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Kokita Davis

PO# 341216
United States
United States
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June 23, 2019
 

Ok so my friend is in mind of a predicament. She's 33 years old and has two children. She's been married and divorced twice. She's in a relationship right now but the guy she's with doesn't want to get married. They've been together for three years. She loves him but he takes her for granted. She does everything. Cook, cleans, goes to the store,etc. He says he helps but he really doesn't. She's scared to break up with him because she's afraid he'll do something crazy like hurt her. I'm scared for her and her children. I told her just make plans to get him out of her place but go about it carefully. She's a good person, just a little impressionable.  She's string and beautiful. What next?

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May 30, 2019
 

I'm getting to the point to where all I want to do is go to work and come home. I don't want to go anywhere unless I have to. I mean I like my job but it's so exhausting. If I'm not taking money or swiping credit cards, I'm washing dishes or something else. I already applied for another job because I'm too old to be working like a dog and only getting paid minimum wage. I can do better than that. It's a job, yes. It helps pay the bills and I love comfortably but sheesh!👑👑

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May 28, 2019
 

So I start a new job tonight. I'm not nervous or anything because I can work a cash register and stuff. It's just I'm working third shift. When I was in my late 20's I used to be a security guard. I worked 6 pm to 6 am. It was a pretty good job until I got sick of it. Eventually I moved on to other jobs. I was a CNA for eight years. I've been a housekeeper in a hotel and a hospital. My real passion is to be a certified pharmacy technician. I've got to save the money for it and I can take my test and pass it. I know I will because I have faith in myself. I'm doing this for me but really I'm doing this for my kids. I realized something, I'm never going to get married again and that's fine with ...

ENJOY THE LITTLE THINGS
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May 22, 2019
 

I'm almost 42 on June 21st. I'm happy as a clam. Because most people don't live to see this age. They either died from drugs or suicide. Or something worse. I weigh 166 pounds but that's because I had a hysterectomy. It made me gain weight. I mean I try to excercise but it's so hard when you're a mom. You try to do so much for everyone else but yourself. You cook, you clean,you wash clothes. You work. And you try to fit taking care of yourself somewhere in there.  I start a new job this weekend and I know it's going to be really hard trying to take care of myself now. I'm going to work four days and be off three days. So those three days are going to involve me either washing clothes, taking ...

WHITE CLOCK
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May 16, 2019
 

Half eaten breakfast, rushing out for school. Running through red lights the weather is cool. Kids fighting over the radio, you hit on brakes. It's another accident ahead for goodness sake. Trying to keep my cool as more yelling ensues. I realize I hit my arm on the door. There's a big purple bruise. I laugh at my clumsiness and the yelling stops. I hear an old 80's song I turn the volume up to the top. I start singing and playing around. Finally we've reached some common ground. The accident clears up and we move on with the day. I drop my daughter off and yell I love you so much. She says ditto. I drive on to my next two destinations and sing some more. I drop my youngest off in front of th...

FOLLOW YOUR HEART
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May 15, 2019
 

I'm in the dark and I can't see. Something or someone is stalking me. I'm in a haze  and there is no out. I can't say what it's about.  I'm having a nightmare and my mouth is gone. Ive been silent for so long. I can't cry and I can't scream. I'm in trouble so it would seem.  I'm alone and oh so scared. I'm yelling til my soul is bared. Running around and no where to go. I'm running fast and running slow. I'm in pain from all of the lies. Just like maggots turn to flies. Desperate for hope desperate for attention.  I'm not going anywhere did I mention the lengths I go through. Just for me to be with you? I can't stand all the lies. The screams and silent cries. I'm in the darkness once again. ...

FOLLOW YOUR HEART
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May 15, 2019
 

I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder in 2014. At first I was taking meds for it but soon I was addicted to it. I would pop up to 4 to five pills because I would have these really bad panic attacks and I would get severely depressed. When I took the pills, I would feel a rush of pure calmness come over me. And when I finally came down, I would be down. I mean really down to the point to where I wanted to kill myself. I would start sweating really bad and I would just curl up in the fetal position and cry and cry until I fell asleep. After awhile I realized that I didn't need the pills after all.  Why? Because I was stronger than pills. Stronger than negative comments my own family would throw...

EMOTIONAL POET
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May 14, 2019
 

If I could go back in time, I would go back to the day I dropped out of 12th grade. Why? Because I would have learned not to be afraid of anything or anyone.  Especially my parents.  I'd give myself a few pointers on how to deal with bullies and I'd be a better person for it because I wouldn't allow myself to fall for all of the bullshit the guys that tried to get me in bed said to me. I'd be rich and famous. I'd help others. I'd give back to my community. I'd have a house in Hawaii and one in Japan. So does anyone have a hot tub time machine?

FOLLOW YOUR HEART
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May 14, 2019
 

If I would have followed my heart, I would have been married to my fiance for twenty years now. I wouldn't have let my mom keep me from leaving Alabama. If I would have followed my heart, I would have went to nursing school and been in the field for twenty years or more. If I would have followed my heart, I would have moved back to Georgia and stayed there for ever until I got sick of living there and moved to Florida or Japan. If I would have followed my heart, I would have finished college and I would have three or four degrees. One in business, one in healthcare and one in pharmaceutical studies. There is a lot more I would have done if I would have followed my heart.

TO THE LIGHT
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May 13, 2019
 

I have a lot of regrets.  Like when I was in high school I should have joined the military. I would have gotten away from home and I would have gained a lot of life experience. Another thing that I regret is not moving out of my parents house when I got that big income tax return. I had enough money and I was working too. I guess I was scared that I couldn't make it on my own with three kids. There are a few more things that I regret. But the biggest one? I got into NYU on condition and my mother threw the letter away. I could have gotten in anyway but I was scared. I don't know why. I guess it's because my parents kept putting negative thoughts in my head. I guess that's why I hardly talk to...

STRONGER TOGETHER
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May 9, 2019
 

My dad isn't talking to me anymore. My mom told me that he doesn't want to hear from me and he doesn't want us coming over to visit. It's all because I have a truck. I've had three cars in my lifetime and they've been good to me. But the last one I had died on me and I had to drive my grandmother's car. So last year it went out on me. But instead of getting it fixed, he sold it to the junkyard. Just to spite me. He didn't want me to have anything. So while I was carless, he and my mom would drive me and my kids around. Anyway in February I got my tax return and got another SUV. It's an awesome vehicle and I've never been happier. So now my dad doesn't want to have anything to do with me and m...

FOLLOW YOUR HEART
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May 6, 2019
 

I am working on a book right and so far it's going good. Um but there are some distractions and I know that I have to focus on the task at hand. I'm just writing and I have a lot of grammatical errors but I'll fix it when I get half way done. It's going to have three parts and right now I'm on part one. The name of the book is Ingrid, Rosa , and Sunflower. I hope I'll be done with it by the time my kids start the next school year. I just have to focus. I'm nervous because I know I'm a good  author. I've written short stories in college and in highschool. I'm just suffering from a little writers block. And then the fact that my daughter is still mad at me for taking her phone and tablet. Lol c...

FOLLOW YOUR HEART
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May 5, 2019
 

Sometimes I think I'm being punished. I don't know why I feel this way but I do. I'm a good person and I try to do the right thing at all times. They say bad things happen to good people and good things happen to bad people. I don't think it would make a difference if I were to switch it up and act bad. When I was young I used to run away from home because my parents didn't like me very much. I was a mistake according to my mom. And when I turned 30 she told me that my dad wasn't my dad. She said he felt sorry for me. He treated me worse than my brothers. I guess that's why I got into more stuff because they didn't care.  I'm having a hard time finding my place in the world and I'm just stuck...

CREATIVE WRITING
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May 2, 2019
 

So my daughter is mad at me right now. She'll be 16 next Friday and I know she's going through that whole teenage girl thing. But there are just certain things that you don't do. I took all three of her electronic devices from her and she's mad at me. I told her I understand that you're growing into a woman but that doesn't give you the right to do what you want to do. You're still a child. And as long as you live at home you have to do what we tell you to do. Get mad, don't talk to me but when you need something just let me know.  I love my kids very much but I will not be disrespected in any way

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April 29, 2019
 

Trying times, dropping dimes. Being broke, trying not to choke on tears of frustration. Crazy and fun, yeah I'm done. Feeling fine, need some wine. No sleep last night I don't feel right. They keep invading my dreams so it seems to be not working for me. I'm not sure what to do. I have no idea what's happening with my life. I  feel stuck like a knife. Trying times, dropping dimes. Spending money I don't have to feed my kids. Making sure that they are ok. I cry at night and I fight 💔 and fight. I'm not right in my head. I'm not dead. Panic and frustrating times. Still dropping dimes.

CREATIVE WRITING
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April 28, 2019
 

I deleted my Facebook page and I took the app is off of my phone. I know it's going to be hard but I know I can do it. I made the decision to do it because I felt like social media had taken over my life. Every minute I was posting stuff. I was getting sick because I couldn't go a day or a minute without posting something. It's like I was a zombie or some shit. I realize that I have to focus on my health and happiness. I'm done. I already have the most important people in my life. I see them every day and I'm happy with it. Don't let social media ruin your life because it will.

HAPPY EARTH DAY 2019
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February 28, 2017
Montgomery, United States

I try to be me but sometimes it's hard. But the more I think about it the more I realize this is who I am. I can't control the mouths of others. All I can do is keep going and praying that things get better.

BA NA NA NA NA
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February 24, 2017
Montgomery, United States

Im on a plane, heading home. I've been gone for almost two weeks. A much needed vacation. First class. Ive never flown first class. It's amazing. Expensive champagne and delicious food. I should leave the country more often. All of a sudden the plane starts shaking violently. People are screaming. Oxygen masks fall down. I place it on my face. Everything goes black. I hear sirens and voices. Stay with us!! I hear. I hear beeping. I'm in a hospital. I'm going in and out of consciousness. People are coming in and out of my room. I open my eyes. I see flowers and fruit. I fall into a deep sleep. Then an angel comes to me. It's your choice to stay. Or you can let go.  You have family that needs ...

PRIVATE JET
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February 23, 2017
Montgomery, United States

Sometimes I feel like I am going to explode any moment. I mean I am a good person. I do everything I'm supposed to do in life. I feel like I have a bigger purpose in life but I don't know what it is. I hate my job but if I quit I'll lose my mind. So I just go there and deal with all of the craziness. I have dreams of money. Like thousands of dollars and I don't know what it means. I guess I'll just have to keep praying about it.

KISS A PRINCE
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February 1, 2015
Montgomery, United States

if my ex were a movie...he'd be American. Psycho because that's all he ever was. if he were. another movie he'd also be madeas family reunion.  he was so abusive and evil and mean. evil dead is another movie I'd use to describe him. I think that's all. but I'd never get back with him not if my life depended on it!!!!

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January 13, 2015
Montgomery, United States

hey there how are you?? Im okay I guess. I'm sorry I haven't been able to get a way to see you. ive been working a lot and I haven't had time to do anything. being a single mom and working takes its toll on you. I don't know what sleep is and I don't know how to relax. can you help me out. I mean I know it's not hard to do but I need a refresher course on how to be SANE!!! :-) thank you so much and I promise I won't neglect you again. I love you!!! :-)

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January 13, 2015
Montgomery, United States

I don't ever judge anyone because I wouldn't want anyone to judge me. I love my mom and I respect her a lot but when you find out that your dad isn't your dad how do you react? I don't want to be on a reality show or anything... lol but the way things are going I could be. I'd be well off and I could give my mom money to leave him.

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