He would be the last man to love me.
He has become a part of me.
His gaze blanketed my doubts. Holding the space between us allowing me to unravel, allowing the space in my brain to light up.
For the first time we were allowed to get so far away from ourselves, from others that we could see what could not be seen up close.
He would be the last man to ever love me.
Can we, in this life fall in love again.
Can we, in this life be us
Back when butterflies were not only colorful flutters inside but they were messengers delivering pieces of our heart to one another. Days were bright and long, the night air was always warm, we fell in love listening to the sounds of our hearts.
can we go there with those same butterflies, warm nights and sounds of love again.
Pieces of Us.
In my saddest moments,
I miss you.
In this moment, I miss you.
Another night when it doesn’t add up and It’s been more aches than I can count.
I miss you when I’m with you.
The universe has a funny way of keeping us humble, forced to be lonely but what about us when
All of me is missing you and
None of this feels right.
I close my eyes to smile big.
I do it every time.
My Love my heart is unlocked
..I remember the Good,
I remember what is hopeful.
God has been so gracious I forgot how impatient my heart is.
Because I love you ...I remember.
Today I crossed the Universe while slipping out of bounds. My thoughts traveled like the speed of light, so much of me was trying to understand his hand and my skin, the softness of his touch, the way he gripped my curves like it was all his favorite part to our journey .
He knows just a bit more than myself and somehow on this universe I still can’t help the way I feel, even the way he feels inside my body, the more I think about where I am there’s really not much I want to do about this feeling.
Either my heart is breaking into a million pieces or being kept from falling apart.
Your touch shakes my soul, it awakens emotions I keep holding on to.
It wasn’t but a very little while ago you wrapped your arms around me, I never want that moment to end. When you look into my eyes I hope you don’t get to see what I feel, instead the touch of your lips pressed against mine tell me something differently and you feel everything and all of what I won’t let go of.
Our two broken hearts, we magically make into one with our lips pressed into one another, while this place is unfamiliar and known to us both as we detached from a life we each had to let go.
I pray every time with your lips agai...
Our bodies up against one another struggling as another promise goes unkept, slowly descending into something come true, whispers sound a lot like I love you,
this is where you keep me in your life
Sometimes I say "Thank you" because you make me feel loved
.. Sometimes I say "I love you" because you make me want to love.
It's the most beautiful thing to watch a baby growing, a belly surging, the cravings, the sickness, the illuminating glow that follows the mother as her child is born, the grace in her first touch as she lights up her childs eyes.
A part of me is afraid, there are times I spend talking with God about not knowing how to love a man as great as you.
I'm beginning to unravel.
Am I pulling away or am I struggling to stay, tugging, feeling unsure of what I'm feeling,
unable to count the tears that quietly fall.
My thoughts they gingerly wander off until everything is recognizable, those feelings, I'm still able to feel them while we are apart as when I'm together with you.
When we're away I miss you in every way and when we are together I can't seem to get enough of you. It's easier to converse with myself than it is with God, I try telling myself this isn't what it is because then I don't have to f...
I am going wherever he takes me.
I am going to love him and always love him.
- a happier me
You are all I know,
Lost standing here with you,
I wish we could stay,
in love with you
I have fallen in love with someone hidden inside you.
Before I knew it was love,
I loved you.
You are everything and nothing I ever felt before.
First came the flames, then came the beating of my heart,
I made room for my future as it seemed so close being next to you.
I want to stay here,
in it with you,
I fell in love with the person I never knew you would become,
At the end of the night, right before the morning,
behind the rain,
alone...with you beside me,
I fell in love with the man who was hiding inside of you.
open my eyes to the right person and give me a heart to love that person, who's only going to treat me with love and respect while caring for me. If I haven't met him yet lead me to him and if I have, do a good work in us both. I just want to give back what You God give me, if he could be generous with loving kindness I'd be thankful with that alone, I don't have to understand why this person or that person is crossing my path I just need to trust God you sent that person and it's for good reason, for either of us not to miss the moment to grow in love.
I want to be next to you
Teach me what to feel, what it's like to breathe again
Teach me what happiness is.
Take what you want from me and
Listen to my heart beat
Put me back where you found me, Make me a new heart, listen to my thoughts and lead me back to where you found me.
I wanted to take him with me, to the same place where his eyes carried me, covering my empty canvas with his begging and his stare promised to do everything but hurt me.
When he found me I was begging to be loved, promising tomorrow and the day after...
Hey you (poking you)
I been thinking about you,
I never stop, day dreams,
night dreams, truth is
I gave you my heart and you held it. I'm here for just a few more minutes, almost crazy, ready to fall from up here.
thinking about what I know,
I only think about you.
Everything you won't say to me now is what all I remember you saying when we met. You said so much then that now the distance between us has kept you even closer, you're my forever, you give me so much of something to look forward to everyday, without having to say anything, and in this little time, years have passed and now as I look at you from a distance, all you hear is me smiling.
I bought myself a new dress and painted my lips the same shade of blood red my heart drips every time I think of letting go.
I wished I had left the dress and ran out of thoughts.
Sometimes my lips,
they still bleed.
Tonight I'm having a hard time thinking. My mind is all over the sky, I see the stars and the bright lights, I can't seem to tell them apart, not a cloud in sight yet the shadows of my thoughts blanket my vision to see past what I'm feeling.
My appetite is disappearing for all the things I thought I wanted. I find myself biting my lip, daydreaming, watching the clock, merging the brightness of the day into the darkness of my heart.
Tonight I can't seem to get my thoughts to line up with the stars.
While I'm alone, right now in the middle of my day as I wait, I search for you, because you left me and love has never asked me why.
Although we're not in love anymore, with me in your arms, I can still feel you so I can never be sure sometimes, but right now, while I've been waiting here, alone
..I still think of you.
I wanted to sleep in only I woke up early, earlier than I liked , the morning seemed calmer than usual as if everything that was had been reset..
It's time to get going, start of a new day, make new memories, laugh a little louder, smile a little longer, ready to listen with my heart and shape my future from the inside out.
I have new needs and
I am looking forward to today.
The glory is all his, thank you God.
Will you ever see the tear stains in my words, flooding the paper, as the weight of each word is so heavy, taring beneath the sound of the aching, near the end of each breath, as i write selfishly to find my way back to you.
My heart continually breaks into more pieces than your gentle hands could ever carry, and me I can't stop loving you for trying, will you ever see the pain between the way these words and my tears have troubled me, for letting go.
Sending My love,
It's not until the coldest part of the night I feel what I miss the most. Be still my pounding heart, promise me an exact moment when I'll know this no more.
Promise me nothing else but love.
I'm closer to who I am, closer than I've ever been.
I hope you remember me long enough,
to never forget me.
sometimes the short stories are the ones that last forever. It took a long time to get here. .
Resting her hands, folded in her lap, looking at her made the hairs on his neck stand stiff. Wine trickled down his chin, his glass was full, he could still see her through the bottom of his glass but he pretended not to. He could feel her lips curl up as she kissed his chin, staining her lips moist.
One of my friends is going to have a baby or babies. We've been friends for decades, since middle school and became good friends in high school.
My good friend and I grew up in the same neighborhood, sharing mutual friends, somehow we became the better of them.
Our lives have been written differently and we have both experienced life in a rewarding way.
Having a childhood friend to share your adult joys and sadness, your dreams and fears has been like finding a torn cloth, instead of over looking it, seeing the tares with one another's frayed edges we have managed to piece them together, making a lightly padded covering, over and against the different elements, one or both has had to face ...
If I never knew the pain, I would have never recognized you when I did. On one side, the left side just above my fractured rib rest a tight ball of fire, burning like bricks of coal, ongoing and fading at the same time, as if the past somehow needed to catch up to the future. all this time I thought it would be the other way around.
I wanted your lips against mine each and every time you said my name, simply because I liked to hear you say it as much as I liked the ways our lips felt, touching. I started each day with you written on my heart, written with words that began with you and I, killing every thought of otherwise, at least that's how I remember it.
One day happened and just like...