the last time I embraced life. I’m confused. Is that safe to say or is that taboo. I’m living in the moment. I lost my soul and she is off in dream land. Oh how I love day dreaming. My mind seems to take me to different places. I’m numb from the past that hurts and the present which I hide from.
I never want to stop day dreaming. I’m afraid if I wake up, I may have to grow up.
His death struck me. All I kept hearing from the back of my head was “this wasn’t supposed to happen to me, not my son”. I saw my life plans crumble and the once big heart I possessed, shriveled up. My lungs collapsed and my chest caved in. I sat their lifeless.
I was in a state of emergency. If 911 was to be called because someone was in trouble that call needed to be made now.
I felt me leave the lifeless body for a split minute to speak with God. In hope of bargaining or coming to an agreement of either taking my life in exchange of Juniors or keeping Junior down here longer. But God said Juniors purpose was fulfilled. He was no longer needed down here instead he had bigger plans up th...
It’s the little things I miss when you were here. You never know when people are going to leave you. You assume they will be around forever or you just dont pay attention to that sort of thing until it happens to you.
I dig deep for answers to questions. But even answers wouldnt be enough for me. I separated myself from the population. It was the easiest thing to do. I tried to put up a smile when I ran into people that knew I was hurting. I didn’t want to answer that one question, "how you holding up"?
They say things will get better but things seem to get worse. Life has a whole plan of surprises and if your lucky you can see the top of wherever you are buried at. It’s those times, I r...
She is here fighting a battle only she knows about. They whisper to each other nasty things about her. They tell others that she has an illness. They don’t get too close because they consider her as a monster.
She walks around with a dark cloud above her head, even her shadow is afraid of who she is. She let herself get lost. She went from a bubbly and happy individual to a lost dark loner. Her life is spoken for. She lets darkness sink in and do what they want with her. She no longer accepts life and her soul has disappeared. Her body is just a spiritless body.
The darkness is always taking applications and she so happens to fit the description.
P.s. don’t come looking for me because I...
She walked through dirt and mud to get to the other side. She was wounded and her scars bleed pain and tears. It was a setup. He tricked her into thinking there was more and she fell for what could only be explained as darkness.
He wasn’t an angel, he was the wolf dressed in sheep clothing. He possessed all the signs of what she thought was another light. She was sadly mistaken. She is stuck in a tunnel no where to leave. Both ends somehow redirected to him. She loved him. He did something to her. But why.
Why is it that her bright light always attracts those who want to inflict pain on her. Does she not deserve to be happy! Does she not deserve to receive love! Why is the darkness so obs...
To me birth days are extremely important. It signifies your existence was needed in this world and how important your soul plays a part in every one you come in contact with. It’s a time to celebrate all the great things about you, who you represent, and how far you have come. This is your story.
You, as a soul, have so much to offer. Never lose the faith of who you are and always know you are where you need to be. I’m so grateful to have met you and I wish you nothing but love and light on your journey.
Especially on this day, may you remember what a beautiful soul resides within you. I call to Archangel Jophiel to always bring you beauty into your world and to uplift you in times of need...
When it comes to your fears. I’m ready to accept them as mine. I see you are afraid but I am not. I have my battle gear on and I’m ready to fight.
Photos are all I have to take me away to those days. I roam the earth hoping a prayer would be answered. Instead I am left hopelessly living in the past. I look at you in the pictures and I see me. Things aren’t the same anymore without you here. My sense to live is blinded by the past memories you left in my mind.
So now I walk with sorrow in my heart and a mind full of memories that seem to play over and over to get me through another day.
I laid eyes on you when we were in 7th grade. Remember the 7th grade dance you asked me out to. We were each other’s first love. We had our first kiss in the dark corner next to the gym bleachers.
Throughout the years, You kept me excited with flowers and cute messages you posted on the fridge. I had this one significant memory of us in your parents car secretly holding hands. Yet your parents knew about you and I.
It was little things like that simple touch of holding hands which kept our connection going. We had so many memories and we decided to make more memories by creating our own family. Five kids later.
I can’t believe how long it’s been. It’s that old saying, “time flies when y...
His eyes were the entrance to his soul.
I look him in his eyes every time we kiss. When our lips touch, I fade. Leaving behind pixie dust. He carries an electric charge that jump starts my heart. The tone of his voice takes over me as he whispers sweet things.
I don’t know who this person is but he isn’t from here. He came from afar for a reason. Who sent you? Why?
He claims more than what he is saying. Why is he so mysterious? This attraction has me going crazy for him. Both our energies collide creating havoc among the world.
Damn he drives me madly in love with him.
She was fond of the old days.
Women wore dresses, men wore suits, movie theatres were a quarter, flowers, dinner at an old diner, riding in vintage cars, man opening doors, long walks, holding hands, the long conversations over the phone etc.
We lost sight of the moment along the way...
We were two people who met during the summer season. I never saw him but he saw me from afar. I was on ends with engaging with another soul. My heart was mending from a bad situation. I had fenced in my heart so nothing would be able to get in.
I would always smile but it was a smile that showed no creases on my face. It was 100% a poker face. I always tried to seem like happiness was near by but inside I was dying.
After he approached me that day, I would see him on a regular basis. There was something about him that started a series of events. Hello wasn’t enough for me. Now it was small phrases, the giggles here and there.
after that day at the gym, all signs pointed to him. I began...