Forgive me for letting you down.
It was much too long of a time spent mending broken pieces.
We both have a long journey ahead,
Perhaps We will meet again,
once we find the other pieces.
By the time you get this I will be long and far away,
tonight I have left you,
but have taken with me,
the last piece to my heart.
It appeared at first sight to be low, peeking it's way toward me, how many other things in this life have I needed, that have pass me by, things I didn't understand, things that weren't far away.
Inch by inch, from the ground you can see rays illuminating a new heart.
In my dreams, I see things, I don't hear, things happen, things go unseen, things I never hear.
My heart makes sounds when you leave your kisses for me, after the dreams,
Kisses hang from where the rays first began, dangling, from what I think is heaven,
but I can't hear anything,
I can't control this heart beat.
Dear Sweet One,
I didn't feel anything connecting us until his ways began to love on me, I was loosing everything, he gave me a new fever, Invitingly, I accepted with his lips against mine, holding onto our wonder, close, this would be the first time my eyes would see a glimpse of temptation.
I wanted his touch.
I closed my eyes, he had something I wanted to know, pretending to fill the hole in my heart, each second seem like days
of ruin, his finger was in my cake,
I was somewhere else but I was with him, softly I reached out to his chest, letting go, everything crashed my thoughts, my fingers spread apart, pushing my way into the wrong side and nothing was sweeter than fading into...
Here's the truth, I usually do things knowingly but your the one that knows me best.
If I wanted to really impress you I would start by telling you how amazing it feels to be here with you.
I mean if I took time to think things through I'd prepare myself for your arrival, unlike any other first, this morning the smell of your presence didn't want me to get out the bed.
Fresh cut grass, flowers in bloom, Birds chirping louder than before, the sky shown colors of blue and deeper blues. Feelings from last night still lingered below my belly craving him. I could still hear his repeating, the word ..beautiful.
I would like to think it takes more than a pretty day to steel my he...
You made me forget about the past, about yesterday.
Gripping hands, I cherish you.
looking for tomorrow,
what I'm feeling, I won't let go.
It is impossible to love someone who isn't there or someone who left you where you once stood together,
where now you stand alone.
I'm met at the end of each day with a tugging at my soul, gnawing on the last of my flesh, late in the night as if in a narrow tunnel, under ground, where it is so cold and dark, where dogs bark at lonely shadows that can still be felt, where the air is too thick to see beyond the present time and I can't help but choke on my own tears, struggling to breathe my way into tomorrow, in my frail skin through this narrow tunnel.
Somehow each promise started to be sealed with a little less love, in quieter places than my thoughts roamed but still in places where I l...
I felt the magic on your lips
It was warm
It was tasteful
All the reasons I felt young and beautiful,
All the reason we have the sunshine,
A memory felt.
I was on an important phone call,
not really paying attention to my surroundings trying to make it to my next destination and less than 5 minutes before I walked out the building all clumsily, with my hands full, I opened my door to plop down in the drivers seat tossing everything in my hands onto the back seat, at the same time fully interacting with my phone conversation.
Just as I began to speak , before the words fell out of my opened mouth there he was, walking in front of me, passing me sitting there, less than a few feet away, I was hidden behind the tint of the glass fumbling, trying to find my words...
Everything about him was polished, a cut above, clearly the apple of my eye....
Your sweet love cascades across my skin softly groping me, and because of you, love is.
The kind of love that doesn't leave when we say goodbye but sits still until we return to one another.
Every minute passing is a minute closer before your lips are pressed up against mine, that's all I think about when I think of you and you show up then breathe warm promises into our future, promising to always give me love first.
The fuzziness of your face tickles now sprinkled with shimmers of whites flecks, and it makes me smile the way we have always shared this new old love, we are no longer who we were yet I'm always reaching back for you, back to where you found me, pulling you close, needing ...
Right now I'll say anything to change the way the pages turn or rewrite all the recurring chatter I tell myself.
Like, I wasn't afraid to Love.
Like, One day, I won't feel anything, anymore.
I wasn't afraid to love.
How many times have you looked and I wasn't there?
How many times have you said, it doesn't hurt?
How many times did you tell yourself, you should leave me alone?
How many times have you looked for love and couldn't find me?
How many times have you looked at your own reflection and no longer knew the person you see?
How many times have you looked and I wasn't there?
I would rather loose all that I have than to have ever lost love that was or wasn't meant to keep.
Sometimes the ache is the only memory I can't seem to forget
Sometimes it's knowing I'm still hidden, waiting for you to return
the sun still glows a soft ember, I still cover up, staring at my thin skin, smoldering, fragile and scared, still trembling, chasing the pain with the warmth of what's left of what I can remember..
Sometimes the ache is the only memory I can't seem to forget.
What is the difference ..
two hearts colliding or the world getting smaller, and the only thing between them is the stars in our eyes.
Quiet nights or The wildest day,
with you or without you,
and the sounds,
everything echoes the same.
There's an even flow of thoughts racing the universe, between you and I, balanced by silence, and it makes me think of how I feel about you.
There are words lodged in my throat, trapped in this quiet preciousness where I see unhidden flickers in your eyes, forever changing the whole word between us.
Before I hear the joy filled sounds of your smile, your touch caresses me, sharing everything you struggle with, the right words, many words, everything you've been thinking and now the one word strangers will never be left, lodging,
You make me feel things.
If I did all I could I wouldn't be where I am today, right now, right here.
The woman i wish I could be has left the room, unappreciated and somehow forgotten.
The best days are gone yet i still look for them to happen, mildly disrupting my life. Forgiveness is locked somewhere in the corners of my eyes, the last place I gave away everything that made me what I am today.
The constant burning in my chest is deep,
clenching my bosom, rekindling the quiet places just to let you in.
Sometimes i still think of it, what I miss most and then I tell my self to get over it.
Everything happened and now I'm here, in a tale of what was, the sweetness of a storybook with no ending.
I can't do what I want, I can't sleep because I can't close my eyes.. nothing feels right unless I have those slow motion thoughts of you in my mind,
So much reminds me of you, too many sounds, at times they feel like they could kill me, this is not what I expected , all these feelings you put me through, I don't know what it means, i ask myself several times, did i fall in love with you?
The way my heart fills itself...
Your gone and I still feel you.
Whispers , echo deep within me.
I'm still gripping his soft embrace.
Scars that fade but never go away became
Little things that changed my life.
I miss what could be.
Saving our scattered memories that hold us together,
Happy New Year My Love.
I miss the sound of your voice when you say my name. I didn't notice before but I do now, You started building me a home by watching me plant seeds, seeds that began to grow with you and now I'm completely, unapologetically empty without you in my life, You came so close to my heart, to hear your laugh, to hear you say my name one last time would make my soul smile from within, instead it hurts all over to live each day without any part of you.
I would have shared this life with you. I wish you could feel me saying...
I love you.
I'm sitting still filling my heart, as little birds sing.
Before night ended clouds shifted and sun rays moved in. Pumpkins clothed door steps as I passed each house this morning with fallen leaves in colors called autumn wondering who's making breakfast, do little toes mop the floor, are lovers coddled kissing long and soft, holding onto dreams together under tussled sheets..
I heard a voice, in a coarse whisper ..
you'll always remember me